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[ziclovs]

HSHQ TASKSEVEN  / HSHQAC2022 DAYEIGHT

— TIE YOURSELF TO ME: A PLAYLIST

 i.  can you feel the sun? :  below the willow tree, i get hung up on my insecurities, rose coloured dopamine, my soul feels like it could be make-believe. below the willow tree i search to find some sense of identity, this weeping willow tree, sits in silence, sheds no tears for me. can you feel the sun? i do but i can’t see it. can you feel the breeze? i don’t, but i believe it, i don’t feel safe when i’m not alone. and i know and i know what you’re thinking, i like it on my own. but i’ll let you in if you say it’s okay. 

if you know me well enough, you’ll know that i am capable of constructing an entire character off 1 song and this would be said song. kaspar would not exist without it. the weeping willow is a motif that i adored when i thought about it and it became something i wove throughout his history and his intro. kaspar is somebody who has one foot in an idealistic daydream, a beautiful vision, and the other in harsh reality. he is always reaching for something intangible and sometimes, he is so many steps ahead, so clear in his calculations that his mind is already in a conceivable future way before anyone else. this is why the refrain — can you feel the sun? i do, but i can’t see it, can you feel the breeze? i don’t, but i believe it.  hits incredibly viscerally everytime i play it. if you read his intro, kaspar can come off a certain way, he’s not always understood in the ways he wants to be and thus has always felt safer either completely alone or in crowded places rather than intimate settings. he needs some form of cover, something to shade himself with, be it with other people, or an occasion. now that i’ve played him for two years, you’ll notice how his amiable way turns into a bullet train about to crash when someone suggests a friendly one on one or when he’s alone with someone he really likes. in many ways, he’ll always be the little boy, taking shelter under a giant weeping willow, sketching by himself or reading a book because others can be so needlessly unkind.

ii.  blue moon rising :  when the night, is falling, and the land is cold, and that secret you found in your pocket, will remain untold. there’s a storm out on the horizon, and it’s coming our way, by the light of the blue moon rising, shall we just run away? will i meet you down on the corner where our hopes and dreams were sold? by the poet and the loner, on the streets we paved with gold. the deeper that you get, the more you will regret living on the edge of the night, but the blazing sunset in your eyes means more to me than life. cause you make me feel electric, beauty in truth is hard to find, some of us bleeding and some of us needing to find a way. it’s getting closer can you feel it? i’m glad i found you just in time, some of us bleeding and some of us needing to find a way.

the beat of this is important. kaspar has a long stride and a steady gait. he is ambitious. he reads the social tea leaves, he tries to foretell the way the wind will blow next. he looks at what is in front of him and makes something of it all to add value. it is the only way he can value himself. but when someone like this is also a part-time daydreamer, what kind of person would he find in a partner? kaspar needs to be understood, he has no problem putting in the work and the effort to in his own way, repackage his thoughts over and over to someone else so they can get on his wavelength, so they can see what he sees, and he is willing to pick someone else’s brain to understand how they work. it is a little mechanical, but it is how he operates. he does not get offended when he is told he has gotten it wrong and will re-evaluate. it is why he is so reliable to wiebke. she is a safe person for him and he is safe for her. but opportunities to do this with others are few, and waiting around for some magical moment where someone comes along to just get you feels unrealistic, even to him. it’s as if there’s some secret to the universe ( the secret you found in your pocket will remain untold )  that he does not know how to unlock. so for a long time, because he was raised by aesthetes, he thought the ideal person would be kind, gentle, an optimist, encouraging ( like the image fanni created for herself, sorry isa, i will continue using this example until i find a better one )  but the type of person who would implicitly understand his raw beginnings, his thirst for progress is always someone with more edge. people like iena. beauty in truth, is definitely hard to find. if he had ever truly gotten to know fanni he would have discovered this very quickly. and now he’s with anya, found just in time. i love that this song was prophetic because it was one of the earliest ones i found and the narrative unintentionally came true.

iii. island in the sun : when you’re on a golden sea, you don’t need no memory, just a place to call your own as we drift into the zone, on an island in the sun. we’ll be playing and having fun and it makes me feel so fine i can’t control my brain.

it felt appropriate to include music from the early aughts. he would have been firmly entrenched in his adolescence, and the sort of listless mundane way weezer sings kind of fits the vibe he must have emanated back then: parents freshly divorced and trying to eke out space for himself that was more his than the tumult of his home life. in basel he was both getting bullied and hanging around with new acquaintances who were neither rich, nor titled. they introduced him to refined sugar and weed. he definitely still cannot control his brain.

iv. solid ground :  how does it feel, when it’s quiet and calm? and will i be denied? how will it feel, when it’s time to move on? mother says kneel and pray. when it gets hard i will roll those sleeves, life can be so unkind. i will be found, on the edge of the world, where there’ll be no one around. solid ground. how does it feel to be on your own? no one to understand. i know i’m here and i don’t belong. i’m on my knees today. when it gets dark i will know no fear. life can be so unkind. hanging around on the edge of the world... finally no one around.

this song describes a certain heaviness that settled over him after his father died, but it isn’t one that is related to grief. it is one thing to grapple with the idea that your father — a man who cast a long shadow, but was even larger than life than even the shadow could represent — is no more, and it is another thing entirely to really feel the reality of the situation. not only has he passed, but the title of grand duke now rests on your head. this song is that quiet moment of the in between, when kaspar reaffirms with himself, his unflinching sense of duty, what he wants for rhine, and the inability to get used to the fact that on the tail of a personal tragedy, he can finally become the sort of man he has been waiting to grow into. there is apprehension of course, dietrich zielcke was popular and certain things kaspar intends to set in motion will have him rolling in his grave, will he be denied? how long will he have to wait before he initiates change? these thoughts fight with the push and pull he still feels with his upbringing, mother on one side, father on the other, but now, he is finally alone in schlöss brühl, experiencing what being alone in it feels like for the first time after wondering for so long about something that felt unfathomable. it’s a mixture of melancholy, uncertainty, imposter syndrome, worry because there is no longer any safety cord holding him up, and still... the realisation that despite all this, he does not feel fear. he will make rhine into what he believes it can be.

 v. reconfiguration : i won’t fear my rivals, leave them in the silence, i live in the present, moment to moment, i will fear no future, come live on in silence, i live in the present, moment to moment, moment to moment. feels like i’m more myself — tearing off and on, next in line. feels like i’m always gone, sweet re-re-reconfiguration. everything is turning out like it wants to, feels like i’ve been here before and everything is turning out like it wants to feels like i’ve been.

kaspar isn’t somebody who worries too much about things that are too far into the future. there are two things for forecasts, the signs and signals, the numbers, and the social element. he does not try to control these things, he leans into what he sees coming. it is easier to adjust yourself and your facilities, pick them apart and re-forge again to ride that than trying to puppeteer those external forces. that kind of arrogance remains with royals. the thing about this is sometimes there are cyclical results, which kaspar doesn’t always enjoy, his goal is to break out of that.

vi. holy branches :  when you were young, you’d bite your tongue. calm, always did what you were told, never ran your mouth. lived on tiptoes, only felt peace if by yourself, when mistakes don’t count. there’s a hole in your chest from the time you were born, one that don’t get filled, cause you’ve always known, you’re nothing they want. (...) but everybody's bones are just holy branches, cast from trees to cut patterns in the world and in time we find some shelter, spill our seeds and then wait for our turns. but for now we're adrift on the waves of discontent trying to carve our place all in hopes we'll be something they want, but i ain't holding my breath.

this first part of the song really felt like kaspar was being read so i kept it. the message of the song is very relevant to him and maybe the chip on his shoulder. his sense of duty is strong, he sees himself as a servant, as somebody who needs to be worthy of being a guide. he is well read, he has access to more information, the public won’t see it, they don’t know what they don’t know yet, not the way he does, but if he keeps going, if he keeps churning the results, maybe they’ll realise they wanted the same things all along.

