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sneeping with his legs up over his head for some reason... weird boye
#cats#love the second picture... skrungly sleepy well rested boye face...#since he's an elderly boy now sometimes when he wakes up from a nap he looks a bit scruffy and squinty eyed#Hard to beleive he's like 15 though.. he still looks like a kitten to me.. due to his giant round creature eyes and childlike demeanor#I think it's interesting that like... baby cats are babies. kittens are kittens. and you can tell a cat is like 'young adult' phase#looking from like a few months to maybe 1yr or 2yrs.. but after that they just always look the same to me#a 5 yr old cat is a 10 yr old cat is a 15 year old cat. unless the cat in question is particulalry aged or youthful#I still have so so little energy... it's been icy here this week. like not even FUN but just scary icy even thoguh i lOOOVE the cold#and its my favorite weather. I think it'd be okay actually if I had a woodburning stove/fireplace/hearth thing. literally thats my only#concern with the power going out. I genuinely don't mind stuff like having to go to the bathroom in buckets or cook over a fire or do other#less conveninet things. Its just that if eveyrhtng is electric then you have no way to cook and all of that. well.. and I literally need#background noise to go to sleep lest my ocd sprials become so loud I am slowly driven into maddness.. but a few battery packs or something#and a phone with one downloaded video I could play on repeat is fine for that. I dont need internet. ANYWAY.. so so sad that my fav#orite season ever (winter) is here. and the first cold of the winter is like... just an ice storm that you cant even walk in. I#love like 4 feet of snow where you can play in it and stuff. But just a thin flat sheet of a few inches of ice over every imaginable surfac#is not really playable. the wind speeds are so high and so many trees fall it's actually not that safe to go hang out outside anyway unless#you were in a totally clear open field. which is SAD also because i love ice and high winds. i love to stand out there and get whipped in t#he face with ice crystals and feel like I'm in some dramatic movie or something. but alas.. the threat of being attacked by a falling tree.#I did go out some but again it's like. literallyyou cant walk on it. so I just squatted and dragged myself along the ground lol#One of my stories has a whole section where the main characters are trapped in a deadly cold environment for a week and have to use magic#to survive and etc. etc. so I'm always like.. ouuu.. I should go in the ice.. it's Writing Research actually.. *foolishly gets frostbite*#THOUGH yesterday I went on a harrowing evil journey down a bunch of icy hilly roads to go check on some person's cat because the cat#had been left in the house for like 5 days at that point with nobody to check on them and nobody else seemed to want to do anything#about it (like call all of the neighbors or try to get someone out there) so I just went myself with a roommate who agreed to drive me.#It seemed acting totally normal and I gave it more food and water but.. I am still worried about it.. Apparently the person will be able#to get back to their house tomorrow but.. I dont trust them. But I couldnt take the cat with me because it's like.. a stranger's cat#basically and also no carrier + very skittish.. so I feared if I just tried to carry them bare handed they'd definitely leap from my grasp#and then it'd be like.. sliding on a sheet of ice chasing a cat and so on.. I still think they need to be watched for health issues tho >:|#ANYWAY.... many cat adventures lately... and strange weather... I wish for a normal week without always so many Things Happening.. augh
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moondvncer · 1 month
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ink-asunder · 8 months
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Having demand avoidance in a medical setting is literally hell. Like, patient autonomy is already absolute ass. It's only made worse when doctors CONSISTENTLY tell you what to do and act like you HAVE to do it instead of consulting with you first like normal fucking people.
