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icantdothistodaybruh · 6 months

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I didn't want to spoiler this one any more than I already did but oh my god

#I've got literally no selfcontrol over this #you are NOT ready to see this in full size colored and rendered and everything #me neither honestly I have tears in my eyes rn #this damn week can't come soon enough #sebaciel #kuroshitsuji #black butler #ciel phantomhive #our ciel #sebastian michaelis #my art

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hammill-goes-fogwalking · 15 days

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#not dislike. its hate #it made me cry several times today #thinking of how my classmates manipulate our teachers #and chatgpt AIs can EVERYTHING #its so painful to think of it #today I broke down in the bus and cried #idc what people think. hiding my feelings any longer would destroy me from the inside #maybe youve also seen how people use freakin AIs in their exams #the thing is that:#we wrote an exam for which Ive studies for like 2 whole days #this week we finally got the exams back (w the grades ofc)#and ok Ive got a 3 (C in America syste #*m)#my friends who used chatgpt throughout the exam got way better grades (I didnt expect it otherwise)#PLUS #the most provocating messages from the teacher:#“10/10 POINTS :)” “YOURE ROCKING THIS” “YEAH”#💔#seriously #this breaks my heart #dont the teacher see something suspect in the exam?!#why cant they open their eyes and get modernized to reality.#& they KNOW- the students Im talking of. they usally have bad results.#once our teacher came to a chatgpt student and said the most miserable thing:#“youve been using duolingo a lot lately hm? thats where your nice grades come from 😉🥰”#you get it?#no- this peoson didnt learn.#no- this person isnt even interested in the stuff we learn in lessons #AWFUL feeling to hear the praisings of da teachers when *I* gotta sit among the gpt-students and look like Im a worse student than *them*#[writing this at almost 1 at night] still have some tears. this topic really has the power to destroy someones day. 💔💔

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beesinspades · 1 year

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fave trimax art/panels (5/5)

#trigun #trimax #trigun manga #trigun maximum #WAAHHHHHHH TEARS IN MY EYES #I didn't even reread everything while going over the whole manga #but god #I got even more emotional than the first time #I LOVE TRIGUN

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toontownportraits · 19 days

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i don't get a choice in the matter / why would i? it's only the death of me

#the lyrics in caption is from doomsday by lizzie mcalphine #the bagel draws #fanart #hannibal #hannibal nbc #hannibal tv series #hannibal fanart #hannibal lecter #blood #eye contact #(s2 spoilers from this point)#i hope its not too grainy i ran it through a remove background thang bc i drew it on a canvas with other doodles so #lol! hannibal writers you're sooo funny!!! mizumono you're soooo funny!!!! (tears in my eyes snot dripping face red)#me and my cousin got to aboutttt. season 3 episode 3 before we had to stop and im watching the rest of s3 except the finale on my own #and im rlly excited......#she said that s3 is kinda boring but it has chiyoh in it so. i disagree!!!!!!!!!!!#ALSO. i find it incredibly interesting how hannibal handled everything. beat the shit outta jack chased alana.#the implication of him making abigail almost kill alana :( and then will coming and seeing her only to lose her AGAIN #hannibal really likes stabbing doesnt he... freak #he wanted to run away with will and abigail. there was room for abigail in will's world. fuuuuuck man #i wish abigail had been given the same ''mercy'' that will had been given of the surgical cut.#well. it's not truly mercy he quite literally gutted him but thats why im putting it in quotes isnt it #OK IM DONE YAPPING. HEART. REBLOG MY POST BOY

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wantbytaemin · 9 months

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got the working from home station swag

