#go to anew tumrblr again

[amerasdreams]

What are the chances anyone on here still respects or even likes me

I doubt anyone on here doesn't despise me, at least some.

I reallt shouldnt blare all my insecurities on here. Needing an outlet. I wasn't going to. :( bc tumrblr isn't emotional support. But I get in the mode where i don't care.

Then I regret it.

No one can take me seriously... no one can really want to associate with me other than watching a train wreck. So.

I either have to learn to become something

Or just. Resist putting my feelings on here. How.

Much nicer if I could make a persona that was proud and arrogant and stick to it

But I hate lying, so

I have to become something irl somehow. On my own. With no support.

#bc others dont know or care who i really am #maybe a couple #but not most #so what am i doing here #take a break #become something #then come back #at least get s house #not a trailer house bc ill have the same problem #become social #hahahahahhzhaha #yr #and or #do sth amazing #so u all admire me instead of scorn me #which is the worst feeling in the world. #😞 #go to anew tumrblr again #hahaha #try to become sth #hahaahha #if i put on only nice things #and resist any negative #maybe ill become better #and be worthy of having friends