Some of you in the Caryl tag might remember my name. I've been in this fandom for 12 years (and on Tumblr as well), and weathered so much crap it's not even worth mentioning anymore. The drama was so incessant it caused many wonderful OG Carylers to bail. I've fluttered in and out myself. I've had my "positive" stages, my doubtful stages, my angry stages and my "I don't give a 🖕" stages while watching this show as a fan and a Caryler.
I still harbor resentment for some who were involved in the production of TWD due to crappy show production, stilted writing, and blatant ship-baiting. No need to come at me for my POV. It's my opinion forged over a decade so it isn't about to change now. And, besides, IRDGAF.
I watched TOWL for nostalgic reasons. I'm not going to say it was the best I ever saw in TWD universe, but much if it soothed a part of my soul that sat battered and disappointed after the original series concluded.
Now that Carol (my favorite character ever on TWD) is set to make a return on TWDDD, I'm conflicted (nothing new). I swore to myself I would never watch anything related to Carol/Daryl because I knew the show was incapable of doing their bond any justice as proven over 11 seasons of wasted opportunities. But Melissa herself is now part of the production equation. She's said she had a say in how Carol is being portrayed in TBOC. Here is where my conflict lies. Do I continue to swear off this trash heap of a show with its lies and manipulations, or do I trust Melissa?
I'm going to trust her. I'm going to jump on this rollercoaster ONE LAST TIME with my shriveled heart and the last shred of hope I possess, and pray I won't be utterly disappointed once again.
To any of the OG Carylers (the back-in-the-day ones) who might still be around posting sporadically or just lurking in the shadows waiting to celebrate reaching the elusive "carrot" we've talked about so much over the years as Caryl fans, I hope to shine in the sun with you sometime in the future. It still might not be too late.
C A R Y L O N
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just read the new hatchling skin rules and am having Some Type Of Initial Emotional Reaction and am now writing down said Initial Emotional Reaction uncensored as i currently Strongly Feel A Type Of Way and Require Venting. i cannot word this more politely. i do not have the capability to render this rage into polite borderline corporate-speak for the sake of the damn rules that act like anything short of apologizing for being alive to make up for having even the most constructive understanding friendly criticism or even personal mild non-critical dislike of something like a color or a breed is tantamount to personal targeted hatemail. i cannot wait until i cool into calm bitterness later because if i think about this enough to write about it again i will just go right back to being furious and the fact that everyone ielse who's complaining is focusing entirely on the lolita fashion thing and not on in my opinion the far more significant and offensive part is pissing me off even more. extremely angry unedited ranting ahead
fr having it's own "female presenting nipples" moment right now, not that i'm particularly surprised, they've been a prime example of "conservative protestantism in a lefty-language veneer" for a long while now.
"don't adultify" is such a fucking vague and easily selectively interpreted rule, not to mention insulting for a number of reasons,
but putting that part aside the whole idea of "nothing that suggests that the dragon is an adult in a young body" is. look, i'm not exactly fond of the "adult who looks like an anime schoolgirl" trope myself, but i fail to see how in the absolute FUCK having it be canon in-universe that it is both possible and legal for someone to be forced to stay as a child permanently, is somehow LESS creepy than just saying eternal youth dragons have dwarfism. also, fuck you to anyone with dwarfism apparently i guess?
and "no zombie baby dragons" is just stupid. even fucking minecraft has baby zombies, and microsoft has steadily butchered that game into one of the most t for toddler babymode things on earth this side of cocomelon.
and "no scars on hatchlings" so fuck you to any kids with scars too apparently, even though that's way more common than anyone seems to realize. you hear that, kids? if you're under 18 and have scars your very existence is too obscene for public view. 13+ year olds will be irreparably traumatized if they have to know you exist at all! fuck you disabled kids and fuck you amputee kids and fuck you any kids that have suffered anything ever at all for not appearing as a perfect unspoiled image of conservative christian child-doll innocent purity. flight rising staff says your body and existence is inherently too nsfw to even be acknowledged as existing much less visually seen. everyone knows REAL children don't get damaged at all, and if they do then they're too horrifying and defective at their job of Being A Child Properly to exist in public spaces! how dare ugly things that might make us uncomfortable with their existence by contradicting out ideals about aesthetic moral purity be allowed where good respectable normal people can see them!
