#i have to force myself to start drawing

[pocparks]

u ever have to like,,, force yourself to do things that you enjoy?

#like idk #these days it feels like ​i have to force myself to watch videos i know ill like or to read stories or play games or do anything #i just had to force myself to go eat something earlier #i have to force myself to start drawing #like if its not related to school or work which feels like i do automatically i have to put in effort to pass the time #idk hwo to describe it #and its not like i dont enjoy those things becausse after i force myself to get started i have fun drawing/watching shows etc. #but if i dont make myself do something ill just sit there for hours #i dont think thatd a good thing haha #it feels like i have nothing to do but also like time is rapidly running out for me

[kenmaiii]

after two years i finally draw the favorite

#my art #still learning honestly. idk how to explain it but some medias youre so fixated on and obsessed with u instantly want to draw everyone #for me dunmeshi has always been the opposite. series and characters i enjoy sm i cannot bring myself to pick up a pencil #for some reason. it got a lot worse once the anime started airing idk. simply forcing myself to get some of my energy out. in a way #dunmeshi #dungeon meshi #thistle #dunmeshi thistle #thistle dungeon meshi #delicious in dungeon #>_< series i was into since late 2021. yet u wouldnt know that unless u follow my side twitter account. sowwy ig #i do this with a lot of franchises honestly. cannot bring myself to draw even if i think abt the characters constantly. ie skip to loafer #u will nvr catch me calling this guy sissel sorry. save that name for Mr. Ghost Trick. another thing i. also. dnt talk abt. which i adore #i need to get better at talking abt and expressing myself for the things that i enjoy. ive been wanting to draw laios for a good #while too but im scared. for some reason. u-u should nvr let a white man do that to me honestly. #for now i'll thistle tho. maybe we will get kabru namari or mithrun next from me >_< i have to talk myself into it #i think the closest way i can explain why i cannot bring myself to draw for some series is that i dnt want to mess up somehow #like 'ilu so much [character] what if i cnt draw u the way u deserve even tho i love u sm what if its not enough.' <- leaves it to sm1 else #tbh [scratches head] i prefer the version with less coloring ^-^ but i realize the one thats more colored would get more eyes on it... hm

[trustworthycinnamon]

Howdy Ultimate Dirk nation how are we doing today I'm sorry for my evil crimes (or am I)

#homestuck #homestuck beyond canon #dirk strider #ultimate dirk #ult dirk #homestuck 2 #hsbc #epic galleria #i dont like adding so many technical tags but if i dont organize myself i'll fucking explode and die and go Ult #one might call this yassifying. i simple call it having a Big Brain and Seeing the Truth #that screenshot is from an upload of Beatup btw. mf has like 3 fucking theme songs. lets beat him up #i was forced to draw fuckin hands. worst moment in my life. this was my own form of torture #you can see where i started to give up and go Fuck it We ball. tf is this bastard hunk wearing #what it is wrong with him. it is so attractive #i want him so bad i feel sick. i think i hauve covid. joder que bueno está el condenao me lo cargo a besos dame una noche con él #hey why dont you fuck with My narrative handsome. leans against wall with a rose on my mouth #i dont even read h:bc btw but the slay energy that panel had provoked some energy inside me in me to activate

[risingsunresistance]

devotion

#THIS IS NOT THE MEME REDRAW I MENTIONED EARLIER JGFJHGJ THAT'LL HAPPEN LATER #randomly got inspiration for this. been sitting in my brain for A While now... like A WHILE #couldnt think of how to start it but then it hit me #i could keep adding to this all day tbh so i'm forcing myself to stop now #this was soooooo relaxing #(trying to force myself out of tags lmao) #technoblade #my art #ALSO HE DOESNT HAVE THE CROWN ON PURPOSE THIS TIME! dont pose as a king to your god it's rude #i listened to sooooooo much red vox while drawing this.

