#i can't even think straight rn

[languagenderflux]

i am so pain and tired. i can’t believe this is just a cold (covid and flu both negative). can i just be diagnosed with feels-like-shit-itis and never have to work again?  please?

#personal #work #sick #not covid #i can't even think straight rn #everyone at my job is literally dropping like flies too #no they're not sick #they're just quitting due to poor management #and today my manager was probably forced to do my job for once #which i find absolutely hilarious #i hope she has to stay late bc of me #my 2 coworkers and i all want to quit at once #and then she'll know what it's really like to run the place by herself #(bc she's a control freak who passes all her duties to other people) #and so does the other banker #like that would make me genuinely fucking ecstatic to see them have to deal with that for once #maybe then they'll learn their lesson in management #maybe

[hilacopter]

conflating diaspora jews with the actions of the israeli government is not okay, yes, but have you considered it's not okay to conflate israeli jews with them either

#listen. no hate to diaspora jews. y'all are suffering unimaginable antisemitism rn. #but as an israeli it makes me so mad how they're always the only ones leftists care about when it comes to antisemitism if even #“nooo guys we can't be mean to diaspora jews because of isnotreal it's antisemitic and wrong!” #“israelis? now those are completely fine to harass and wish death upon <3” #people just straight up don't see us as humans deserving of basic decency i think #when they at very least pretend to or believe they like diaspora jews #leftist antisemitism #antisemitism #israel #jumblr

[lesbianjudasiscariot]

#these lyrics are so fucked up #cause it really felt like such a betrayal #the high school lesbian experience being in love with your straight best friend i guess #lucy stop writing about the most relatable and painful experiences please my heart can't take it #i can't even think of christine rn #♡

[capricioussun]

Will probably delete later but genuinely WHY do so many ppl hate uf papyrus. "He’s horrible and a bad brother and abusive >:(((" my guy. YOU made him that way

#always weirds me out when a really bad take becomes popular fanon and ppl treat it like it's an inherent universal take #happens to all characters I feel but it's esp frustrating when it's not just a bad take but just straight making a character a certain way #as a plot device. or to project ur own issues onto. at that point just. make an oc or smth. why mangle a character so severely. what is #the purpose #im not even going to TRY to pretend i have perfect ic flawless interps (I absolutely don't and know this) #but even w/ characters I have minimal interest in (like asgore for ex) it's important to me to at least *try* to keep them in line w/ their #og counterparts. #and you'd think. given how so many ppl infantilized Papyrus. that some of that would've bled thru into au counterparts #but nope. the fanon versions are practically just wholly different characters who just look similar and 'fill the same role' in their au #and it's honestly not like there's a shortage of other characters sans could have a toxic relationship with in uf #(bc let's be honest here that's 90% of the reason uf papyrus got characterized that way. for ppl to project onto and sympathize with sans) #I don't like having strong negative opinions on things and I especially don't like talking abt them publicly but idk if it's just weird #timing or smth I've seen so many bad takes the past couple weeks #to each their own and I'd never like. bash someone for having a diff take than me. I just don't...understand. #idk #I'm really tired and my eyes are sticky so I really shouldn't even be posting rn bc I will see this later and be like #can't BELIEVE that guy posted an opinion on the internet. WHY would he do that

[frecklystars]

nightmares have rendered me unable to sleep once again so i've been dancing in my room to Elvis music pretending K is dancing w/ me for the past 45 minutes. I think it'd be his way of trying to make me feel better. he isn't very experienced with comforting others but he hears me gasp awake, hears me crying. he knows the drill by now. he immediately gets up. takes my hands and pulls me out of bed. asks me if i want to talk about it, and if i don't, he turns on some music and swirls us around. he mimics elvis' voice while singing to the songs, knowing it'll make me laugh. when i finally do, he's smiling, saying very gently "there you are, sweetheart... there's my girl"

#its funny he doesnt even listen to elvis in his downtime in canon and he's become synonymous w/ his music in my mind #im so tempted to draw him in a black leather jacket and me in a poodle skirt #sharing a milkshake at the diner. OH GOD WAIT i want to draw me and Driver doing that #i need my F/Os more than ever rn it's gonna be uh. a difficult day bc i gotta work soon #and im running on VERY little sleep 😭 #i didnt sleep for 60 hours straight and then i only slept for 2 hours just now and i jolted awake #and i cant sleep again ;~; #but thank god i have ryan F/Os to think about when i jolt awake now #my dolls or my posters being the first thing i see when i wake up scared. is comforting #every tme i blink my eyes burn but it feels better knowing Driver would understand... or Six would get it bc he has c-ptsd too #i need them to hug me so tight. augh. hell on earth i wanna sleep so bad #IM FINE i dont mean to complain. well yes i do. im running on such little sleep my thoughts are all over the place #woof #love notes #💕♬♪ ♡ I can't help falling in love with you ☆- ̗̀💛 ̖́-☆ #vent #I GUESS?

