#god i just wanna hug them all

[nothingbizzare]

Just some kid and his hamsters

#nothingbizzare art #mp100 #sho suzuki #mp100 fanart #mob psycho 100 #mob psycho fanart #i wanted to draw somethings serious but i ended up with something silly #i am open for requests i really really wanna draw some portraits this days to practice my rendering #i can see him looking all serious in a dramatic lighting when petting his silly hamsters #he would dress them in cute dresses #Teru would make the dresses #sho thinking and imagining hamsters do the cooledt thing ever #meanwhile they just run around and eat which is REALLY COOL in my oppinion #god i want a hamster #let this boy have a hug and so many hamsters

[cerise-on-top]

Got any Farah, Valeria, & Laswell hcs? Anything, really- I'm dying for my girls 🤲🤲🤲

Hello! Yeah, I was able to come up with a few! I already wrote a few for Valeria here! Somehow, I forgot to put them in my masterlist, though, which I have since fixed! Thank you for making me aware of this, though :-) These are general Headcanons, though, since I had an easier time coming up with those and because you didn't specify, I hope that's okay!

Valeria, Farah and Laswell HCs

Valeria: She’s always had quite the temper, even when she was young. While she may not have been spoiled to hell and back as a child, she usually got what she wanted, as long as it wasn’t something extraordinarily big, her parents always took care of her like that. Valeria loved her mother, they got along very well with each other, and she also took after her, having inherited her personality for the most part. Her father was a bit calmer than the two of them, but that didn’t mean they didn’t get along either. Whereas her mother would encourage her to do most things, her father would try to talk sense into her if it was a bad idea. She often sulked because of it, which is why she didn’t like her father as much as her mother, but as she got older she realized he meant well. Sometimes she still thinks about his advice, but the both of them died a long time ago, so most things they’ve told her are a distant memory by now. Valeria may be successful with what she’s doing and doesn’t like being told what to do, but sometimes she does wish she could still eat some sweets with her parents like she used to.

Joining the military actually wasn’t her first choice of career. She tried many places, but no one would take her, so she opted for the military, which welcomed her with open arms. She got paid. Not well, but she received the money, which was important since her parents couldn’t leave her with too much. They didn’t have very much either, so there wasn’t much to be inherited. Because she’s a woman, a few creeps tried to harass her, but she had none of it and beat all three of them up herself and on her own. Ever since that incident she wasn’t a big fan of the military either, but no other place would take her. However, it showed just how capable she was and earned her a lot of respect. A few other men would try to make advances towards her, but she shot them down every time. However, whenever another female soldier would jokingly flirt with her, that’s when she’d give it her all, making it her goal to fluster her beyond all hell. She’s spent a few evenings and nights with a few female soldiers, but was always willing to rip a male soldier’s dick off if he was being too friendly with her. During her time as a soldier she also realized that she preferred women.

She didn’t always hate Alejandro, actually. Back in the day, they got along very well. He was a man, yes, but he had enough respect for her. It wasn’t a given, even if it should have been, but she appreciated it. Whenever they sparred he gave it his all as well and never looked down on her. In his eyes, the two of them were equals and it showed. Valeria could appreciate that. She liked him, she spent a night with him but realized she hated that sort of stuff with men. He was the final realization for her that Valeria does not like men. It didn’t make her hate him at first, though. Only when he insisted on the two of them being a thing did she develop some form of disdain for him. Once she told him that she could never feel the same way, he stopped. However, he also started treating her a bit differently since he was in love with her. As he rose in ranks, he was a bit harsher on her than the other soldiers, usually dissatisfied with anything she did. He didn’t even notice that, but Valeria did. Therefore he became just another scum to her.