[nguyenfinity]

NIKI TOUR NIKI TOUR NIKI TOUR NIKI TO

#enstars #niki shiina #if y'all can only remember me for one think i hope it's that i'm insane. #speedrun loving niki shiina any% #my speedrun drawings are getting significantly better actually #anyways this file's named 'niki shiina i love you' #it's 4:52 AM as i type this. i started arounf 2:08?? (card dropped at 2) #had to force myself to quit before i just kept adding stuff #i have an exam tomorrow. and i haven't studied o7 #but this was worth it

[spamtoon]

i would take their poison

Sketch + Line Art for those Clicking Under the Cut(tm) (archival purposes honestly)

#moshi monsters #sweet tooth moshi monsters #experimentation i am COG AWFUL at digital dear goodness i was playing with coloring and transparency and all those fun digital doodads. #next time i probably wont have black outline or i'll do it differently. or i'll try well. not doing this. it sure was a process im #i'm an amateur everyone who masically only doodles. does the sketch look better than the final. kinda! but thats okay because im learning #and y'know what. sometimes in life you just need to draw faves no consequences #for how saturated a character they are i kinda feel like i pastelled things too muc and trapped myself with my convoluted layer setup but m #it was looking WEIRD with everything at full force #maybe the sparkles look dumb maybe the hair looks dumb and out of place and why i kinda made the lollipop a little funky too #uhh. first digital piece posted... ever? #the arm is SO fucky i am not that was. thats not what perspective is spam #yes this is what i spent a good chunk of today doing after i started working on coloring it and then. decided to go for it. #cooolrs a little inaccurate on the horns and such but man one of the biggest art things was like #i dont have to have everything at their perfect hex codes all the time. this would look way worse if i just. used their standard colors #yeah this is. instead of looking like its forward and to the right it kinda just looks like they have a Bigger hypno-lolly #especialy becase. i did not bother on the gloves and platforms i the sparkles work with 2 kinda sorta but you know #im practicing! i'm learning! i'll get better and learn how to do things more effectively! #anyway. sweet toof #though hey their arm looks even more fucked in the line art and sketch SO #note to future self have a Consistent Line Art Size so that if you feel like the line art looks like shit during coloring you dont have to #gamble on what size it was while changing it #sketch lollipop looks better i should have kept it small. but its fine. we'll get em next time boys (tm) #yes i know my gif post was so fancy and then the drawing is just THIS

[lilyoffandoms]

Thanks @storyofmychoices for letting me borrow Lilah this month to get me back into arting!

[The original posts here and here.]

#ignore me i like seeing pairs together hehe #honestly i’m kinda excited to actually see some #changes over this month of forcing myself to draw each day #lilah was my gorgeous muse #drawing her got me to start back into art again and sharing here #so it seemed fitting she was the one i closed the month with #i have two more to post for jan but i started them before this one #so i count these two as the start and close of this months art endeavors #also lowkey understand trystan’s fascination with her #my art ish thing #i polish nothing

[eqt-95]

had some nemesis and hero vibes today

#part of starting to draw again is the complete lack of stylistic quality that comes with forcing myself to just make things #one day i might have a consistent style again #but until then enjoy the chaos #and yes i'm using my own fics for inspiration #supercorp #lena luthor #supergirl #kara danvers #supercorp fic #kara and lena

[zellkabellk]

Nowadays trying really fucking hard to teach to my brain that it's okay and better to "just do 10 min of this task" even if it means leaving it unfinished (but further along than before!) rather than not doing it "because when I do it I should do it all" Because jfc I can't keep leaving my house in states where I need to do 30+ minutes of dishes instead of just... doing a little everyday and at least it remains a manageable amount in the sink even if it's not always emptied...

#it's hard but i'm doing my best #im using housekeep chores as an example bc it's an easy one but really this is for everything in my life rn #better draw 10 minutes than none at all #better practise for my driving license 10 minutes than none at all #because I VERY rarely actually get the cross of energy AND motivation to do “a whole task” #rn my brain hates not doing a whole task but i'm sure with practise it'll become easier to feel rewarded for doing just a bit #at least future me thanks me every fucking time so yknow #i just have to practise enough so it doesn't feel like i'm forcing myself everytime #bc starting is always the hardest part #and even if i stop AT LEAST I DID 10 MINUTES OF THE THING SO IT'S NOT STAGNATING HOLY SHIT #i wish i was a functioning human :) #or at least a functioning artist that enjoyed drawing for 4 hours straight after work lmao #beary talk #beary ramble #beary life

[britneyshakespeare]

