#hurts but doesnt at the same time

[asaxophony]

i keep getting my dermtographia hives specifically on my feet and it’s such like a weird pain

#hurty like walking on nails but like also itches at the same time? its such a weird uncomfortable feeling like #hurts but doesnt at the same time #i guess its from the swelling?? but like the itching cancels out the pain and the pain cancels out the itching so its like pins and needles #but just on my skin.

[biruesque]

out of place, out of touch, out of time

#revolutionary girl utena #rgu #souji mikage #mamiya chida #biruesque art #sudden recollection either feels like icy cold water or burning hot iron #either way it hurts you all at once #and there's very little you can do against the condensed hurt you've kept behind a dam for years #i cant imagine also becoming incorporeal and fading out of existence at the same time that kind of thing is happening to you #yes i torment mikage but that doesnt mean i cant feel bad for him lmao

[s0fter-sin]

soapghost circus au

ghost’s an extreme motorcycle stunt performer - globe of death, riding on his back wheel along tightropes, that sort of thing

soap’s a fire breather/dancer. he’s a roaming performer; he just finds empty spaces or bored people and starts twirling

he pretends not to notice the way he always wanders towards a certain tent every night to watch a certain masked daredevil defy gravity. he thinks he's slick and that ghost won't notice him in the crowd, completely forgetting that he's carrying something that happens to be on fire

ghost couldn't miss him if he tried

one day off, soap's trialing fire whips; he loves the loud crack and the way the flame licks through the air and maybe he's a little too impatient to practice with non flaming whips first, even though he's never used one before

he's covered in soot and fine welts where the tip of the whip keeps flicking back up at him, cutting through his shirt and stinging his skin but he doesn't let that stop him. it starts to stick to him, damp with sweat and blood and he's quick to strip it off; throwing it to the side to keep practicing

when soap finally gets a few good cracks in a row and breaks to celebrate, he almost jumps out of his skin when he sees the masked rider leaning against a trailer watching him

of all the times he's wanted ghost to talk to him, this is not one of them

he wanted to impress him, dance for him with his flaming batons and be mesmerised by his fluidity and skill

not catch him filthy and struggling with something as basic as a whip

he's ready for ghost to ream him out for not having control over the whip - he's known throughout the circuit for expecting utter perfection in his routines - but when ghost finally does speak, it's only to ask if he's done for the day

soap falters for a moment. he wanted to get some consistency with the whip before he stopped, but he's starting to feel the hours of practice; muscles aching and skin blistered with minor burns

he says he is and ghost pushes off the trailer, nodding his head to make soap follow. he brings him back to his trailer and tells him to clean up then takes out his personal med kit to treat the grazes on soap's skin

soap's shocked; for all that he loves to watch ghost perform, they've never really talked before

part of why he joined the circus was so he wouldn't be a burden on anyone, the oldest in a family with too many mouths to feed and not even time to nurture, and here he is taking up ghost's valuable practice time be he wasn't good enough to handle his own discipline. he tries to brush him off, downplaying the burns and tries to leave before half them can be treated but ghost just glares and orders him to sit back down

ghost does expect perfection from himself but it isn’t out of any malice or ego; it's bc he knows if he isn't perfect, he could very easily die. he’s picked a dangerous profession and he gives it the respect it deserves. there isn't any shame in being a novice or failing at something; he thinks there's a lot of beauty in having the courage to get back up again and again

so every day he watches soap practice and bullies him into his trailer to put him back together bc he knows he won't do it by himself

and every night soap wanders over to ghost's section of the fair grounds, in awe of his skill and wishing he could be worthy of the care he gives him

#have i posted this before? yes but it has an actual idea behind it now #anyway back on my ‘soap pushes himself too hard to meet expectations only he is holding him to’ bullshit #price is obviously the ring master and id say gaz is probably trapeze #ghost used to work for robas circus who kept pushing him to do more and more dangerous stunts with less and less safety measures in place #and for a long time he thought thats how it was supposed to be #he was supposed to court death every night. supposed to limp back to his trailer and take care of his own injuries #and its only when price comes to one of his shows to scope out roba as competition and confronts him afterwards abt the conditions #that he realises something might be wrong #so seeing his past staring back at him in the form of soap hurts something deep within him and he has to make it right #he doesnt want soap to have to live with the same deep pains that he does #injuries that couldve been avoided if hed just gone easier on himself #coming out of my cage and ive been doing just fine.txt #we’re a team. ghost team #soapghost #ghostsoap #ghoap #john soap mactavish #soap cod #simon ghost riley #ghost cod

