#hes really helpful if you guys cant tell

[embersofhope-if]

^^me looking at my bestfriend after i showed him the logo i made for embers of hope, and all he says is "okay youve got the songbird but where's the snake"

#emma thoughts🕊 #he gave me no other notes. #hes really helpful if you guys cant tell #but he did help me figure out some stuff with my other game so ig he's useful #emma rambles #he also says you guys are weird with how much you like angst #but its okay bc i love yall and thats all that matters

[mosstrades]

Oh wait this is fucked up actually. Marcy grew up around Simon while he was actually already under the effects of the crown (both physically and mentally). He was already unraveling by the time they found each other, even if he still felt like he was 'himself', so Simon as we know him, regular-ass Simon, would be in ways a kind of stranger to her. Physically, in his appearance and presence decoupled from the effects of the crown; situationally, what with them not being in a barren wasteland and whatnot; emotionally and personally, with Simon maybe doing things or showing himself to be things that Marcy didn't know to expect. And add to that how much they've both changed over the course of their lives since they separated...

While Simon managed to see her life through Ice King's eyes for a while, I like to imagine the memory is fuzzy at best and entirely unreliable at worst, so — in a way, truly, their reunion is them getting to know each other all over again, in a new dynamic, but with the base of that same old, foundational relationship; that same old, old love.

And I'm so normal about it.

#(the reconnection of a grown up kid and her dad who she only knew as an active user after he gets out of rehab) who said that #<- projecting hard #adventure time #nick.txt #marceline abadeer #simon petrikov #fionna and cake #Do you think Simon has a strained relationship with self-expression and silliness after being IK. Do you think it makes Marcy think about #the Simon who raised her - always cracking jokes to help them both cope? #You ever think Marcy gets a bit weirded out by how... normal... post-canon Simon is. #Do you ever think Simon gets bouts of 'madness'* and she's like 'oh hey I know this guy'. #Do you ever think she tells childhood anecdotes from that time he wasn't there and he gets this heavy look of regret he cant quite hide-- #(at this point i have been shot with a tranquilizer dart) #*I think the relationship AT has with the complicated-ass concept of altered consciousness/'madness'/mental illness is really interesting #and has a lot of potential for expansion in fic #What with themes alienation from yourself and from others. What with the portrayal of what your being 'mad' 'does' to you/those around you. #What with themes of guilt and forgiveness and acceptance and responsibility and healing. #Like. If youre like me and you hc Simon as having a litany of mental struggles. At what point does that differ from #the magic-induced altered state? #and what does that look like and feel like? How does that affect himself and his connection to others? #I think its a very easily dismissed concept bc of how it brushes some pretty stank ableist tropes #but I also think it could be incredibly #resonant if treated skillfully and compassionately and realistically #to put it crassly #local man finally free of crazy-crown-curse discovers he has severe mental illness. like. the normal person kind. #has to deal with that. #tldr simon my friend simon my favorite he/she grandma who experiences psychosis <3 #and marcy my friend marcy my favorite she/they mitski stan who just wants love to surround her #the tags in this post are like three other posts. im right tho

[softesttangerines]

As someone who LOVES a good old time travel au, and after seeing amazing fanart of kid!Mihawk i have to let it out!!

I just wanna read a time travel fic where baby Mihawk wakes up and finds himself in the world of adult Mihawk and he's like wtf is going on?

And word goes around that a kid that looks exactly like Hawkeyes and carries the same cross knife as him is roaming around this island and rumors say it's the son he abandoned to fend for himself.

And so, marines and every pirates he ever wronged come after him for revenge and the little guy is just thinking why is everyone trying to get me? While doing his best with his cross dagger to rid of them.

And Shanks, good ol' shanks could have sworn that if his old rival had an 9years old, he would know about it (also he refuses to let the bitter taste in his heart take over unless his own eyes see) so he's skeptical about the whole thing and that's the only thing that gets him to leave his hideout in a reclused ghost island waiting for whatever is his big plan to take place.

News say Red Shanks is on the move after being mia for a few years and everyone got their panties in a twist, what could have raised the emperor from the dead.

He follows from island to island because apparently the young boy knows how to avoid the marines and pirates coming after him.

