#i have been crying for hour straight

[dreamsuvivor]

can we talk about how ‘The summer I turned pretty’ is mostly this cutsie teenage romance beach novel, and then you start ‘It’s not summer without you’ and it just feels like somebody is repeatedly punching you to the stomach

#i have been crying for hour straight #spoilers kinda #tsitp conrad #tsitp #jenny han #the summer i turned pretty spoilers #the summer i turned pretty #it’s not summer without you #conrad fisher #jeremiah fisher #belly conklin #susannah fisher #christopher briney #lola tung

[everyatomofmeandyou]

#i don't have a heart anymore #i've been crying for 20 hours straight #his dark materials #hdm #lyra silvertongue #will parry #silverparry #hdm spoilers #the botanic garden #3x08

[martyrbat]

batman: son of the demon

[ID: three panels of Bruce Wayne and Talia al Ghul being in love (and horny) for each other. In the first one, Bruce is in their luxurious bedroom for the first time and is awkwardly standing in his costume as Talia is behind a dressing screen and is changing into a white, satin négligée with lace detailing on it. She reminds him that they technically are married (and that she consented readily to it) but Bruce confesses, “I remember. But it's hard for me to consider that marriage real.” Talia emerges from behind the screen, looking as beautiful as ever as she walks up to him and eases his cowl off. She tells him, “Beloved, you give too much thought to what is ‘real,’ and what is not, to what is ‘true,’ and what is ‘false...’ I realize that is your way, but just this once, accept things as they are...” He strips himself of his clothes as they move to the bed—Talia laying on her back as he's between her legs. She continues to speak, “Forego your control, your discipline... just once, let yourself go... and take me with you.” Her arms slip around his neck as they kiss passionately.

The second panel is lineart of them against a white background. They look at each other lovingly, her hands reaching up to be on his shoulders as he holds her waist. The narration boxes read: ‘While still finding time to be a newlywed, a role in which he is quite unskilled... but—to his delight—quickly learns.’

In the third panel, several weeks have past. Bruce and Ra's al Ghul are walking before Talia interrupts and asks her beloved for a word. Bruce starts to ask if it can wait, due to him and Ra's discussing an important mission but she tells him it cannot. Ra's reassures, “Go, detective, we shall speak of this later.” Bruce and Talia pull away to talk in private, the background a beautiful, bright ombré of red and yellows. She has her arms up on his shoulders as he holds her waist and starts to ask, “Now, Talia, what's so impor—” but she quickly shares, “Beloved, I am with child.” Bruce starts to repeat her but Talia already confirms again, “I am pregnant.” She continues to look up at him, patiently waiting for his response as Bruce stares straight ahead, obviously in shock. He slowly repeats the words back to her in an attempt to register them, “You're... pregnant?” Before he suddenly beams! He pulls her into a tight, close embrace as he excitedly announces, “That's wonderful!” Talia smiles at him and says, “Isn't it?” Before her father can shake Bruce's hand with his own warm smile. Bruce still holds Talia's hand as Ra's tells him, “Detective, Dr. Weltmann could not keep this from me. My congratulations.” END ID]

#reading this comic is just going ‘awweee theyre so cute i hope nothing bad happens to them :)’ #for 49 pages straight before something bad happens to them for the remaining 29 pages #screaming crying throwing up thinking about what could have been.... #like.... #theres so... so much.... #‘i know that's how you are’ and asking him to just let go at least for one night #and the fact that he loves her enough to try again and again even if it can never last!!!!!! #they got to spent MONTHS as a couple!!! they slept together they fucked they had dinner they talked for hours they were in love and happy!! #he got to actually experience that life for a solid stretch of time and he goes on to say how happy he is for the first time in his life! #like its so hard to forget since its a comic and pacing but they were together like that for weeks!! months! #and then having it all ripped away??? having to give it up again??? #both of them got that taste of happiness. of that life they can never have. both of them got to be in love and indulge #no gotham and those responsibilities. not torn between her father and bruce. no constant heartbreak.... #they got to see and experience and feel the future theyre doomed to never share together. they were in love and happy and :((( #oh batman son of the demon... we're really in it now.... #c: batman: son of the demon #crypt's panels #batman #bruce wayne #talia al ghul #brutalia #ra's al ghul

[spiderversegf]

not gonna say too much ab this right now bc i am literally in the throes of grief as we speak but. as a chronically ill person i see a lot of discussion around grieving our past selves/what we are now unable to do, but more than anything else i feel a lot of grief about my future. everything looks so different from how it did before. it’s scary and unfamiliar and i don’t know how to navigate it. and nobody can do it for me. i have to figure it out and i have to do it myself and i have to do it alone

#🛏️ #i’m . really sad i have been crying for four hours straight #it’s only been like a week since i got diagnosed im guessing this is sth i’ll adjust to w time but #i’m so sad and then being so sad makes me so tired and then being so tired makes me so sad. and it never ends #and it never Will end. what the fuck #disability

[astranauticus]

Do mechanites cry?