[milkbreadtoast]

"I quit my job and became the Princess Bride"✨ Have you read this romance novel? 😇

#twsb #when the third wheel strikes back #섭남파업 #서브 남주가 파업하면 생기는 일 #cedric riester #christelle de sarnez #jesse venetiaan #<--finally... tagging an art w only him and not also the tag jung yeseo... KDBSJ #its actually him this time #IM FINISHED AAAH #this was just... a practice... but it took longer than expected (but at the same time still p short? only 2 days #i didnt color it v detailed but oh my god #coloring on procreate is a fking pain #the shitty excuse for a fillbucket that doesnt even use accurate colors... drives me insane #MY EYES HURT #red eyes white clothes cedric.... who are you #(also christelle w sky blue eyes... pushes them more to the aqua/teal direction to differentiate them more #jesse without ahoge... the ahoge is yeseo's thing <3 #my art #RIP jesse but also thank u for dying(?) so cedyeschris can be a thing yaaay😚 #did u guys notice that i didnt give cedric orange highlights like i always do too... #its weird looking at him... technically ur the same person but... who r u... #QPB

[blueskittlesart]

nintendo hire me i have tons of marketable skills like uhh *checks notes* drawing your characters wrong

#honest to god i drew this link thinking like 'there's no way this is gonna be that bad right' and then i pulled up his model. god #babygirl you are everything to me but why the fuck are your eyes like that. ugly hot king #also fully forgot that i never actually use the eyedropper for his hair bc i think it looks better w a redder tone #OR HIS EYES LMAOOO i always just use the champion's tunic blue even tho they are very much 2 different colors #zelda is a liiiiitle closer i think but i had to draw skinny zelda for this which hurt me a little bit #it is interesting to think abt the features i subconsciously choose to emphasize tho bc like. in my mind her hair clips ARE that big #but theyre rlly. actually not that big an element of her design LMAO #same w link's ponytail. logically i know it doesnt actually stick out like that but i desperately need to know its there at all times #also why the fuck are their model noses so small. i just noticed that. anime has done irreparable damage to the state of noses in art #anyway. #skribbles

[emoreooo]

i love you, i love you, i love you

#FINALLY i worked so hard on this my body hurts sm #ive been wanting to do ship art with this song for YEARS and im so happy its sunkel #i wanted to show how theyve loved each other since the first time they met. and through all the way til they get to this point #and they love each other all the same #manifesting this doesnt flop im SO tired im gonna be resting for a week #<- says guy who likely will drop another piece in a few days #omori kel #omori sunny #kel omori #sunny omori #sunkel #omori #omori sunkel #omori fanart #fanart #my art #oh also the song is pink in the night by mitski :)

[ickyguts]

fucked up edgy ass fanart for a concept I have (I want to do a comic for it at some point!)

CW DRUG USE:

 The idea is that on days where Flippy is particularly on edge (losing his grip on fliqpy and afraid he's gunna hurt someone), Flippy resorts to taking a bunch of his sleep aid/painkillers to sedate him.

 Fliqpy sits like this for the next few hours, confused, fucked up, and out of it.

#wont spoil much but its a hurt/comfort flippaky comic #flaky doesnt know abt fliqpy #flippy feels immensely guilty for keeping that part of him secret and feels as though flaky deserves the truth #but at the same time he is TERRIFIED because he doesnt even know what fliqpy is or how to even bring it up #i want to rant about it so so so much <3 #ill leave it at that tho #htf flippy #htf fliqpy #htf #happy tree friends #cw drug use #flippy has painkillers for the nerve damage in his hands lol #and sleep medication cus obviously #this plot im making means a lot to me but im not gunna say why #i just want flaky and flip/fliq to overcome hardships and be happy #also YIPPE I REACHED 100 FOLLOWERS!! #Ty yall ilysm #ill make a post abt it later

[flashdoesahundredyarddash]

"I'm not your pet, I never liked you, I never cared about you, I won't wait for you. I bite."