#also “”“”medical necessity“”“” is NOT an excuse here.#ive been to plenty of doctors that thoroughly discuss a range/timeline of treatment and explain it IN DETAIL before saying “thats what i-#-recommend“ instead of just going ”okay were gonna do this. im gonna explain the prep to you a mile a minute and if you have any follow up-#-questions im just gonna repeat part of my spiel with no clarification. and if i cant answer your questions too bad :)“#not to mention how many doctors just force you to do things that WILL NEVER WORK#like one therapist tried forcing me to do emdr when i was only IN HER TOWN for the summer and i had no internet access when i was at college#im pretty sure emdr takes several weeks to work and i did not have that kind of time available to me. i couldnt just drop out bc of ptsd.#also the number of times ive had to decline an ESI is stupid. I've already had 2! they didn't work! i had a bad reaction to the meds!#why am i being forced to do it again?#also back surgery. i cant do that because i am a white trash rural kid and our home (which we built ourselves) CANNOT be accessible enough#for spinal surgery recovery. but i went to the surgeon and he was like “thats valid! and also surgery literally wouldnt help you so idk why-#-they sent you here.“ : l It's cool to be right all the time lol#its like. no wonder i developed medical demand avoidance after so much traumatizing and malpracticy bullshit in my life#demand avoidance#medical demand avoidance#chronic illness burnout#chronic illness#chronic pain#medical tw#ptsd#disability#medical neglect#medical trauma#vent#this might be too personal. if i do delete it ill have it rb'd on my boar-deer-whitetrashbutterfly blog first#idk i just havent really been able to find anyone else talking about this specific effect of being chronically ill/disabled.
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essektheylyss · 2 years
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We already know Vespin Chloras, in the service of the Betrayer Gods, is going to condemn Avalir tonight and kickstart the Calamity, and we are less than three hours from being directly over Cathmoíra. It feels likely that we will see Asmodeus in the flesh before this comes to an end.
Domunas is the only continental name we cannot map to a modern day continent—we have confirmation that Marquet and Issylra were known as such during this age, and Tal'dorei was known as Gwessar.
With all of that in mind, I do imagine that the ruins of Avalir and likely Cathmoíra as well are the place where the Betrayer Gods build Ghor Dranas, the capital of their kingdom, which would confirm Domunas as modern day Wildemount.
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headgehug · 1 year
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streetlight manifesto: a comprehensive review*
*of one album
streetlight manifesto (SM) is an American ska band founded in New Jersey in 2002, consisting of several members of other musical collectives, such as Catch 22 and Bandits of the Acoustic Revolution. alright i'm done summarizing their wikipedia page. i just learned those things. let's review the album Somewhere in the Between (2007).
1. We Will Fall Together
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physically impossible to start off stronger than this! the band is made up of so much talent, several members being former orchestra members, etc. WWFT is sort of your summary for the overarching themes of struggling with religion and fear of death.
If you listen to nothing else from this list, listen to this one! the brass is incredibly sexy (I say brass instead of being specific because there's horns, and trombone, and saxophone.. i mean it's kind of everything and i have a hard enough time telling the difference), the bass is simply devious, and the times it focuses on just guitar are so clever.
not to mention the lyrics! this song in particular is a sort of fuck you, when we go down, it'll be together, with those of us we trust and love.
And when we fall we will fall together No one will catch us so we'll catch ourselves
and in the face of a religion that is in practice only violent and threatening, when things seem this hopeless
They're coming after all of us with everything they've got With the fury of a soldier who will answer to his God So how will we fight? All we have is logic and love on our side
anyways! WWFT is simply maddening in its perfection. it's a rally, it's a war cry, it's a warm embrace in the dark. and how could the rest of the album possibly hold a candle to it? (somehow, it can)
2. Down, Down, Down To Mephisto's Cafe
this one starts out as if it's angsty 90s grunge, but oh, this is no Creep, this is no 1979. we're not lamenting loss of belief and alienation here, we're riding a sick bass line down to hell :)
I will say that in an album that is just so fast, the slower start can be a little jarring, but we're early on, and it's for a good cause, so it doesn't particularly bother me! especially not when we have such hard-hitting lyrics such as:
Someone shouted "Everything's for nothing" (Somebody shouted, "All is lost") But I can't buy that nonsense too
Even in the pits of despair, ostracism for one's lack of belief, facing the idea that there is nothing after this life, perhaps, everything is not for nothing.
This is a fun song in the same way Keasby Nights by Catch 22 is a fun song ("My my my how the time does fly when you know you're gonna die by the end of the night!" is so revitalizing to repeat over and over), because that whatever we're all gonna die, let's do a kickflip about it mentality is awesome, but the emphasis on love and kinship and atheistic morality is so, so important also.