Farah: Before her town got attacked, she actually had a pretty happy childhood. She was sweet and kind as a kid, she got along well with her parents and her brother and she had a few close friends. Farah loved going outside to play, sometimes even inviting her parents to make potions with her in a bucket filled with water, sand and rocks. Her parents were always afraid of the Russians invading and tried to keep their children safe regardless of what happened, but in the end they were unable to. It hit Farah pretty hard, she loved her parents. Even now she misses them dearly since they always took such good care of her and her brother. At least she still had her brother. Farah knew she was the younger one out of the two of them, so she likely should have been the one to be protected, but once her town got attacked she became determined to make sure her brother would stay with her. Drastic times called for drastic measures, so she actually has killed people just so her brother could stay alive. It was around that time that other people realized how she was a very caring person still and could be trusted. Slowly, through that realization, she was able to gather a small force that could help her.

Farah is a pretty good leader. The people she works with adore her because, under that rough exterior, she’s still a good person. All her brothers and sisters know she can be trusted with just about anything. She rarely ever says no upon hearing a request of one of her people, knowing fully well what it’s like to need something. As she’s been through a lot herself, she always has an open ear for her brothers and sisters. While there’s not always time to listen to everyone’s concerns, if she does have time she’ll listen to you intently. Farah knows a lot more about her people than she lets on, that ranges from how the latest battle has gone to how her sister’s family is doing. She’s never one to turn down someone in need, always offering food and shelter. I know she may seem stern, because she has to be in order to be a good leader, but deep down she’s still the same kind girl that she’s always been. Her people would give up just about anything for her, and they do. One day, Farah dreams, Urzikstan will be free, it will be safe and it will prosper, its people won’t have anything to fear anymore. Trade will continue, the people will be happy and she can finally lay down her weary head and rest for a bit. But until then, she swore she’ll fight and fight until everything is finally over.

She’s never actually been in love. When she had the chance to develop a crush she was too young. Now that she’s older she doesn’t have time for anything lovey dovey in the slightest. Alex was the first person she ever developed a crush on. He may have seemed like an enemy at first, but it quickly enough became evident that that couldn’t be further from the truth. He was a good man, someone who could be trusted no matter what. He was loyal to a fault as well, which Farah could appreciate. However, she never told him, swallowing her feelings down instead no matter how intense they became. Yet, she sort of did always look forward to his small gestures of affection. Alex is a physically affectionate guy, so he’d sometimes pat her shoulder, put a hand on her shoulder or gently bump her arm to show he liked her. Farah is severely touch starved, so it made for a good combination. One time, he asked if she would like a hug, to which she said yes. To this day, Farah thinks about that hug since it was the first one she had received in seven or eight years. It may not have seemed like she was swayed at the time, but she was very content afterwards.

Laswell: Laswell’s parents didn’t really care too much for her. Don’t get me wrong, they provided for her physical needs, but they barely looked after her in any other regard, thinking she was happy because she had everything she could ever need. Laswell may have been strong because of it, even then, but she did wish her parents had cared more about other things as well, such as how she was doing emotionally. There were quite a few things that hurt her during her childhood, but she barely had anyone who would support her during her rough times. Her parents only ever wanted to see her happy and content, but barely made any effort to actually keep her as such. Laswell knew fairly early on that she was a lesbian and did come out to her parents, but that’s all that happened. It was never discussed again afterwards, even if her father would sometimes say that she would “find the right guy eventually” while talking to other people. Laswell has called him out on it numerous times, but he always made it about him and how he was the victim for saying something that made his daughter uncomfortable. Laswell didn’t stay in contact with her parents for very long once she moved out.

Even back when she was a child, Laswell knew she wanted to do something more exciting than be a hairdresser, waitress or cook. She wanted to do something with plenty of action, but at the same time she wanted to study and go to university. And thus she combined her wishes and started going to university at first. Afterwards, sometime in her twenties, she started to work for the CIA. She wasn’t treated with very much respect there at first, being a woman working there and all. But she didn’t let that disrespect get her down. In fact, on the outside, she stayed professional, but on the inside she took mental notes on who treated her badly and who didn’t. It soon enough became evident that Laswell knew what she was doing, even if her master’s degree should have been proof enough that there was some intelligence in that noggin of hers. However, soon enough she was transferred. In fact, she was transferred many times before she became a station chief, but it only showed just how competent she was in her field. Laswell has since saved thousands of lives and is proud of it. To her, such a thing is her calling and she wants to continue doing so for as long as she can, all the dangers be damned.

