#i feel likw crying but ik i feel shitty bc im sleep deprived and dehydrated so it would be stupid to cry

[mainfaggot]

Had the most exhausting day ever

#i feel likw crying but ik i feel shitty bc im sleep deprived and dehydrated so it would be stupid to cry #if i chug some water and sleep early tonight I'll be fine #maybe. #see thats the thing part of this is unrelated to my physiological needs #i had a chem lab today and i felt so awkward and tired the whole time #im so bad at socialising but i tried so hard #wait correction: I'm actually good at faking sociable but today something was off #and i felt like this girl in my lab was overpowering or something like she just threw me off #i felt insecure probably because she was assertive and thats usually what im like #but bc im not very good at chemistry its not like i could be more outspoken.. like i never had anything to add anyway #she was nice but she clearly knew how to lead so i felt awkward and stupid #so yeah she didn't do anything wrong i just felt like i seemed pathetic the whole time #also i feel so alone at uni i feel like. well #i feel like most people believe the fake put together image I've curated #and those who dont.. it feels like they see right through me #like they think im pathetic.. but also thats just me assuming they see through me and dislike me #so. 😁 i recognise that that is an unhelpful thinking style #idk i feel alone a lot #today someone was casually nice to me and it felt genuine and i felt this #like. #i realised how desperately i just wanted a friend to lean on when i feel tired #god i sound lame idk 😐 #z.post