#i actually dont know if ive ever seen something like this

[gay-artificer]

I've seen people be like downpour ruined how people see five pebbles and im gonna be honest if you were here for any number of years pre-downpour the fandom was always god-awful with the nuance in his character. thats not a downpour thing thats a fandom thing

#niche comparison but if any of you know angela from lobotomy corporation/library of ruina #in the years prior to LOR angela was probably one of the most demonized characters ive ever seen in my goddamn LIFE #NO ONE was going to bat for this girl as anything other than a absolute villain and bitch #i was and im sure some others were too but the vast vast majority fucking hated her #because she spends most of the game being mean to you and then betrays you at the end #and you had to read between the lines to get to “wait a minute whats happening to her is kinda immensely fucked up” #and this is someone betraying you at the end of a very /very/ hard game to 100% and beat proper #then LOR came out and fully explored the depths of her trauma and anger at the situation she was put into #how desperate she was too take something for herself and how little she cared about how the effected others because she was not given that #and suddenly it clicked for everyone! #suddenly she wasnt a heartless bitch anymore! but of course now you had the #'literal infant' crowd because it also explored some ideas of parental trauma/lack of experience with the world #but god it was way more refreshing to see people actually move on from 'theyre an evil bitch' even if it came with 'so shes like a kid?' #and i feel that way about pebbles tbh #i dont get super super into the iterator lore so i cant speak much for the quality across downpour #and its higher focus on them and their stuff #im sure it carries plenty of issues as many things will #but god people sucking at reading the room on the iterators is not new lmao #actually five pebbles and angela are shockingly similar.... #huh?

[identityquest]

lizzie get two wolves 👍

#strato.txt #oil painting #wip #im worried ive unbalanced the composition w the second one on the right tho... its so much closer to the edge #ugh whatever. aunt lizzie is the focus here #i wish i knew what she actually looked like this is just cobbled together from general features of my family #solid build... dark curly hair... bigass ears. she could be one of my cousins. she could be me #ok rq im gonna lay out the story in the tags for anyone who hasnt seen the previous lizzie art #my great-something aunt lizzie was disabled and couldnt walk very well and she died young #she wanted to see the second floor of the farm house real bad but no one ever carried her up there and she died before seeing it #they buried her in a long white dress somewhere down at the creek. we dont know where her graves lost unfortunately #the night she was buried something wearing a white dress walked into the house and up the stairs and disappeared #and sometimes you can hear her down around the creek screaming #somewhere along the line wolves got mixed into the imagery for me #my uncle told me a story about another 'white thing' that was wolfish and would jump on cars #so i just assumed lizzie was a werewolf my whole life #anyways. i think her staying after she died was a manifestation of her desire for autonomy. maybe #maybe if shed had modern accommodations she wouldnt have felt the need to stick around. or maybe she would have idk #either way i think death afforded her control over her own desires in a way she hadnt experienced before #and i think thats why she still hangs around the creek #i hope she would like this. maybe ill take it down there and leave it out for a night when its finished so she can see

[daydadahlias]

you can't reclaim a word that's never been used against you

#if you've never been called fat before please dont use that word #as someone who has been called fat a lot in my life in very painful ways... y'all dont get it #and i dont want people within a hundred feet of a word they dont understand the connotation/power of #im really just sad and tired of seeing non-fat people call ashton fat. because it just Keeps happening a *lot* and i just like #cannot stomach it at this point. i mean i literally see it FREQUENTLY and now ive just seen some stuff about it on my dash tonight and like #it brings me to tears literally every single time i see it. and i *never* see fat people call ashton fat ever. it is *only* non-fat people #and it's because they just simply do not understand how that word feels. and i shouldn't necessarily fault people for it BC they dont get i #but people writing feeder fics about him?? and going out of their way to describe his body in a way they never would a thin person's... #and more than that. like. he's not *fat*???? that's just not the right word. sure he HAS fat. everyone does #but calling him fat pointblank is just like... i do not see the benefit in it. he's Big. he's Muscular. but he's not *fat* #and it makes me think that you dont know any fat people. when that word has only ever been used in a derogatory manner by the majority #i mean that is NOT a neutral word. at this point in history. and if you have never experienced the harm that it can bring i just #i mean i dont know why you *want* to be using it #so yeah uh saying my bit on that bc y'all know me #im a little blabber box chatter mouth #and it's just something that i see a lot of especially on ao3 and one of the primary reasons actually that #i dont really read new fics by authors i dont know #because the way people treat ashton's body is very different than how they treat others' #and it's usually not fat people creating that content SO! #please uh consider maybe the words you're using... and how they could affect others! #ok i have a lot of homework to do tonight so im gonna. hunker down and do that #and feel Not Good about my body because if you think *ashton irwin* is *fat* then #i dont really want to know what you think about an actual fat person