Till one night, on their stop at some bar on an island that wasn't really on the plan, he sees the boy. Just outside the bar in an alley, where he went to empty his guts from the booze overfilling his body, there stood bloody faced, cross dagger in one hand, a tiny version of his old rival with a bounty hunter's body at his feet.

The boy furrows his eyebrows even more at the new arrival and strikes another pose in case the new guy tries something funny. But Shanks, drunk ass Shanks, who knows his rival by heart is a 100% sure the little guy is in fact his rival for whatever magical reason, there he stands in front of him in the form of an 9years old and Shanks giggles at that -to which the child takes great offense- and just say "hey kid, i'm a friend of your dad's, want me to take you to him?"

#mishanks #Ok so here I'm running with the fandom's theory that rayleigh is mihawk's dad #And after getting all these murder attempts on his person he's just so fckn tired of anyone that approaches him So he's completely on guard #when this red haired dude comes out of nowhere n tells him he knows his dad #Which no one did before all they did was charge at him screaming HAWKEYES YOU'RE GONNA REGRET WHAT YOU DID #And here's the thing #he may be inclined to believe the red haired guy because no one knows his relation to rayleigh #so this guy must really know his dad and he's tired of running all the time he just wants his bed and parents #so cut him some slack when he follows a random one armed red haired pirate #On the other hand the crew is equally creeped out and charmed by the little fella because even young he still installs the chills in them #How can he be as equally as skilled as he is cuuuuute #They try their best not to say it to his face because he threatens to stab them at any given chance but they cant HELP IT #it's Dracule Fucking Mihawk as an 9years old!!!! Ofc he's cute #Shanks cant fucking wait to get his adult Mihawk back to tease the shit out of him about the little version of him lol #When they got him to rayleigh he fckn cried because that's his fckn son znd the last time he saw hus baby that way was more than 30years ag #Mihawk is just confused as fuck why is his dad's grey n have much more wrinklesBut it's still one familiar face so he just sticks to him #The red haired pirate keeps telling him that he should look for him when he gets home but he doesn't understand!!! #He also keeps challenging shanks on a duel once he discovers he's a swordsman and keeps on losing #And truth be told shanks is embarrassed as fuck because it took him his rival being a child for him to win over mihawk #opla #one piece #mihawk #dracule mihawk #red haired shanks #shanks

[stupid-dyke]

stayed up til 3 when I have an 8am again. I do this because I hate myself so sos sososososososososo much. It's really funny because I don;t fall asleep in class thanks to my meds but I've noticed every time I go to class after 4 hrs sleep people act weird around me which is how I know im acting really weird. And I am so extremely angry at myself. I spent 4 hours. well 8 hours. Well all day. Pretending I'm going to do homework and distracting myself with various other things on my laptop or crying on the phone to my parents. Got zerooooo work done at all i stayed up most of the nihght for literally no gain whatsoever this is pure self harm. Which I do becauase again I hate myself. Because I didn't do my work. Which i won't do tomorrow either because i'll be so tired I wont be able to string a sentence together even though I'm supposed to give a presentation haha. My favorite activity is staring at the clock on my laptop getting later and later and later. new high score etc. Who's a hypersomniac now. Imagine how much easier this semester would have been if I'd gone to bed before 2am ever. I'm so fucking angry at myself I'm not sure I'll be able to sleep now even. If I fail my classes again my parents are gonna make me live at home forever and say im too crazy to live on my own. I know I was supposed to get a therapist but I hate them all so, so, so much. I think people get that job bc they feel powerful telling some pathetic person what to do knowing I literally cannot do it and will come back week after week admittingn failure and paying

I know I was supposed to take the new experimental FDA approved drug for IH but the list of side effects is fucking terrifying and I live and sleep alone so i really don't want to take a super powerful sedative that can make you stop breathing. So I'm gonna keep taking stimualnts and lying to myself that today is the last day I stay up extremely late for no reason.