Laswell adores her wife. In fact, “Laswell” isn’t her original last name, she took that of her wife. At first they played with the idea of combining their names, but Laswell wanted fairly little to do with her parents at that point. Plus she wanted to show her father that she never “found the right guy”. So her being named Laswell is purely out of spite. While she may not be at home all the time, or very often, for that matter, she makes sure to bring her wife a gift every time she comes home. It can be something small, such as a souvenir she found while she was abroad, or it could be something along the lines of a golden ring that unfolds into an astronomical sphere. She needs to pamper her wife like that and make sure she knows Laswell loves her to the moon and back. Money isn’t an issue for her, she gets paid very well. Even if the biggest reward for her doing what she does is seeing her wife smile. Every time she sees her give her a big smile she’s reminded of why she does what she does, and that’s the most wonderful thing for her. Even so, not many people know about Laswell’s wife, only a select few do. It’s a safety measure since she knows people will target her. Although she’s a diplomatic kind of person, if anyone ever were to hurt her wife, then that person can be certain they’ll never walk freely among the sunlight again.

#cod #valeria garza #farah karim #kate laswell #if it was up to me I'd make Valeria and Laswell lesbians. and so I did because this is my blog #and because I wanna kiss them and cook them a nice and healthy meal that reminds them of me! I can't cook to save my life but I'll learn ho #Farah is into Alex so she isn't a lesbian in my book! #“a gay person's straight ship is the most powerful thing in the universe” #you can't tell me Alex wouldn't treat Farah right though! she deserves a guy like him who's hopelessly in love with her #sometimes I think about a poly relationship with the two of them because I love both of these characters dearly #just think about it: being hugged by two strong people at once! what's not to love about this concept? #cooking them a meal and receiving a kiss from the both of them oh god please someone wife me up already #Alex would get all three of you something cute and matching! like plushies! #he'd get a nice dog plushie. Farah gets a cat plushie. you get a plushie of an animal that reminds you of him that's still cute! #like a small bunny or a small birdie! #and just so you know both of them are good at hugging! they're both really strong and good at making you feel protected! #man I love Farah and Alex! they're such good characters! Alex was the first character I truly liked when watching MW1 #I was so sad to see he wasn't in mw2 but!!! he's in MW3!!! My boy is back in business! #can I also just mention that you can play as Farah in MW3? isn't that also just so cool? again I squealed! #I squealed every time at the cafe I stayed at when I saw you could play as one of the girls! good thinking activision!

[localguy2]

Might be a bit of a weird thing but I want to see Kai's sudden anger sprouts or emotional outbreaks to come back, or basically some aspects of pre S8 Kai.

I want to see Kai motherfucking smith be mad at anyone really.

The Merge just happened and fuck me his family is scattered again, they're probably just as worried and confused and scared as him and he's sick of everyone he cares about getting constantly in danger, intentionally or not.

And then he meets Lloyd, or Nya, and he's sorta relieved but at the same time, the others are still missing out there somewhere.

So he gets clingy onto them, "if I can't find the rest I have to keep the ones I have close me to safe."

Of course this comes from worrying over the others and their safety, and if the name "Imperium" and if their nindroids and Vehicles and genrals are anything to go off of, they're an absolute force to be wrecked with.

Doesn't help either that there's the responsibility now of ensuring Sora and Arin (and Riyu) are safe as well.

And the moment I want to see him have an anger or emotional outburst is in a scenario where Nya makes a one off comment about Kai being overbearing and protective of them.

And Kai just snaps at Nya.

He goes on a large fucking tangent about how he's always had to stay calm in clearly shitty situations, because they as a group just keep getting separated time and time and time again, danger around the corner at any given moment and he's tired of it.

And it would especially hurt him that the comment comes from Nya out of all people, because not too long ago she was still one with the sea, he had to sacrifice his entire childhood just to raise and protect her, and he knows to respect her boundaries and beliefs but in his mind the last time he went too soft it ended up with her sacrificing herself for them.