Isn't he handsome

#that's my grandfather #tales from diana #the reason ive gotten back into drawing recently is bc after he died i wanted to draw him #in a sense every drawing ive done in the past 2 months was practice for this #bc i knew if i didn't do this one well if i had started right on it id be very upset abt it #it slipped my mind for a moment bc i did get excited abt drawing again which i hadn't been for a long time #ive said it before but im so happy to be drawing again #i hadn't been feeling very inspired creatively for awhile #im still not feeling super excited abt my poetry lately but that doesn't matter rly #i fan force myself to write no matter what headspace im in. i don't have the visual imagination to do that w drawing

[skitskatdacat63]

I need to remind myself often it's okay to take as long as I need to work on projects/drawings

#dangerous grind mindset territory >:( #i get so weird abt wips like #unless its extremely relevant no one is gonna care rly how long it takes #like if someone shared a wip with *me* and they took a while to finish it or never finished it #id still be like ahhhh so cool #but then i get into a weird mindset of like: you need to finish this TONIGHT #and then it never happens lol #as i said its only random occurrences when i can sit down and finish smth in one night #i need to remind myself: these things take time #i think my brain is sometimes running on a deadline that doesn't exist #theres a weird point btwn: #enjoying encouragement bcs it makes you feel more motivated to finish smth #but also feeling this odd sense of guilt and obligation #i draw for myself but literally for my whoel time drawing i often feel obligation towards a nonexistent audience #some imaginary force thats gonna be disappointed if i dont finish smth in [illogical period of time] #its good to have some sense of motivation obv bcs how would you ever finish anything #but its weird to start feeling the same thoughts abt schoolwork for your hobby #basically: I hate setting deadlines for myself bcs it just never works out #if i say 'you must work on this tonight!' i will absolutely not be working on this tonight #funny feeling when you start being like 'aaaahhh everyone is gonna hate me if i dont post this soon' #i think its nice when i can post smth i talk about in a quick turn-around #but rationally i know that if people are interested they wont care how long it takes <3 bcs id feel the same #also i guess i get put out some times seeing how fast other people can create :/ #catie has 3 moods(for creation): #a. complete and utter burnout #b. not burnt out but finishing smth takes more than just one day. maybe a wk or more #c. can finish a piece in one day or even one sitting. often draws several things right after the other #C is truly the goat 🙏 i feel blessed when i get into that mindset #blah blah blah please stop feeling beholden to something that doesnt exist. thanks catie. #catie.rambling.txt

[pickled-flowers]

Realizing I barely write in French anymore hm

#🤨 hm idk #i would like to start making my comics in French a lil more and my other writing too #actually i would like to start writing more in general #entering adulthood and having an apartment and bills and much more responsibilities #i have not been as productive and creative as I would have liked #but I’ve managed to get back into it with art #i force myself to draw even if its bad just to do it and have something ive drawn #and ive been getting into traditional art and some craft projects as well #something i havent really done before #because im a stubborn bitch who refused to learn how to paint correctly #i was frustrated that my drawing skills didn’t translate to other art forms so i didn’t explore them #and yes my digital art skills are better than traditional but im just enjoying it and learning as i go #ok im talking a lot #lmao absolutely not related to the original post this too is art

[themyscirah]

I think that comic creators should be forced to read the entirety of Ostrander & Yale's Suicide Squad run before they even THINK of using Amanda Waller in anything actually

#its like oh my god. read that book #i swear to god she is complex and has so much going on ans just like you NEED to read that book if you want the slightest CHANCE of doing #suicide squad justice #but then ofc ppl just care abt having a mean boss character they dont actually care about HER #i said comic creators bc its the writing and the art both #bc they dont do her character justice with the writing but then they also dont draw her anything like she looks like #like she is called 'the wall' for a reason guys she is NOT skinny as a twig like cmon #and shes not young either the woman is middle aged shes like 40s/50s #anyways. forcing ppl at gunpoint to read good suicide squad comics. instead of just slapping harley quinn on a team with some random #villains and calling it a day #also the suicide squad is supposed to be a MIX of heroes and villains!!! theres supposed to be varying moralities there! and waller isnt #evil guys istg- shes ambitious and kind of mean and p much ALWAYS stuck between a rock and a hard place but shes not evil!!!! #like cmon guys. its a book about heroes and villains on a team together doing off the books missions. its gonna have nuance esp in the #central kind of figure #godddddd ive been wanting to reread suicide squad SO bad these past 2 days #ever since plastique and waller showed up in nu52 jla im just like ahfiahdsuehdvdjc SUICIDE SQUAD #but i must stop myself. bc whenever i start reading multiple things at once THATS when shit hits the fan #and i go into a slump where i don't read comics for like 8 months and never finish the books im reading #so we're not going to do that but man am i tempted #maybe what i should do is watch the suicide squad movie. the james gunn one. maybe that would fix me actually #viola davis amanda waller goes sooooooo hard actually. casting choice of the century imo #and also they had rick flagg leading the team there which i respect. hes no ben turner but its something #especially since nu52 jla tried to turn steve trevor into a bargain bin rick flagg jr which was... certainly a choice #anyways <3333 #also rip my stats this is a loss for feminism geoff johns just knocked kim yale out of my no 5 comic author spot on the tracker app 😔😔😔 #im so sorry kim i didn’t mean to do you dirty like that ma'am #blah #suicide squad #dc comics #amanda waller