#it's really sad I'll skip the meds sometimes to try to sleep and it doesn't even help. I just feel worse while awake. #The real reason i can't sleep is because im screwing myself over by doing no work and im terrified im going to fail my fucking classes #and theyre all going to say im crazy if I fail my classes. theyre going to say im crazy and I self sabotaged on purpose #bc i dont want to succeed. Dad says that every day #Dad loves telling me everytjhing wrong with me multiple times a day every day so i never ever forget #hes so helpful. He's trying so hard to help. If i dont answer the phone he starts worrying ive committed suicide #again i was suicidal one week in 2019. Get the fuck over it. You've literally threatened to kill yourself multiple times. Fucking hypocrite #a bunch of my friends are going to graduate this semester and best case scenario i graudate next semester and then I'll lose touch with eve #ybody #and then the good times are over and life is boring and hell forever and ill get more disabled every year until I can't work and then I'll #run out of money and die #you know when I talked to my genetics professor about the alzheimer's results he said somethign will kill you eventually and it #wont be that unless you live to old age which will be good! #so true bestie. so ture #Guys lets be real here. Why the fuck. Do we live. why. It is so goddamn hard. Maybe it;s easy when u get sleep . But that hasn't happened t #me for a while #all my classes end next week and i havent done most assignments since spring break #also over spring break my parents met w a lawyer to revise their will adn afterwards dad told me im executor and explained to me what will #happen after each person in my family dies. #the assumption is that I will outlive everyone. they don't think my sister will live to old age adn they are already old #the lawyer apparently has clients with the same disability as me and all of them had the same thing happen. Once they get another disabilit #and get older it becomes impossible to manage IH and they cant work til retirement age #i just spent an hour typing this shit instead of sleeping. 4am-730am sleep lets go. I should kill myself #i hate my parents fucking advicce bc they;; be like well when i was ur age I was married it sure must suck to be single!!!! fuck you guys f

[spaciebabie]

sorry to like dump this on you you can delete this if it bothers you absolutely not obligated to answer it i just wanted to know and apologies in advance if i cross a line somehow-

so you know how when you get like. really fixated on a character. you know how that is. and its no coherent thoughts. its just 'THEM. THEM THEM THEM LOOK IT'S THEM LOOK AT THEM LOOKLOOKLOOK-' right? that's okay right? because everyone kinda churns out all these ideas and headcanons n stuff and my brain is just. yknow. that. that's okay right? i am literally incapable of anything else i am head empty i will stare at them blankly no thoughts.

...that is like, okay? right? kinda bothers me a bit that i can't really think of anything to characterize/add a little more depth to characters i get interested in because my scrambled thoughts literally do not do them justice-

hey nah ur fine, this is a common experience w/ppl, myself included. there's nothin wrong w/yu. its how ive experienced all of my blorbos and also all the things ive liked in general. i can speak abt a general idea abt who they are and stuff like that but going in deeper i just cant do it skdfjkdslfj

its why i cant leave good feedback on fics and i always feel bad that i cant pick em apart like others do but i mean!!! i just have a different brain!!!! yu have a different brain!!! the consumers are just as important ta the fandom ecosystem as the theorizers and/or hcers!!! its okay my friend :)

#spacie splains #there is a reason that 1 post i made resonated w/so many ppl #head empty just Guys in dere #i wanna put em in Situations but also i have no good grasp on how they might act in those Situations #i think its part of the 'i cant tell what ppl are thinking at any given time and am clueless 2 ppls thought patterns n feelings' #thing ive got goin on #for as often as i think abt spoinger i like. feel like i have a really barebones understanding of him. #hes like the only character ive been able ta think critically abt and yet.....! head empty!!! only him!!!! #i think it helps that the fnaf puts him in Situations that i dont hafta manifest i can just think abt what im already given #anyway u can just unabashedly enjoy ur Guys!! nothin wrong wit dat!! :] #maybe some1 in ur fandom space will put your exact thoughts inta words and you can be like: yes!!!!!!!!!!! yes!!!!!!!!!!! and go geek mode

[caramelmochacrow]

yk i was working on a post where i tried to guess the next relations event after the kurumi and miiko relations but ig i was gonna be wrong either way bc there wasnt going to be any relations after that lmfao 🥲

