#how he saves his water for CHRISTIAN?????? the woman he loves’ husband????? oh im evil

[ilovefredjones]

there seems to be an unused ration of… water? yes.

martin crimp, cyrano de bergerac / raoul walsh, captain horatio hornblower

#i heard ‘hornblower? he ain’t human’ and blacked out for the rest of the film #watched chh last night bc a) he was inspiration of jim kirk’s character and b) hornblower is played by ethan peck’s grandfather #so a very full circle moment #and. gah this scene this SCENEEEE #the dehumanisation of authority figures the same way jim is constantly being compared to caesar #their struggles never being visible bc they have to be strong for their crew #and thus almost becoming godlike and infallible #HE AINT HUMAN???????????????????? #and god don’t even get me started on the cyrano extract #how he saves his water for CHRISTIAN?????? the woman he loves’ husband????? oh im evil #he values christian’s life more than his own bc ROXANE values christian more!!!!!!! AAAAAAAGGHHHHHHHH #and how much HIS men respect and admire him even tho he isn’t a general or anything he’s just an ordinary solider #and how the rest of the men and even cyrano himself almost start to believe he’s untouchable #he takes the flack and he’d go to hell and back and thus he’s lifted into this high position #when in reality it’s like. because he hates himself. and his sword and his words are all he has #and if that kills him then it kills him #and it DOES kill him!!!!!!! he walks out of hospital to confess to roxane and he dies and aaaaggggghhghh #normal normal i’m normal #god why can’t i have normal interests like everybody else #no one else is like ‘omg the parallels between this 1951 film and an adaptation of an 18th century french play’ #and how they relate to captain kirk from star trek #what is WRONGGGGGG WITH ME WHAT IS MY PROBLEM #god. anyway #jesus christ jemima. have you ever tried to like things a normal amount #anyway. i’m finished now i think #how tf do i even tag this #cyrano de bergerac #captain horatio hornblower