[sonknuxadow]

they werent lying that knuckles series barely has knuckles in it

#i pirated that shit Btw just so we're clear. also gonna talk about it a little bit in the tags #nothing too spoilery but also might not wanna read if you want to go in knowing absolutely nothing? idk #anyway he WAS a main character still he was present for a decent amount of the first couple episodes #but the amount of screentime he gets just starts dropping after that . hes barely there at all in the second half ??? #and it feels like theres a lot of scenes mostly focusing on wade and his problems and not near as many for knuckles and his whole deal #overall it feels more like a wade show with knuckles in it than a knuckles show with wade in it. which sucks #and human characters having plot relevance isnt the problem here i dont mind human characters at all i think they can be really fun #its the fact that the human characters are taking over the story and spotlight when the show is called knuckles #and all the marketing makes it look like knuckles is the main focus #and i also would have preferred if they just went with a differnet character to be knuckles' human friend #because i dont particulraly care about wade. and the knuckles (and sonic and tails) i know would not be friends with cops </3 #well at least the story wasnt knuckles training wade to be a better cop like a lot of people were expecting but thats like.the bare minimum #also aside from the issues relating to knuckles' screentime (or lack of screentime) i thought the ending was unsatisfying #regardless of all that though there WERE some parts i enjoyed or found kind of funny or whatever. because knuckles so cutesy as always #knuckles being a cute little guy is the most important part of the show actually #and i liked the parts with sonic tails and maddie even if they were only there for like 5 minutes #(i really wish those three had gotten more screentime. i feel like they could have easily worked in at least one more scene with them) #and its a minor thing but the opening sequence is cute. was honestly expecting just a title card or something #overall the show is just . kind of okay i guess. not the worst thing ive ever seen but still disappointing ? idk how to explain.. #my expectations also werent very high in the first place #so maybe im being a bit more generous than i would have been otherwise. idk #and i definitely would not recommend this to anyone who already dislikes the sonic movies . youll probably hate this more #like people who thought the human characters got too much screentime in the second movie would lose their minds if they saw this

[chesthighwater]

where do YOU stand on the Teague Martin Genuineness Of Belief spectrum??

like ok suppose on one end we have 0% genuine: doesn't care at all about the strictures or the abbey, the whole thing is just a ruse to further his agenda, not religious at all.

on the other something approaching 100% genuine: actually fully believes in the strictures and everything, genuinely feels awful about himself for breaking them, very religious.

one moment i will illustrate

#teague martin #forgive me for tagging something that involves my mspaint monstrosity but i genuinely want to know #i dont think ive ever written a completely scheming martin like theres usually at least a bit #of actual belief in there (even if its very very minor) #but i find it hard to imagine a VERY religious martin given the. everything else. #but ive seen it written! and very well too! #i just find it interesting to think about also bc its a decision i make anew every time i start a project #and you can take it literally either way because the canon on this is. lmao #hes shady and mysterious and may or may not be up to shit at all times but we dont Know know

[thiamfresh]

Was going through the airplanes tags on different sites to try and get inspiration to write and found a whole bunch of posts about how awful, Boring, cringy and ooc it is🤣

And like. I understand that everyone is entitled to their opinion and believe me I know there are wayyyyyyy better thiam fics out there and that airplanes has a lot of problems.

But also I'm devastated that what started as me enjoying edits and nice comments turned into me reading strangers trash talk and warn people off something I worked really hard on and was really proud of up until I saw a whole community of people laughing about how I'm a shit writer and how my fic is one of the worst in the fandom.

I've been desperately trying to get over writers block for literal years and was finally starting to get there and make some headway on both fics and my original work and now the idea of writing makes me want to throw up or burst into tears

So I guess this is just a PSA to not talk shit about fan created stuff you weren't the creator of on a public forum because there is a fair chance that the creator will see it and will be deeply hurt that you chose to announce your hatred of something they put their heart and soul into to the world and engage in public humiliation of it rather than like chat shit in your friends DMs if you really hate it so much you have to talk about it.