Give 'er a listen here
3. Would You Be Impressed?
AGAIN! you would not think things could get any better after those two. Yet the song opens up with a fresh sound, grittier vocals, and a darker tone. the horns in particular are so eerily announcing... something. and with the song's condemnation of apathy, of cruelty and of detachment from the world, judgement day may not be too far off base.
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the song progresses, proclaiming various horrors in the world, from "it's not my fault" to "it's all my fault," the former in protest of responsibility, the latter in stark realization once it's too late. well, that gets pretty dark, but the song itself is absolutely wild.
4. One Foot On the Gas, One Foot in the Grave
well, it was inevitable in an album full of 10s. OFOTG,OFITG is a solid 9 :/ if only because of the slow start, again! if this was your average mid 2000s pop punk/indie rock album, it would be par for the course, but this is ska, and so there's kind of a high demand for your music to be thoroughly adhd.
that being said, we do pick up speed relatively fast, and it's a plucky consideration of questioning one's ingrained beliefs. give it a whirl if you so please
5. Watch it Crash
oh boy, are we back to the 10s. we have some of the most rhythm guitar heavy moments in the intro, and it so suits the desperation and resignation of the lyrics:
It said "We can't just blame it on our mothers Claim everything they did was always wrong" And there ain't no turning back, when our train is off its track And there's nothing we can do but watch it crash
the resounding, nearly ironic cry for "Mercy, mercy me!" paired with this sort of watching it all burn feeling is so real? there's always a cloying desire for the security that religion offers, that there's some force watching out for you. and it can be hard knowing there's not.
but! at least we have watch it crash. listen to it :)
6. Somewhere in the Between
this is THE epitome of that thing that's like, emo/punk/goth is when life sucks and you ___ about it, and ska is off to the side like life sucks but we got a fucking sax solo! doot doot doot
We have an absolutely joyous brass riff throughout this song about how we are all going to die.
Maybe the times we had, they weren’t that bad And everything else was part of our path We sang: “I don’t know where we go from here” This is the anthem, the slogan, the summary of events And we all just idealize the past So you were born, and that was a good day Someday you’ll die, and that is a shame But somewhere in the between was a life of which we all dream And nothing and no one will ever take that away
not only that, but this quivering, sensual instrumental in the middle-- how's that for something amazing in the between? this song is a masterpiece honestly. like-- yeah!
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7. Forty Days
once again-- how could you top SitB? well, with Forty Days. we've got this sultry, swinging riff opening a song about the haunting creep of past sins.
with regards to the vocals, i get a Mad Caddies vibe from this song, just with the way the singers sound. a little rough, discernibly edgy.
These lines are kickers:
What a way to begin, we inherit sin
the christian belief that we inherit sins from our ancestors, and that we are born into a sin that can only be cleansed by belief-- well what if you don't believe?
I've tasted seven sins, so they won't let me in I knock knock knock until my knuckles are bruised and raw Stuck in the middle with my blood in a puddle on the floor We made our beds, we'll judge ourselves
I love this set of lines for its rebellion, the "no one can judge me but me" attitude, the knowledge that one's lust for life will be one's eternal downfall.
What a waste! So many decent people at the gates
and when we all get to heaven- the challenging of traditional religious morality, the idea that a perfectly good person could be turned away for lack of belief.
and then while you contemplate all of this, we have a pleasantly clean but complex guitar solo. anyways, it's a must listen, i think.
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8. The Blonde Lead the Blind
and we're back to cheerful ska riffs :)
this is a fairly stand-alone song, and can be about popular culture leading those who subscribe to it, or about religion and its affect on those who subscribe to it... well i guess they're both fads, aren't they?
the chorus is delightfully rebellious:
Did you lose faith? Yes, I lost faith in the powers that be But in doing so I came across the will to disagree And I gave up, yes I gave up and then I gave in But I take responsibility for every single sin
let's take a moment to wax poetic about the skill of this band, yes? let me be a hater for just a split second and say that it's a little disappointing to hear so much popular music that doesn't ooze musical talent. it absolutely requires technique and expertise far above my comprehension, but i kind of like to just hear a song where i know the people are ridiculously talented... like yeah these guys are Professional Musicians. okay i'm done lol. TBLTB here
9. The Receiving End of it All
i believe this song references the fact that SM was robbed not once, but twice on their tours of Europe... hence "That motherfucker, he took everything we had"... well considering the other lyrics, it's probably not that, but this is a fun and essential SM fact. no, i don't have any others. just preaching for the album lol.
this song stands alone just a bit, in that it's about a failed relationship. it may or may not relate to the themes of religious separation throughout the rest of the album. it does, however, go very hard.