#on my sholo album stack there’s a quote from the badass women of zagreb tour that i went w my london friend #this lady was a teacher and poet but most widely known for being this insane mountain climber and she’d do it in a dress and like #inappropriate shoes and everything (bc it wasn’t proper for women to do it anyway) and i pulled THAT quote as my little gift from #the end of the tour and my friend was like ‘that is SO you’ and i laughed so much i got tears in my eyes #the red thing right behind it is a traditional Zagreb decorated little heart ❤️ also from that tour #then some (pink of course) clogs from the netherlands my scorpio work girlie got me #and you can’t really see it but there’s like a metal little case of mints with van gogh’s self portrait on it #from the van gogh museum (my cancer bestie got me 🧡)#and the picasso - guernica bookmark bc i was standing in front of that painting in Madrid like a woman possessed #i was in that room for 10 mins like 😮😮😮#and on the side dali’s painting of a dream he had about his beautiful wife 🫶🏻🐯 also got it in madrid from the thyssen #AND MY LEEBIT MUG MY LONDON FRIEND MADE MEEEE 🥹🥹🥹🥹#ok now going to WORK fr prommy

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ialwaysknewyouwerepunk · 6 days

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#these past two weeks have been so intense that ive just.. not spoken about it once i got home from work #blocked it all out #my beloved colleague whose desk is next to mine has cancer #breast and uterus. she needs two major surgeries #they just diagnosed her two weeks ago #so we've been trying to deal with that as colleagues and friends #because we love and miss her and i am so deeply sad as well #but i feel like i couldn't process that at all bc two days after the news of her diagnosis i was asked to take on half of her work #on top of my fulltime #which i agreed to do bc i like her tasks and i want to help her and i also know i can do it #but it does feel very off bc i know i don't earn enough money for this workload to be long term and it is def like this #for the coming four months at least #so i did tell my manager that i would like a raise and. that bitch told me to BUY MORE SECOND HAND SHIT.#i seriously thought i saw my life flash before my eyes #then the day after she asked one of my colleagues who's been with the firm for over 30 years whether she was looking for another job maybe?#which caused that colleague to instantly go home in tears and be home from basically a nervous breakdown the past 1.5 week #which is her full right and i support her with all my heart but bc my management sucks it meant that we had to also carry her tasks ofc #i felt soooo spread thin and super super angry actually but i didn't even realise how angry i was until last thursday my colleague w cancer #came by the office. and talked about all of it. and i suddenly realised how sad i was but then also how angry #but i was just blocking it all out trying to stay afloat #bc we told her about what the manager had said and she said “i hope that i get the chance to really tell her how it is someday.”#“because the stress she causes with people can actually kill you. just look at me.”#and the rest of the day i felt so ready to be done with everything actually #but seeing her anger made me see my own anger #and released me of my own pent up emotions bc i had actual leg pains this week and it was purely psychosomatic #i then managed to tell some friends yesterday about what was going on and their outrage spurred me on even more #so today i emailed hr. demanding a raise #doing this amount of work while constantly feeling like the house is on fire while also struggling financially seriously makes me suicidal #and i am not joking #so.. if nothing comes of that im leaving that job and not looking back

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sealrock · 6 months

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speak no evil // see no evil // hear no evil

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reikunrei · 7 months

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I’m a simple man. I listen to rhythm of port town from the free! ost and experience so much longing that I implode on the spot

#like no fucking lie the song came on and I instantly got tears in my eyes #TATSUYA KATO. I OWE YOU MY LIFE FOR REAL FOR THIS OST #I need to watch free! again soon… ugh… they mean everything to me #i say things

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sneverussape · 1 year

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kvetching ahead, topic: godkid’s school.

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BRUH my godson had his first parents’ day and i went along coz he wanted me to and the review his white teacher said was so ?????

problem 1 - he can’t communicate in straight english, I.e. there’s always a word or two from another language mixing in. my colonizer brother, the kid knows FIVE LANGUAGES. he’s FIVE YEARS OLD. i doubt the teacher could speak a language other than English???

my friends (the parents) were livid. the teacher was basically saying that since my godkid is half-brit (and not even white, god forbid) only, then of course he’s gonna have a hard time with language and we were like ??? he has no problems speaking any of the languages he knows, and we’re not in ENGLAND. this is a YOU problem. ofc the kid is going to know the local language and it will mix in. he’s FIVE. oh my god???? the racial undertones were rancid.

problem 2 - he can read fine but they’re not sure about his comprehension re: what he read. my friend was like, “yeah WE taught him how to read at home but isn’t it high time YOU also do your jobs?” lmao. the other kids in the class don’t even know HOW to read, and they come at my godkid for this? he should be put in an advanced class at this point.

this is not a cheap school. this is an international British school where expats send their kids and the quality is just so shitty oh my god esp given the insane tuition yall have to pay per kid.