#crow talks #d4dj #d4dj groovy mix #lol..... #i'll just say my guess in the tags.... #since this is going by unit and we already got a peaky rondo hapiara photon and lyrilily ones the next one wouldve been M4 (RIP M4 fans...) #it seems to me they were saving the really important relationships for the other units or guys we already saw get close so it wouldve been- #(probably) dalia and rika relations or a marika and saori one #bc we know how dalia and rika met (road to d4fes) and their relationship (kinda of) so we might've learned about their older brothers. #something about rika's older brother and how his illness affected younger rika and dalia's brother with how badly he wants to be a chef-- #but is struggling bc he has something missing he cant see but his father can. #or maybe we can finally learn more abt rika's savior complex and dalia's self-consciousness about her eyes. maybe those can connect. #marika saori relations..... hmmm. a bit hard but my guess is: #since some of the relations events (of course) build off info from the last one marika might be trying to audition for a role in a film bc- #she told towa abt it and how she wants to be more confident and cool like..... rika. #she kind of opens up to saori about how unconfident she is with acting and saori helps her out by acting with her. kind of gay thing ensues #what im saying is something similar to the aoi and haruna relations but it's another play/movie and both of them gain confidence #that or it would've been marika rika relations and a saori dalia relations hm. #idk is this an interesting relations premise? you tell me.

[widevibratobitch]

aaaaaaand it's starting. mom's bestie just texted me asking to come over this weekend cause it's Bad and it's probably the last chance to talk and maybe say goodbye to my mom's husband and i need to take care of her. god. i wont get through this weekend unless im high or drunk istg.

#time to slightly overdose my depression meds again ig lol #anyway. it is a little better with me these last two weeks. turns out the meds do work when you actually take em regularly #but first my best friend's break up that she's blowing up to unimaginable size #acting as if she just got divorced with the love of her life after 20 years #and not ended a few months long relationship with a guy who's been the source of most of her troubles since the moment they started dating #(ofc she's valid and id never tell her that because like. i get it. some people feel stuff more deeply. but its hard to be supportive #when you genuinely feel like this is the best possible outcome for her and that the relationship was only dragging her down all this time) #and now this. and this is gonna be infinitely worse. and then it's gonna get a million times worse when he actually does die. #and i feel like the worst most selfish person ever which like. probably am. but i did tell my cousin who actually knows my mom really well #and she said she understands and that my fears ARE valid because SHE'S terrified of how she's gonna handle my mom #and she wouldn't wanna be me in that situation cause it's gonna be so much worse for me lmao #like i feel like people who know my mother casually really dont understand just how unhinged emotionally she is #anyway. i feel so overwhelmed. i cant handle this jesus. #but im also emotionally unavailable and refuse to actually confide in another person because i dont want to be a bother <3333 #god i love tumblr. i can literally type anything in those tags lol it's the perfect form of venting since you can just scroll by #but i will still have let it out of myself anyway uwu i literally dont need that therapy fr #anyway. i feel so unbelievably fucking lonely and on one hand it's my own fault for withdrawing and refusing to ask for help. #but on the other hand. i AM alone. like there's no one who can help me in this particular situation. #i have no siblings. obviously my dad isnt gonna help. it all falls down to me. good god. i wanna throw up.

[superchat]

Havent even gotten my first paycheck yet and this job is making me feel dead

#It doesnt help that my boss has the same list of complaints he whines to me abt #And they usually involve stepping stone talking #Where its one thing that he explains and then you go to the next thing which means that after tht the NEXT thing whined abt which in means- #And i KNOW what hes getting at the moment hes on the first stepping stone #And i gotta sit there and wait for him to finish his thing #Or try and cut in a little with hints that I Get It #''yup. im trackin. just like that one time. mhmm.'' #I cant tell if hes noticed how he get on my nerves :u #Earlier today he tried to convince me to pay for my own training course cuz ''im really investing in myself'' #Its actually training for my job youehired me for #Training you guys cant give me #So i think its for work.

[summerendroll]

i have to be honest guys i can't be humble anymore i am good at what i do know and i know this. i'm not saying every drawing i make turns out incredible or even that i have a single drawing i wouldn't change SOMETHING in but i'm, like, good at it. i'm pretty good at analyzing media too tbh. pretty good at making amvs. i've got a good singing voice even if i'm not a technically good singer i like my voice itself and i like the act of singing. i like drawing and i am good at it. okay thats all