#rolling with difficulty #vrla rwd #mrsn rwd #vr la rwd #mr sn rwd #art i made #yet another thing i drew then just fully forgot to post LMAO #man i had to listen to 3.7 like 3 times for this. goddammit #easter egg: the 4 big infernal books in the shelf all say contract law like its a textbook series i guess #the small one next to them says Doctor Faustus bc i was looking to my irl bookcase for inspiration #and the christopher marlowe play was one of my alevel lit texts #also i think it would be really funny if the devils have their own version of the story of the deal with the devil guy #honestly this may have been the kinda. last straw of my burnout cuz this was a lot of time spent on a lot of stuff im really not good at #and none of it turned out... exactly how i wanted but oh well. it is what it is #ok the kinda annoying thing about me spending far too fucking long drawing super emotional scenes like this is i kinda #desensitise myself to whatever im drawing. like i felt it the most with the demon possession comic i casually tossed into the discord #bc thats the exact kinda angst i personally LOVE but it just doesnt have the same punch after ive been staring at it for 5 hours straight #(anyway go read cal's fic about it its on ao3 and its bloody good) #all this to say. when i first listened to 3.7 and austin had that exchange of like #'noir can i ask you a lore question' 'sure..?' 'do mechanites cry?' #i straight up got fuckin CHILLS. and sometimes i forget that but i try to force myself not to

[ghostofasecretary]

it's been a while since i've cried hard enough to have a headache but. sure got there today, babes!

#ghost speaks #personal #ripped my favorite tights i've had for 5+ years and can't replace #can't return my glasses #got ptsd triggered by going past my old church because i took a wrong turn because i was. crying about not being able to return my glasses #have been crying for a solid 40 minutes straight #am still incredibly aware of how isolated and lonely i am #my parents are on vacation so i won't see a friendly face or get a hug till sunday night at the earliest #just. doing BAD #(well. there is the faint hope that the office manager will take pity on me since her office literally cannot manufacture lenses #that will meet my needs) #(but considering i spent a lot of the last hour yelling and begging out loud trying to work out a maximally sympathetic pitch) #(and also dreading 1-2 years of not having transition lenses because theirs fuck with my color vision) #(i'm not sure the hope makes things. better?) #i am gonna. make hot chocolate because it sounds like a marginal improvement over crying without that #the last time i couldn't stand up or i'd start crying harder was yesterday but boy did i not miss it #i thought i might feel better in the morning. ha. ha ha. ha #(like i know this is temporary i'm just. i just. i am so tired and SO stupidly ridiculously incredibly upset) #(like my emotional equilibrium right now is. not)

[todayisafridaynight]

i HAVE to keep the daigo plush locked away lest i squeeze it every five minutes to alleviate the cuteness aggression i feel whenever i see it

#snap chats #being without my computer charger has been maddening #that makes me sound terminally online and its because i am. its also cause all i ever wanna do is draw :(( #AND I ESP WANNA WORK ON MY COMMS NOOOOO FUCK #i mean i was at least able to read through yakuza’s bias vol 2… so theres that… #MY SCHOOL STORE DIDNT HAVE LAPTOP CHARGERS i had to order one… hopefully it gets here Overnight like i asked….. if not ill kill #anyway. daigo plushie so cute :(((((((((((((((( #mine cute too but theres just something especially squeezeable about daigo #alas.. thats what the aoki plush’ll be for. my personal stress toy ☠️☠️☠️☠️ #lowkey i wish i also got ichi but then i remenbee they made him pale as all hell and Yeah Im Not Putting Money To That #THE SMALLEST BIT OF A TAN I BEG YOU RGG WHY IS HE SO PALE IT DONT LOOK RIIIIGHT :(((( #anyway.. i have my last class in half an hour… lemme drink this tea… #also Lowkey obsessed with my outfit today.. its that butterfly shirt + gold accessories since theyre monarch butterflies #tho Lowkey 2x the black and yellow remind me of the watase blokes from gaiden…… wack….. #ok bye its tea time #help one of my roommates just came home and she just announces like. ‘man those edibles were. OUGH’ #calling my dad to pick me up nooo im a lame straight edge dont talk about drugs around me ill scream and cry LMAO #ok im done byebye lemme drink this good god

[thebrotherskaramazovs]

he broke up with me on our 10 month anniversary 👍🏽👍🏽 over the phone 👍🏽👍🏽👍🏽👍🏽👍🏽

#i can’t stop crying i have been crying for hours straight #he sounded like he didn’t care at all he just said i can’t do it anymore and broke up with me #i don’t understand i’m trying so hard to understand #he said i deserve the world but i don’t fucking want the world i want him #i don’t understand #min.txt

[scarecrowdrugs]

Last few months have been kind of a whirlwind of emotions for very personal reasons, but I am at least really proud of myself for regaining my former ability to utterly devour books. I shotgunned through The Stand and The Shining in two weeks and am now currently agonizing over having to wait another month for a Harlan Ellison collection to get released.

