#i am in such a bad mood today

[orchisailsa]

#murder bros #jby #zzs #mine #i am in such a bad mood today #i can only present dubious memes

[lesbianredhoodedmercenary]

wait kromer rant sounds interesting

Ohhhh the Kromer rant.

Nobody in Limbus thus far has been hit with the fandom flanderization "she would not fucking say/do that" beam harder than Kromer. I've seen both absurdly sexualized "yandere" Kromer and woobified to hell and back Kromer. I think a large swath of people just... ignore that the central pillar of her character is that she is an ableist cult leader.

Yes, she is probably only around 23-24 years old, and yes based on the source material she probably came from a much poorer family than Sinclair. But trying to twist that into her being a hapless victim of circumstance leaves a sour taste in my mouth when we're first introduced to her through the fact that she considers anyone with a prosthetic less than human. Like. We can't ignore the violent bigotry here. N-Corp may have decided to give her a platform for it, but it's not like they groomed her into wanting to kill everyone with prosthetics. She was already like that, and N-Corp simply enabled her to do that on a wide reaching scale because they could make a profit from it (N-Corp's singularity is memory extraction iirc, and the nails are able to extract memories from the people they kill, which in turn are sold by N-Corp as "Experiences" and also what they feed to Nagel und Hammer members to brainwash them).

And as for whatever yandere shit I've seen, I think that's just a refusal to engage with the themes of the text. A shipping-brain only reading. Like, the reason Kromer is obsessed with Sinclair is because if she can convince him to join her, that is a powerful talking point for her cause. "Look, the son of a major prosthetics manufacturer is on our side! His family was going to force him to get a full-body replacement. Isn't it cruel to force that on someone who's barely out of high school? Aren't prosthetics cruel. Aren't they inhuman?" It's a game of rhetoric to her. Sinclair was going through the stress of not wanting a cosmetic surgery and Kromer saw how she could use him as a pawn in her anti-prosthetics agenda.

And Lust as a skill does not necessarily refer to sexual desire. I already said this but since greed was replaced with gloom, lust becomes the de-facto sin for desire. Bloodlust, lust for power, lust for revenge, ect. The fact that some people will take the themes of Kromer's story; how a corporation will platform the most violent bigot they can find to increase their profit margins, how inherently hypocritical Kromer's ideas of "purity of the flesh" are, and how if you give someone so violently bigoted an inch they'll take a mile, and just throw all those out the window in favor of her being some kind of evil succubus obsessed with Sinclair because she wants to fuck him is just incredibly, mind-numbingly frustrating.

And the concept of "Vagina Dentata" needs to be put up on a high shelf until anyone who wants to say distorted Kromer has one can pass an elementary level reading comprehension test.

#this post may be. divisive? idk #i am trying not to directly vaugepost specific bad takes about kromer and just talk about it more broadly #and i am not trying to start any fights or anything. i am in college and i have a job so i can't be arguing on tumblr.com #and i got into a car accident earlier today (i'm fine. just lost the side mirror on my car + some scratches that'll buff out) so #i am not in a Tumblr Argument mood

[friesian]

btw marwyd birthday today. he is 3 since i made him. but now 37 in lore. happy birthday marwyd.

#id post something about it more than this but #1. i don't trust posting any images on this site since the AI thing #2. honestly i am feeling like a bitter hater today so i am just gonna stand in the corner #my mood has been Bad. #but nonetheless happy birthday marwyd ily

[terezicaptor]

ok yeah they actually hate tubbo. Where the hell is he in most playtime

#qsmp neg #txt #neg #Soz I am in a very bad mood today #People are taking this seriously when they see the word hate. I do not mean they gen hate him. I mean I think they underrepresent him <3 #For how much he plays and how much he does on the server

[goldkirk]

CONTENT WARNING for weight loss (a percentage number) and mentions of throwing up

In other news I'm waiting impatiently for a GI appointment to tell them "hi I lost 15% of my body weight in six months and I throw up more often than once or twice a year now so can you please fucking listen and do something this time"

#brought to you by my fatigue and current nausea again #I am. so bad mood last night and so exhausted sad mood today #I’m TIRED #I FEEL BAD #I HATE BEING SICK BUT I HATE NOT BEING TREATED FOR BEING SICK EVEN MORE #NO ONE HAS LISTENED AND TRIED TO HELP SINCE 2017 WITH THIS #I am BEGGING #hello. I’m back. #have I lost enough weight this time? #does throwing up now give me bonus points? #am I sick enough for you to help now??? #or do i still look too healthy?? #I. AM. TIRED. #I considered stopping trying even for a couple week to let them see #how bad it would get if not for my constant efforts with movement and timers for snacks and planning out salt amounts etc #but that would wreck me so bad I don’t feel like digging out of that hole while work is busy coming up #UGH IGNORE ME IM DONE #shh katie #health