#like if you have ever said 'i dont actually like that fic' or something similar i support you and i love you #because ive seen lots of post/comments like that and theyve always just rolled off because again everyone is entitled to their opinions #but if youve publicly bashed my fic and laughed about how terrible it is i hope you know that i think youre a meaner #and you hurt my feelings #thiam #thiam airplanes

[spearxwind]

Thinking about the time i commissioned an artist i rly liked for something and the result was kind of really catastrophic just from the preview image in the email so i just. never opened the actual image

#i dont even know where it is #honestly ive had such bad luck commissioning art of adri that ive completely given up its like an anomaly #thunderclap #fan art my lovely followers and friends have done for me for free: literally the most swagful things ive ever seen #actual for real honest to god art i have paid real money for: worlds most inconceivably off model take #the only exception to this is when ive commissioned my friends themselves #i know this is a mean spirited post usually i dont mind like creative liberty I usually say yeah feel free to interpret my characters freel #but like. sometimes its not remotely the same character #thinking still about the uh. the art i got from [popupar twitter artist] in exchange for one of my adopts instead of them paying money #and they like. did it so off model they just made a whole new guy. the art? yeah it slaps obviously. but thats not my oc 😭 #congratulations thats the worst anyones ever done it!! #this is something i personally try not to do when i do commissions too unless very explicitely stated. 'do your own take' #and also i make sure that the sketch is on-model and the client is happy etc etc #i dont know what it is about some artists where they just go ouuhhh what if i . redesigned ur oc for u. HUH #anyway thats all i gottta say this is a weird post but i think about it a lot #before you ask no im not gonna name names. this is my own personal beef

[trans-estinien]

i love being autistic cause sometimes i get a glimpse into how regular people perceive things and its like. what the fuck. what the fuck is that? you live like this? and its normal?? i think YOURE the weird one actually. im fine. thanks though.

#THERES SO MANY WEIRD RULES #LIKE WHAT DO YOU MEAN PEOPLE PAY ATTENTION TO HOW SOMEONE WALKS LIKE HUH????? WHY???????????? #can someone fucking explain the dude head nod thing to me why do we do that. whats that about. ive never seen anyone do that irl before #is that an american thing or do i just hang around too many afab people #i am learning the intricacies of cis people gender rules and i am. what fucking planet have i been on the last 17 years like what is this #was there some like. rulebook they handed out at somepoint they forgot to give to me or something #“best way to learn is to observe the men around you” OBSERVE WHAT. YOU PEOPLE PAY THAT MUCH ATTENTION TO EVERY LITTLE MOVEMENT???? #bruh i can barely make eye contact w people... #my ass has never intentionally copied someones mannerisms ever. #i do it subconsciously. but doing it actively feels weird and wrong and like im breaking someones boundaries #“men dont smile at people.” well they should. #ive decided cishet men are the most boring people on the planet #“dont move with your hands” YOURE BREAKING MY POOR THEATER KID HEART #i need to meet more gay men irl to absorb the vibe of cause i only know like two. not counting myself #i want people to look at me and go. ah yes. fruit. #at this point im just going to accept being misgendered for the rest of eternity. id rather die than be boring in the way cishet men are #my flavor of being trans is so influenced by my autism cause my perception of genders is completely off from what everyone else is doing #im like. yeah i want to be a man. and then i look at what the majority of men are actually like and its like. wait no. not like that #shoutout to flamboyant gay men where would i be without them #i think the thing that bothers me the most is that like #in my mind peoples genders are just. the way they express themselves. #its not like. this super big complex deal like how everyone else treats it. if that makes sense? like. #regular people have so many rules for what counts as a man or what counts as a woman or what counts as neither and its like??? #you can do what you want???? why do we care???? #and ive been doing this since i was little. on account of the autism #i just. dont get why its such a big deal to people. #i cant wrap my head around it at all #not nonbinary not a girl not aegender not a man but a secret fourth thing #(man but i do it my way instead of everyone elses way) #unfortunately doing it my way just. leads to the misgendering dimension. for some reason

[karinyosa]

obsessed with these two images.

#1) WHERE ARE HIS CLOTHES? THERE’S NO RECORDING OF A LOINCLOTH PERFORMANCE? LONGEST IVE EVER SEEN HIS HAIR #2) i’ve only ever seen 90s/early 2000s(?) steve in button ups sweaters and his signature little choker what is #this ODDLY COORDINATED FISHING OUTFIT?? #AKRHDKAHRHAJRG I NEED TO CHEW ON SOMETHING #i’m just realizing the first pic is probably from one of the pilate songs i had assumed it was gethsemane skxbkshs can u imagine #still though most productions i’ve seen don’t go for that level of nudity BOLD choice and with the hair i’m obsessed #like. they’re not even shorts #SCREAM. FRANKLY #jcs #i’ve actually been thinking about these pictures for days and nothing is going to stop it except posting about it #the amount of times i’ve drafted texts about these pics to people and been like. I CANT THEY DONT EVEN KNOW WHO THIS IS #me.txt #undescribed #AH .THAT IS NOT A FISH