And he doesn't want to go soft nor can he because at any given moment, one of them could give their entire being just to save the others, and he's seen it way too many times, so he just can't.

#ninjago #kai smith #lloyd garmadon #nya smith #As much as I love Nya #There's one comment from her in Seabound that REALLY ticks me off #When Ray and Maya are over the monastery #Nya talks about how Kai is loving all the babying he's receiving #And Nya seems... Upset?!?? About that?! #Like hello??? #Kai lost his entire childhood #He spent it all trying to raise you and keep you alive and well #He's BARELY had any of his childhood because most of it was spent raising you Nya #So when his parents that he for so long thought were dead come back into his life #Of course he's gonna at least wanna spend some time with them #Being babyed or not cuz THAT MAN DESERVES IT AFTER EVERYTHING HE WENT THROUGH #God sometimes I just get irrationally annoying at how Kai was treated throughout the series #Just poor fucking guy man... #He gave up so much and he deserves some sort of award or prize for it #Just... Give him a hug #Tell him he's doing good... Or something #I dunno #Just appreciate him more #All I'm asking for really #Give Kai love

[somegrumpynerd]

Been playing around with our sonas

I drew him with reference this timeeeee

Sorry I feel like I've been bombarding you with asks I can't help it 😭

BRO THAT'S MY LITTLE GUY!!!!!!! I swear you're like midas but instead of gold everything you touch turns to adorable beautiful art I need to lie on my bed and sob LOOK AT HOW CUTE!!!!!!!

And you can bombard me with asks always!!! I am putting a cat door on my inbox so you can come and go whenever you want :D

#Ask #Pigeonstab #My friend Pigeon!!!! #Except your sona is like person sized so imagine a swingy cat door but like 6 feet tall lol #I am going to turn into confetti with all this cute art oh my god #HIS LITTLE FACE I will never in all my life get over your art style #You make everybody's faces the cutest things #And wanna pick up your drawings like plushies and hug them #I'm just gonna be staring at this and our sonas for ages #Calling in sick to work next week like yeah sorry I have to stare lovingly at my friend's art it's important

[afranticsonicperson]

i rewatched a playthrough of ddlc+ and

ref under the drawing

listen hold on hear me out okay hEAR ME OUT WAI-

#I feel like they’re more “natsuki and yuri” but I jUST WANTED TO REFERENCE THIS PIC SPECIFICALLY ALRIGHT?- #i feel like tails just needs to get some tears out #poor little guy’s just a kid #he suffered so much #and don’t even get me started on SHADOW oh my god- #I just wanna give them all hugs please plea- #also sorry for posting so much about these two #gahahgahaha I just can’t get enough of this duo #ANYWAY #miles tails prower #sonic #sth #tails #tails the fox #sonic the hedgehog #shadow #shadow the hedgehog #my art #sth fanart

[frecklystars]

nightmares have rendered me unable to sleep once again so i've been dancing in my room to Elvis music pretending K is dancing w/ me for the past 45 minutes. I think it'd be his way of trying to make me feel better. he isn't very experienced with comforting others but he hears me gasp awake, hears me crying. he knows the drill by now. he immediately gets up. takes my hands and pulls me out of bed. asks me if i want to talk about it, and if i don't, he turns on some music and swirls us around. he mimics elvis' voice while singing to the songs, knowing it'll make me laugh. when i finally do, he's smiling, saying very gently "there you are, sweetheart... there's my girl"

#its funny he doesnt even listen to elvis in his downtime in canon and he's become synonymous w/ his music in my mind #im so tempted to draw him in a black leather jacket and me in a poodle skirt #sharing a milkshake at the diner. OH GOD WAIT i want to draw me and Driver doing that #i need my F/Os more than ever rn it's gonna be uh. a difficult day bc i gotta work soon #and im running on VERY little sleep 😭 #i didnt sleep for 60 hours straight and then i only slept for 2 hours just now and i jolted awake #and i cant sleep again ;~; #but thank god i have ryan F/Os to think about when i jolt awake now #my dolls or my posters being the first thing i see when i wake up scared. is comforting #every tme i blink my eyes burn but it feels better knowing Driver would understand... or Six would get it bc he has c-ptsd too #i need them to hug me so tight. augh. hell on earth i wanna sleep so bad #IM FINE i dont mean to complain. well yes i do. im running on such little sleep my thoughts are all over the place #woof #love notes #💕♬♪ ♡ I can't help falling in love with you ☆- ̗̀💛 ̖́-☆ #vent #I GUESS?