#i got soo frustrated today because we're making neater versions of some prototype template things at work #and i really wish i was allowed to just do it all myself because the lack of cohesion that comes from #three different people trying to do different parts of the exact same task with different attitudes and different methods #ITS KILLING MEEEEEE mine are neater mine r neater not to sound like a smug bitch but just let meeeee #ok the end. normal again <3 #IM TIRED OF THE SELF DEPRECATION IN MY WRITING CLASS #this guy comes in every day talking about how bad he is at writing. so many of us r like omg my draft is so bad #that is the mindkiller that is the joykiller u have to say i made something help me make it even better. or something #if u come in telling us ur story sucks ass im more likely to think yes it does suck ass and try to pull my punches and not give u enough #feedback to spare ur feelings ur something!!!!!!! like u cant post art saying omg this is so bad. itll make u feel worse abt ur work #itll make other people who think they arent as good as you feel worse abt their own work. its just all around NOT the move !!!! #as a creator i personally Have to project confidence i don't always feel because its better than the self deprecation that sucks away joy

[todayisafridaynight]

Hiiii it's me again the nanba hater!

Adding to a conversation that's been over for like a day.

I liked the combat in y3 not because it was good but it was the only game where i used the grabbing mechanics. I also shot everything with guns witch helped.

The dragon engine games where much much worse. Y6 was pretty bad but i played yk2 before it so i was kinda used to it.

Yk2 was pretty bad too, it's a bit less buggy than y6 but I remember gliding and flying around alot especially in that first fight with ryuji.

Yk2 feels worse because i played yk1 before it and yk1 is easily one of the best battle wise.

Like a dragon is easily the worst, it's way to time consuming and it makes me very dizzy.

All of the dragon engine games generally feel slow and like kiryu or the party don't respond quickly enough and when they do they have very long animations. Y3 also feelt very slow but I like it because it matches the shitty graphics and I'm biased toward old crunchy games.

Doing pretty well in like a dragon! I have everyone at tier 5 bond except Nanba and Eri. I only have less than a week to finish the game before i go on holiday for 3 weeks wish me luck 😭😭

'nanba hater' is such a funny title but i cant argue with the 'hater' part ☠️☠️☠️

i agree with the dragon engine games though: the physics are really funny, but at times they really dont feel right or feel too floaty. the ps3 era games do feel the most grounded next to the unreal engine games imo

best of luck at finishing the game on time !

#snap chats #every time you guys come in here telling me you hate Y7's play style i scream but i also know i cant be mad #i just have to assume/cope with the idea not a lot of people play rpgs or just arent used to the style change #because- and ill be blue in the face before i stop saying this- y7 is one of the easiest rpgs ive ever played #sin the jimas fight it isnt super demanding grind or strategy wise #but i cant convince people to like something if they just dont like it im just saying all this for MY comfort so i feel less insane LVKJAEL #because compared to like. P4 where i remember doing SO much grinding for various levels.... y7 is a blessing #i love p4 i've loved it for years and i'll never stop loving it but bruh that game can get dummy long #in any case you dont really have to raise eri's bond levels but Of Course it helps. and also she's just lovely as a chara and i adore her #which is weird to say since She Is 1000% Based On A Real Person just beyond being mocapped #with nanba i mean.. if you dont like him you really can skip him. he's a pretty lame party member by the time he comes back #but if you do want to figure out the rest of his social link then of course that's a fine reason to wanna conclude him

[sludgeguzzler]

gotta love discussing your career with your father

#i tell him i want a career as an artist he tells me about how oooo did you know Big Companies hire artists??? as if it isnt obvious info #and then im like no i dont really want to work in that are to be honest but ill figure it out #and then he tells me im never going to get enough money to live like that and that ill die poor. cool dad awesome #i WOULD try to be nice and talk about it in a chill manner but its so exhausting i dont wanna #he thinks because he knows how it works its the only path that WONT get me dead in a ditch with no money #as if. i cant work for other places. #maybe ill become a teacher that doesnt sound bad or maybe ill work freelance not bad either #maybe i can land myself a solid job at a studio in town or i can help illustrate books #i dunno man im tired of this guy . cant even mention not wanting to work for a bank without him going into a rant about #responsibilities & the job market & food & taxes & etc etc etc #i have literal years of studying and practicing and growing befre im ready to enter the work force #my life plans may very well change in that span of time #all hes doing is making dread the possibility of working for a company as a designer #welp doesnt mean i have to listen to everything he says #bc i do losten his advice is important to me #i just wosh he wouldnt shit all over my very open very uncertain future just because he doesnt vibe with it #talk

[bunnychargebolt]

Me when I know he might be sad and he just tends to have a lot going on amd were multiple stages away so i camt jist show up to give him hugs and my brains like “ask him if he wants titty pics to feel better 👁️👁️” but im 99% sure thats not appropriate but im just like???? Want me to color a picture for you?? Want me to take pictures of all my stuffies to introduce you to them?? Want me to make you a balloon animal?? Fuck even like- a video of me barking (which is only a big deal bx i have a barking tic ajdbjahd)??