#i've been having a half good/half absolutely dogshit couple months ngl #I went from being overjoyed on the 29th of November over getting accepted for a new job #and then crying for several hours straight the next day because one of my cats has terminal cancer #he's still trucking along right now but I've been coming to terms with this past christmas being potentially my last with him

[nebulouscoffee]

Friends I crave distraction. Please feel free to send me random Star Trek asks - about the shows, the characters, hot takes, theories, your fics, my fics, someone else's fics- anything is fine, I would very much welcome it

#it's been a rough week. people I know stop dying challenge :( #I'm sorry about the incoming tag rant but I literally cannot believe these last three months #I just got off the phone after what. number 7? 8? #and I feel so bad because it's not even MY immediate family so I shouldn't make this about me but like #these are still people who raised me #people who have been around since I was a kid #people I really believed were going to be around for a lot longer #(and pets. plural. what is UP with the number of deaths lately) #I'm just very exhausted with everything I'm not even crying anymore I'm literally just tired and I feel like I'm losing it #and yes I am not at the centre of these losses but it's still a cumulative effect...like spending hours & hours at funerals & on the phone #with grieving friends and family and trying to be there for them and not having any space or time to process these losses for myself #is not an unreasonable thing to feel exhausted from right? especially not after like three straight months of this? #anyway. would really like to think about people who don't really exist for the next few hours and maybe ramble a bit once I make dinner :)

[binnie]

seriously considering making a mental health blog

#tw// mental health #i have been going through a very very difficult time #this master's degree is killing me and at this point i'm not even sure I wasn to go on #between writing my thesis and doing my internship #and having an advisor who scares and who I have to see for four hours straight every thursday #and having new medication that's messing with me on every level #and my brain being evil to me every day #i don't know you guys... I just don't feel like I have to strength to do everything #every little thing sets me off and I cry every day #my meds are making me so slow that I see a sentence more than 10 words longer all the letters startes jumping around and mushing together #I'm so scared of going to school #being around people and a environment that seems strange and distant to plus a professor that scares me and makes me feel dumb and stupid #I'm thinking about bad things all the time and I can't make them go away #i'm just. tired and sad and nervous and feeling like i'm losing control of myself #I'm losing my strength #I can't count on my friends anymore and losing them #I feel lifeless and hollow and sad and alone and abandonment and useless and horrible #I just want to have a space so I can just. air everything out basically #I just need to feel heard #but I don't want this blog to be a place of negativity and sadness #I treasure this blog and the people i've met here #I just don't know #I don't know what to do

[farahauvile]

ortega calling sidestep the love of her life..... i will never recover from this

#fhr spoilers #fhr #julia ortega #i finally finished it today and have been crying for 3 hours straight

[intelligentbees]

Pros of breaking up with my boyfriend : I will write so much more and read also

Cons of breaking up with boyfriend: no boyfriend. Plus of course the bottomless pits of despair.

#I have been crying for 12 hours straight. not being dramatic but I have no idea how to live life without him teehee ❤️🥰👍

[callixton]

it is the second week of class and i have been up until at least 3 am multiple days

#it’s not like i’m really procrastinating either #at least i won’t have rehearsal until 10 anymore! for like a month at least. thank god #sorry i need to get my bitching out here so i don’t cry #i’ve been working for 6 hours straight and like. i’ve had a lot of people either distract me or give me shit fit it and like! #i’m sorry i care but that will not change! and i am stressed enough without ur input….. #if i fuck up my monologue bc i’m too tired i will be so sad #ted talks

[spacejammie-eimmajecaps]

Two hours ago I was having horrible stomach pain, and now that I've puked up all my dinner and am finally starting to feel better, my stomach is gurgling hungrily like it did nothing wrong.

As if I'm leaving it charge of any more food tonight.

Be empty for a while and think about what you did, punk.

#like i experience pain on a regular basis and dont generally get too upset over it #but i was straight up crying #and i only i cry maybe 3 or 4 times a year #it was that bad for almost an hour and it didnt get better until i finally gave in and puked up everything in my stomach #gastroparesis doesnt cause me trouble that often but when it does its a bad fucking time #im gonna have to do a liquid diet tomorrow just in case my stomach isnt done acting up #which sucks because im so hungry #this week has been a lot

[ghosttownwherenoonegoes]

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#it's wanting uncle wayne hours again <3 #if anyone could motivate me by first making me cry it'd be him #need him to sit with me at the kitchen table and have a straight talk with me #weeee tipped over that waterfall edge w uni work #this is the worst it's ever fucking been and i literally cannot fix this by tuesday #oh wellllll joke's on me