[baekuras]

Started AFK Arena, got Eugene as my first Legendary, liked his design but was worried I might not like his story bc I haven't yet read many of them and it didn't seem like a story/event heavy game, finally gave in 3 days later Anyhow order of operations: -love it, joke around why there isn't a series about it -no there actually is a comic and other ones too -read them all -actually go back to read Gavus and the kids stories as well -learn you basically JUST missed all them being introduced like 4 months ago -hide your pain by consuming everything NOW -it's 7 am i haven't slept since yesterday where am i

#txts #afk arena #halp #yes i am currently scrolling through tumblr #i LITERALLY at one point during the labyrinth went #'huh Eugene and that angel looking dude seem to work nicely together-wonder why' BEFORE I LEARNED #truly amazing #so far everything was just 'huh if x is the case' AND IT IS #10/10 need more #i wanna both hug them. shake them by their shoulders. chew on them and also just let them live their best lives however they wish #same with the kids but i am way less feral about them-i am counting them in as my babies as well #with every new piece of info i got worried that things might turn out bad or tragic #the relief when i read through all oH GOD #precious little weapons of mass destruction #i-will probably take a nap now #and try for more coherent thoughts another time #i also got like 5 packages arriving anytime between 10am and 10pm which is just....totally great #other fun fact: literally looked at Eugene and Lucilla design wise and put them down mentally as my favs #which considering the everything: yeAH I GUESS IT MAKES SENSE HUH #good genes

[marclef]

Cats now remind me of Eyhm! :3

good. my plan to inject my dumb cat into the brains of everyone here is WORKING MWAHAHAHAHA

...... side little fun fact. my initial plans for Eyhm were that she was supposed to be a British Shorthair, so, if this cat were Real she'd probably look something like this ⬇.

scrunkly.

#god i love these cats so much though. they look so freaking poofy and chubby and sweet and i wanna hug all of them. #if i ever get my own cat in the future a british shorthair is up there in my top picks along with black cats and maine coons. #exceptional creatures. god i just really like cats.

[hazmatazz]

realizing how much physical affection means to me literally. like i always get that as my #1 love language for every fun test i do but oh my god they're right. i don't get enough physical affection or i don't get people saying they're giving me physical affection when they can't and suddenly i'm staying up that everyone hates me

#logically i understand my best friend loves me but oh my god. we haven't hugged in a week. what if he never cares to see me again #or like . i understand my guy probably likes me but haven't been told i'm getting affection in a while . my affection has been rejected. . #so . ugh. just need a fucking hug dude #i wanna ask my friend for niceys rn but it's 3 am so she's probably asleep and also . :( what if he doesn't like me #(<- guy who's been friends with it for years) #like . i wish i could tell someone like “hey give them reassurance rn” without.... asking for that #like i'd post “need someone to be niceys to me rn” because that's usually the most i can do to communicate that but he rarely is on tumblr #and what? do i send this post to my friend? no wtf #this happens with like. everyone close to me btw. i just care a lot about my best friend #so just. ugh. gonna try and sleep now. i'm getting a hug from him tomorrow #i really hope he plans something with me...i think that's all i need reassurance wise #i don't plan shit with people because what if they don't wanna be around me? but when ppl plan shit with me? YEAH . <3 #godddddd #🤞 please invite me to something soon i miss you and i feel like you hate me for no reason but that i'm sad always

[eyestrain-addict]

I wish we had gotten to see more domestic moments between Louis and Lestat. Ik they aren't 'important' to the overall story but it's just like... pls.