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[mariisolss]

side A - heartsick death by a thousand cuts / taylor swift || in the kitchen / reneé rapp || motion sickness / phoebe bridgers || liability / lorde || better version / fletcher & kelsea ballerini || sun bleached flies / ethel cain || would’ve, could’ve, should’ve / taylor swift 

side B - haunted  it’s time to go / taylor swift || perfect places / lorde || too well / reneé rapp || lost the break up / maisie peters || i think i’m growing / fletcher || back in my body / maggie rogers || karma / taylor swift 

#a bad liar with a savior complex | muse #hshqtask007 #spotify playlist to come #one song wont be out til 3/31 LOL

[fannicroy]

I’M A CONTORTIONIST — aka fanni croÿ playlist part two

001. porcelain — the lunar year. 002. anti-hero — taylor swift. 003. did you know that there’s a tunnel under ocean blvrd — lana del rey. 004. we used to laugh / 9 to 9 — flora cash. 005. question it all — lucy rose. 006. nightcrawler — graveyard club. 007. time comes in roses — bess atwell. 008. oblivion — alaska reid. 009. when the storm comes — kraków loves adana, ruth radelet, adam miller. 010. big bunny — alaska reid. 011. earl grey tea — griff. 012. tea, milk & honey — oh pep! 013. if you love me now — muna. 014. spiders — editors.

this is a longish playlist because i didn’t spend too much time over-thinking. i followed ash’s style and went with vibes <3

001. porcelain — the lunar year.

My brain is porcelain. I'm a contortionist A fiend of circumstance, I break at zeal's first glance. My vice is my own mind I would die without you.

i chose this song because it represents finely fanni’s obsession with other people. she does not really exist without others and has a hard time controlling her surroundings.

002. anti-hero — taylor swift

I should not be left to my own devices They come with prices and vices I end up in crisis (tale as old as time) I wake up screaming from dreaming One day I'll watch as you're leaving 'Cause you got tired of my scheming (For the last time)

idk if it’s me but this whole song comes off very contradictory to me. i suppose you could take it as a self-awareness anthem but i see it as a bit of a self-pity fest. from the hyperboles to the digs, it’s just hard to believe that a person who is able to handle being held accountable for their own actions, would write these lyrics. someone may want to fight me on this ! anyways, how i tie it to fanni is that she will admit being sad or clingy or having made a mistake but jesus christ never will she think she has a role in it. she’s always just a victim of the circumstances :)

003. did you know that there’s a tunnel under ocean blvrd — lana del rey

When's it gonna be my turn? When's it gonna be my turn? Open me up, tell me you like it Fuck me to death, love me until I love myself There's a tunnel under Ocean Boulevard

heard the song and immediately connected it with fanni. 

004. we used to laugh / 9 to 9 — flora cash 

In our bubble, we were lighter Never gonna open up Close it up and be my reason You said I won't ever leave your side No one else is worth my while No one else is worth my while

Were you like that all the time? Did you repeat this from 9 to 9? Never come back

this is a post-break up farnauld song

005. question it all — lucy rose

You say real life's watching paint dry Counting numbers, is that so bad? You've fallen for it all So why come down when there's nothing to see? And you leave wanting more

fanni really wanted to do things by the book.

006. nightcrawler — graveyard club 

Twenty-three: I make myself an island The world can leave I let it go; I’m fine alone I’m buried in the snow

maybe the song’s timeline doesn’t quite fit but the storyline itself sort of applies to fanni. it’s that dark time when apathy takes over.

007. time comes in roses — bess atwell

But time comes in roses, I really love ya I'm tired of being like my mother I get excited, I get depressed I'm never happy with how I'm dressed

Five years wasted, I'm still young But only by a couple months And then I'm dead for all intents and purposes And I've been slower than I thought At getting my life off the rocks Nobody thinks I'm special yet Nobody thinks I'm special yet

idk if anyone’s gonna read the lyrics but they explain it all

008. oblivion — alaska reid 

Lean into me, don’t leave me naive Lots of teen-ex-lovers have died in my dreams Lie next to me, lie next to me We were never apart Drank PBR and talked about our scars Maybe I felt lonely being around you Now, baby I can breathe better without you

this is sort of a farnauld song but i think it’s just something that works with fanni’s behavioural patterns lol 

009.  when the storm comes — kraków loves adana, ruth radelet, adam miller

Running through the cold with a dark prediction on hold Forgot all the right words And the wrong ones now unfold A reversal of becoming is hanging in the air tonight Loneliness is fillable with anything But please take care

this is a tekla & fanni song. 

010. big bunny — alaska reid

You were a wild child, sometimes we're lost for awhile But I can help it, I can help it

Oh Big Bunny it hurts so make it funny Oh Big Bunny it hurts so make it funny

I couldn't say enough to make some nights erase, Yeah it's better now just let the wind whip hair across our faces

this is another tekla & fanni song. there’s a lot of growing pains at the moment and at least for fanni, there’s this desire to have what they had when they were still young. when their conversations were light and happy and tekla’s very existence did not act as an unwelcome reminder.

011. earl grey tea — griff

You're so scared, you're aging faster So you drink Earl Grey tea 'cause you heard that's the answer And you're so scared of dying slowly But why aren't you more scared of dying lonely?

fanni’s priorities have shifted as of late — even if she doesn’t quite like it. but what has stayed the same is her desire to have these certain accomplishments. 

012. tea, milk & honey — oh pep! 

No, I won't contribute to your polluted transaction I've got places to be that ain't right here If you stick with me, I'll make sure your time is all right If you don't understand where I am now, it's better if we leave it

Oh, wow, why don't you just walk to the hill With everyone? We're going now

Why don't you come? I've been thinking about it I've been worrying about it Don't you get it? I've been fretting I talk about it with my best friend

this is a love song but for me it’s a fanni & olimpia song. olimpia has had to adopt some of fanni’s duties as the peace maker and ngl olimpia is starting to be the sane one out of the siblings.

013. if you love me now — muna

I could read your mind I know what you're thinking This is not what you signed up for I could pray to God But I'm not invested And you get what you pay for

I've been trying to find out if anyone Feels truly happy because of all that they have done Cause I always seem to want more Provided that I can get some

this is such a fanni song that i wanted on this playlist even if it’s already on the farthur one. 

014. spiders — editors

With your back to the wall You've got one place to fall Sometimes its all better unknown

Every little piece pulls In its own direction Please love don't be scared It's just your own reflection

congrats for reading my ramblings, this one’s for you to figure out on your own :)

#hshqtask007 #hshqac2022 #( music. )

[frejaedb]

                                              𝐡𝐨𝐮𝐬𝐞 𝐨𝐟 𝐠𝐥𝐚𝐬𝐬

                                        a freja du bellay playlist

I. devil in a new dress - kanye west / II. house of glass - cage the elephant / III. 6 inch - beyonce ft. the weeknd / IV. smokin out the window - bruno mars / V. lying is the most fun a girl can have without taking her clothes off - panic at the disco / VI. rules - doja cat / VII. i am everyone else - declan mckenna / VIII. killer queen - queen / IX. no friends in the industry - drake / X. perhaps vampires is a bit strong but... - arctic monkeys / XI. glory and gore - lorde  / XII. she’s always a woman - billy joel / XIII. i heard you’re married - the weeknd ft. lil wayne / XIV. high infidelity - taylor swift / XV. e.v.o.l - marina / LISTEN.

there’s a lot of songs, but a good amount of them are just for the vibes. lot’s of songs about her marriage. no friends in the industry and glory and gore are dedicated to her and arnauld. no particular order of the songs either.

I. devil in a new dress - kanye west

Make brash decisions, oh she do it What happened to Religion? Oh she lose it She putting on her make up She casually allure Text message break up, the casualty of tour How she gone wake up and not love me no more? I thought I was the asshole, I guess it's rubbing off

I hit the Jamaican spot, at the bar, take a seat I ordered the jerk, she said, "You are what you eat" You see I always loved your sense of humor But tonight you should have seen how quiet the room was

what falling in love with freja would be like through a song, the quick changes, the brutality... this is her song.

II. house of glass - cage the elephant 

Another mirror damaged Corrected and distorted I'm underwhelmed, I'm interested I wonder why I'm over it Walk it off, the kettle's black The dotted line, the house is glass

It's an illusion, this admiration Of mutilation, my isolation It's an illusion, this admiration

this song is a good one that addresses her insensitivity, i suppose. theres nothing that can really shock her. she’s numb, unfeeling !

