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shoyoist · 2 years

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im satisfied. that's it. im happy if they're happy and everyone is alive and well and sigh, I sure hope things don't do a 180, and you know what? they won't :) they won't bc I say so :) but I kinda wished this ch was a bit longer bc I wanted it to explore a lil more in depth how exactly they fixed all of this, ya know?? I wanted to see Michi with kisaki and how they bonded n stuff !! and sanzu baby :( WHEN I SAW IZANA OMG the eighth division captain :,)) even after he thought he couldn't be saved he was <3 and seeing shin alive was like wow, an out-of-body experience, im so glad everyone is ok for now im actually kinda hoping the alluded wedding at least i think the last panel shows a church so alluded wedding but idk is emma and draken's please i would sob i want them to be happy AND omg i wanna see baji as an adult, begging and praying rn

even with the plotholes and the ending feeling a lil rushed im all for tokyo revengers friendship is magic, its like adding a random fluffy ending to a very very angsty story but idc im happy if they okay, i feel warm and fuzzy and hopeful and everythings gonna be okay 😌💕

anyway tokyorev makes me forget how to properly structure my thoughts <3

me too tina me too <3 seeing everyone alive & happy and on the same side felt like heaven after all the angst.

i heard that wakui faced problems with shonen jump, due to tokyo revengers becoming too dark and violent to suit a "shonen" magazine + other issues, which i'm sure is much of the reason why he's wrapping things up so quickly and making the ending happy.

it's certainly a sharp turn after all the pain and death, but i'm welcoming it with open arms!! and god i hope it stays like this 😭 i hope it's actually a happy ending, and i hope we're just going to see everyone enjoying the wedding (takehina? drakemma? idm which! as long as it's not kisahina. oh my god that would be terrible LMAO) and having a good time. no funny business wakui, not now when you've made it this far 😭😭

i think if i sat down and thought for a bit i could write entire essays on every character and every arc of tr bec everything is just so deep and full of meaning and open to discussion!! i love this manga svm <333

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lambowverde · 2 years

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A Passing Wish (2)

Pairing: Mitsuya Takashi x Reader

Cw: Angst with comfort, mentions of death

Word count: 1.7k

Summary: In which Mitsuya's feelings eat him alive, and he spills.

Note: Alas, the continuation!

“Takashi.”

Amidst his sleep, a melodious voice greets his ears. He recognizes it, it’s oh so familiar and calming. Mitsuya just couldn’t put a name or face to the voice just yet.

“Takashi, baby.” Once again, it calls to him. There’s a gentle tug on his shirt, before he’s slowly being shook awake. “Honey, if you don’t get up, your breakfast will get cold.”

Ah, he knows who it is now.

You.

Opening his eyes, the soft streak of sunlight illuminates your face in a way that makes you even more breathtaking then usual. His breath hitches, and his heart speeds up drastically. Beautiful. You’re so beautiful, there’s no way you’re real.

Just as he’s thinking this, your lips curl, making a beautiful smile that he couldn't help but be enchanted by. Your soft hands goes to caress his face, and he finds himself leaning into it before he knew what was going on. “My love, good morning.”

“Good morning, sweetheart.” He whispers back. You’re serene, and he fights back the urge to take you into bed with him. It’s normally him who wakes up first, but maybe due to what happened last night, he was feeling more tired then usual.

“…Babe? Why are your eyes so red?” Your smile disappears as you zone in on his face, studying him with an alarmed expression. For a second, he was confused. Why were his eyes red? But then he remembered crying, praying to the stars as he made his New Years wish. This is the consequences of crying your heart out, he pieces together.

“And they’re puffy.” Eyes widening once it dawned on you, your hands goes to grab his face, making him look straight into your eyes. “Were you crying?”

His natural reaction is to deny. He doesn’t want you to worry, afterall. You already have so much on your plate, so many things to do and think about. Why would he add on to that? And something so stupid nonetheless. How was it any of your problem that you still loved another? Draken was an amazing person, he would know. If anything, it was Mitsuya’s fault for being inadequate. He should be better, do better, make you happy and move on.

But he couldn’t do that, no matter how hard he tried.

Just as he was about to open his mouth to tell you, “My eyes are irritated, that’s all.” You beat him to it.

“Please don’t give me any excuses. Talk to me, I want the truth Takashi.” Flinching upon realizing that you saw right through him, he quickly shuts his mouth. It’s what a year of being together would do, you know him like you know the back of his hand. Not to mention, you were friends way before you had gotten together, close ones, why did he think he could get past you?

His insecurities threaten to bubble over. Where does he even start? What can he even say? He’s been hiding how he felt for so long, the knowledge of knowing that he’ll never be enough for you. How could he be when you’ve already had Draken? The man who he knew used to be the center of your universe. You’ve loved him ever since you were young, while he watched the whole time from the sidelines. Cheering you two on with a fake smile and empty congratulations.

On the night that Draken passed, Mitsuya remembered him pulling out a wedding ring. The very same one that he was about to propose to you with, and would later die with clutched in his hands. And you, you were going to say yes. But then you heard the awful news, how he pushed a kid out of the way to only get run over by the speeding truck instead. He remembered how he felt when he himself heard the news, how his best friend died a hero, leaving his stricken lover to mourn for years to come.