What's worse is when we get Claudia's POV in ep 4 we actually see the outskirts of some domestic moments between them -when louis tells her no running in the house he and lestat are sitting on the couch together calmly talking, on her 17th birthday we see them singing happy birthday and then dancing together in the courtyard- so we KNOW these moments are happening, we just don't get to see them because Louis is to preoccupied with the pain. Which, fair, but still I wanna see them doing stuff together without the curtain of pain

#thinking about how louis and or lestat love seeing movies together #was there ever a moment where louis laid on lestats chest on the couch while he read a book? no noise but the sound a pages turning and #the crackle of the fireplace? Lestat playing with Louis' hair while staring at him lovingly?? #could louis ever convince lestat to have a nice christmas together? #did they ever play some jazz on the gramophone and slow dance together? but the slow dancing thats essentially just hugging while swaying? #god i can think of so many moments that could have happened but never know if they did #iwtv #interview with the vampire #loustat #louis de pointe du lac #lestat de lioncourt #we hear all the bad times i wanna hear the good times #louis finds a french book thats above his language level and lestat helps him read it #louis sings to himself one day when he thinks hes alone and lestat overhears and tries to get him to sing more but louis is embarrassed #lestat trying to teach louis to play chess but louis keeps messing with him calling the knights horses #and at first hes mad but then he sees the mischievous look on louis' face and just melts #i jist.... i love them so much..... #louis trying to nonverbally tell lestat he loves him....

[unproduciblesmackdown]

orvphil: so real

for example used analysis on the following instances

orville's physical reluctance & difficulty kneeling to propose to jane vs. readily swinging right into such a kneel with phil during 'til we meet again

'til we meet again

(see above) noting the "both immediately becoming So happy to be doing this" and "staring at each other for an unbroken ten seconds after finishing the song which was evidently beyond simply a [hold for applause] thing"

having indeed an adorable little meet-cute, which may not be an integral part of every eventual writer/lyricist & composer partnership

when phil drops in at wingate manor and he an orville have a private little wave to each other like =)

sitting next to each other sharing a hay bale and orville gets drinks for them both and phil walks orville home

lucky day

the choreography where orville's at the piano and phil swings it out while rotating it and orville's "walking" while sitting to one side to help (my analysis: going ohhhhh ;w;)

both simultaneously answering "his" when asked whose song it is like the earnest effortless mutual admiration and appreciation huh fellas

margaret talking about protecting your heart from these theatricals; orville Is one of these theatricals, and he loves it; phil watching him / reacting in this moment including his little "hell yeah" move like he had for orville going off in lucky day

their general enthusiasm together / for each other / enjoyment of being around each other and increased ease of operating when around each other

phil wishing orville could hear his music and talking about how orville ruined his own night to save theirs, then remarking "...what a guy!" mmhm

🌈🌈🌈

#orvphil #summer stock #orville wingate #also everyone was so funny & my god they were dancing & it's so true this show was a delight. i laughed smiled applauded effused enjoyed #shoutout to orville's escaping ''don't do Anything but get married have children'' through theatre; being gay; a little luck #it's so true: william (orville) & veanne (margaret) & gilbert (phil) were all so funny & great individually & in any combo #anthony/tony (montgomery) too lmao his ''....how dare you.'' iconic #shoutout to having orville show up for 1 Sec (in pajamas i believe) for the purposes of villain i have done thy mother. he just lives here #phil is great. trying to hold it together....writer's trick from my momma Use Your Words #and then with orville helping out he can chill out & enjoy his wins & orville can have any wins & enjoy them & chill & Do Things too #and everyone is so cool to him right away. why wouldn't they be. hugging like everybody hey besties #obviously corbin bleu is being his national treasure america's sweetheart leading role & Dancing....all the praises warranted #everyone crushes their role & is a delight. including any little moments w/the ensemble / all Ensembling things. go t.j. #it was great of course & a delight & again the orvphil is extremely real. 100% the textual intention & execution. thanks cheri love you #let's get that summer 2024 show if they can / wanna for real (they want to; let's just see it shake out. summer 2024 is pure speculation) #Oh Nooo if i forgot anything & have to reblog & add to this / rewatch & re/discover any delights