III. 6 inch - beyonce ft. the weeknd 

Six inch heels She walked in the club like nobody's business Goddamn She murdered everybody and I was her witness

her girlboss song ! it’s mostly the vibe of the song.

IV. smokin out the window - bruno mars 

This bitch got me payin' her rent, payin' for trips Diamonds on her neck, diamonds on her wrist And here I am, all alone (all alone), uh I'm so cold, I'm so cold, you got me out here Smokin' out the window (smokin' out the window) Singin', "How could she do this to me?" (How could she do this to me?) Oh, I thought that girl belonged to only me (mhmm) But I was wrong, 'cause she belong To everybody, everybody, ooh

frelucien song. it’s pretty straight forward, she’s got him wrapped around her finger.

V. lying is the most fun a girl can have without taking her clothes off - panic at the disco  

Then think of what you did And how I hope to God he was worth it When the lights are dim and your heart is racing As your fingers touch his skin

So, testosterone boys and harlequin girls: Will you dance to this beat and hold a lover close?

this song is mostly off the vibes, it’s about cheating and just has a good angst to it.

VI. rules - doja cat 

Break some bread up, –––, that butter my biscuit (ha) You ain't talk money, then really, that's none of my business I'on even need these lenses (yeah) 20 on 20 my vision (woo) Bad yellow bitch with her eye on the prize But ––––, I ain't no minion Millions, thousands, billions Bobs on me like Dylan, blondes on me like Hilton

this is mostly for the vibe, another girl boss song ya know.

VII. i am everyone else - declan mckenna 

Why'd you act sick and pretend Pretend that you've never known it? Aren't you just sick of spending All your time getting noticed? You showed me the message you sent And act like you never wrote it Well, aren't you just sick of your friends Your friends with ulterior motives? 'Cause I am everyone else

she doesn’t feel bad about her moral failings, because she feels like they’re valid. she doesn’t like the act of pretending to be kind and compassionate, because everyone has had her thoughts.

VIII. killer queen - queen 

Caviar and cigarettes Well versed in etiquette Extraordinarily nice She's a Killer Queen Gunpowder, gelatine Dynamite with a laser beam Guaranteed to blow your mind Anytime

one of those songs that are just perfect for freja. i don’t think it needs much explanation as to why.

IX. no friends in the industry - drake 

No friends in the industry My brothers been my brothers, man You ––– ain't no kin to me, a fact (whoa) I was known for snappin' when I chat before the app Stood on everything I said and never took it back (whoa) No friends in the industry I had to draw the line between my brothers and my enemies, a fact –––– love to start the beef, don't wanna keep it rap Yeah, you hit us up and now we owe you something back

frenauld song, mainly for the laughs. her and arnauld are bffs that aren’t exactly loved by everyone else !

X. perhaps vampires is a bit strong but... - arctic monkeys 

I ain't got no dollar signs in my eyes That might be a surprise but it's true, said, I'm not like you And I don't want your advice or your praise Or to move in the ways you do and I never will

the way in which freja operates isn’t one of a normal person’s, per say. a lot of her life decisions are choice ones for sure, but she’s certain she knows what’s best for her.

XI. glory and gore - lorde 

There's a humming in the restless summer air And we're slipping off the course that we prepared But in all chaos, there is calculation Dropping glasses just to hear them break You've been drinking like the world was gonna end (it didn't) Took a shiner from the fist of your best friend (go figure) It's clear that someone's gotta go We mean it, but I promise we're not mean And the cry goes out (oh) They lose their minds for us And how it plays out (oh) Now we're in the ring, and we're coming for blood you could try and take us (Oh, oh) but we're the gladiators (Oh, oh) everyone a rager (Oh, oh) but secretly they're saviors Glory and gore go hand in hand That's why we're making headlines

this is THE freja and arnauld song. exemplifies their love for being on top of the world, their understanding that with glory comes gore, and that’s something they’re okay with.

XII. she’s always a woman - billy joel 

She can kill with a smile, she can wound with her eyes And she can ruin your faith with her casual lies And she only reveals what she wants you to see She hides like a child but she's always a woman to me She can lead you to love, she can take you or leave you She can ask for the truth but she'll never believe you And she'll take what you give her as long as it's free

a frelucien song.

XIII. i heard you’re married - the weeknd ft. lil wayne 

And I knew that this was too good to be true Ooh, I heard you're married, girl, oh, oh, oh If you don't love him (oh no) Then do yourself a favor and just leave him Your number in my phone, I'm gon' delete it

self explanatory.

XIV. high infidelity - taylor swift 

You know there's many different ways that you can kill the one you love The slowest way is never loving them enough Do you really want to know where I was April 29th? Do I really have to tell you how he brought me back to life? High infidelity Put on your records and regret me I bent the truth too far tonight I was dancing around

also self explanatory. frelucien and arnauld. 

XV. e.v.o.l - marina

It only takes two lonely people To fuck love up and make it evil It only takes a drop of evil To fuck up two beautiful people

perhaps another freja and arnauld song.

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[aromancva]

hshq task 007: character playlist

i. trouble - valerie broussard / ii. mother - florence and the machine / iii. push the envelope - the asteroids galaxy tour / iv. estranged - the ting tings / v. freedom - oriel / vi. a knife in the ocean - foals / vii. it was not natural - wye oak / viii. move into me - bad sounds, broods

let me just say that i identify as sonically underdeveloped, idk what i’m doing it’s mostly just vibes and some lyricism. has a lot of rships songs bc anya is a deeply family/community oriented person, and many tracks are tied to a particular moment and environment. kinda a soundtrack for her life. also this got long. can’t help it, i luv her, thanks for the wc elisa!! <3

i. trouble [ valerie broussard ]

we wear red so they don't see us bleed / hundred dollar bills under our sleeve / we intend not to sleep 'til we're dead / drink our problems right out of our heads... / ...there are dogs on the loose, there are snakes in the desert / i'm that knife in your boot, girl, i got ya / i'm your number two man in a fight / we are revolutionaries tonight

this is the first song i picked for anya --  it represents the narrative she likes to present of her role within the romanov family and the family itself.  i hate to say it, but the romanovs are undeniably cool, they enter rooms like they’re rock stars. they’re the it kids. anya is lyosha’s right hand man, she knows how to use their wealth and resources to their advantage, and she definitely does not let others see their weaknesses if she can help it. anya is proud of being russian, and the reputation that comes along with it. this song also touches on the potential for change anya initially believed was possible when the siblings came into power under lyosha, after mikhail’s passing.

ii. mother [ florence + the machine ]

i put my feet into the fountain / the statues all asleep / no use wishing on the water / it grants you no relief / mother, make me / make me a bird of prey / so I can rise above this, let it fall away / mother, make me / make me a song so sweet / heaven trembles, fallen at our feet / oh lord, won't you leave me / leave me on my knees / ‘cause i belong to the ground now / and it belongs to me

shout out to jude for this one. florence in general is an anya vibe, big sounds that seem too large for any mortal body, something that pulsates. as a child anya had the (unsurprising) tendency to be difficult. an insatiable itch to correct wrongs when they happened, no time for jury and trial. when they were hiding, this drew unnecessary attention - in fact, it was greatly impressed upon anya the danger she would summon upon the romanovs if she did not hold her tongue and curb her impulses. in russia, this instinct serves her better, alleviates at least one contradiction she’d had to reconcile before. correcting wrongs was now within their power, unnecessary attention was still delinquency. this is the difference she understood between a refuge and home.

iii. push the envelope [ the asteroids galaxy tour ]

single mind, wastin' time, doin' fine most of the time, sure you walk the line / make it shine, for the dime but always shines left behind there's no better crime / you will climb, until you find you sat in grime sublime / but you decline, to the blind, i'll stay alive yeah! I know you know that you're divine

just a song anya really likes from a band she is fond of <3 this song came out around the time she was making the transition to grand duchess of central russia and beginning to grow aware of how much her career had depended on what power her father granted her. this awareness of her privilege led her to a conclusion that would lead both the previous and current czar to rue when her name came up on their agendas. anya knows that she has the ability -- more than most people -- to critique the monarch and advocate for others. she feels the weight of this duty every day, and that is why she cannot simply let things lie.