[gothwizardmagic]

actually fuck it videos from all the musicians i just recced Listen To My Favourites Boy

#fucking listen to all of these artists theyre all SO GOOD #maisey rika is my fave kiwi musician theres something magical abt her voice #i actually used to know kylie price's dad and sister forever ago lmao and she worked at the dairy round the corner from me #her voice is OTHERWORLDLY in person ive seen her live a few times and i have never ever not cried #frankenpine RULE i got introduced to their music by a choreographer a few yrs ago #and i LOVE IT SO MUCH FR #theres something electric abt their vibe #and it constantly shocks me that the altogether dont have a higher profile considering bdgs involvement #but like fuck theyre so good #Youtube

[alliluyevas]

reading negative goodreads reviews of books you disliked my beloved

#the number of books that are actually bad and have like a 3.8 or even 4+ rating. kms #i feel like ive rarely if ever seen a book rated under 3. i guess a lot of people just dont read books they wont like. but i dont always kno #know if i wont like something! #yeah i just checked and i have logged almost 500 books on goodreads and only two have less than 3 starts average rating. and they're both #obscure soviet history books that like 5 people total have reviewed

[bmpmp3]

a lot of anime opening single b-sides get kinda overlooked but Everyone Should Listen to the b-side of fabiniku’s opening Refrain this song has been consuming my mind for the past 48 hours LIKE listen to it

the weirdass white noise/ darth vader breathing noise in the beginning and the quiet parts, the jazzy drums in the verses, guitar riffs that will make any dad who listens to too much classic rock air guitar his heart out, the vocals at around the 3:20 mark, the fantastical synth melody, THE FLUTE ASS SOUND are you listening to me are you listening to the FLUTE? the WOODWIND INSTRUMENT in the ‘refrain... refrain... refrain...” sections and the DISTORTION on the “refrain“s in the final seconds LISTEN TO ME listen to the woodwind instrument

#i havent actually watched this show (i've seen a couple clips tho!) but 1) im a big fan of anison in general like #there's a bajillion anime ops and eds i straight up know NOTHING about but i just like the tune or maybe a seiyuu i like sings it lol #and 2) i HAVE read the manga (its fantastic) and i do this like weirdass thing #or maybe its not weird? it might be normal. getting me to watch a television show is an exercise in futility #so whenever im interested in an anime i just read the manga or light novel if there is one #and then i just... look up the music for the anime later JKFKDSLJFLKDS i like tunes!!! #in practice i usually get a similar or somethings even better experience than the anime watchers #but sometimes some animes source material is like REALLY BAD and the anime basically toned down everything that sucked #so a totally different experience in some cases..................... BUT luckily it seems fabiniku is not one of those #i thought the manga was great at least. i get it now. i understand isekais #i always understood modern isekais in theory but in practice i couldnt quite get there #i was too stuck in proto isekais like old shoujo manga isekais or early mmo isekais so this new reborn in another world style #confused me a lot. i figure it was just wish fulfillment that wasnt for me. but fabiniku... i understand now #who knew the way to get me to fully deeply and completely understand isekais was to make the main character lgbt (every letter at once) #actually that makes sense like i love characters that have clear defined identities a lot BUT #i dont connect deeply with them the same way i do with characters like tachibana hfkjdsdfjkds which is fine!! its good to have both #types of characters because some people connect more with defined labels and some connect more with ambiguity (me lol) #and both are always interesting to read about either way~ #anyway. fabiniku is absurd and hilarious and has one of my favourite romantic relationships ive seen in a manga ever thank you and goodnight

[rohirric-hunter]

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#agains my better judgement i opened the female dwarf discussion again and. #apparently following tolkiens lore and making female dwarves have beards is 'anti casual' #and ssg has to 'conform to mmo player expectations' #which i guess means make the most generic fantasy possible by cutting out every bit of lore that makes this fantasy unique #you dont see people saying tes should get rid of beast races because theyre kind of weird and not common to fantasy #actually you do but those people get clowned on as they rightfully should #back to the point at hand lotro DOES have a beardless option no dwarf is required to have a beard #never seen anyone using it tho #and second of all if you find hair that gross then maybe a dwarf isnt the race for you #and im gonna be honest i dont think ive EVER read a fantasy where female dwarves DIDNT have beards that is very much the norm #unless they went and did something radically different with dwarves as a whole like tes did #i dont know what 'mmo player expectations' require female dwarves to be dainty and feminine and hairless #but i do know theyre fucking boring