[the-gayest-sky-kid]

deep sigh

#they just made a beautiful man and now i have to be normal abt him. ://// #i just want to treat him nicely is that so much to ask #i wanna massage his shoulders and back & hold his hands and warm them up & kiss his stupid face #is that so wrong!!! that i want to straddle him and kiss all over his stupid fuckin face like GOD!!!!!!! #not to be abnormal abt hands again but i want to kiss his too also pretty please. like a gentleman or smth #but More also his palms and his fingertips and waaaaaaaaa #you know that thing where like youre sitting on the couch with someone and they have their legs over your lap so you like #rub their knee or whatever??? #god i just to do stupid domestic touchy stuff with him #hug him and hold him and squeeze him and kiss him is this so much to ask #sobs #posting posting 💕

[aflockofravens]

I have watched the Jujutsu Kaisen anime twice since the beginning of the month, and I just finished the entire manga that I started on Sunday morning.

This is fine. I'm fine. It's fine.

#JJK #jujutsu kaisen #satosugu #gojo satoru #geto suguru #I'm a fucking mess #i am distraught #the Shibuya arc DESTROYED me #i have cried three times over the death of a fictional character #“you've got it from here” #iykyk #UGLY SOBBING #i have so many feelings about the parallels in this story #god i just wanna give them all a hug so bad #bring on the fix-it fics because jesus christ I'm a wreck #might have to start writing again because I need them to all be okay again #thinky thoughts

[sfsolstice]

does anyone else ever get an achingly inexplicable, deeply-chest-seeded desire for a hug completely out of nowhere

#solstice shares #bc it just hit me and god #i just wanna hug someone like a fucking koala #just wrap all my limbs around them and bury my face where their neck meets their shoulder

[mars-ipan]

ohh i have good friends

#marzi speaks #was gonna go get dinner with my brother and a friend tonight #they weren’t able to respond for a few hours so i assumed plans fell through and went forward with that mindset #then they and my brother were able to decide on smth last minute #i am. low spoons socially rn #and i was struggling to decide whether i should go or not #friend gets here. they talk with me about it #i’m getting frustrated bc i can’t form the words i wanna form #i want to spend time with them but i have all this shit to do and god i’m tired but i want to hang out with my friends #i cry a bit. they hug me and encourage me #eventually i (through a tight throat) go ‘i think i need to sit this one out’ bc i’m at a point of distress where it just won’t be fun #and they hug me again go ‘no worries there’s always next time’ and head out with my brother #that’s a good fucking friend. they wanted to spend time with me and when i recognized a limit i had reached they respected it #anyways. i need to cry a bit. give myself a distraction. maybe a meal of some kind #and then i can get back to work. but they were really sweet and i wanna make sure i internalize that i’m cared about

[mattodore]

usually i never really feel like something i've edited warrants a before and after, but i really went out of my way to learn some new things for this one and i'm so proud of everything i did here 🧎

#river dipping #matthias evanoff #theodore doe #a burning house to live in #echthroi #these are the 3k versions if you wanna zoom btw <3 #but god........... WHO WAS I before color overlays...... literally WHAT was i doing before this #the second i started adding the blues and reds and purples it was like i felt a physical punch in the GUT #like ?????? SO GOOD SO GOOD #also do you see what i mean abt the hair strands kjdghfjnghk they took me FOREVER but they're intentionally subtle...... so like. #you barely even see all of the work i put into them lmaooooooo #so serious when i say i'm just here posting things for myself like who else would even notice them kdjgnhdkfjh #anyway.................... i'm very obsessed with that theo pic so........ i'm probably going to be changing my mobile theme soon here 🧑‍💻 #like fr goodbye orange hello reds and blues #really i'm like. should i not just immediately change every icon background and wallpaper i use to theo......... #ALSO!!!!!!! i did not take any pics of mattodore hugging or start answering that ask from yesterday... i'm SAWRRY #this has just been the only thing on my brain dknjghnfh i will definitely get to it tho <333 MWAH MWAH MWAH #i gotta play catch up now that i'm done with these but first i need to eat............ which i haven't done krjdhndjkfngjhnkgf