#anyway the day further derailed because godkid 1 & 2 got into a fight #coz 2 threw a pillow and it hit 1 in the eye straight on #needless to say there were lots of tears and we each had a kid to handle lmao #coz 3 is crawling and putting everything in his mouth #I’m so tired HAHAHA I can’t even imagine being the actual parents #I’m just an extra pair of hands and arms trying to keep these kids alive #personal #godkid chronicles #i talk about these kids a lot because I’m with them a lot #since they live so near my office 🤣🤣

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shoecrabs · 4 months

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just lost about 5 years' worth of art because my app crashed and deleted itself as i tried exporting a painting

#autodesk sketchbook #digital art #this is messing me up so much i spent so long on it and it got fucking eaten by my archaic fucking software #the photo of my pencil sketch is staring at me as the last thing saved on my gallery #it didnt even end up saving the final painting. its just gone and its corpse is taunting me. full on smugly shushing me #hopefully i'll compile enough spite to repaint all 5 hours of it #but godammnit i'm going to have such a high standard for myself now that i know what i originally did #it was also a portrait of piper using charmspeak and if that i'snt the most 'killing the father' moment i've ever had #really feeling gaia rn how did i just have a symbolic book parallel with my downfall against my own blood sweat and tears #literally everything i worked on gone in the blink of an eye because a teenager with a magic voice told me to shut up and go to sleep

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euphor1a · 1 year

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Best 4 hours of my life, with the loml ♡

#googie 🐰#i know i always say this but i can never really explain the way i feel about him </3 it’s so hard to put into words #i feel so complete now god i love him so much 🥺!! even that is an understatement 😔#i think it was like? 10:30 pm when i saw the weverse notif... and now it’s past 3 am jdghbcbn #i felt so many emotions throughout everything (the wv live; the ig live; and then wv live again) but god.#i’m just way too happy that i got to see him again 🥺; i missed him a lot!#crazy how just yesterday afternoon i teared up watching a reel on ig about missing him </3 and then 6 hours later!!! he shows up 💖#lol and i had so many mini breakdowns bc of him 😭 he’s a flirt FLIRT huh 😔✋🏼! WHAT ABOUT MY WEAK LITTLE HEART SIR???#i really have no defence when it comes to jk </33... sigh. but he sang sooooo many songs 🥰🥰#including txt! svt! nwjns! i’m one happy bitch 🤩☝🏼#what a great day to be alive honestly! just hope that he gets some rest bc goddamn it’s nearly 7 am at sk now 💀#oh and!!!! WE GOT TO SEE BAM MY BABY AFTER SO LONG IM SQUEALING THEY ARE SO CUTE OMG #HOW DID I ALMOST FORGET TO MENTION THAT LIKE WHAT #it was such a bonus to see tae too 🤭#!!! i’m just really happy #i’ll add more tags later... i just want to fall asleep now bc my eyes literally can’t anymore lol #anyway... ik i’m being very delulu here but like. sorry if it bothers you; i’m like this. 🤡#will always be jeon jungkook’s bitch <3 #bye bye ~ my eyes hurt 🙁#see you guys tomorrow and i love jungkook 😆... and y’all too <3

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nazorneku · 6 months

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intended to post this right after his interrogation dropped on global, but never went along the plan— probably 'cause when i first read it in CN, it did affect me to the very core... but considering today is his birthday, it should be done in honor of the day beware of mentions of child abuse, child death and suicide, if you proceed to read this post