VS "I'm not a violent dog. I don't know why I bite.."

(ermmm pointing to who made me draw this... you know who you are...ermm.. (didn't make me but ermm) comparing Thad to Isle Of Dogs has me sobbing goodbye guys...)

#dc will you please give him a family that will love him and show him that he doesnt have to earn respect just to get attention #when they had barry pull up with “he's just an angry kid” and he literally offered to adopt him (didn't happen but basically what could've) #:((( #he reminds me of isle of dogs and that makes me hurt so much #do you know what if feels like to be loved... #thad i will adopt you please #i will literally give you the world for you to be happy #thaddeus thawne #thad thawne #inertia #guys he makes me miserable #speedster ramble #but at the same time it is art #sooo #speedster art #AGAIN? ermm this is a treat #flashfam #because he IS in the flash family to MEEEE #dc comics #i hate this so much (< affectionately)

[hollypies]

Redrawing/remaking my HLVRAI flowercrown au!! Benrey and Gordon are up first!! (If anyone's curious you can go looking for my old flowercrown au stuff, just be noted its was made four years ago LOL and all the old info is completely irrelevant) click for better quality, tumblr killed it 💀

Up next, Tommy and Gman Coolatta!

In the old version of the plot for this au, it had a lot to do with it being a game and such. However over the years it's changed! No longer a game, instead the Rescas explosion seemed to have had a .. strange affect on Gordon, due to him being right next to it. At least, that's what they all believe at first.

#art #help how do i anatomy #gordon freeman hlvrai #gordon hlvrai #hlvrai gordon #hlvrai #hlvrai benrey #benrey #benrey hlvrai #half life vr but the ai is self aware #hlvrai au #hlvrai benry #hlvrai art #basically! during this au each time Gordon dies he “respawns” back at the beginning. right agter the rescas explosion #however he cant bring his body back quite right each time. the different flowers represent who killed him. and the plave of injury . #benrey killed him first. through the eye. it was a misunderstanding! they were just messing around and Gordon . they thought he wasnt human #because he doesnt seem human anymore? they sense it. (so can tommy but that didnt stop tommy from yelling at benrey immediately after) #only as soon as benrey opens their eyes again theyre right back at the beginning and Gordon is trying to pull a flower from his eye. the #the same eye they shot through. augh fuck. anyway benrey is the first to remember. dr coomer and bubby are next to remember ( #the betrayal and then the clones killing Gordon and then being brought back to the beginning. even more flowers. one less arm #tommy remembers last. an accidental kill. #Gordon doesnt “technically” remember! and each time hes brougt back he seems to believe the flowers are almost normal. just rescas stuff. #he can even still see out of his other eye? its fine probably. (everytime he rips a flower petal it hurts. like hes tearing through skin) #flowercrown au #feel free to send asks about flowercrown! i will answer and yhen kiss you with tongue /joke!

[roseworth]

btw i think rose shouldve gone apeshit after finding out that slade started drugging cass like a week after he stopped drugging her

#i actually dont know how long after rose it was but it couldnt have been long #and to me she shouldve been PISSED #'how dare you do this to someone else' in two ways #bc first of all he fucked her up with that drug so obviously she'd hate that the same thing was hurting someone else now #but also!!!!! i feel like in a weird way she'd be upset that he replaced her #bc she had a LOT of resolved issues with slade at that point #and she had been convincing herself the entire time that slade was doing everything he was doing bc he loved her #so to see him do the same thing to someone else??? #she KNOWS its a bad thing. and she hates him. but she still goes '😦 my daddy doesnt love me anymore?' #(in a way this can be cassrose. take my hand)

[skenpiel]

@eebie DANCE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! the dance is from this video ♪(^∇^*)

