#helpless fucking kid here and it’s her fault. like not to pronoun drop but it literally. is all her fault. and i want to forgive her i know

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omg. bashing my head into the wall rn

#sorry ive been posting so much i just ummmmmmmmm. horrors. you know. like this is a ridiculousl little spiral to be on given what is #happening in the larger sense.. quite frankly an unhelpful one too. but i would like to salvage the bridge. because if i don’t it will #crumble into the fucking abyss. i would like to salvage the bridge and why are * and * giving me signals that i shouldn’t. LMAO. like you #don’t get a monopoly on * i barely know the * and god damn it this is my last fucking chance. let me have this. i have the tassel pic but i #want the * pic too you know. like let’s go on an adventure. pleaseeee please please please. i need to do this ithink. lol #purrs #this literalt feels like memories of bei ng… like idk the specifics i don’t remember them. but me fucking screaming hysterically and #begging and crying and pulling at moms clothes and her just walking away stonefaced and angry and blistering hot and cold at the same time. #i feel that samw hopelessness and despair and desperation to just do whatever i can to get her back. and i know it won’t work but i want to #anyway and today I feel a little hated for it but it’s probably that we’re all depressed and no one is coping well and no one knows how to s #support each other because we never fucking thought we’d have to deal with this. the LITERAL hell of it all. i hate * for putting us in this #stupid shitty position but i also want to talk to * so fucking bad and try to make it right. i don’t know. i wish i didn’t feel like a #helpless fucking kid here and it’s her fault. like not to pronoun drop but it literally. is all her fault. and i want to forgive her i know #this is fucking hard for her too but i am just so HURT and i hate what this is doing to us. want to smash my head into the wall so bad omggg #me (on the verge of tears): i’ll be around if you want to talk later. redacted: seen 9:40 pm. LMAO 💀💀💀💀💀