iv. estranged [ the ting tings ]

i can't undo, i can't unsee / i can't unchoose, i can't unchange / i can't unpack, i can't unlose / i can't unfake you've caused no pain / what are we going to do, me and you? / i guess it's just different points of view / but i can't gain perspective / when you appear so unaffected / estranged feels strange / estranged feels strange / yeah, i wish we had a fight, or reasons to hate / that always ends in an argument

this isn’t exactly accurate to what anya and nadya’s relationship was like before but sometimes it’s difficult to find a song that uses words exactly as nuanced as one would like. i think jude and i were in agreement early on, that calling anya and nadya estranged was a very simplistic view of their relationship - estranged implies a ‘before’ state, i.e. one that was not estranged. but for anya and nadya, it was a pure absence. that is what felt strange to anya. it was impossible to deny their relationship for a few reasons. their far too similar features was like having a mirror reflecting everything she had missed. second, having believed deeply in the necessity of the romanov family acting as a unit, having no relationship with nadya seemed like a failure of duty. but there was no attempt on her end - even when she fought about nadya leaving the palace and choosing a life outside of politics, it was lyosha she argued her points to. not nadya. at present, anya does not find it useful to think too hard about what she could have done different in the past -- it seems like an indulgent wish she can neither afford nor wants to waste time on. there is only what she can do now and what she can do next.

v. freedom [ oriel ]

take a look at my anatomy - it’s like I’m nature / foolish enemy can’t get too close to me i’m danger / heard the news, so confused, i won’t be conforming / grateful, i’m thankful - i’m letting go / take a risk or please just sit - why you gotta wrestle / everybody gotta learn the hard way that’s the lesson / the humiliation feel the blow / shadow hole / the battle of our minds – our minds / free like kings accept the call / knowing we are able / we are facing nerves and all / knowing we’re not failing / freedom, freedom, freedom. / tension is arising / there’s no compromising / we are far from spotlight / feel the power truth in our hearts

this track is captures anya and alexei’s relationship at a very specific moment in time: after finland had taken yekaterinburg, after lyosha let anneli take what was the romanov’s. it was not his to give, not matter if he wore the crown, anya thought he understood this. this is where the confusion begins, where the disagreements begin to worsen. where the resentment towards anneli was planted. to anya it is clear: it is alexei’s rule, the spotlight (at least back then) was no longer on them, they had performed to their parents’ expectations and now were the ones in control. how could he consider himself shackled, when now they were free to create their own legacy? anya would do the work she does regardless of her title or a crown -- it is the partnership with lyosha that she once had that she mourns most, the one she still feels he betrayed.

vi. a knife in the ocean [ foals ]

mouth of the ocean be well spoken / watch your p’s & q’s / now that we're older the future is colder / but what is there to do? / i'll walk the line i'll be just fine / i'll be right back on time / the fire is coming but we'll outrun it / we'll never be undone / what came of the things we once believed? / oh, all lost to the depths of a hungry sea

they were friends. when a teenage anya thought of the future, war with finland hadn’t occurred to her. they were supposed to stay friends. at seventeen it does not seem that the fifteen year old would age. things like duty, legacy weren’t meant to get in the way. it was easier to forgive him when he was dead. it is easier now because there is an injustice that hasn’t been righted and it gnaws at her when she thinks of it.

vi. it was not natural [ wye oak ]

as I expected / with time it hasn't gotten easier / i have to work now / at things that used to be like breathing / i try to focus / forgive myself for having so much / i am too busy for it / or else i am not busy enough / when i see clearly / i know we share the same devotion / but joy is hungry / and you know i can't promise anything / it was not natural, all along / only human hate could give us something so unforgiving

not to cheat and simply call this anya vibes, but....look. it’s got walks, it’s got guilt, it’s got severity, it’s got change, it’s got loyalty, it’s got greed. a frequent soundtrack to her life in tokyo.

vii. move into me [ bad sounds, broods ]

so i'm gonna say something / i’ve never said before / why don't you move into me

def going to cheat for this one: soundtrack for a car outside a tokyo apartment building.

#&&. about | a caged heart never bruises #hshqtask007 #tyyyyyyy jude for sexy graphics tooooo #if the explanations get shorter as u get further in...mind ur business

[nataliademarquis]

                                           𝐰𝐢𝐬𝐡𝐟𝐮𝐥 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐤𝐢𝐧𝐠

                                             a natalia de marquis playlist

I. daddy issues – the neighbourhood II. beautiful little fools - jorja smith III. am i pretty ? - the maine IV. the love club – lorde V. she - zayn VI. going gets tough - the growlers VII. cinnamon girl – lana del rey VIII. pretty girl – clairo IX. i know alone – haim X. wishful thinking – benee XI. room temperature – faye webster XII. too sensitive – sean kennedy XIII. wake up ! – hazel english XIV. how to disappear – lana del rey XV. know love – rex orange county XVI. rainbow – kacey musgraves XVII. falling – haim XVIII. brightest blue – ellie goulding XIX. there is a light that never goes out – the smiths XX. evermore – taylor swift

                                                   LINK IN SOURCE !

ok it’s 20 songs bc ... i’ve been adding to this playlist for like two years lol. but i’ve kinda put it chronologically it, so, let’s begin.

tracks 1-8 are really about natalia’s initial character (i’d like to think she’s changed a lot) – it’s kind of that dreamy but pathetic and pining vibes, they’re about being desperate and obsessive, letting people in without care. natalia’s flop era, for lack of better terms.

9-12, are sort of self-reflecting in a way. like a wow, i need to start thinking for myself. it reflects the time she decided to be “selfish” for once. room temperature i think best reflects that. 13, wake up, fits in this category but i feel it’s like a culmination of the previous songs. it’s also kinda angry, which i delve into in her #hshqpara. (u should read it. i worked hard)

14-17 fit in the next category but also kinda don’t. they’re more like a “you need to pick yourself up” rather than hopeful.

the last three songs are hopeful, as she is. coming to accept what has happened and to look forward rather than pine on what has happened to her.

evermore is the song that had to finish this playlist, i think it really kinda is a synopsis of the whole playlist, it’s sad, it talks about a journey and i think a lot of nat’s story can relate. the part about rewinding the tape is like how she is always looking back. but the song ends on a positive note, about how the pain isn’t forever <3

I. daddy issues – the neighbourhood 

You ask me what I'm thinking about I tell you that I'm thinking about Whatever you're thinking about Tell me something that I'll forget And you might have to tell me again

II. beautiful little fools - jorja smith 

Didn't your mother ever tell you love yourself? Well if your mother was Zelda or Daisy, I guess not Why can't you be a beautiful little girl Instead of being a beautiful little fool? I guess we're all just beautiful little girls Playing a game of being fooled, yeah

III. am i pretty ? - the maine 

Am I pretty? Do people like me yet? Is there a party? Am I invited? It's such a pity, no one adores me yet So make me up in a shade that fits me Tell me love oh "Am I pretty?"

IV. the love club – lorde 

My mother's love is chokin' me I'm sick of words that hang above my head What about the kid? It's time the kid got freeBe a part of the love club Everythin' will glow for you

V. she - zayn 

She wants somebody to love To hold her She wants somebody to love In the right way

VI. going gets tough - the growlers 

Still always remembering When the going gets tough That the labor of our love Will reward us soon enough

VII. cinnamon girl – lana del rey 

There's things I wanna say to you But I'll just let you live Like if you hold me without hurting me You'll be the first who ever did

VIII. pretty girl – clairo 

And I could be a pretty girl Won't ever make you blue And I could be a pretty girl I'll lose myself in you

I was so blinded by you, now I cry Just thinking 'bout the fool that I was I was such a fool

IX. i know alone – haim 

Some things never change They never fade It's never over Some things never grow I know alone like no one else does

X. wishful thinking – benee 

I do remember everything that you said Won't let that pointless talk stay trapped in my head Then I got to know you All false hopes rued Those days are gone now You left too soon

XI. room temperature – faye webster 

Looks like I've been crying again over the same thing I wonder if anyone has ever cried for me Nothing means anything, at least anymore Even my tears have gone room temperature

I should get out more, I should get out more

XII. too sensitive – sean kennedy 

So I sat down on the sidewalk, and I started to cry That's when it hit me, it really hit me

I'm too sensitive (hm, mm) I let every word they say tear me apart Way too sensitive (hm, mm) 'Bout a million ways you could break my heart

XIII. wake up ! – hazel english 

All these feelings you ignore Ocean raging from inside Open up your eyes and you'll see You've been living complacently Watch the world through glazed over eyes

Tell me what you're gonna do Tell me what you're gonna do How will you react when you find out What they hid from you?