[samithemunchkin]

#keegan p russ #cod ghosts #what if I managed to fix up my PC enough to play and record a bit more #what if i make gifs #man I am in such a bad mood this is healing #have already been feeling like shit but today has just been the worst

[nooneelsecomesclose17]

Petition for Aaron never to mention Liv again.

#I am in a bad mood today

[purple-fig]

I have been thirsting for the big bad wolf; our one and only belothed John Tyler so this edit happened

#his bad sure but he could do all the bad things he wanted to do to me so it's ok #i am in a mood for John Tyler #99% of my thoughts today have been pathologically filthy #john tyler #tell me you secrets #hamish linklater #hamfam

[arsonist-chicken]

I got to look at the room in the dormitory and now I'm torn between taking it and running, or maybe taking a bit more time to find something... less really cramped and where the washing machine doesn't smell sour, somehow

#and i have to decide today help #like yeah my flatmates are awful and I hate them and am in a bad mood whenever they're home #but they're usually gone on the weekends so at least I'm alone then #there's Something weird about the dormitory I looked at but I can't put my finger on it. apart from the awful smell in the laundry room #but I mean I could take my laundry to a laundromat if I really didn't want to use that washing machine I guess #there's shared kitchens there too but oh well i've done that before #but by god am I looking forward to living alone after university #all I want is a flat with enough space for a large bed or a pull-out couch for when friends visit #and ideally a balcony and cats allowed #mine #jess' flatmate rants #am I being too picky? all student rooms are very small and shared kitchens and bathrooms are normal #what really threw me off was the washing machine ngl #aaah maybe that's another thing: my old dorm was bigger so more anonymous #this one has a kitchen for 8-10 people #i'm not very social; I don't want to be friends with the people in my dorm; I want to be alone and left alone when I'm at home #anyway. guess I have that to consider for the next hour or so #aah Vse Kar Vem came up and I'm crying again; wonderful #also you know those days when anyone talking in the same room as you makes you want to murder them? i'm on like week two or three of that #with no stop and idk why and what's wrong; send help #ngl maybe my problem is less with the dorm itself and more that I literally can't imagine a good future for myself right now #where I get to not live either in my childhood bedroom forever or only ever with flatmates which. I'm never moving in with strangers again #and I have no friends I could move in with who would want that or don't already live with their boyfriends

[foreverxdaydreaming]

I liked a handful of posts and got "called out for spam liking"? ... just block me at that point if it bothered you so much that I used a basic post function a few times.. on a site where you're supposed to like & reblog stuff... just baffles me

#just block and move on its not that serious 😭 #i hate to sound like a shady bitch bc i hate 'subtweet' typa posts #but it's been a rough day and i just had to laugh at it #if you don't like notifications just block me ig #sorry for liking some fuckin fandom posts???? #im too young to feel this old but too old to be dealing with this nonsense #been in a bad mood this week bc i can barely manage sleep. (i am camel; you are straw) #none of this makes sense anymore. ima go watch smth and pray it annoys me less than ppl have today 💀

[desperatepleasures]

subject line: ow

#i am glad tho i made it through one of the weirder days I've had at work AND my old bookshelf is in its new home #AND i did a very cursory cleaning of my shower today #which really improved my mood cause now im like. i can have a clear mind as i spend tomorrow just Recovering #boy am i in pain tho (from moving that bookcase on top of my baseline pain today which was already Bad)

[raisans-art]

Ok

So

Listen- ok hear me out

Team Plasma tries to take Emmet from Ingo

You can use N here maybe, you dont want literal translation commumication so he probably just Gets pokemon really well, read their body language like pokemon jackson galaxy. Calls it talking with them because hes talking their language (body language and recognized behaviors). He sees how depressed Ingos partner pokemon is and tries to 'free' him from Ingo. Emmet might not be able to use N to tell anyone the truth, but if Emmet doesnt make his feelings on being seperated from Ingo clear, Ingo definitely will. Thats his emotional support Emmet thank you very much.

I just like imagining bamf pissed off train twins looking all cool and serious defending each other 😊 (even if they dont know its each other-)

What you suggest doesn't match up well with the timeline I have for the au.