How do I help youuuuuu🥺🥺🥺

#im so down bad for this man #i will stare at his name in my phone and be like ‘daddy doin ok?? daddy givin attention??’ #i wanna help him feel better :(( #unrelated but I’ve probably sent this man 100 tumblr posts since the beginning pf the year #i feel so annoying ahdhwhejuwhe #but also he thinks me doin stuff like that is cute #but also what if it suddenly isnt👁️👁️ #in case you guys cant tell i really like him #i feel like a puppy waiting for its owner to get home #i dont mind that hes busy #i just wanna know hes ok :((

[screamingay]

god that was an awful shift i hate how corporate let us hire more people and then as soon as we put them on the schedule they decided having one more minimum wage server per day (for first shift only!!!) was too much for The Budget. i had to bargain to get someone else to come in today and help me out and it was STILL hell.. rant incoming in the tags

#we're back to 2 ppl on first shift but the new guy cant actually handle floor or dishes on his own so it's basically 1 person #plus someone following behind them to help a bit #apparently they used to have disabled workers as 'interns' just gettimg unpaid experience which is awful but at least #it meant they could actually schedule 2 other people. but i guess they got shit for not paying disabled workers #which i get. but since this new guy makes minimum wage too it means they wont let us schedule another person for first shift #which we desperately need when it's just like. me and him. in an ideal world he would be paid and getting work experience and there would #still be enough people to do the job fully #also all morning i was so scared the safety inspector would pop in bc i was told he would be. so i double checked all the possible hazards #before we opened and he literally stepped into the dining room. took a picture of it on a digital camera. then left #he didnt even come in the kitchen!! christ #but i was still stressed after that and all through lunch bc now residents' families can come in and eat like they used to before covid #and we had 2 of them today and if we fuck it up for them they can complain to corporate and im not used to running a real restaurant!! #we have to act like it's a real restaurant even tho we arent given the same resources or allowances and it's so frustrating #tbh today wouldve been 10 times easier with any other cook bc we had the fucking worst one here today. she gets frustrated when anyone asks #her for anything and she goes on rants about how bad all the other cooks are and she puts WAY too much strain on the dishwasher #using unnecessary dishes and making them wash things she could just rinse herself in the back. AND she's always telling me how to do by job #my job #and what i should do differently! it's distracting!! and makes everything harder bc she will fr just make up rules and treat u like shit if #u ignore her and do it the easier or better way #her home life sucks and she takes it out on all of us all the time. get a divorce and move to the city like you really want #it'll make everyone so much happier #(including you) #i need a new job so bad i get paid nothing to do like 4 jobs at once and im always on a time crunch and it's been absolutely killing my bac #and shoulders and feet #and joie de vivre lmao #if i get a new reliable car soon i could probably make more driving for fucking grubhub #i didnt even eat at work today. almost 8 hours straight of running my ass around the kitchen in my Shoes For Crews black sneakers #and i ate literally One piece of french toast at the very beginning #plus i came in already sick of everything bc the stupid parking garage app i have to use now malfunctioned and wouldnt let me out #bc it didnt have my entrance to the garage last night logged for some reason

[thanatoseyes]

What's wrong?

I don't know Arthur? Maybe it's the blatant lack of human decency you're showing to people that need help. Like I get it they're cultists but come on.

#wheres your humanity did it die in the pit #i know it didnt you helped that guy #so whats the difference #you so fucked up over what wallace did you cant see past it #and you still havent explained anything to john #like he deserves to know #they broke your music box or the facsimile of your music box but still #one minute its like they get it they're on the right path and then the next its like they are right back where they started #which is fine thats human life #you take three steps forward one step back until you finally make it to the end #its just frustrating and sad #all of this is really sad #i wonder who raised arthur after his parents died? #that's not really relevant to the plot i guess but its a good question #i can't tell my fiance about any of this because im waiting for them to actually listen to the thing