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10. What a Wicked Gang are We
any instrument that can trill is brrrilliant in my book, and this song therefore does not disappoint at all. This is the final track on the album, and holds the position well. it's a biting address towards America as a whole, evidenced by the use of "Tis of Thee" like, as in, "my country".
I mean, in that regard, it's nothing particularly unusual though, just about how the political class is running this country into the ground... pretty standard stuff in the punk sphere?
however, it does wrap the album up quite well. shifting the focus from religion and fear of death towards something that we can control is so smart, relevant in 2007 and unfortunately still relevant now! it's so terribly easy to get depressed in the wake of all this, but do please remember. at least we have killer sax solos.
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to sum it up: yeah good album . i'd say more but tumblr is groaning under the weight of all my links. sure hope this posts.
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softerhaze · 1 year
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i was tagged by @cheesehair and @castawavy to post my “on repeat” playlist! (thank u!! 💌) here’s what happens when you listen to andy shauf’s wilds album every single day (no, i’m not joking) and have rom com nostalgia mixes + oc playlists on repeat 😔
i tag @orphyd @sonicblooms @moonsyrups @cowboycid @lucidicer @djservo and anyone else who wants to do this 🕺🏽✨
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rimouskis · 9 months
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>searching for character/ship playlists >finds one >opens it >first songs I see are by taylor swift, twenty one pilots, and melanie martinez >closes it >repeat ad infinitum
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sysig · 2 months
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Your Weekly TV Guide
On Monday you can expect:
2:30 PM: Star Control II - Helix
And Tuesday:
2:30 PM: SCII - Helix
Wednesday:
2:30 PM: SCII - Helix
Thursday:
2:30 PM: SCII - Helix
Friday:
2:30 PM: SCII - Helix
Saturday:
2:30 PM: SCII - Helix +4:20 PM Bonus!: Helix!DAX
Sunday:
2:30 PM: SCII - Helix
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icantalk710 · 11 months
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Welp, booked myself a little weekend hotel staycation in Midtown Manhattan starting tmrw, as a treat this bday week, so that should be nice 🤪
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hawkeyedflame · 1 year
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ran a 7:01 mile today, after two and a half weeks of not running (but doing a lot of hiking). i didn't feel great going into the run though because it's been raining and dreary the last few days which tanks my energy levels, so i think i can do even better. i set a goal of 6:30 by the end of june and i was starting to feel doubtful about being able to hit it, but i think i got this.
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elviratheepic · 4 months
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JUST GOT OUT OF HOSPITAL AFTER MY LAST DOSE OF CHEMOTHERAPY!!!
I'll be in again next week when my blood counts inevitably drop as they always do post-chemo, and I won't know if i need any further treatment until my pet scan in several weeks, but this is still pretty big and I'm trying to get it into my brain that I'm finally getting a break!
I've spent most of the last 4 months in hospital and I can't wait to have some time to spend at home in my own space with the people + pets i love, and hopefully try and put some weight back on and actually enjoy starting to feel better.
It's so weird to think 4 months ago I was wondering if I would ever feel like i could breathe freely or have energy to do things again. And I'm not magically better, but this definitely feels like a turning point. I can look to this year with hope instead of a kind of resigned dread.
I'll need to post a picture of my beads of courage. It's a thing for kids and young adults where they give you different coloured beads for all the different treatments and procedures and stuff. My string of them has gotten pretty long now lol
Man september feels like years ago
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ragingtwilight · 2 years
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my current brainworm is Charlie's Inferno how bout yall
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wriochilde · 5 months
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ok.