XIV. how to disappear – lana del rey 

Cry on his shoulder 'cause life is hard The waves came in over my head What you been up to, my baby? Haven't seen you 'round here lately All of the guys tell me lies, but you don't

This is how to disappear

XV. know love – rex orange county 

Are my problems deeper than me? I guess they're deeper than meaning The more you think about it So it's always worse than it seems

There ain't no love for me I just wanna know love Mother, won't you tell me When will I know love?

XVI. rainbow – kacey musgraves

'Cause the sky has finally opened The rain and wind stopped blowin' But you're stuck out in the same ol' storm again You hold tight to your umbrella Well, darlin', I'm just tryin' to tell ya That there's always been a rainbow hangin' over your head

Oh, tie up the bow, take off your coat, and take a look around Everything is alright now

XVII. falling – haim 

Don't stop, no, I'll never give up And I'll never look back, just hold your head up And if it gets rough, it's time to get rough They keep saying Don't stop, no one's ever enough I'll never look back, never give up And if it gets rough, it's time to get rough Oh, but now I'm falling

XVIII. brightest blue – ellie goulding 

Everything is heightened now It's looking so much brighter now I was lost and now I'm found Fell off the merry-go-round I was in the politics Obsessed with things I couldn't fix

See the future when I look in the sky When I look in the sky, you give me You give me The brightest blue

XIX. there is a light that never goes out – the smiths 

Take me out tonight Because I want to see people And I want to see life Driving in your car Oh, please don't drop me home Because it's not my home, it's their home And I'm welcome no more

XX. evermore – taylor swift

I rewind the tape but all it does is pause On the very moment all was lost

And I was catching my breath Floors of a cabin creaking under my step And I couldn't be sure I had a feeling so peculiar This pain wouldn't be for Evermore

#hshqtask007 #( task. ) #woohoo

[leobraganca]

                                                                         𝐨𝐧 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐥𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐥

                                            a leonardo de bragança playlist

I. best friend – rex orange county II. on the level – mac demarco III. devil’s advocate – the neighbourhood IV. this house is a circus – arctic monkeys V. ordinary life – the weeknd VI. never enough – rex orange county VII. old man – breazy daze VIII. keep it gold – surfaces IX. g.o.m.d. – j. cole X. even in my dreams, i can’t win – bad suns XI. poke – childish gambino XII. runaway – kanye ft. pusha t

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I. best friend – rex orange county

But won't you wait? You know it's too late I'm on my own shit now Let me tell you how it feels to be fucking great I feel great

Oh, I still wanna be your favorite boy I wanna be the one that makes your day The one you think about as you lie awake And I can't wait to be your number, your number one

ok if you read this, half of my explanations for these songs will be the same. there’s only so many ways for me to say stuff ok ... anyways this one probably relates to him and his desire to be the most entertaining person in the room. it’s an attention thing, probably relates to his place as a youngest child.

II. on the level – mac demarco

On the level See me eye-to-eye Stand up like a man Even from the underside

On the level Carrying a name Fall until my final days Now who's there left to blame?

how he feels about upholding the bragança name, it’s a burden but necessity

III. devil’s advocate – the neighbourhood

I'm the devil's advocate You don't know the half of it Good luck tryna manage it If a God is a dog, and a man is a fraud Then I'm a lost cause

mostly for the vibes.

IV. this house is a circus – arctic monkeys

Room for the trouble and there's lovers to be had those Walls will make sinners out of such lovely lads Scaling the corridors for maidens in the maze And in the anomaly, you'll slip into familiar ways And we're... Forever unfulfilled And can't think why Like a search for murder clues In dead men's eyes

this is a fuck boy song

V. ordinary life – the weeknd

Heaven knows that I've been told Paid for the life that I chose If I could, I'd trade it all Trade it for a halo

this kind of relates to the next song (this playlist is in no particular order btw ... i got lazy) about reflecting on his life.

VI. never enough – rex orange county

Now there's no one left to blame And your face stays the same You're ashamed to say you feel relieved Stay away from your own family

But years from now If you could make them proud You could leave the world and feel like you've Achieved the things you hoped to do, but Honestly, I don't feel ordinary 'cause I haven't been at home in a while Tell them that it's only temporary

i feel like if leo spent time reflecting on his life he would prob feel a pang of disappointment, 

VII. old man – breazy daze

Baby yeah I miss being young now I'm growing old This flick's no fun when you're on your own

self explanatory

VIII. keep it gold – surfaces

This feeling it surrounds me, ah Turning me around till I lose control This feeling it surrounds me, ah I can see the sun is shinin' on your soul

So let's keep it gold, mm Darlin' we don't ever have to grow old Just keep it gold, mm (Hey) Darlin' we got stories left to be told

this is for the vibes tbh

IX. g.o.m.d. – j. cole

Get to know somebody and you learn a lot about 'em When we long for you, start to doubt 'em Tell yourself you better off without 'em Then in time you will find can't walk without 'em Can't talk without 'em, can't breath without 'em Came here together, you can't leave without 'em So you walk back in, make a scene about 'em On your Amerie it's just 1 thing about 'em It's called love

this is mostly a leobela song. but also G.O.M.D. is how he feels a lot of the times, what he probably thinks about the braganças bothering him about it.

X. even in my dreams, i can’t win – bad suns

I lend a hand, it breaks, I see their heads shaking Deja vu, return to blue Find every way to make a crucial mistake and Deja vu, return to blue

Even in my dreams, I can't win, I can't win

this delves into his tendencies to disappoint when he wants to help.

XI. poke – childish gambino 

Never serious so I make everything a fucking joke She be pushing buttons and she push it till that button broke

just the vibes really. kind of leobela but like early leobela.

XII. runaway – kanye ft. pusha t

And I always find, yeah I always find somethin' wrong You been puttin' up wit' my shit just way too long I'm so gifted at findin' what I don't like the most So I think it's time for us to have a toast

Let's have a toast for the douche bags Let's have a toast for the assholes Let's have a toast for the scumbags Every one of them that I know Let's have a toast for the jerk offs That'll never take work off Baby, I got a plan Run away fast as you can

this song is just. mwah. like the “you’ve been putting up with my shit for way too long” is v how he feels.

#hshqtask007 #( task. ) #swore i did one for him before #but i can't find it #oh well #now it's expanded #everybody clap #( where did the party go?.┇ ★ music ★ )

[loladebelgique]

HSHQTASK # 𝟬𝟬𝟳     &     CHARACTER PLAYLIST     .