#HI EEBIE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!LOL #i made this beccause i was listening to that penis song i sent you and i thought it sounded like a song gobou would use #also i wanted a dancing eeber gif ^___^ #keep in mind i ummm. have only animated once before and that was years ago and very very very short #and also it was totally sketchy and stuff. as in it was just a sketch there was no lineart or colors or anything #and also csp apparently dosent let you export transparent animations!?!?!?!? and also it doesnt let you use more than 25 frames!?!?!?!? #its stupid. so i just made a gif on EZGIF.COM instead<333 #which is why the edges look kinda. um. wack. sorry about that but maybe itll go away when this posts? i dunno but i doubt it #btw i think i have eeber poisoning or something. because i draw her all the time everywhere........ #ive drawn her so many times in some stupid little sketchbook we have in our kitchen when i wait for stuff in tha microwave #her design is just sooooo. Yeah!!!!!!!! #anyway this took Ummm significantly longer than id hoped and my back hurts sooooobad #so im going to bed!!!!!!!! but anyways here u go babygirkl <333333 #my art #oh and btw i only listened to the penis (eek!) song while drawing this and nothing else #just. the same penis song for hours on end #and i said i was gonna take abreak when i was done with the lines before i started coloring but 😀👍 i forfot #OH WAIY ONE LAST YBING. i got cery noticably lazy like halfway through so dontt look too close at the frames or youu might get scared 😨

[obihoe]

thinking abt this screenshot of madara looking down on tobirama after attempting to take out his hurt over izuna's death on him .. but tobirama cannot die, he cannot feel pain and izuna is dead anyway so its not enough

#posts #madara #sorry i feel like ive said this exact thing on some post already a while ago .. but i came across this picture again and it brought up #some thoughts #this scene's like the only instance during the entire war arc where we get to see him display any emotion #smth other than lust for battle or excitement etc #we can actually see that even for him as free of emotion as he comes off most of the time #there's quite an amount of hurt for him at the source of it too #mdr also kills sasuke after this. first tries to avenge izn's death but then goes and stabs a stand-in of his right thru the heart #and he looks so unhappy w this afterwards #cuz he feels like he Has to doesnt want to kill him but has to #we also see him remember hsrm's backstab and this time it is not a romantic memory #contrary to the first time when he talks abt him to the 5 kage #here u can see that it did hurt him and he remembers every single word hsrm said to him .. #repeats them to sasuke and then applies that same logic to him as well #hsrm had to kill him for the village so now mdr for his version of peace. has to do the same thing as well #kill his own kin as a sacrifice to achieve what he wants #but also sfdgesfdfsd #just this interaction here w tbrm alone .. its so dissatisfying for him cuz like he wants do SOMETHING abt his grief over losing his #brother. but he cant. he cant even fuck up and hurt his killer anymore over it #its too late #he shouldve done that earlier but couldnt and now its too late #just like everything else is too late for him too. no way back anymore no way to reverse anything thats happened

[todayisafridaynight]

yagami should get his back snapped in half like a toothpick if he wanna fuckin sleep on couches exclusively might as well be doin the same amount of damage

#snap chats #judgement posting real ??? <- hasnt played it yet #LISTEN MAYBE TOMORROW IDK #im thinkin to spend my morning on comms then in-between class time on judgement and then the rest of the night on comms #i may or may not be packed like a sardine... omg that reminds me of my train trip tho #the train system i was taking was kinda sketch on the lowest of keys but it was so funny transferring trains #cause the second train i had to take there was An Atom of room left and thankfully i have the body mass of a paper bag #so i just slipped in but then i was just fucking smooshed against the wall. it was hillarious #oh yeah. 'snap why are yo making this very specific post' because i didnt realize the benefits of sleeping on a bed #all summer when i was at my moms i slept on a couch in our basement since. #i refuse to sleep on the same floor as her at this point LMAO she dont make me feel safe in there #so yeah i just did That for three months and ive obvi been sleepin on a bed since going back to school #and dawg while i was over there for the weekend i only slept on a couch Again #the added benefit to sleeping on the couch is my dog is more likely to sleep near me.. hehe.. #OH BUT YEAH NOW MY BACK HURT. ive never experience back pain like this before.. #maybe the couch i was sleeping on sucked idk. the one i was sleeping on's cushions get pushed out real easy #my usual couch doesnt but... dog...... dog likes the other couch more lowkey.... #anyways Get Yagami A Bed 2024

[birdricks]

thinking about rick admitting to only helping with the war because he wanted bp to respect him. and not realising the irony in admitting this and how it loses him that very respect