i don't say any of these words lightly, and i'm very much not the type to go around calling people whatever-ists and in fact find that kind of thing extremely annoying, useless, reductive, and more or less only ever see it used as a blunt cudgel to shame people into line so they don't question you, and have historically found it especially annoying when people pull out the accusations-of-ism card on fr staff over things that are far more likely just completely understandable (if dubiously competent) issues of certain things simply not occurring to someone on code and design level due to lack of sufficient exposure to the idea, and have always been of the belief of giving them the benefit of doubt (even if often that just means i think they either most likely made an understandable mistake that i would likely also make, or, when i'm feeling less kind, that they're simply not particularly competent rather than actively hostile) so understand how much it means coming from me when i say- flight rising staff, sincerely, from the bottom of my heart, fuck you, you ableist batch of pricks, so far up your own asses with your performative veneer of vaguely lefty-flavored language that you don't realize how fundamentally extremely conservative all of your actual beliefs underlying them are. for every update you make that i approve of there's another that does twice as much damage as the good update fixed (and i'm starting to wonder if you maybe know what you're doing with that too-always batching the fucked up shit on the tail end of some big thing you know people will be excited about, always hiding these controversial moderation changes under something shiny and new, to the point that now i dread any new good update that genuinely seems a step in the right direction and/or is something we've been wanting for awhile because i'm just constantly expecting the knife hidden behind the footnotes afterwards, the fucking "ban tiktok/gay marriage/strip rights from this population/end net neutrality/whatever/ect" clause stapled onto the end of a bill about something entirely unrelated functionally holding a change people want hostage until they allow the fucked up part through. i've been here most of the site's 10+ years and i've seen this sort of thing happen far, far too often.) and every year the shit that gets pulled on the management and moderation end of things makes me more and more almost glad i've never had an income to spend on this, and the fact that apparently the moderation behind every single other petsite in existence is somehow significantly worse fucking astounds me. the only reason i stay around here is because It's Free Dragon Pictures, because it's literally the only actually good petsite game i've ever played and not gotten sick of within a week or so (and really the only good low-energy game i've ever played in general, which i'm increasingly convinced is in spite of it's management), and because somehow, despite all of this shit, i still genuinely love the game itself, because unfortunately by some accident of creation it seems they apparently stumbled purely by coincidence into making an actually good game idea no one else quite has. and after all the fuckery that gets constantly pulled, i refuse to believe the game being good is anything other than, much like many of the of the incidents i think they're unfairly accused of malice and -ism over, an accident.
Disabled children too obscene to fucking exist. fuck you. good to know half the child population's existence requires a trigger warning to even be allowed to be acknowledged as existing to you. good to know if the heart surgery i had when i was 11 had left any visible external scars i would be considered inherently too obscene to exist to you. good to know if the overhealed and benignly potentially cancerous scar on my back from whatever actually happened when i was a toddler (i don't trust either of my parents to ever be accurate about something like that) was in a more visible spot you would demand i have a trigger warning to post selfies online. good to know if any of the shit that's broken me emotionally left visible physical marks you would think it was good and right for me to be forcibly hidden from good normal people's view and considered too taboo for even the slightest discussion without hiding it with makeup and lies, just so i don't make good, lucky, undamaged, normal people uncomfortable, god fucking forbid. should we hide the gays too, since they also make so many people uncomfy? i imagine it won't be long before disabled adults are too obscene for your polite societytm sensibilities too. i've had the feeling for a long time that amputee and disabled skins were living on borrowed time with your rules, kept technically not explicitly dissalowed where all other forms of injury and ""body horror"" are banned simply out of fear of the backlash it would cause to include them, and well. the doomsday clock on that one just got a little bit closer to midnight, huh?