&     EVERY SECOND     --    mina okabe

every second, every day i spend hoping we never change love when you never wait or hesitate just where you’d rather be is right here with me

&     POPO ( HOW DEEP IS OUR LOVE ? )     --  baek yerin

get away from your own sorrow let the sun come through your window i can’t take my eyes away can i walk with you? or have tea with you? can i love you? giving my all to you? get away from their unkindness but this time we should run together you don’t have to worry or hide cause i get you, with my heart

&     HONEY     --   mariah carey

one hit of your love affected me and i’m strung out on you, darling i can hardly wait for another taste of honey

&     GRADUALLY     --   astn

let’s talk it out a third time this week don’t you quit, now we can make it because it’s hard to believe tell me what you’re going through, i just need you to get back to me if you feel like letting go go gradually don’t tell me i fell too hard

&     DIE RIGHT HERE     --   david hugo

she looks like fireworks against a red sky my favorite color is her skin in the summer and i don’t know what she sees in me we’re opposites in ecstasy romantic hopeless, i could die right here

&     GOODBYE     --   fiji blue

summertime was made for you and i we fall in love when sunsets kiss the sky we fall in love and never question why

&     APHRODITE     --    rini

well known for her love and beauty you took me in, you bathe me humble me down to my knees i promise that you won’t forget

&     MY FAVORITE PART     --   mac miller

you walk around so clueless to it all like nobody gonna break your heart it’ll be alright, babe don’t let them hurt you, ever said, you just don’t know how beautiful you really are

&     MY FOOLISH HEART     --   acoustic collabo

there's a line between love and fascination beware my foolish heart take care my foolish heart for this time it isn't fascination or a dream that will fade and fall apart it's love, this time it's love my foolish heart

&     ANGEL BABY     --   troye sivan

something romantic give him my all when i don’t even have it i tell you how i almost died but you’re bringing me back to life started giving up on the word forever until you gave up heaven so we could be together you’re my angel angel baby, angel baby, you’re my angel i’ll fall in love with the little things

&     ANOTHER DAY     --   fiji blue

i wish i could fall in love with you another day wish i could make it okay ( right now ) my heart is a cloud that always tends to float away

&     HONEY SKIES     --   jessica domingo

i can feel the sunlight on my skin an unexpected feeling i still wonder how you bring all of the colors in everything with you i’m flying it feels like butterflies under the honey skies you feel like summertime

&     SHE IS LOVE     --   parachute

but she takes it all for me and i lost my faith, in my darkest days but she makes me want to believe they call her love she is love and she is all i need well i had my ways and she waited patiently but she put me on my feet she is love

#hshqtask007 #yes these are all love songs dont @ me #𝐄𝐋𝐎𝐈𝐒𝐄 & tasks .

[arturcii]

                           machiavellian handshake : art II

i. Royalty - Egzood, Maestro Chives, Neoni ; ii. DICTATOR - REI AMI ; iii.  Devil - L.I.F.T ; iv.  Little Bastards - Palaye Royale  ; v.  Raging on a Sunday - Bohnes ; vi.  C’est la vie - Weathers ; vii.  Killer - Valerie Broussard ; viii. Stressed - UPSAHL ; ix.  I Need Control - Will Jay ; x. Devil’s Worst Nightmare - FJØRA ; xi. I Feel Like a God - DeathbyRomy ; xii. Sweet Talk - Poe the Passenger ; xiii. Snake - Halflives ; xiv.  FRI-END - Without a Sin ; xv. sad faces & dark places - Babel ; xvi. Dynasties and Dystopia - Denzel Curry, Gizzle, Bren Joy ; xvii.  Solitaires - Sunyel ft. THÉA ; xviii.  I’m So - MIYAVI, NVDES, Seann Bowe ; xix.  My Final Symphony - Layto — — LISTEN HERE

i. Royalty , or: how to survive your father’s mistakes

They left me for dead, I guess they'll never learn Every time I break there's just more pain to burn They'll never, never, never learn

ii. DICTATOR, as a prerequisite

Bend the fucking knee, yeah bitch that was an order Whatcha say to me? Huh? Bitch speak louder / You got me wishing I was dead 'Cause you're a meanie head —  Are you fucking recording me?

iii. Being the Devil as a birthright

Like damn, I did it, yeah, I really did it Said I've been here for a minute Will you be there when I finish? And yeah, I'm in it, yeah, I'm really in it Said that I cut out my innocence To drink my blood like medicine

iv. Always one of the Little Bastards

Fake friends all around They watch while I drown No one is there to help me

v. Raging on a Sunday, no absolution in the public eye

I should be at church but I'm raging on a Sunday Lie to confess, fuck it, worry 'bout it some day Baptized in the crowd 'cause they lookin' pretty thirsty City full of sufferin' take me to the promised land

vi. C’est la vie, or so the enemies say

Someone go get me some more confetti I think I might have hit my peak already

vii. Killer, featuring: a friend

'Cause they told me you a killer, a killer And I've got no doubt that the only way out of this thriller Is if I am a killer too

viii. Stressed but only on a Friday

'Cause I'm tired, I'm drained, I can't even see straight, and I'm Stressed, a lot going on in my head right now I'm stressed, tired like I'm already dead by now

ix. I Need Control to transcend

I need control What will I do If I lose My mind

x. Devil’s Worst Nightmare like the father intended

Spirits linger better run Double double toil and trouble Something wicked this way comes Light a candle in the window

xi. I Feel Like a God but only with my eyes closed

Why, why is everything wrong right now? I, I feel so alive right now Why, why is everything falling down? I, I feel so alive right now

xii. Sweet Talk, otherwise: condescend

Talk to me when the party's over Bottle your pride with every pill you take Not trying to be a bad guy lately I'd hate to reign on your charade

xiii. Snake, lain beneath

Heard that you said that I should leave this town I think I'll sit and watch as you're going down I'll twist the knife and leave you with a vicious ache I won't blink, I won't shake, no Because baby I'm a snake

xiv. FRI-END: another title foregone

Forever means nothing when you're lying all the time You're a scam, everything is rotten in your mind I don't have to remind you that it's mine / It's just that, I was keeping you cause I thought you were not a fool Please don't try to justify yourself You dare to look me straight in the eyes Do you only know what shame is?

xv. sad faces & dark places writhing awake

If you know you know, and it just goes to show What a mess we're in, so gather up your sins Cause it won't be so cold, when we're lying in hell with the devil So we better be careful

xvi. Dynasties and Dystopia await

Never learned to raise my hand Was too busy raising hell Everything I know I am You should go and save yourself Thought you had my number, huh? Congratulations you played yourself

xvii. Solitaires until the game bears fruit

Comme une saveur d'apocalypse dans le p'tit dej Une odeur de panique quand résonnent les sirènes Mais pas d'vision de surprise comme si on l'sentait v'nir Amer est le mépris d'ceux qui ont ken notre avenir

xviii. I’m So obsessed,

I'm so like the shit I'm so into this I'm so

xix. Ready for My Final Symphony

Ay, no one cries for me (Ay-oh ayy) Somethin' wrong with me Can't you fucking see (Ay-oh ayy) You know it won't be long

#hshqtask007 #realised i never did it for art so here we are

[hshclaude]

                                             dream ! : claude

PART I: i. love, or lack thereof - Isaac Dunbar ; ii. Bad Texter - Ryan Woods ; iii. Granola - drumaq ; iv. @elio.irl - ELIO ; v. comme des garcons (like the boys) - Rina Sawayama ; vi. Enough - Nolie ; vii. Dangerous - david hugo ; viii. Superficial Love - Calica, Magdalena Bay ; ix. SAILORMOON - UPTOWN BOYBAND ; x. Remember Summer Days - Anri ; xi. Slide - Calvin Harris, Frank Ocean ; xii. kiss u better - Katzù Oso — — LISTEN HERE

He just has that end of summer vibe. The kind of thing you listen to driving home and realising you’re growing up.

i. love, or the lack thereof

All of my friends say you're no good for me I don't care, I'm aware that I'm wrong 'Cause I love attention, toxic retention I don't care that I'm wrong

ii. bad texter

'Cause I know you wanna reach me But I'm a bad texter I know you wanna see me I know what you like I know you wanna reach me It's just the bad weather

iii. granola

I'm just tryna live (I'm just tryna live, yeah) So, baby, get a grip Easy fix, just exist We all goin' through some shit But it is what it is Doesn't matter what I did

iv. @elio.irl

'Cause life keeps cruising and I'm still frozen here Lines keep moving no matter how slow they seem For the time being, I'm fine being here

v. comme de garcons (like the boys)

Hot like a fever Make you a believer Write my name up in the sky From Paris to Shibuya Miu Miu Prada Mugler, Virgil Ross Nicola Elevate your vision When you put me on the cover

vi. enough

Hide away somewhere safe while the days are long enough I could stay every day and I wouldn't get enough

vii. dangerous

Caution tape around your heart, no no Crossed the line now we can't stop, no no So why don't we raise the stakes Put a little pressure on us Already know it's late

viii. superficial love

'Cause I want authentic, not just for fun If this love is plastic, it'll break on us 'Cause I don't want it if it's fake I don't want it if it's just for show

ix. sailormoon

Dancing, dancing You're dancing in the moonlight, baby Call me, call me So you can call me sunshine, baby Darling, darling I'm dreaming 'bout a lovely, baby Take me, take me Just love me, love me

x. remember summer days

Remember Summer Days 二度ともどらないの 思い出も 今 波が洗い流すわ Oh I love you 忘れられないけど 冬になったら 別の恋するわ

xi. slide

My diamonds gon' shine when the lights dark (shine) You and I take a ride down the boulevard (yeah) And your friends really wanna break us apart Good Lord

xii. kiss u better

Don't you cry I'll stay with you 'till the morning light 'Cause girl, you now I'm just that kinda guy And I hope thats it"s true

#hshqtask #hshqtask007

[yijane]

﹟𝐇𝐒𝐇𝐐𝐓𝐀𝐒𝐊  𝟶𝟶𝟽  —  character playlist  +  jihye yi. for when you’re feeling rotten to your core & then some.