#ask raisans #i love getting questions about my au #i hate people trying to tell ne what they want to see in the au #forgive me i am in a bad mood today #but it feels like people are trying to play with my puppets instead of asking questions about my puppetshow #brothers starter au

[yangjeongin]

😊😊😊

#hwang hyunjin #stray kids #bystay #createskz #staysource #staycompany #malegroupsnet #hyunjin #*gif #*hyunjin #*ccarly #*carly:hyunjin #u know how usually it's like 'this coloring would look better if u know what the original looked like' well #this one is the opposite. if you know what the original looked like u would know how ugly these are #but also. i am in a very weird mood feeling pretty bad which is why. i made this set #needed the serotonin only hyunjin smiles can bring and this was one of my recent dled vids i didn't gif yet #i had enough timestamps for a 9 set but i didn't have it in me today sorry everyone </3 #love being mentally and chronically ill feeling unhinged

[demo-ness]

i think this website may be allergic to the idea that most medications aren't for neurological stuff

#just saw a post that was an image with the text ''don't forget your meds!'' (this part is good) #next to the autism creature on top of a bottle labeled '''brain helpies''' #and i'm trying to parse my hatred in a way that spares the cringe. i am full of rage #but i will dabble in hating on the cringe a little. what medication is for the autism creature exactly?? #i thought the ''brain helpies'' for autism were universally dangerous and/or scams sold to horrid parents #it's comorbid with adhd but jfc it is SOOOOO inconsequential to forget a stimulant for a day #even compared to other quality of life meds. i'd rather remember to take my thyroid medicine and not be lethargic #and then. do i need to get into my health anxiety. please fucking GOD do not forget something that keeps you healthy #forgetting a stimulant makes you less productive in a day #forgetting something like a cholesterol medication will SLOWLY KILL YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #is it REALLY health anxiety to think one is more important than the other???? #sorry i'm in a bad mood today. take your brain meds congrats on having a perfect body otherwise

[silasbug]

don't call me. don't come to my house.

#also don't look at me while we're at it #ominis gaunt #YEAH I DON'T FUCKING KNOW OKAY #i was trying to study but 'WHAT IF I DOODLED OMINIS COVERED IN BLOOD INSTEAD. HUH. WHAT THEN' #*throws hands up* #'lol what if he got imperio'd on top of it. yeah. come on. do it.' i am just taunting myself into making bad decisions #because i am in a *mood* #and i have gotten NOTHING done today #gonna get absolutely pissed with a friend later and forget all about my incompetence #bug.art #the moles are on the wrong side because i flipped the canvas and forgot about it lol

[moregraceful]

i truly think that like, in the absence of using twitter, and having so many eyes on this blog, the two best things i have done for my mental health lately are create two google forms.

google form #1 has one text field (long) and it says "exorcise your demons motherfucker" and that's the form where i write every insane unpublishable thought that i should keep to myself but need to get out of my brain. this ranges from erotic imagines to whining about things that are too small to get mad about to jokes that i don't know what to do with but haunt me like an intrusive thought. all those thoughts go in the exorcise your demons form.

google form #2 has three text fields (long): 1. little delight; 2. big joy; 3. a thing i am grateful for. they are all optional so i can fill out as many as or as few as i want. i was inspired by the post that goes around every couple weeks about write in the tag a delight in your day. i had more delights more often than i saw the post, but rn those delights are hard to remember after the moment under a mountain of stress, so writing them down when i can helps. and doing it in a google form helps a lot bc i can go back and reread everything easily

and doing both of these in a google doc is way better for me than like a paper journal or sketchbook bc while i sometimes have a sketchbook with me and very infrequently journal, i ALWAYS have my phone on me so if i'm suffering the agonies somewhere away from home, i can just open up the forms on my browser app and write whatever so i don't end up posting something insane or i don't have all the things that made me happy that day jammed up inside of me (or worse, forget everything good that happened.) it's been very nice imho, i recommend it if you're the type of person who processes thoughts through writing or wants to hold onto things, but doesn't want to be carrying a notebook around all the time

#all of this is generally inspired by my therapist making me do a weekly pbat for quantitative data on my mood. the pbat data SUCKS #google form no.1: musing on what could make an oven door more evil #google form no. 2: delighted that i saw my friends and took the train today :) #doing my weekly pbat: ah...i see that despite my best efforts i am still mentally ill this week #we gotta balance out the bad google form with two good google forms #fresno oilers.txt