[mattodore]

the reason why i was offline for a day was bc i was in cas editing mattodore and messing with my cas bg, yeah, but also... i found another oc ask game that i liked the questions for so i started drafting theo and matthias's answers for them....... there's 100 questions this time so i've just been like this in google docs

#river dipping #when theo's doc inevitably ends up passing 5k.......... let's not mention it let's simply not mention it #i'm also in spotify playing the respective mattodore playlists while hopping between their answers #i think i've just been listening to their playlists and renaissance and amir and <copingmechanism> for the last month straight #my top tracks and artists of the month rn are definitely a testament to that..... #succession season four soundtrack “action that” is also on there tho <333333333 love you kendall roy <3333333 #anyway i have no idea how long it's gonna take me to finish answering these questionnaires for the both of them #but i really enjoy doing this... i said before that i've reread their last 60 questions posts so much i've started to memorize them #and i can tell it's gonna be the same for these questionnaires when i finish them like i will be pouring over them like a man possessed #whenever i finish them (bc i AM planning to spend all of my free time on them after this) i'll share them with updated character pics #so i'll have to go in game for that. i'll need to update their character pages entirely honestly they've changed so much in the last month #like physically #well not matthias....... kjfdvnkdfgjh but theo looks SO... not different exactly but like... he's evolved. #also their last character page pics are ugly kjfkvjhnkjfgh no offense to past me for trying to be cute and edit differently but lmao. #i'll redo all of the echthroi character pics too so can't wait to have 500 new gshade screenshots of the eight ocs i have for it #jackson and everett are still missing in action but it's fine. Whatever. i don't even care 🙄 #<- me trying to manipulate my brain using reverse psychology so that it finally pops out a solid image of what i want them to look like

[chirpsythismorning]

🎨 🖼️ 🌈 🩹 🧍🏽💡 🔮⚡️☄️

How Can I Be Sure by The Young Rascals

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Will Won't Believe Mike Has Feelings For Him, Until Mike Unpacks EVERYTHING!

#byler #stranger things #bizarre love triangle playlist #will byers #will's pov #will in doubt still pining his heart out #i would expect nothing less #'how can i be sure. in a world that's constantly changing. how can i be sure. where i stand with you' #this entire song centers on this question which i think fits really well with what will's feelings about mike the night el left #bc mike has been giving so many mixed signals over the last 24 hrs #one minute he's ignoring will then he's suddenly upset bc will's ignoring him then he's lashing out at everyone then he's closed off #there's also this other layer of anxiety for will obviously that mike knows about his feelings #and i say this bc this is how the average fan interprets these scenes: ie 'will is gay and mike is awkward bc he knows how will feels' #and that's bc this could arguably be will's pov we're getting or at least his worst fears in these moments of confrontation #so will now having to grapple with the concept of mike also being hurt about will not reaching out... will: *scratches head* #if anything will thinks it's obvious mike knows how much he cares for him (as he has fears mike knows they go beyond care) #the whiplash this gay kid is experiencing rn i can't imagine #even despite maybe having hope in the past i do think will is under the assumption mike is straight as an arrow #and yet they're still best friends (or at least will hopes they are) #so where do they stand? #'whether or not we're together. together we'll see it much better. i love you. i love you forever. you know where i can be found.' #'how can i be sure? i'll be sure with you' #despite all this uncertainty. in the end will still wants to be there for mike and be a team #and how convenient will feels this way when mike feels the exact same? (in more ways than one....) #4x03 #gif

[amandabe11man]

alison and adam are the only ones in the movie who refer to lawrence by his first name. one of them is his wife and the other is??? on the same level as his wife?? adam and lawrence relationship CANON

#saw #saw 2004 #i can't formulate this thought very well rn but i hope you get it anyway #been thinking about this recently bc i am mildly bothered when ppl refer to lawrence as 'gordon' or 'dr gordon' only #everyone does it in the movie. even zep who hates his ass #even john and even TAPP #these three are all out to get lawrence one way or another and yet they respect his title? i never understood that #meanwhile alison (who lawrence loved at least at some point) and adam (his fellow prisoner) never call him that #i mean obviously alison doesn't bc they're married. but adam? #adam plows straight through formalities and right into the 'center' of lawrence #bc lawrence's title isn't his whole identity. it's not who he IS #he's just a flawed man. just like adam #alison is the closest person to lawrence (or used to be) and SOMEHOW- #SOMEhow adam has known him for like- a few days and he's already at the same level of 'intimacy' with lawrence that alison is #mentally i mean. neither adam nor alison pull any punches when calling lawrence out #i'm talking in circles rn but you get it right? #you GET IT. don't you??

