#hes the oldest guy ive talked to and he was a little rambly and scatterbrain but he reminded me of my undergrad advisor

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#prospective phd advisor: if u wanna go to Antarctica we can def arrange that #me: um fuck yea i wanna go to Antarctica. #it wouldnt be to mcmerdo dry valley like i always imagined but um yes pls #assuming he gets the funding for a student and assuming i decide to go there #hes the oldest guy ive talked to and he was a little rambly and scatterbrain but he reminded me of my undergrad advisor #and i feel like he liked my passion and im prob s good fit for what he wants to do. so idk another good option #and it would be kinda great bc it wouldnt b that far from where my parents live but it would b in another country #i could hang for a while in the forrests of canada 🇨🇦 #ugh so many options. our call was unceremoniously cut short tho by a bad zoom connector #but it was on my last questions so it could have been way worse #sigh... i started the day sobbing into my scrambled eggs bc i was getting bombarded by texts abt leaving for sampling later today #and now i feel a little better. just gotta stay normal until Monday #hhhh at least thats all the interviews done. unless i decide to follow up on one last email exchange #i should do that. he does engineering cyanobacteria stuff but god im already seriously looking at 5 other ppl. do i really wanna chase #down another person. ugh idk ill feel so bad if i make all my referees send stuff to 5 different institutions let along 6 #blah im so exhausted #and what better way to deal with that exhaustion than spending a whole weekend sampling all day with zero rest fml #it better not rain. i dont wanna go back again. #oh god if i could just lay face down on the floor for a lil while. that would heal me #unrelated