#wjatevr. i dont care#no actually i do care. its about morishige how can i not care#i saw a very interesting take on why morishige chases yuka (not the tutorial idea. thats also interesting though)#something about how he was protecting her and he was never going to harm her#and i was like huh. maybe i misunderstood because i played the game when i was 11#and then i realized i literally played it last week#i cant help but disagree? yeah he wasnt planning on hurting her. it makes the whole chase scene very funny especially if you get caught#he keeps repeating the same thing and me and my sister joke about it all the time lol#but anyways. i think that even in the manga he wouldnt have hurt her even though he hints at his intent being more malicious than in game#i love this scene because i love hearing people talk about why the fuck he did this#let me talk about the manga instead for a moment actually i think this scene is much funner there#he stops for a moment when yuka stops crying before he breaks into this very obviously malicious grin#like he was EXCITED. the darkening had already startrd to show and its very clear while hes chasing her#the whole time he was just messing with her. he wasnt planning to harm her in the manga either#because he literally catches up to her. and he could've caught up to her multiple times had he not been taking pictures as she ran#all he did when he caught up to her was whisper in her ear. so#yeah. he wasnt going to kill her or injure her like in the anime. but does that mean he had any good intentions?#im not sure how this could be described as him simply helping her#and i could be remembering wrong but doesnt he somewhat explain himself in book of shadows?#i remember him saying something about him just having fun and enjoying how scared she was#so ive always just seen it as him enjoying the rush he got from chasing someone weaker than him#because it was partially the darkening right?#im not one to say that morishige is inherently evil or always had a huge interest in gore or anything. becausw its not true#but i dont want to deface his character by warping his intentions to seem less malicious#i need to get a fucking journal this is getting out of hand#finn.txt
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polaroidcats · 9 months
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rules: shuffle your repeat playlist and post the first ten tracks, then tag ten people
thank you @iwillbealwaysadreamer for tagging me to do this!!! <3
alright here we go:
Truth Of My Youth by New Found Glory
Proud of Me by Eva Westphal
I Will Steal You Back by Jimmy Eat World
Devotion and Desire by Bayside
Hairline Fracture by Rise Against
Suspension by Mae
Kiss Me Like Nobody's Watching by Simple Plan
I Will Follow You into the Dark by Death Cab for Cutie
San Diego by blink-182
Comfortably Numb by Pink Floyd
hahahaha oh god, I knew it was gonna be mostly from that playlist but I'm pretty sure 8 or maybe even 9 out of these 10 songs are actually from the Dear Your Holiness playlist by @mollymarymarie because I re-read that fic last week and not only is the fic excellent, the vibes of the playlist are also just so, so good.
Okay I'm not going to tag anyone this time, but if anyone wants to do this tag and expose themselves like I did please feel free to say I tagged you and tag me in your posts so I can see what's on your spotify on repeat! <3
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intimesnewhomo · 1 year
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@holochromatic/@lullabiestoparalyze tagged me for 5 songs I'm into rn and boy bestie u have no idea the depths of my Autism Powers™ legitimately it's Emotion Sickness and Carnavoyeur on repeat with an occasional sprinkling of Negative Space :) it's genuinely a Full Queens/Josh Lockdown in this house Specifically the new singles but I'll grab five others that make me apeshit rn:
Someone's in the Wolf
Spiders and Vinegaroons
Dead End Friends
If I Had a Tail
My God is the Sun
I'll tag uhhhh @mywillbedone @sigilmint @losmilyunvelorios and anyone else who wants to share theirs :)
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tagged by @eraserheadbabygirl to put my on replay on shuffle and make a playlist of 10 songs ty teehee 💋💋
stars - les miserables
she’s a woman - kiss of the spider woman
you can do magic - america
love my way - the psychedelic furs
goodbye until tomorrow/i could never rescue you
new body rhumba - lcd soundsystem
no one mourns the wicked - wicked
brotherhood of man - how to succeed in business without really trying
policy of truth - depeche mode
cowboy take me away - the chicks
tagging @dogmotif @bloodcoveredgf @werezombie @straydogsickness @talkshowhost1996 @christianbalegf @filmstar1997 and anyone else who wants to do it ^_^
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