#i have to take my diagnostic test tomorrow...wish me luck

[worldwright]

Good evening !

I saw two acquaintances today when taking the bus. Always like to talk with them. But my day was long and boring

Trying not to drown yourself is hard but tomorrow night I'll be with my partner so everything will be fine

ALSO, "funny" thing, I can be diagnosed with PCOS without even any symptoms except the facial hairs. It's the only thing all the doctors I saw/see seem to believe in EVEN if it makes no sense because I don't have any polycystic ovary. They really don't know and all my blood tests and came back negative but they still want me to be diagnosed with PCOS so thanks ?

I can't get over with the medical staff fucking around with my diagnostics. Like, I have all the symptoms of depression, but nope, for them I don't have it. But facial hair ? YOU HAVE PCOS !!!! PLEASE DO ALL THESE BLOOD TESTS TO CONFIRM IT !!!!! THEY CAME BACK NEGATIVE

ALSO VERY FUNNY I WAS WRITING THIS AND SOME SPAMER SENT ME A THREAT EMAIL AND THEY STARTED BY "Hello, my perverted friend". LIKE. BRO. I READ AO3 FICS ? OF COURSE IM PERVERTED AND OF COURSE I DONT HAVE A WEBCAM. ALSO I DONT HAVE A DICK YET WHO DO THEY THOUGHT I WAS. IM LAUGHING SO HARD MAN. I LOVE SPAM EMAILS THEYRE SO SILLY <3 <3 <3 <3

Have a wonderful morning my friend !

good morning!! I am having a TIME on this work project.......... ughh I'll get there lol

ah that medical shit sounds so frustratingggggg I wish you luck 😭😭

this morning I tried to go chat with my apartment building manager about getting another set of keys (for a catsitter) and they were very late!! so late on fact that I had to just give up and go to work!! because SOME people actually have to adhere to schedules!!!!! but not this guy, apparently!!!! this guy can just show up whenever, and if someone has a problem they can just go fuck themselves I guess!!!!!!! great times :)

the reason I need a catsitter in the first place is because im gonna go visit all my friends at college for a weekend! haven't seen them in a While so I'm super excited :3

here's a picture of Theo to cheer us up

he wants to have a talk with me

OH AND LOOK AT THIS

look at how naive I was 😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂 "a comedy". wow. it's incredible that I thought that. to be fair I was like six episodes into the 98 series

#pen pal

[borderlineasshole]

(1) Hello Jason, I'm sorry in advance that I write all of this to you, but tbh I'm can't get this out of my head and don't know what to do, so maybe talking to someone might help. Yesterday I randomly found your blog and after like 30 pages or so I was like: "That's funny, it seems like somebody wrote everything I'm going through and what I'm feeling on this blog down" and the longer I thought about this, the more it freaked me out so I looked for an BPD test online and made it and after that

(2) I made 4 more and all of them said I have BPD. But I don’t understand this, I don’t feel like I have BPD, I mean, how does a person with BPD even feel?? These tests are shitty and I shouldn’t believe them, right? I don’t know what to do, I couldn’t even talk to somebody about this because nobody would believe me and I don’t want into therapy or something like this either (I’m sure my mother would send me into therapy) so should I just act like all of this never happened?

okay so the first thing i think you need to do is take a deep breath. you don’t have to find the answer today, you don’t have to decide to tell your mother today. you don’t even have to make those decisions tomorrow or this week or this year even, it’s okay. having bpd is not the end of the world, but even 

having said that, i’m going to give you some resources. 

here is a link to the 9 diagnostic criteria for borderline personality disorder - you need 5 (or more) of these symptoms to qualify for a diagnosis. 

here is a link to the MIND page for borderline personality disorder which will let you read more about it. I would also suggest looking up “avoidant personality disorder” (which people with bpd often have) and “bipolar disorder” (which is often misdiagnosed for bpd)

another good place is to go through the “actuallyborderline” tag on tumblr - I’ll tag this post as that so you can just click through!

if after having read those pages you think that you have bpd, i would recommend going to see a doctor. but i know that this is not possible for everyone, so talking to a friend can also be good! pick someone to tell who you know will support you

i wish you all the best of luck, and feel free to send me another ask if you have more questions! take care non

#ask #anonymous #actuallyborderline #resources