#i felt like i couldn't do the diss and ended up with a ptsd that is only now beginning to look like i will be okay from and i will have to

[generouskittentidalwave]

Thank you for your response. I was asking because I read a few other translations of the odyssey that weren't in english and all of them said that odysseus grabbed her by her throat which makes me think it's not a translation error. One has to remember that he is not perfect and is often a faulty character - and at least sometimes what people nowadays would consider not morally good although it was different in those days - so I personally don't think that action was that much out of his character. I still love him so this is not me dissing him but yeah (Sorry I didn't reblog it and reply that way but my blog actually has nothing to do with literature so)

Np anon! And I definitely see your point! For reassurance I wasn't saying it to justify his actions in anyway, rather a reason why I gave the idea that it might be a simple translation error is because it seems to come out randomly out of nowhere, and although Odysseus can be hotheaded at times, this part particularly seemed to come out of nowhere for what it sounds like for a people. However it's just an educated guess, I could very much be wrong.

You are correct about Odysseus's character. When he made it to Ithaca, he felt like he couldn't trust anyone anymore, and most of his maids ended up betraying him. That, combined with his ptsd and trauma from all he has experienced, can lead to emotional outbursts of aggression as a means of personal defense out of fear and mistrust led by trauma and pain. This by no means makes what he did right or good, but it shows just how flawed and emotionally vulnerable he can be as a character.

I am going to reinstate what I said in my latest post about his character, and it is something that I say often. Odysseus isn't perfect. And he should never be made out to be perfect the same way he shouldn't be made out to be a monster. As I said in my latest post, and quote, Odysseus has made mistakes, and wasn't perfect, he wasn't purely bad or purely good, he did good things and would show empathy and care for those around him, and sometimes he would treat others badly due to letting his emotions get the best of him or letting their actions get the better of him. He is simply just a man trying his best and trying to get home to his wife and son. And over his journey he grows, learns, and matures out of his hubris mindset with the cost of gaining a lot of emotional trauma which then opens up new problems for him. He isn't completely good, but he isn't completely bad either. He is simply human. Made of both good traits and bad flaws and everything in between. That's why he is one of my favorite characters.

Also don't apologize! I always love and appreciate getting asks by others! It's great people able to discuss and answer people's questions! :D

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[diomedrian]

...does anyone else feel like if they got better they’d be doing something wrong? especially after a relapse, like a disservice to what was keeping you going before it fell apart again? like you’re betraying everyone including yourself by getting better the way you are? like you’re betraying your own trauma by getting better in the same place that caused it/its rooted in? 

#i. i feel better i feel a lot better than i have in months?? but then. i am like its because i am home and i am not doing anything #most of my anxiety comes from being at home bc my parents never let me do anything so you see. i am still seven and i need my dad to make #every call for me and i need mum to make me tea. i am not 22 when i am home and altho i did get better. i got a lot better in 2018/19 and #it was wonderful. i loved that and i loved travelling to offices to get my visa stuff sorted and to get to know everyone and i was #confident and i have never had a good self esteem and i think its because when in seventh grade when we had a workshop on self esteem and #were given an assignment with it i crumpled it up because i didn't want to write anything down i didn't want to admit if i was low on self #esteem let alone what was causing it. and i am not very confident and i have an awful amount of anxiety - to the point that i felt #i felt like i couldn't do the diss and ended up with a ptsd that is only now beginning to look like i will be okay from and i will have to #repeat my master's so like. anyway the point was i am home and i am feeling better and i feel like i am undoing the progress i made before #the relapse. #because that progress was good. i was independent and i didn't cry as much and i handled all my paperwork and i made friends easy and i was #open to every new experience and i was driven and focused and. now. i am not? i am none of those things and i am so scared that this time i #recover it will be...in line with my parents which is to say i will be confident because i have them and not in spite of them and #i know how good it is to have parents who have your back (its very complicated and i am trying to use the nicest words) #but its also scaring me to bits bc i dont want to be like that. i want to be independent and work thru that. being around my parents...is #i get dependable. as one is bound to. i dont want to wake up at seven bc if its late than they will be angry i want to wake up at seven bc #i can and i like doing that. it just feels like crap to get better in a place that i know can only offer me limited growth but that if i go #outside and try growing i will crumble and have to come back to start again bc all growth starts here #its...like a trap? not sure if i am explaining it right but its just. so messy? i want to get better but it also cannot happen until i #exist outside of this house yknow? bc otherwise i will always always fall apart. its just the way its built. you stay away from it too long #and you see everything that is wrong with you and then your growth doesn't feel like growth but that something you put on and suddenly it #doesn't fit and look awfully ugly and everyone's laughing at you and no one believes you and even tho you made it yourself you know its the #crappiest sweater ever and you need to get out of it and so you burn it down and then you realize you have to start over again but #you are exhausted from the fire so you take time away and then you feel better so you head to the store to get the yarn again bc you burned #it all used it all up on the sweater and the wool comes at a price. and without the wool there is no sweater. so like. what do u do. #anyway i m v sorry if this was confusing and you read all of it for nothing. and i am also v sorry about how long the tags got lao #personal