—  spotify in source  +  some key lyrics below.  template cred.

liability  by  lorde  //  says he made the big mistake of dancing in my storm,  says it was poison.

you  should  see  me  in  a  crown  by  billie  eilish  //  bite my tongue,  bide my time.  wearing a warning sign.  wait 'til the world is mine.

i’ll  be  good  by  jaymes  young  //  i thought i saw the devil this morning,  looking in the mirror.

uncomfortably  numb  by  american  football  //    sensitivity deprived,  all of my sympathy prescribed.

fever  dream  by  movements  //  lock myself in the dark,  try to fake some security where the better things are and my shadow can't follow me.

#hshqtask007 #& ˟ ♡ › tasks ⤻ 𝒋𝒊𝒉𝒚𝒆 𝒚𝒊. #easing my way into the tasks ... #trying not 2 fill this playlist with my emo music rlly wounded me </3 VJSDIFAJODJ

[jinmeixu]

⁺ HSHQTASK007  ›  playlist — reality & dreams.

#01. remember me, umi  /  #02. gone, lianne la havas  /  #03. disappear,  tei shi  /  #04. carry me home, jorja smith ft. maverick sabre  /  #05. dreams, solange  /  #06. under the table, banks  /  #07. someday, 94914 ft. minji  /  #08. do you ever feel like you have no one to turn to?, yayyoung

#01. remember me, umi  —  last summer we made plans like we would always be. we said by now that we'd have everything and more i never thought that we'd be dreaming on our own.

#02. gone, lianne la havas  —  when i waited for you there was no show. made myself believe the untrue, how could i not know? but it seemed easier, just to lie. but i found you out, this is my last goodbye. i heard enough fairy tales back in my youth. so just stop biting your nails and take the painful truth. you just look ridiculous in your disguise. well i found you out, this is my last goodbye

#03. disappear,  tei shi  —  usually i wouldn't try to numb the pain, but i don't think that i can take another day. and if i took all of my wasted tears. i'd have an ocean i could drown my fears in. i wish there was a pill that could make me feel nothing. i don't wanna be here, i don't wanna feel nothing. wish that I could disappear.

#04. carry me home, jorja smith ft. maverick sabre  —  midnight strikes, where is my prince? lost my comfort, more time to think. broken and bruised, tell me what i am. feel so unused, help me find your hand.

#05. dreams, solange  —  i grew up a little girl with dreams, dreams, dreams...  dreams, they come a long way, not today.

#06. under the table, banks  —  it already started. i tried to stop it but i already know you are something i should do without, but i won't. i'm under the table. just keep wishing i'll come out but I don't. you are something i should do without, but i won't.

#07. someday, 92914  —  sometimes we don't realize — all the lights coming from was blind, now i see. under the mountain i see those birds hanging from the trees. out of the sky i see those clouds running from the wind.

#08. do you feel like you have no one to turn to?,  yayyoung  —  there are times when you feel you can never be okay. tou can just be still for a while, you don't have to try. when the moonlight is the only right way to feel that you're okay. you just close your eyes, let the stars fall down, they will never dry.

#hshqtask007

[fannicroy]

                                               25TH HOUR 

                                               a fanni croÿ playlist

pretty little head — eliza rickman. jackie cane — hoovephonic. sweet ophelia — zella day. pretty face — sóley. rousseau — nerina pallot. can i begin again — ciaran lavery. numb — marina. glass ceiling — metric.

it took me only 6 months to finish this yay ! 

PRETTY LITTLE HEAD — eliza rickman

possibly the most accurate song on the playlist. the narrow box she has made for herself and how difficult it has made staying sane inside her head. everything from the obsessive need to get married to being reckless in her desperation and falling for beautiful words.

Hook, line, and sinker, drop it down to the bottom Butterfly, float, flicker, soar to the top Kill for the thrill, cut it, stick it where you got him Circle rollin' under, runnin' red to the stop Sister bring it hither Push it down below Catch yourself a looker let it go go go Wanna have your baby But I'm so so slow Don't you worry honey 'cus I can't say 'no'

JACKIE CANE — hooverphonic

special thanks to jude for this one ! while her old image is certainly beginning to have cracks in it, this song is about the majority of her life. fanni has dedicated her life to others. trailing behind levi, supporting oli when she needed it. tekla might be the only one she relied on.

Jackie Cane was everybody's sugar She'd melt away if only she could of Taken for granted, abused and drained They ran her dry and then it never rained She was the queen of the 25th hour They looked so sweet but the after-taste was sour

SWEET OPHELIA — zella day

this follows the same theme as the song above, though it's more specific to farnauld.

Singing like it's a full moon Careless now that he has you Turns you on to the right songs Promises that you're hooked on

Sweet Ophelia, When young blood escapes Vows that break Go up, up away

PRETTY FACE — sóley

exclusively a farnauld song.

I thought I had touched them but I can't feel I'm in your dream They want to take me but I will hide from them Tonight I'll take your life and throw it far away I'll use my pretty face to find my way to him

I ran away from you Into your dream The one That I was in when you Told me That I could never meet My friend Again Will you be my friend in my dream? Take that pretty face off show me Will we ever have that baby? Just take your pretty face off, show me Are you my friend?

ROUSSEAU — nerina pallot

fanni, despite what people tell her and what she herself has seen, firmly believes that everything she has done, has been of her own free will. not because of expectations and the pressure of the society. she really just wanted to be levi's crutch, arnauld's lover, the family's sun.

Rousseau is following me, following me, Following me down to the ladders. Oh, are we really born free? Are we born free? Or just born again?

And you think you feel, Yeah you think you'll be Your own kind philosophy.

CAN I BEGIN AGAIN — ciaran lavery

fanni doesn't quite like what she has become. she has let arnauld taint much of what she has worked on her whole life. 

I want a cigarette, I want a cigarette But I'd rather be in love, I'd rather be in love I want a cigarette (I don't smoke, no), I want a cigarette But rather be in love (You don't love, no), I'd rather be in love I need to please myself, I need to please myself, I need to please myself

NUMB — marina

fanni has a need to control every aspect of her life. when things begin to slip her, she gets stressed out. part of what makes her her, in her opinion, is perfection. she doesn't cause trouble: she fixes things. she doesn't ask for help: she offers it. she doesn’t make mistakes: she stops others from making them.

Forgo families, forgo friends That's how it started, and how it ends I can't open up, and cry Cause I've been silent all my life

I feel numb most of the time Lower, I get the higher I'll climb, and I will wonder why I got dark only to shine

TAKE CONTROL — kodaline

this song is more of a... it's for fanni, it's something for her to remember.

Take control of who you are When the world is getting stranger Take control of who you are Stay the same, don't let them change you

But when it comes apart When it comes apart, just start again And open up your heart Take control of who you are

GLASS CEILING — metric

this is very different from the vibe of the playlist. it's more of a song about that click inside her head that's almost here. realizing how frustrating it is to let the society contain you. 