#WORST FUMBLE IN HISTORY. #birdrick #ok but genuinely. bp must REALLY care for rick to trust him still after like. EVERYTHING #i think they were close enough that bp can understand ricks motivation for doing things better than rick himself at times #(eg: rick not telling him abt his daughter) #so while bp may not agree with rick on a lot of things he still gets and respects Why rick does stuff #and same like vice versa #bp was able to put aside his hurt to tell rick to call him if he needs #and rick was able to root for bp at the wedding despite clearly hurting #etc etc #i think bp would have a good grasp on how rick could come to see everything as pointless #depsite not knowing abt the portal gun EXPLICITLY. #just as rick would have an understanding of why tammy and birddaughter mattered so much to bp #but i think rick gets wrapped up in himself a lot #him making like. the exact same mistake after reviving bp as at bloodridge is.. crushing #he just forgets. or like it doesnt occur to him in the moment that people might not want the same things as him #but ohhh man. it hurts so bad #rick doesnt hold any grudges toward bp it seems. like as much as he throws insults around all he ever does is try to support bp #like even w bloodridge it seems more that his avoidance was due to being embarrassed of what he did #BUT. memory rick thinking bp is the asshole. implying again bp thought at least for a while that rick rlly hated him for it #but yet they still consider each other their closest friend. and both love each other and would drop everything to help each other #fuck my life man. seriously #wtf was i talking abt. i forget im just rambling npw #ohhh they make me explode.

[wormy-worm]

ok u know what maybe if the world isn't ready for sunrazer post that means that the world IS ready for Amoveous siblings post. This is Milo and Enho and theyre my DARLINGS and i love them SO MUCH. i have. SOOOOOOOO many thoughts abt them but after the previous post massacre i do not really feel like typing all of that xoxo love <3

#THESE DRAWINGS HAVE BEEN SITTING IN MY DRAFTS FOR MONTHS LOL #meart #original character #robot oc #ily enho ily milo my darlings my angels my loves my funny robot guys. #ive posted abt Andromeda on here b4 if u remember her Enho is her best friend !!!!! #Enhos a battle robot who doesnt want 2 fight people.. #hes the oldest sibling and theres a lot resting on their shoulders! #shes supposed to be this big metal protector but U.U she just wants to hide in his room.. and make music for the internet.. #him and andy have this whole arc abt like. autonomy and identity and junk #being as andy is a government experiment who was raised to be a superhero who. has not yet realized that she HATES being a superhero lol #Enho inspires her! #milo um. does his own thing. he was the second amoveous bot and he is lucky to have been built without the responsibility of a battle bot #which means hes a LOT weaker. doesnt have a million weapons and lasers and such like enho does. no one expects much of him. he HATES IT!!!! #he wants to be POWERFUL! he wants to HURT PEOPLE!! he wants to be USEFUL!!! hes ANGRY ALL THE TIME #its EXSAUSTING. #yk that tinkerbell thing thats like. cuz shes so small she can only feel one emotion at once. and its so big it consumes her entirely? #hes that. he lives entirely in extremes. everything is 100% for him #he jumps to conclusions so quick and so violently.. hes incredibly impulsive and it gets him into a lot of trouble. #hes also a total NERD!!! GOOB!!! says mlady unironically. likes bad computer games. wears a stupid tie everyday. cartoonishly schemes 24/7 #enho for the record is also a pretty angry person. they just dont rlly express it. they dont express much of anything lol. #shes semiverbal on a talkative day. he can be REALLY REALLY PASSIVE AGGRESSIVE THO. THAT MF CAN BE SO PETTY. GOOFY ASS #but shes TERRIFIED she'll lose control of her emotions and her body and that shell hurt someone someday. absolutely terrified. #enho is as afraid of his strength as milo is of his weakness. theyre both two ends of the same extremes in a lot of ways. #polar opposites and yet exactly the same. they resent each other a lot. they need to learn to meet each other in the middle. #anyway ''i dont feel like typing all that'' and then i ramble in the tags for ten million years lol ToT I LOVE THESE GUYS #theyre my oldest ocs in this universe and i have so many thoughts if you have any questions feel free to ask me lol

[lovesickeros]

☆ lost in orbit

{☆} characters tsaritsa {☆} notes cult au, drabble, gender neutral reader {☆} warnings violence [ implied ], unhealthy relationship {☆} word count 0.6k

She had resigned herself to apathy – to burying her love beneath the cold, hard soil and letting it rot amongst the graves of a long dead civilization, burned to ash in only a day. Yet how quickly it all fell apart in her hands, slipping through her fingers like sand, no matter how desperately she tried to cling to it.

