#heard SUUUUCH good things about it but the first half of the book was so annoying sorry ?? the entitlement the privilege god it was insane

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read everything i know about love it and kinda put me in a lil depressive mood lol ??

#heard SUUUUCH good things about it but the first half of the book was so annoying sorry ?? the entitlement the privilege god it was insane #reading about her early twenties was so.... ill never live the life of a privileged white girl who thinks she's the center of the universe #and i dont WANT to but there was something about the way she just DID things made mistakes messed up did whatever the hell she wanted to #that made me feel so weird ?? idk i dont want her particular experiences i know for a fact i wouldnt enjoy any of that #but as i read through the book and got to the therapy chapters and the maturing chapters in her later twenties i was like...thats me Now #thats been me since i was 16 maybe?? which is fine ig its good to be mature or like not a Mess #but i just . i feel like i wasted my teens or i didnt like rame advantage of being a kid or even now im 22 and i ???? idk #i leave the the house like once in two weeks i have 2 friends i see barely even once a month #im too scared to drive i dont have a job it just SOOOO SICKENING #maybe it was covid and never having that in person uni experience maybe its just my own mental illness #reading the book kinda made me wish i got more out of those years i wish i had the chance to be carefree and do whatever the hell i wanted #<- WHICH OBVIOUSLY is something not everyone gets to do anyway i could feel the privilege dripping from those pages but still idk #generally feel like ive been sorta wasting away for at least a year now and reading the book just made me overthink it maybe #part of me is like well i just turned 22 maybe i have time but its like ?? i personally cant just wake up one day and decide to do whatever #ive got too much anxiety for that lol #h talks