[izzy-b-hands]

First new full fic that I've also had the motivation to post on ao3 is done and up after what I can only describe as a minor writing marathon

Mainly rizzy and edizzy, but hints of ed/jack, izzy/jack, and roach/izzy/ed too. Absolutely NSFW bc I basically zoned out while ridiculously horny and when I came back to it...this fic remained lol

Anyway pls enjoy if u give it a go, it was fun to write and I hope folks will like it!

#text post #on that note i have been writing since like. ten thirty pm last night so #like seven straight hours. uh. my eyes feel so very open rn flkdsajlasfjd #im gonna pass out on my floor i think once my laptop is turned off #in the meantime i hope you guys enjoy this and give u my thanks and love even if u start it and decide it isn't ur cup of tea #i can't decide if im feeling brave enough to ship tag this but if anyone reads and decides to reblog feel free to add those on if u want lo

[t4tbedehopmar]

well now i just feel bad

#the pokemom anime...... grrrr......... #I'VE NEVER WATCHED A SINGLE JOURNEYS EPISODE BC I/BEDE AM NOT THERE SAGUFALUEFLUCWLUSFLHWCLHSCLHACSLHVAOUVSOUVA #AND OFC THERE'S OTHER REASONS!!!!!!! i can't stand seeing ash more than 5 minutes straight fkdhjdjs #oh man i feel so bad rn...... my boyfie and bestie ever are there and i don't even watch it for them......... #BAH IT'S NOT EVEN WORTH IT THEY'RE ONLY THERE FOR LIKE 20 MINUTES. NOT WORTH IT #PLUS NOT EVEN OPAL IS THERE. OPAL!!!!!!!! i fucking hate the anime #oh wtv i'm never watching it. it's stupid and full of ash and i can't stand it hmph! 😤😤 #i don't even watch animes...... i've only seen some chapters of the xy anime and that's it....... that was a good anime me thinks #OK ENOUGH RANTING i didn't say anything 👍👍 u will ignore this post forever 👍👍👍👍👍👍👍👍👍 bye

[harrowharkwife]

it would be cool if talking to my mom could help me feel better for once instead of. making everything worse

#sometimes i get so violently jealous of people who have good relationships with their moms #and who can go to their mom with any problem and just get a hug and some good advice #or even just reassurance that it will be okay #like my mom came over for a couple hours and i literally told her yesterday about how depressed i am #and that it's really bad and that i need to go on antidepressants #so why tf did she think i was in any frame of mind to be nagged for two hours straight about logistics and plans for the future #like. i don't have any bandwidth right now!!! for anything!!! take the fucking hint!!! #i ended up bursting into tears and telling her to either knock it off or get out of my house and. well. she left! so #my dad is usually my supportive parent but he's dealing with such bad depression and burnout of his own rn #that i can't really go to him with anything cause he's at capacity and i don't want to stress him out #just. im tired I'm so fucking tired im exhausted there's too much to worry about and she came over and put like twenty more things #on my plate #and tried to pick fights #and i just. idk. i wish i could rely on her. but i can't and i know that and IDK why i keep trying #delete later

[lovesickgoose]

If I'd have known my last drawing would be so popular, I would've put considerably more effort into it

#:wailing: #does this even make sense. someone's talking at me rn and i can't think straight #not scribbling

[astrxealis]

super busy but hi i miss ffxiv i played again today raghh happy 10th anniv the rising event makes me cry i love ffxiv :(( but anyway! bg3 thoughts in tags!