Eventually, you ended up in his arms. Mitsuya doesn’t know how, doesn’t even really know why you’re with him in the first place. But you’re here, and perhaps it was because you saw Draken in him, or maybe you simply craved what you use to have. Either way, Mitsuya was going to make the best out of it.

A part of him is ashamed. Scratch that, all of him is ashamed. With the fact that at one point, he grew envious of Draken. Jealous of the fact that he had you, how he got to hold you in his arms and be everything you could’ve ever dreamed of. How could he feel that way? About his best friend of all people? What was wrong with him? When did Mitsuya turn so…

Sour? Angry?

Evil?

And now he was loving you, physically and mentally, when he knew damn well that it should’ve been Draken doing this instead. That was why he never visited his grave. That was why he couldn’t visit Draken’s grave, he didn’t have the audacity.

How…How does he tell you all of this? All this ugliness inside of him that collected and grew over the years? You’ll never stay with him after this. How could you ever love him when he’s this awful?

At one point, he fell into your embrace. His head was lying on your chest, as he listened to your gentle heart beat that rhythmically thumped against him. Stroking his hair, you were murmuring something that he couldn’t quite make out. “It’s okay. It’s alright. Everything will be okay honey. If you don’t want to talk about it, you don’t have to. But it has something to do with me, doesn’t it?”

How did you figure it out?

“If it does, then I really, really want to know. I can't stand the thought of hurting you, ‘Suya. Tell me and let me fix it.” It’s not your fault though. Why would you blame yourself like that? He has to make it clear.

“It’s not…you.” He mumbles, as he closes his eyes to better focus on your tender touches. “It’s never you.”

When he peaks up to take a look at your face, it’s your enchanting eyes filled with concern that has his throat going dry. He was worrying you. Fuck.

Before he knew it, he found himself spilling out everything. Not once did he meet your eyes again, opting to instead bury his face between the valley of your breast. Never did he share his concerns and negative feelings so openly. Mitsuya had never really learned how to. Who was there to tell? His mother, who was already working three jobs? Or his little sisters, who barely knew what was going on?

“Fix your own clothes Takashi.”

“Make your own meals Takashi.”

“Take care of your sisters, Takashi.”

It was always him from the start. Him, and him alone.

Not stopping until he was done, everything he felt said out in the open and lingering in the air, he breathes. It felt…it felt freeing. He’s never admitted his wrong and selfish feelings to anyone before. Hell, he’s never even said them out loud. They’ve been trapped inside him for god knows how many years. And this is the first time they’ve ever gotten out.

Might be the last, too.

What face were you making? You didn’t interrupt or interject once while he was confessing. Were you fed up? Are you going to leave him now?

At the thought, his arms around your waist tightens. Don’t go, please don’t go.

“…Takashi.” You say lightly, he stills. “I…I’m so sorry.”

Then, something wet hits his head. Confused for only a second, he looks up at you.

Oh.

You were crying.

Tears fall down your cheeks like waterfalls. Your cheeks were tinted pink, and so were the tip of your nose. Everything on your face spelt sadness, and he’s baffled by your response. Holy shit, he made you cry.

Mitsuya made the love of his life cry.

Before he could say anything, you hiccup. “I’m so sorry. I had no idea you felt this way. For so long. We’ve been together for so long and I didn’t have a clue.”

Gaping, he’s unsure of what to say. It wasn’t your fault, how could you have known when he never said anything? “You’re not second to Draken. You’ve always had a special place in my heart, even when he was in the picture.”

…What?

“Sweetheart, I’ve moved on long ago. Did I love him, at once upon a time? Absolutely. Will Draken always have a place in my heart, of course. But did time, and you, helped me heal and move on? Yes. You spent so many nights holding me while I cried. Everyday, you would check on me. Cook me dinner, clean my house, take me out to get some air so I wouldn’t coop out in my apartment.” He remembers that, he remembered how hard it was for you.

“And you did that for years, until I slowly got better. Until I finally found myself again. I was stable and felt like I was whole. I moved on sweetie, I would’ve never said yes to your confession otherwise. How could I do that to you? Being with you when my heart belonged to someone else?”

It’s hard to breathe, he realizes. “But…you never said I love you back. I thought it was because…” You didn’t, he means to say, but it’s caught in his throat.

Flushing, your face gets redder. “I…I have. I mean, not when you can actually hear it. I haven’t said I love you much, you know I didn’t grow up with the most loving family. I just have a hard time saying it. So I’ve actually been practicing whenever you’re out.”

Mitsuya’s brain struggled to process your words. You loved him. You loved him! Holy shit you loved him! And you were practicing saying it? That’s so cute—

“I’m sorry I didn’t make it clear. I’m sorry that I made you feel like this. You were never just a replacement for Draken to me, never.”

You inhale, before exhaling. “I…I love you, Takashi Mitsuya. I’ve loved you for a very long time. And I swear I’m going to make that clear from now on.”

Without knowing, not feeling, he cries. He doesn’t remember himself being a crybaby, but maybe he was turning into one. But he couldn’t help it, couldn’t hold back the wave of emotions that came crashing down on him.

You said it.

“I love you more.”

And with those words, he pulls you down to meet his lips.

For the first time in a long time, Mitsuya felt the weight in his heart disappear. The voice of guilt and insecurity in his head stopped.

Finally, he was at peace.

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