the only reason i wasn't a (physically, visibly, externally) scarred kid was pure sheer fucking luck. the only reason you weren't a physically scarred kid too is pure sheer fucking luck. the only reason you're not some type of disfigured or ugly or amputated or visibly injured or whatnot is pure sheer fucking luck. you're lucky. nothing more. if having to contend with that fact-the fact of how easily it could have gone a different way and there is nothing they would be able to do about it- makes good normal tm people uncomfortable, then well, get the fuck used to it, other people children very much fucking included don't exist to cater to the aesthetic sensibilities of a lucky perfect few. the only thing that separates you from the damaged ones you find too obscene is a bad day and an unlucky hand. and one day, even if you were lucky enough to escape being damaged when you were young, you and i will both be just like them too.
more festival skin winners slots is good. elemental swords sound fun.
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Just saw the news about Max. I'm completely shocked and so upset. This probably goes without saying (and I know is the case for most of the fanbase on here as well) but I won't be staying active in the fandom once Ben has left.
I want to express all my thanks to everyone I've befriended on here over the last few years, and how grateful I am for all the support on my writing. It's been a wild ride and a blast and a half. Love you 💜
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Story time ✨
I understand this isn’t really me to post things that aren’t related to art, but this is something I need the Markiplier Fandom and the Jacksepticeye fandom to hear,
So septipler right?
No don’t leave yet! I don’t ship them, but this is a story that needs to be told here
For privacy I’m not naming anyone particular here so they are anonymous
So back in high school I was in art class with this guy, and he liked my art, and at the time I was at the height of the 2016 youtuber era hyperfixation, septipler was still a thing people would make content for. And once I told the guy I draw acksepticeye fanart (not septipler, like funny Anti and Dark meme stuff) , he drops this nuke of a story on me
Apparently he had a younger sibling who would “draw”, but it was more so tracing pictures they would find on google images. So this sibling was tracing septipler art and would hang it up on their wall. Not too much harm done, just drawing for fun in their spare time.
But here’s the thing, they would trace the art on their smart tv screen
like they put paper on the tv, and the image was seen through enough where they could trace the outline. Well apparently they decided to trace some nsfw art from a particularly popular septipler artist who shall not be named, but the kicker was they traced the image in sharpie.
So the image of this septipler smut drawing was permanently etched into this brand new smart tv screen. And this poor guy and his father had to return their brand new tv with the septipler smut drawn onto the screen.
Just imagine coming home to see septipler drawn onto your tv and it’s stuck their permanently.
Anyway that’s the story, you can carry on knowing this knowledge, do what you may with it
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"7. Favourite class trial from all the games?" and/or "8. Least favourite character?" :3c
7. Favourite class trial from all the games?
this is.....genuinely a hard question, lmao, like i said it's been a minute since i played the games so i'm trying to think about which ones i enjoyed playing the most--
despite my grievances with v3, i do think the twist in the first chapter is still delightfully devastating and fun to play through (even though i'd actually known about said twist when i finally got around to playing this game lmao). i also remember going through a period where i really enjoyed replaying/watching the chapter two and three trials in sdr2? ik chapter three trials can be a bit divisive in this series but as a mikan stan i just really enjoy seeing her go feral lmao. she can have a little murder and be a little manipulative bastard for a bit, as a treat. also, the part twilight syndrome plays in the chapter two makes it a fun one to experience, it's a two for one murder mystery and i just think that's Neat :3
8. Least favourite character?
y'know, as much as perverted characters have grown on me since my time in the dr fandom, i'm just never gonna get over my beef with teruteru, lmao. honestly i think it's about principle at this point ghlkdsjf. i also never really came around on tsumugi tbh, which is not entirely her fault, i just.....did not like many of the ending twists of v3 and unfortunately she was a very big part of that :')
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