[purgemarchlockdown]

Some more interrogation questions for my guy...I have so many thoughts about this silly now.

T1 Interrogation

Q13: Why do you apologize so much? 011: Ah...I'm sorry, I've been told it's annoying sometimes. But if you do something wrong your supposed to apologize, right? Q16: Did you love your victim? 011: I think I still do. Q19: What would you say to your victim if you could speak to them again? 011: ...I don't know, a lot of things I think.

T2 Interrogation

Q2: Do you think your victim loved you? 011: It be easier if they didn't. Q5: Who do you admire? 011: Amane is much stronger than me, I wish I could be like her. Q12: Favorite food? 011: Fish, meat, rice. In that order.

#oc nonsense #no I promise the amane parallels aren't because I'm horribly biased towards her it just kinda happened when I was developing the character- #(okay I am biased but it really was not intentional) #I have also started leaning into the toxic friendship muu-rei victim-011 parallels #I will force myself to give these guys names so I can draw them-

[moonscape]

think i'm just gonna restart my violet wonderlocke now

#bwark #i'm getting kinda pissy with psmd rn #not even through any fault of the game i think i'm just forcing myself to finish 100% of this file when i'd really rather be getting started #on violet #shame i was so close to 100%. i'll come back to it eventually i think i just need a break like i had with gates #and i've just been so excited to start this wonderlocke because i actually have a reason for finishing it this time #if i do go through with that comic idea then i already have a bit of an idea on how to adapt sv's story into the pmd world #my biggest hurdle is gonna be figuring out the pacing because i have zero idea on how to adapt an open world game into a linear story #i'll probably end up drawing a lot of inspiration from the current horizons arc as well as zactoshi's ''what if ash was in paldea'' series

[whumpy-wyrms]

ITS BEEN A MONTH SINCE TLLR CHAPTER 11????? WHAT

#wyrms says stuff #SORRY ITS TAKING FOREVER TO WRITE HOLY SHIT??? #i thought it had been like 2 weeks or something #dude i’m actually sorry it’s taking so long to get chapters out #BUT like the next three chapters are all around 2/3 of the way done #i miss those phases where writing becomes sooooo so so easy for me and i write like 3k words a day #i’ve never been able to like stick with a writing schedule #my energy for writing comes and goes as it pleases and it’s been like that all my life. drawing comes naturally #it never bothered me before that i’d just not write for a few months at a time and then suddenly get motivation #to write a shit ton of stuff at once in rapid succession #and it sucks because forcing myself to sit down and write is hard it just doesn’t come super naturally like drawing does. #like forcing myself to draw can be a lot of fun and it’s easy. but honestly i don’t chose when my brain tells me it’s writing time #but that’s probably not a good thing huh #and also i’m like?? SUPER SUPER excited about some of the chapters coming up?? like chapter 14 is THE chapter i’ve been most excited about #since i started this series. AND ITS BASICALLY ALREADY WRITTEN TOO #the parts in between are hard to figure out i’ve realized #and also hard to give myself motivation to write them. im basically just annoyed that writing doesn’t come as naturally as art does for me #and that ever since i started actually writing about my own ocs like 6 years ago #i’ve only been able to write in short bursts of a few months at a time #it’s annoying but it’s a good challenge for me to overcome. i just have to sit down and write and then i’ll get that motivation back #the next chapter should be done very very soon!!!