In the beginning I want to say that I was utterly excited to get his interrogation, considering Mr. Fox is A rank Sinner, but with collective demands via surveys we got my man a well-deserved lore expansion. Not to mention, I still think with his kit and utility he should be S rank Sinner, but this conversation is for another day—

After a long time over analyzing the man and simply reading his profile with a refreshed glance, it's apparent that Mr. Fox doesn't senselessly gather money for the sake of it. The wealth he amasses is used for bribery, the means to a concrete end he pursues and another way to convince victims without resorting to use own powers. But he doesn't yearn for money in a way an avaricious person would. And this is what Special Conversation 1 is 'bout:

He purposefully alienates self from these other people, as he personally has no interest in money and it's just an image of a corrupt lawyer that he so skillfully dons. What he really yearns for is punishment.

Moving to interrogation now. Phase 1, in which Mr. Fox tries to control Chief. There's actually two scenarios, depending on Chief's reaction, and both of them are worthy of mention. So I first will go with the one, where the Chief openly displays that Mr. Fox powers failed to affect them and outrightly denies signing the leave permit. In that case, he strangles self and interrogation ends and is considered failed. To proceed with interrogation, the Chief must play along and sign the permit. But let's also consider why he actually failed to control the Chief. In his file it's stated that his abilities actually have a disadvantage - they are tied to his own mental energy.

This means when he's stressed or tired his powers are less effective and hence why his failure makes sense during the interrogation. The interrogation is taking place for the ultimate aim of getting a permit and at that point he realizes that he's going nowhere with the Chief, which gets him stressed out and desperate, 'cause he has to be in court or it doesn't count. This is kind of an immediate stake.

Phase 3, during the trial Mr. Fox experiences two flashbacks and this is the most important part of comprehending why he does things the way he does. The first flashback is actually 'bout Mr. Fox. A memory from the young days. This describes the abuse (most likely more emotional than physical, in his case) he experienced at the hands of own parents, in which they were constantly putting him down and using his shortcomings to justify mistreating him.

The second flashback, is the past trial in which he represented a domestic abuse case on the side of the abusers.

From his Arrest Records, that basically summarizes the fallout of the trial that he regrets deeply.

The abusive parents thanked Mr. Fox for winning the case and their explanation for their gratitude horrified him, causing him later to attempt suicide, but being unable to go through with it and awakening a Sinner ability instead. The trial concludes with Mr. Fox realizing in the present that he’s 'bout to repeat his past "sin" and this time chooses to act differently by turning on his client.

There are two reasons of why he responded in such a way. The first is that it didn’t fit what he has always claimed is the client's definition of justice - "victory in court", instead the justice that the abusive parents claimed he brought them was him proving their son was wrong and they were right. The second is that he realized their rhetoric mirrors what his own parents used to justify their emotional abuse of him, and began feeling the hurt he felt when he was younger all over again. He tried to violently deny it with the "uphold justice" excuse, but subconsciously knew that his clients were people as awful, if not worse, as his parents.

Mr. Fox likely witnessed the suicide of that boy, which amplified his guilt even further to the point he wanted to "meet the same hellish fate" by killing himself in the same way, but was "restrained" as stated by him (either literally physically restrained by people who were at the scene or that despite his strong urge to carry it out, he successfully stopped himself from committing suicide). This trauma of the experience, combined with extreme guilt and shame, caused him to awaken as a Sinner.

And now he's collecting more "sins" (changing victim testimonies, bribing and controlling people, killing witnesses, winning his client's cases no matter the truth) to make sure that when he's finally able to die, he'll get the harshest punishment imaginable.

Concluding thoughts: while he is able to recognize abuse in the cases he dealt with, Mr. Fox is in denial when it comes to his own childhood memories and hasn’t accepted that his parents' treatment of him was also a form of abuse. This denial is what later forms a part of his motivation to stand on the side of abusers and deny the reality of a vulnerable boy's abuse, apart from the financial incentive.

