#i don’t want to try stimulaaaaaaaants

[magnus-and-the-dragon]

i would like it known that it is 2:30 am and i have awake for half an hour and i am SO SICK OF THIS

why does this stupid medication journey require me Not Fucking Sleeping i hate it

#i am blaming the fucking strattera #because cymbalta did the exact same thing to me #and they both act on the same stupud neurotransmitter #and i don’t think any of the straight ssris did this to me. not that i remember. #i am… SO SICK OF THIS! #remember the time that one (1) medication did absolutely anything for my focus and mood #but then it also made me horribly depressed #and then uh the subsequent. like. eight fucking meds at rhis point. #have done nothing except keep me from sleeping #i. HATE IT. #why did the ONLY FUCKING MEDICATION WITHOUT ALTERNATIVES #have to be the one that almost worked for me i am so pissed #and then it’s like! well! doesn’t it then make sense that dopamine is probably my issue and not like serotonin or norepinephrine or whatever #it is!!! so this is all silly!!! EXCEPT WE HAVE NOTHING ELSE RHAT WORKS ON DOPAMINE! #so i guess i’ll just suffer!!!!!! #aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa #i don’t want to try stimulaaaaaaaants #😤😤😤