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wishingyouback · 2 years

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Just For Tonight. KSM

synopsis: your friendship with seungmin has always been black or white. yes or no, on and off, nothing in between. you either speak, or you don't. but one night, he seems to surprise you.

pairing: seungmin x reader.

genre: tiny angst, reader and seungmin have a sweet friendship.

warning/s: none.

Author's Note: not proofread, any errors or typos will be fixed as soon as i can get back to it. happy readings <3

Seungmin and you have never gotten along.

For as long as you could remember ever since starting your freshman year of university, he had always been passive. Nonchalant in everything he did towards you, and quite frankly while he never directed any hatred nor harsh words towards you to your face, you could sense there wasn't much he liked about you.

You saw the way he would talk to Minho, how they bantered and how he would make jokes that made everyone laugh to the point of tears in their eyes. You knew that Felix, Jisung and Jeongin would occasionally meet up at his house to have movie nights. You noticed how despite how often he would poke fun with Chan and Changbin due to the age gap, he still held so much respect for the two boys, even more so any of the older boys that he knew when to step back if it got too far. He was their go-to person, their close friend — their best friend. But to you, Seungmin was just an acquaintance to say hello to. To acknowledge if you were to see each other outside of classes, but that was all.

"Hey," Jisung slings an arm over your shoulder, letting it lightly rest there, "You okay? You haven't been talking much tonight."

"Been better," You say honestly, because you knew even if you weren't telling the truth, Jisung would be able to read you like a book. "Just a little tired," You tell him and that isn't a lie, but it is a half truth.

The only reason you feel as tired as you are at only eight in the evening is because work had been getting to you. Workload was starting to pile up, and to add to that, the person you were seeing the last six months, called it quits an hour prior to the party Chan was hosting. Only Chan was aware of the person you were seeing, and he had been kind enough to not mention their name throughout the evening, but it still plagued your mind after having yourself become so attached and familiar with that person.

"Already?" Jisung glances down at his watch, then purses his lips, "Tell you what, let's both mingle for another half an hour and I'll drive you home, what do you say?"

"I thought you wanted to stay out late tonight?" You ask with a small smile on your face. There had been an ongoing inside joke between you and Jisung that every time he announces he'll stay out late or go out a little past midnight, it almost never happens.

Jisung books your nose with his finger, then shakes his head, "Changed my mind as I always do." He grins, "Want me to get you a drink?"

"I'm okay," you show him your bottle of soda, "Planning to stay sober tonight.

"Good idea," Jisung notes. The commotion inside starts to get a little louder when a new face walks in, "I think Minho just got here. Come say hi?"

"I will in a few," you squeeze Jisung's bicep to reassure him when he gives you a look. "I'll look for you."

"Good," Jisung pulls you in for one hug then leaves you be by the balcony as he jogs back inside. You don't doubt that he's gone off to annoy Minho and decide to look back up at the stars in the night sky.

Barely ten minutes pass by when you hear the sound of the sliding door squeak open. You've told Chan countless of times to have it cleaned but the older boy doesn't listen.

When you turn around to see who it is, you almost don't expect to see Seungmin standing by the door with two cups in his hands with his eyes wide open as if he had been caught shoplifting.

"Seungmin?"

"Hey," He clears his throat and awkwardly slides rhe door shut behind him. Because of how rusty it's starting to get, it takes him a while to close it shut but he manages. "Guess you didn't really expect me to be out here, huh?"

"To be out here?" You turn to look at him when he reaches your side, then look away, "Sure. To be out here next to me, talking to me? Not what I had in mind." You say.

From your peripheral you see him cringe, flinching almost from your worlds but don't say anything else. You pretend to not see it.

"Fair, that's fair," he mutters to himself while he sips at his drink. As if remembering what he was holding in his hands, he brings the other up to you, "I got this for you. Chan said you weren't planning on drinking tonight so it's just water."

You take it carefully, placing your other cup on the floor. "Thanks," You smile. "So, don't get me wrong I don't mind the company, but what made you come out here?"

Seungmin turns to you then looks over his shoulder at the crowd in the apartment.

"Would it be hard to believe I came out here to talk to you?"

Yes.

You chuckle at his words, "Honestly a little bit, yes."

He does the same, looking down at his cup then back out at the scenery.

"I heard about what happened with you and the person you were seeing," Pure disbelief makes it way into your eyes when your eyes lock with Seungmin's. He notices quick under the moonlight, "Chan mentioned in passing that things didn't work out, but it's only because I asked him."

You ponder.

"You asked him?" This causes confusion to fill your mind, "Why?"

"I never said I disliked you, Y/n," Seungmin starts off with a ghost of a smile.

"I've never said it out loud that you did," You fire back.

"But I know my actions towards you have made you feel like I do, but I don't. He clarifies with a serious tone, "The reason I asked was because Jeongin mentioned you weren't being yourself, so I came to ask if you were okay."

