#i feel like i've been sleeping on testosterone and muscle gain these past three years. trying not to be salty about it though lmaoo

[uncanny-tranny]

The nice thing about reaching adulthood as a trans person is that there are plenty of instances where, before as a kid, your transness mattered, but now it doesn't necessarily

When I was in high school, I was required to take a P.E. class to graduate, and I was always yelled at for being late and bringing my backpack to class with me because I couldn't change in locker rooms like the other guys. I changed in a faculty restroom and brought my bag with me, my tardiness be damned. It gave me an unhealthy view of fitness because I despised how othered I felt, and I couldn't articulate why I didn't feel safe necessarily. I felt like transness would always be what others saw before they saw me, and I hated that feeling. I don't like being seen as The Trans Person, I just like being seen as me, where being trans is part of me but not the whole.

However, as an adult, I can join a gym and they don't fucking care. I get to retrain how to have a healthy relationship with fitness on my own terms because now, I have the freedom to be left the fuck alone about my transness. I love weightlifting, I love feeling physically fit, and high school was not the place for me as a trans person.

If any young trans person is feeling how I felt about their transness being front-and-center, just, please hold out hope. I know shit's scary, especially for you young people, and I do not blame you for how you feel. Just know that there can be good out there.

#trans #transgender #lgbt #lgbtq #ftm #mtf #nonbinary #it's been difficult to learn how to like fitness on my own terms but i'm learning #i've been going to the gym just so i can lift again and it feels good #i feel like i've been sleeping on testosterone and muscle gain these past three years. trying not to be salty about it though lmaoo #i think it would be funny to get jacked even though my work does *not* require it #i *do* feel like i lucked out with how accepting my school was don't get me wrong #i feel lucky i wasn't teased or bullied or interrogated by students or faculty. it's just that i had other things on top of that too #i was shocked that despite being in a *very* red town my high school was very chill