Only know what I'm told, only know what I'm told Fast asleep daydreaming Start to push, break your own glass ceiling Can't count, can't catch the pieces falling

Who let it end up on the ground How am I gonna know you're letting me down How did I end up on the ground

Only go where I'm told, only know what I'm told Inch to inches, crowding We can't leave, it's the last road open Every speed on our knees is crawling

Every speed on our knees is crawling Every speed on our knees is crawling Every speed on our knees is crawling Every speed on our knees is crawling

#hshqtask007 #( music. ) #( tasks. ) #( task007. )

[arayamahidol]

⁺ HSHQTASK007  ›  playlist — idle hours.

#01. alone, daniela andrade  /  #02. come back to earth, mac miller  /  #03. mama,  raveena  /  #04. 9, willow smith ft. sza  /  #05. confidently lost, sabrina claudio  /  #06. crush, yuna ft. usher  /  #07. all i really want is you, the marias  /  #08. i’m closing my eyes, potsu ft. shiloh  /  #09. we can’t be friends, yndi & dream koala  

#01. alone, daniela andrade  —  lost for words, bite my tongue. sink into new beginnings. find myself overcome. making do with the feeling.

#02. come back to earth, mac miller  —  in my own way, i feel like living. some alternate reality. and i was drowning, but now i'm swimming. through stressful waters to relief.

#03. mama,  raveena  —  looking through your photos, i imagine all of your dreams. i will always wonder who you really were before me. what did you lose? i hope nothing too soon.

#04. 9, willow smith ft. sza  —  breathing is easier under water. i can see sky from here.

#05. confidently lost, sabrina claudio  —  i'm alone but I'm not lonely. comfortably indulging and tryna get to know me. i’m just an outline of what I used to be. constantly evolving. steadily revolving.

#06. crush, yuna ft. usher  —  i feel a little rush. i think I've got a little crush on you. i hope it's not too much. but boy when i'm with you I hear it, my heart is singing.

#07. all i really want is you, the marias  —  head down, i don't know when to come over here now. you take my hand like there's a way out. and we're escaping through the window.

#08. i’m closing my eyes, potsu ft. shiloh  —  ( for the vibes ) 

#09. we can’t be friends, yndi & dream koala  —  ( also for the vibes )

- the rest of the songs on the playlist are just songs i think she’d listen to 

#hshqtask007 #⁺ 𝐀𝐑𝐀𝐘𝐀 / task ›

[cmiray]

hshqtask007. character playlist

EXHALE sabrina carpenter | OLDER THAN I AM lennon stella | NOBODY mitski | HATE MYSELF dodie | OLDER sasha sloan | CHERRY rina sawayama | BRUTAL olivia rodrigo | NEW SKIN vérité

Exhale  Sabrina Carpenter

I put too much weight on words and glances I put too much weight on situations I put too much on myself Thinking "I don't deserve what I've earned", but yeah

Older Than I Am  Lenno Stella

Sometimes I wish I could do something stupid Be kinda reckless while I can Say I don't give a damn But I'm older than I am

Nobody Mitski

And I don't want your pity I just want somebody near me Guess I'm a coward I just want to feel alright

Hate Myself  Dodie

I'm getting desperate, losing my mind Oh, how do we get here, every time? One will fold their arms, one will do the dance Really is no need, something wrong with me

Older  Sasha Sloan

I used to wonder why, why they could never be happy I used to close my eyes and pray for a whole 'nother family Where everything was fine, one that felt like mine I swore I'd never be like them But I was just a kid back then

Cherry Rina Sawayama

Even though I'm satisfied I lead my life within a lie Holding onto feelings I'm not used to feeling 'Cause, oh, they make me feel alive

Brutal Olivia Rodrigo

And they'd all be so disappointed 'Cause who am I if not exploited? And I'm so sick of seventeen Where's my fuckin' teenage dream?

New Skin Vérité

I got new love, new skin To wrap myself in New lows, new sins To lose myself in New heart, new limbs

#hshqtask007 #.task

[nctasja]

ARE YOU SCARED OF ME OLD MAN? … a natasja playlist

i. old man — stella donnelly;     ii. under the table — fiona apple;     iii. kyoto — phoebe bridgers;     iv. in the dark — vok;     v. undercover martyn — two door cinema club;     vi. i wanna get better — bleachers;     vii. pagan poetry — bjork;     viii. empty — garbage;    ix. ladder song — lorde;     x. she’s thunderstorms — arctic monkeys;     xi. sin triangle — sidney gish;     xii. drunk walk home — mitski;     xiii. let’s find an out — snail mail;         xiv. trust issues — rico nasty;         xv. bad friend — rina sawayama;         xvi. hyperballad — bjork;         xvii. only happy when it rains — garbage;         xviii. everybody wants to rule the world — lorde;

( 𝑳𝑰𝑺𝑻𝑬𝑵 𝑯𝑬𝑹𝑬 )

old man —  stella donnelly.

“oh are you scared of me old man? or are you scared of what i’ll do?”  

under the table —  fiona apple.

“i would beg to disagree, but begging disagrees with me. i told you i didn’t want to go to this dinner - you know i don’t go for those ones that you bother about. so when they say something that makes me start to simmer, that fancy wine won’t put this fire out. kick me under the table all you want, i won’t shut up.” 

kyoto —  phoebe bridgers.

“i’m gonna kill you - if you don’t beat me to it. dreaming through scorpio skies. i wanted to see the world through your eyes until it happened - then i changed my mind.” 

in the dark —  vok.

“i better toughen up, things will get me along. cause there’s something in the night - something is there. i’m awake and breaking apart. treading water in the dark, to keep my head above my heart.”

undercover martyn —  two door cinema club.

“and she spoke words of wisdom. to the basement people, to the basement. many surprises await. you hid there last time, you know we’re gonna find you! sick in the car seat ‘cause you’re not up to going. out on the main streets, completing your mission.” 

i wanna get better —  bleachers.

“woke up this morning early before my family from this dream where she was trying to show me how a life can move form the darkness. she said to get better.”

pagan poetry —  bjork.

“he offers a handshake - crooked, five fingers. they form a pattern yet to be matched. on the surface simplicity - from the darkest pit in me. and it’s pagan poetry.”

empty  —  garbage.

“so i work at staying patient - good things come to those who wait, or so they say. i’m so empty - you’re all i think about.” 

ladder song —  lorde.

“no one knows where the ladder goes - you’re going to lose what you love the most. you’re not alone in anything, you’re not unique in dying.”

she’s thunderstorms —  arctic monkeys.

“in an unusual place, when you’re feeling far away. she does what the night does to the day.”

sin triangle —  sidney gish.

“two faced bitches never lie and therefore i never lie. diagram this sin triangle for me tonight, because i don’t know what to say. a sickness by any other name wouldn’t be sweet, either, but with luck it would at least like, not suck.”

drunk walk home —  mitski.

“for i’m starting to learn i may never be free. but thought i may never be free - fuck you and your money!” 

let’s find an out —  snail mail.

“burn out when you want. something’s lost that belongs to you. someone should pay for it - well i just don’t know who.” 

trust issues —  rico nasty.

“if you got a problem with me can you let me know? i gotta lot of issues, i try not to let ‘em show. i got trust issues, don’t nobody get too close.” 

bad friend  —  rina sawayama.

“i’m so good at crashing in, making sparks and shit but then. i’m a bad, i’m a bad, i’m a bad friend. so don’t ask me where i’ve been, been avoiding everything.” 

hyperballad  —  bjork. 

“i follow with my eyes till they crash, i imagine what my body would sound like slamming against those rocks. and when it lands, will my eyes be closed or open?”

only happy when it rains  —  garbage.

“i'm only happy when it's complicated, and though I know you can't appreciate it. you know i love it when the news is bad. why it feels so good to feel so sad? i’m only happy when it rains. pour your misery down on me.”

everybody wants to rule the world  —  lorde.

“welcome to your life, there's no turning back. even while we sleep, we will find you acting on your best behavior, turn your back on mother nature. everybody wants to rule the world.”

#i said it's natasja appreciation night #hshqtask007 #hshqgraphix #anyways i'm proud of this too nobody stanned parker's but this one is also pretty #task