Was she not diligent enough? Was she so weak that she faltered at the first person who showed her genuine trust and affection? Had all her work been for naught?

A part of her revolts – the same woman who watched the sky burn and the ground beneath her feet crumble into ash. It would be so easy to wrap her hands around your delicate throat, to squeeze until you finally saw her as the monster she knew she has always been.

Yet she doesn't think she could. The look of betrayal, of fear..oh, it would ruin her, she knows.

Perhaps that makes her weak. Perhaps you have made her weak.

Perhaps she does not mind as much as she should.

You trust her, after all – enough to sleep in her bed like she couldn't just kill you before you ever knew what was happening to you. Your body was so..fragile, in this mortal shell you descended in. How easy it would be to snuff out your life, here and now.

Yet she doesn't.

Instead, she looks at you like an old lover – with all the love of a woman who had died in the ashes of a dying civilization, of a woman who thought she could love no longer. Emotions she fought so hard to suppress well up in her chest and fill the empty space where she knows her heart should beat. Try as she might – and oh, how she tries – she can never quite stem the affection that consumes her every waking moment when she sees you.

It is like an addiction that she cannot rid herself of, no matter how she tries. She always finds herself back at square one – back to you.

Her hand lingers against your cheek, undue affection filling the empty spaces in her chest until she feels like cannot breathe. She traces her hand along your jaw, her vision narrowed on the softness of your lips.

Yet that same thought rises unbidden to the forefront of her thoughts. Love was a dangerous thing – you both knew that. To let it fester and rot her from within..she would be throwing her plans out the window, and for what?

Because she was too weak? Because the affection and trust in your eyes whenever your looked at her made her feel whole, like she was more then just an Archon playing God with the fate of the world?

You do not even stir as her thoughts toil like a brewing storm. She swallows the lump in her throat, removing her hand like she'd just touched a piece of hot metal. A part of her still screams that it's for the best, that you've corrupted her enough, torn apart her plans in the span of a week, a mere blink in time..

But it goes silent as she leans in, pressing her lips to your cheek. She will not let the thought fester, tonight – she will let herself be weak, if only for another day. If only to covet the affection that she finds herself drowning in for just another day.

And when you stir, she pretends that she had never thought of it at all, that she has only ever known love with you. Even if her heart that does not beat leaves a stabbing pain in her chest in the agony of knowing that even this is futile..

She lets you wake, let's the recognition and the affection fill your vision until she is all you see – two stars locked in orbit, unable to break away.

And when the day comes that you collide, she will be holding the blade that drives into your chest, and she will know nothing but love when she does.

#sagau #genshin sagau #self aware genshin #genshin impact sagau #self aware genshin impact #tsaritsa #fellas is it gay to think abt murdering ur lover bc u love them so much #everyone hcing that her lover died in khaenri'ah but what if she killed them.. #tsaritsa killing her lover so they dont have to walk down the same path and suffer the consequences when celestia retaliates>>> #tsaritsa killing her lover bc to her them dying is better then living and she refuses to let them be corrupted by going down the same path #i just think shes a little silly!!! a little goofy!!!! i forgive her #theres just smth abt tragic lesbians and also tragic lesbians whose tragedy is one of their own making #yknow :) #but at the SAME TIME. her lover dying and wanting her to move on and LIVE but shes so spiteful shes willing to destroy herself to #destroy celestia. she doesnt care abt what happens to her bc if her lover isnt there with her then what does it matter? she has nothing lef #to lose. #characters who become their lover would hate bc living in a world without them is agony>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> #also i only tagged unhealthy relationship bc the tsaritsa is. unhinged but shes actually v normal in the relationship #she loves u!!!! and shes a good lover!!! she just thinks abt killing u sometimes bc she loves too much and its easier to kill u now vs lose #you later on where it will hurt WORSE #also bc smth smth she thinks itll make it hurt less if she kills you vs someone else bc she would actually LOSE IT if someone hurt u #spoilers it does not and she spirals and is haunted by what shes done and constantly tries to lie to herself to justify it. it does not wor #did i scare off the normal ppl w this one.......maybe!!!!! #i meant morally grey at best when i said morally grey at best!! #crawls back into my ditch okay im shutting up now