There's also one neat moment worth mentioning— The meaning behind the tongue piercing and its direct connection to his past "sins" and awakened Sinner ability. To be honest, after long consideration I do not think that he is fit Greed Alignment, 'cause he is actually a fraud, playing the role of the corrupt lawyer in the pursuit of money, when all he does is aimed to taint self as much as possible. He wishes to absorb all the "sins" and corruption, to take it all on himself.

HE NEEDS SOME FUCKING THERAPY with a legit therapist and not just a hypnotherapy session with Chameleon.

#Ⓕ : relevant ( mr fox )#Ⓕ : introspection ( mr fox )#[ i love him and i hate him— he rly went petty™️ on me and ignored me for months after i changed accounts ]#[ and this is why i physically cant call him 'bad boy' anymore... it feels v wrong ]#[ you bet i shed manly tears when i first laid my eyes on his interrogation— im not a pro at CN but maaaaaan it was a trip ]#[ almost everything i got right and yet it didnt make me happy ]#long post for ts

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science-lings · 9 months

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idk if this rly fits into what you want, but one thing i hc is that there's seemingly no consequences at first (so link still gets his arm back and zelda doesn't have any dragon qualities) but in the first few weeks to months post-totk things start Happening. link's arm starts dying, so he has to have it traditionally amputated, zelda starts developing stuff like horns and more claw-like nails and small patches of scales all over her body. this way you still get the ending scene of link catching her but you also still get the consequences

no, this is also interesting. I feel like the decline would have to be really sudden and drastic, if it gets bad enough for his arm to have to be traditionally amputated and unable to be healed by any other means, it would have to be pretty severe. Maybe Rauru was able to preserve Link's arm but only for like a day or two before the magic wore off. Maybe there are some parts of Zelda's body that are already dragon-y that we can't see that ends up spreading. Maybe whatever magic happened in that scene with Rauru and Sonia was only kind of temporary. We already know that Link's arm was too damaged to be saved when it was replaced with Rauru's, and we can never really know if Zelda was completely back to normal after being turned back. It's definitely an idea that's interesting to think about...

#i can just imagine link thinking that he's fine and everything is back to normal but it doesn't last #and he has to face the inevitability of losing his sword arm because no matter where he goes #no one will be able to fix it #not the greatest healers in the land not the zora not the sheikah not the great fairies #he has to slowly come to the realization that there's no saving it and he has to get it chopped off #bc whatever gloom is still in there could spread to his heart and kill him #so he has to find people to help him and confront that the next time he opens his eyes everything will be different #I'm sure Purah and Robbie would make him a prosthetic but who knows if he would be comfortable using it very often #he definitely can't use it while he's still healing #idk you got my brain wiggling anon #ask andromeda #totk #totk spoilers #tears of the kingdom

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himbobuck · 1 year

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I'm watching Sort Your Life Out (an organizing show) and now I can't stop thinking of Buck and Eddie officially moving in the home they bought together and there are a lot of boxes to go through and decisions to be made because there is not enough space for everything and the angst that would cause. It's easy to get rid of the doubles, they keep Eddie's couch (because it's history) and go for the best quality kitchen equipment (mostly Buck's as he had invested in better stuff since learning to cook from Bobby). Getting rid of the more generic items that come from the loft seems fairly easy and they're making progress. But the mood changes as they make progress. Buck having a lot of crates from storage that he had shipped over from Pennsylvania when he knew he was going to be staying in LA but he never bothered bringing them into the loft because that wasn't the place he was going to settle in (and for the lack of space). And as they're going through stuff and Eddie suggests what to keep and what to donate/sell, maybe holds two items at a time one in each hand, Buck is getting more and more upset and can't let go of the most random things. Like he will be getting tearful over a keychain that came out of a easter egg from the last easter they spent with their grandparents or over the little piggy bank that's peeling apart that he got as a party favour at his bff birthday when he was a kid or over a box of dinosaurs plasters that are yellowish and probably don't stick anymore because his dad bought them for him when he was covered in scraps and bruises from getting hurt again over the set of completely new still boxed up moon/sun mugs he bought when he was 16 thinking one day he was going to drink coffee from with the love of his life sitting at the kitchen table on a sunday morning. And he knows that they have already agreed to keep enough mugs and then these are fully packaged and would be much easier to sell even, but he just can't let go of them. Lots of tears and cuddles ensue (and he wakes up in the morning to the smell of coffee..)