[sonknuxadow]

i hate the sonic subreddit the people on there are so annoying and unfunny but i have to admit people telling them to change the pride icon because pride month is over only for them to change it to a different pride icon and Still have a pride icon to this day is hilarious

#im not a reddit user btw i just occasionally end up on there when searching for other things #i can only scroll for like five seconds before im hit with the most unfunny and overdone jokes ive ever seen #and even if the post itself is fine and its just cute sonic fanart or an actually funny joke or something #the comments are still full of annoying people #or maybe its not Always that bad i just happened to catch them on days where all the annoying people are online i dont know

[britneyshakespeare]

[britney spears’ voice in the beginning of break the ice] it’s been awhile

#i think one of my friends has a crush on me #tales from diana #& the reason it's been awhile is mostly that it's been awhile since i had like. new friends. who were not completely accustomed to my #bubbly demeanor in the comfort of good company but my overall immovably aromantic nature. #& most of my friends. i dont talk to them about being aromantic but im like. quite sure many of them know whats up. #theyve seen me be pursued before & theyve rarely if ever seen me pursue anyone myself. they know something's going on. #but now i'm making new friends which is good and im quite excited about it & like them which is great. #but im like oh no!! is someone catching feelings for me or am i being vain... oh no wait that's probably not vanity either is that-- #oh no it's legit. #& what's weird is. this time it's not like. my fault? which is strange to say. that someone's attraction to me can or cannot be my 'fault' #but i used to be a compulsive flirt when i was seeking validation in social situations. bc you wanna know how you get ppl to like you? #you make them feel like YOU like THEM. i figured them out in high school. #but you know why it worked for me in high school? a shallow surface level of belonging was all i really got. no one seemingly ever fell #for me all too badly. nobody PURSUED me romantically either. i know ppl did not find me repulsive but i kinda was never 'in' #& then when i got to be an adult & retained that habit. & ppl started... actually somewhat falling for me i was repeatedly asking myself #'oh no what did i do!!!!' whether or not i was flirting w someone all that intensely or not. sometimes i definitely was not but id still #blame myself for being nice to them. while maybe just giving a look or a touch on the elbow. this time i didnt initiate anything!!! #ive tried not to!!! im really trying hard not to fall back into that habit bc i dont like the outcome. i dont like handling ppls feelings. #this time for the most part it seems i am *actually being flirted w* far more than i am doing the flirting... like??????? #~MAYBE~ it was just ~POSSIBLE~ ive been ~ATTRACTIVE~ this entire time #but yeah right. no. every unreciprocated crush ppl have ever had on me has been my fault somehow. so i felt. #& to be clear while i am ripping myself a new one in these tags about these past & present predicaments. i do like this person. i like them. #they're very nice and interesting and funny and all that. i have a good time with them. talking and hanging out and whatnot #im just BAFFLED and i DO NOT KNOW what to do!!! i did not see this coming in the least #this was not part of the plan #how should we like it were stars to burn with a passion for us we could not return? #if equal affection cannot be let the more loving one be me

[carmenlire]

if I can be honest lol I feel like shit and lowkey like everyone hates me because I'm so annoying:/

#i literally havent told anyone except my therapist about exactly why the past few months have been so bad #and i had plans Wednesday with friends i havent seen since November #and i was going to tell them #i finally felt ready to #and they both canceled #and another friend hasnt responded to messages grom earlier #and i know theyre busy but with the cancelation its just making me feel like i suck and i should just never try to be vulnerable ever again #plus Another gc is where some friends were planning out 30th bday trip and onr of the friends #changed the gamr plan to us 4 girls to ... 3 couples and me #and im... actually really hurt? l #that shed think an acceptable alternative to a girls trip (that we havent done since 2016) is 3 girls with their husbands.. and me #and i know things have been terrible for months and the complete burnout and emotional turmoil isnt helping my reaction #but i just feel like all my friends hate me and i have no purpose in their life and they dont wanna see me or care about me at all #i know thats dramatic and juvenile but i am too tired to be emotionally mature #i cant believe i didnt tell anyone for months #and i was finally ready to #and both friends canceled dinner because they double booked even though we made these plans 4 weeks ago #idk i just realized this morning that ive isolated a lot the past few months #and it's almost all because of what's been going in and to have friends bail just when i was resdy to confide in them... #obviously they have no way of knowing this dinner Meant something to me but i vant help the regressive takeaway that i was right and i #should never be vulnerable because my friends don't care #anf i don't deserve (?) to have have that support system #me