#he thought alma was the buggest hurdle in the way of them being together

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ennis breaking down when they’re leaving after that first summer and jack crying as he drives off after seeing ennis after his divorce…

jack has so much hope, enough to return to augirre the next summer to ask after ennis, enough to leave his family at the drop of a hat beachside he thought ennis’s divorce meant he was finally ready to have a life with him

but jack didn’t see ennis break down after their first summer together. he didn’t know that ennis had already decided they couldn’t be together, not like they wanted to. that he’d resigned himself to probably never seeing jack again, and forced himself to be ok with it

jack held out hope for years and years that one day they could be something more, maybe. that he could convince ennis to go off with him and that they could have that sweet life together and be safe, together. but that was never an option for ennis

#help im supposed to be working but the brain worms are too strong. #just cannot handle the idea of them giving up on forever with each other at such different points in their relationship #ennis gives up almost instantly out of fear and practicality #but it takes jack years to let go of what hope he had #he thought alma was the buggest hurdle in the way of them being together #but once ennis isn’t with her anymore he sees that it was never her #not really #it was always enniss fear #AAAHASHHAGSGSHDJCNXKFOPDKWJkOanOnkakkoj&h?u(eGhHkanajjsjKAKSJSJDHHDHS #brokeback mountain #ennis del mar #jack twist