more thoughts? A study published in Pyschotraumatol explains that, since humans are a social species, a history of interpersonal trauma or loneliness can push us to overcompensate, sometimes by buying and forming relationships with possessions instead. This stems from being unable to trust people and instead putting faith in objects, Yap explains. (x)

I know technically Buck had Maddie growing up but that doesn't mean this is not something that could happen (and potentially I'd say maybe Maddie did it too, or went the completely opposite way of getting rid of everything except the most sentimentally valuable things - she did only have two suitcases when she ran away from Doug). I can see Buck using things as a mean of comfort, both random little things he had (not carefully chosen important things from his childhood that his parents didn't bother keeping for a baby box - assholes!!) but also things he accumulated for an imaginary/ideal future the used to dream about - the mugs, but also maybe a picture frame he could see himself displaying in the living room etc etc

feel free to gimme all your thoughts, do your worst cause i wanna cry

#ok im sad and im self projecting on buck pls just let me #if anyone writes this i will cry my eyes out and love you forever #buddie #buddie fic #buddie prompt #buck x eddie #eddie x buck #evan buckley/eddie diaz #i want the angst and i want tears and frustration #i want eddie to joke cmon buck we can't keep everything #wondering what even is this flower made of tissue paper and straw #like not in a mean way #but at first he really doesn't grasp how deep this goes #because he's got a few boxes of memories himself from his childhood and family and from shannon #and he keeps a bunch of stuff from christopher as well #so he doesn't see the issue with buck wanting to keep his favourite childhood teddy or photo albums etc #but it's the completely random items and the completely new stuff that confuse him #it's like buck bought things for this ideal life he was going to live only he bought it like 15-20 years before it happened #like he just craved his own family so much #(shoutout if he has like a onesie - that's a tiny bit canon isn't it?)#evan buckley #eddie diaz

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p4nishers · 2 years

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IM GOING TO SHIT MYSELF AND DIE LASZLO LITERALLY LOST HIS SON FUCK THIS

#LIKE YEAH IT WAS INEVITABLE AND OBVIOUS THAT THIS WAS GONNA HAPPEN BUT IM GENUINELY CRYING MY SHIT OUT #LASZLO LET HIM SIT ON HIS LAP??????????? HE WAS LITERALLY WIPING TEARS FROM HIS EYES AFTER SEEING HIM BACK AS COLIN ROBINSON 1.0?????#HE WANTED TO HOLD ONTO THE BED WHICH JSUT SOME MONHTS AGO HE CARRIED BABY COLIN TO????#THE PICTURES AT THE BEGINNING???? THE SONG HE WROTE?????????#LITERALLY FUCK ME I AM SO EMOTIONALLY DONE #LAST SEASON NANDOR LOST EVERYTHING CAUSE OF HIM AND NOW HE IS ALL FUCKING ALONE AGAIN (well yk) GOD DAMN IT #but i got to say good for guillermo #like you go my little murderer im so proud #also i kinda missed colin im ngl but i also i wish i was never born #what we do in the shadows #wwdits #laszlo cravensworth #wwdits season 4 #baby colin robinson #laszlo and baby colin #colin robinson

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a-random-mooshroom · 7 months

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oh u changed yr display name

relatable tbh

Ty and yes 😎

#tears are falling out of my eyes slowly as I write this #i hate myself #i hate my brain #i hate my existence #i hate this #i hate everything #I wish I was dead #I got scolded for being “off task & social”#because we don’t have any free time anywhere else #but we stay silly

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