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[littlespoonevan]

it’s. it’s the well and the will and the shooting. and eddie buried underground with his life flashing before his eyes and seeing buck everywhere while buck is above ground trying to dig him out with his bare hands. and him changing his will but never telling buck because it would be too revealing and eddie almost dying again and buck doing exactly what is asked of him without even realising because eddie and christopher are his family and who else would be the one to step up in that moment? and eddie choosing buck over everyone because he could never trust anyone more than he does buck and buck being so afraid of being chosen for the first time in his life he doesn’t realise what it means. and the heart metaphor and “make sure you’re following your heart” and “having a kid is like walking around with your heart outside your body”. and physical distance representing emotional distance and the mess™ and buck stepping into without question like bobby suggested he do all these years ago. and the home metaphor and “a few choice words can be the life raft that gets you home” and “wait for me to come home” and “this is eddie’s house i’m not really a guest” and “okay buddy, we’re right out here” and the unit of it all and it’s all connected what the fuck literally what the f uCK

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