#guess I'll uhm...just...chill by myself and try hard for that to work out well in my favor

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#princess grumbles #okay brain lemme get this straight #you want attention #badly #and want to spend hours and hours with someone #but you also feel completely rejected and dont want to ask again in a new way #I suppose I could...ask someone else?? #how horrible! i hate when my brain is unwell #it makes it so gd hard to establish contact #i know i Need someone today and I know I Need it quickly before i completely retract #but thats so hard if I feel rejected and dont know how to explain that I feel horrible and terrible #Idk I just wanna be like hey man i dont feel good today #and get a response of Oh shit do u wanna hang out and we can just chill together so u feel better?? #instead of: Oh okay that sucks #Makes me feel...rejected and small #the words Im Used To It linger on my tongue like a knife aimed at my own stomach #how horrible. #guess I'll uhm...just...chill by myself and try hard for that to work out well in my favor #Really wish I was introverted sometimes so id feel happy on my own >:I would make it SO much easier