#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚ #meow :3 #my approval w shadowheart is so high lol ... she & my tav are a couple. of bestiesss <3 #astarion is amazing bcs i got bit the 2nd fucking night of playing and just before that too lae'zel wanted to get in my pants #IT'S AMAZING what the first cutscene i got for long rest was wyll already turning into a devil bcs i had all origin charas alrdy #and then after that ?? astarion bite scene. he didn't even talk abt the stars anymore or whatever he just jumped straight to biting my tav #oh my god and lae'zel wanted to get it on w my tav SOOO badly ... her dialog is so funny i love her #anyway :3 my tav is a slowburn w astarion but they r fr getting there. sometimes rising sometimes going down but it's been rising more #lately and teehee <3 my tav also thinks karlach is the sweetest and ADORES her. you can see him making soft heart eyes at her always. #also got the learning magic moment w gale and god it's so dangerous for me to get gale cutscenes tbh bcs i'm trying not to favorite him here #he has. what. stuff w magic and stars. shut up. i can't handle that rn or i'll fall in love LMFAO <3 #wyll ..... i don't use him in my party good gods and he Still remains the character i know the least even tho i know him a lot more now #but i REALLY like him. i would say he's my 3rd fav after karlach who is after astarion but so are shadowheart and gale and lae'zel... so. #i'm. not forgetting anyone right #but yeah basically all of them r my favs <3 and my tav gets along w all of em p well tbh #he's a good nice person but chaotic (he's my bard baby boy <3) so it's REALLY fun playing bg3 w him as my tav ... apollo my dear #i should make an elf oc named emil. give him brown hair. be even more self-indulgent thru making more & more charas. #btw i saw a painting of apollo online today. as in the god. and almost cried (positively) bcs my tav named apollo looked so similar #amazingly w the slightly curly hair blah blah blah and the general colors. apollo just. generally means a lot to me ok. anything w apollo.

[queen0fm0nsterz]

Incredibly tempted to write an analysis of each member of the Garuru Platoon both individually, in relation to each other, and in relation to their "counterpart" in the Keroro Platoon

#sgt frog #keroro gunso #over the years those guys have been the only ones which I have always loved consistently. it has been 10 literal years since I found out - #about their existance and I have loved them unconditionally ever since #as i got older my appreciation for them grew expontentially because I developed the ability to appreciate the fact that they are - #surprisingly complex characters in spite of their appearences on the show being so limited #even characters like say... tororo and taruru. which are the members of the platoon who are least used #and its a shame because they both are a delight #especially tororo. i am so angry that tororo never got his own episode... or an episode where he got to act solo #taruru had his little arc of going on earth by himself on a few occasions - zoruru has his whole thing with dororo ( don't get me wrong I - #still think he should have gotten more but considering his character arc it makes sense) - pururu had a whole huge arc on earth - #garuru had his random moments of dropping by casually/we have giroro to tell us about him every once in a while #all of them have these little moments. all except tororo. it makes me mad because tororo is the perfect example of how children on keron - #are exploited by the military at incredibly young ages and its very clear that this fucks them up in the long run. we have adult examples #like dororo. keroro. giroro. zoruru. list goes on. but tororo could have been a look into how a child (even one as smart as him) is - #affected by the whole thing #bc don't get me wrong tororo is a CHILD. he's not a tadpole in a tamama way where he's youthful in appearence but still implied to be a - #young adult. tororo is a straight up child. he can't be older than whatever the equivalent of fourteen is in keron years. #<- i have a reason behind why i say this but im tired rn LMAO #anyway yeah. live laugh love garuru platoon

[jackredfieldwasmyjacob]

you now what really irks me in media? the way m / f friendships are portrayed. i hate that almost always the only way those friendships are depicted are with one of them being queer and the other not so they can't feel romantic attraction to each other; if they can, they will always turn romantic.

#even though most of the examples are within straight friends this could also apply to bisexuals but i can't even thing of an example rn #the only platonic m/f friendship i can think of is elle and lee from the kissing booth which lol #or well aang and toph i guess but the fact that toph as a disabled character isn't seen as a romantic interest is another can of worms

[journeyman-tier-fibercraft]

Trying to power through two WIPs that been haunting me The red shawl only has two dozen ish more rows and the blue shawl only needs about 6 more pattern repeats. I want to start more interesting long term projects but would feel bad about leaving these two unfinished when they’re both less than 10 hours away from being off the needles.

#knitting #knitblr #lace #lace rot #wip #pretend it's wip wednesday and not random tuesday staring at my pile of half finished scarves #the other two wips rn are both straight stockinette so i can knit them while reading #but the blue scarf obv can't with how much lace #and while i did swap to knitting garter in the red shawl (because i was slowly going insane doing the eyelet patterns) #it's VERY loosely plied yarn and super splitty even when i'm paying full attention #if i tried to knit it without looking it would be a Hot Mess in less than three full rows. gotta keep my eye on it. #i've been having a Mental Illness Moment and have been fully on board with doing One thing at a time recently #for several weeks it was a multiplayer game that will not be named. but i loss interest in playing that and it's been on knitting for #over two weeks now? feels like longer than that. the brain wolves have me. #after these are finished i think i'm going to start a brioche shawl that has been begging me to create it for several months now #and probably cast on a super complex lace shawl that i've had planned but haven't started specifically because of these two shawls #I might also take a break for a doily or two and my brain is caught on knitting a market bag despite the fact i won't use it