"It's shocking coming from me, but I just wanted to tell you that I don't hate you. I don't think any of us could," he glances over his shoulder and you do the same, noticing your seven closest friends yelling while laughing.

"Could," you tease.

"Not likely," He says to you, making the smile on your face grow. "And for what it's worth, whoever it was that decided to drop you like that without a proper explanation or reasoning, is missing out on how much of an amazing person you are."

The surprise must have been written all over your face because Seungmin waits for one minute, another until he finally bursts out laughing at how you stare at him. Despite the outburst of laughter, he almost sounds shy.

"Seungmin, you're full of surprises what on earth! That was so sweet," You tell him, joining in on the laughter when he doesn't stop.

"So I've been told," He calms down with a chuckle and carefully places a hand on your shoulder, waiting to check if you're okay with it then pats it lightly. "C'mon, let's dance."

"Dance?" You don't object, but you're even more baffled to find out that Seungmin loves to dance. Most nights out together he would be standing by the side or sitting at the table.

"Just for tonight, if it'll make you smile," He says.

"Okay, just tonight," You laugh and let Seungmin pull you away from the balcony, back into the living room where you're overwhelmingly showered with love and hugs from your closest friends.

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stormcrow513 · 1 year

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Hagging Out October 2022 Hallowtide

Me and Mittens and Me and Circe in my best Witchy outfit Circe is also wearing a witch hat,

So October has been pretty fucking busy and hectic this year, and it just felt different too,

While I know Samhain doesn't have a specific date as it changes seasonally, typically for me I start feeling the season around mid to late August picking up steam throughout September and October peaking on Halloween and slowly rolling into yuletide in early November,

This year however I felt that first brush on August first, and I didn't feel that peak on Halloween, still writing this November 2nd haven't felt that usual peak,

I'm not sure why, maybe it's that while it started getting the fall chill early this year the plants haven't gone to bed, the leaves in my yard haven't dropped fully, barely at all really, there's still so much green left on everything, this is not normal here, so maybe it's climate change, changing Hallowtide as well,

Could be the loss, I spent months with Shy battling her cancer as it slowly ripped her away from me in pieces, to culminate in lossing her September 8th, it's exhausting loss, I'll like spend the rest of the year with metaphorical lead weights dragging my ass down,

Could be that I'm just changing getting older, I'm 30 and nothing in me is as it was, I got my first grey hairs at 23 my knees have always been shitty and my back started joining em, and worse of all my ribs on my left hurt a lot of the time, but with all that has come more experience as a Witch I'm sensing things better and better, after all this time doing magic pursuing this road, I feel like I'm finally getting somewhere,

I wanted to jam as much as I could into this month since for whatever reason October tends to be my most productive month, so I started this month out with @windvexer Red Pepper Spellbreaker which started me out on a good place, though I still felt a little blocked after so right before Hekate's Deiphon I did it again then did a Gate Opening with Hekate after I put Her offerings out on Her night,

I also started out the month by restarting my book Psychic Witch, I'd gotten fairly far into the book and then got stuck on an exercise and sorta fell off working it so I thought I'd start on Exercise one and do one each day for all 31 days, and then to keep going til I got to where is gotten stuck which was on Exercise 37, as a way to kinda reset myself, so I can finish this book, I succeeded and as I want through these Exercises I found myself getting more out of them then my pervious attempt, I found some easier and others found myself in deeper then I'd ever gotten, I'm proud of what I've accomplished with it this month

I also started on the Monday after the full moon on Sunday doing LTZS Witchual Workout, I wanted a way to exercise, to connect with my body and to connect with various energies some which I've never worked with before, I've done some of these in the past at random and found them helpful, so I synced up with them as best I could, I'm of today 24 days into it, I've made it even more of a ritual by giving an offering of water and flame to each energy invoked, as well as finishing with some yoga stretches to avoid cramping up, and meditation,

As to my ancestors I have managed for hmm maybe a year now to do daily offering of water to them, though I been cleaning their altar and adding something extra on Halloween, this year it didn't feel right, maybe cause I was tired maybe cause I'd had a distressing dream of my passed sister that reminded of the angry I still hold for her, which made me want to avoid her picture on the altar, either way I didn't manage to do it on Halloween I just renewed the water glass, though I intend to clean and set out more in the next couple days,

I did get my now yearly Pumpkin cheesecake made with my home grown pumpkins, I had my biggest haul ever with them this year! Though a couple didn't finish ripening and the vines died before they could finish and one big one went rotten before I could cut them up for some reason,

I still have a few to chop and boil as I couldn't fit em all in the pan that was clean so oops,

Anyway I think that covers it mostly, I didn't get much done on Halloween itself and I still have an Ritual to Persephone and Hades to perform along with my formal Ancestor work but I want to get this out while I've got the spoons, so

Love to you all, I hope you all had great Halloweens ect, and that all our next cycles be what we need and hopefully kind

Thanks and love especially to @pagan-stitches for being our lovely host this month 🌹

#hagging out 2022 #hagging out hallowtide

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