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[purplecladmerchant]

Impostor syndrome and God syndrome kicking in

#they dont know im uninteresting #wow i mighr be actually cool as fuck looka at my influence #im so powerful #wow they all believe my lies and think im cool #real sol hours on my brain #freya's disventures #im gonna be here yelling and putting all the zirks people dre for me together #and the steampunk sol #amd then ill eat them

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One of those days

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Update about my frog boyfriend. My hips are killing me so now it's my maTress nlt my pillow.

Dog I hate this mattress. Hard mattresses suck really hard

#freya's disventures #my body #is a temple #...ancient and crumbling #probably haunted

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Uhg I wake up with headache...

#and with a reference to sweany todd on my notif yall doom #freya's disventures

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Talking about trauma. My mother is acting like she isn't the origin of mine this night.

🙄

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My feetsies are wet I need rain boots t0t

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I usually don't check the episode descriptions. I casually checked this one before hearing and oh, it mentions suicide idealition...

Lemme check how I am about it cuz boy oh boy haven't had the best mental health....

#freya's adventures #welp #freya's disventures

[purplecladmerchant]

Say whatever of Twitter but I appreciate it being a costum to have name, pronouns and some Lil info in bio to easily know who tf you're talkin to

#want tk talk to people #whats your name #are you 10 or 80 #how i refer tk you #freya's disventures

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Mom: Why you are stil in bed? Wake up its lunch time Me, internally: because I have a big depression and nothing other than MP100 motivates me anymore

#freya's disventures #lol

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I can easily identify with Yellow Diamond cause she is playing all of her to be the best of what she is supposed to be, and all her attention to show her power and to never look weak, but deep inside she is just as destroyed... But there is no use in feeling, just in stand and be better. And better.

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[purplecladmerchant]

I had a nigthmare in where i tried to talk with my mother, tried to bond with her, and talk about my problems, But her was being a hipocryt, making everything about her, and not letting me express anything. Shuting me everytime i tried to make her notice that she wasn’t hearing me.

She only get scared and tried to hear when i scream at her (because other way she don’t even gonna listened) about my suicide attempts. That were her fault.

The sad part is that it was a fucking p realistic escenary, because she never hear me. but oh if i told her she sure would freak out and hear everything i have to say

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[purplecladmerchant]

i also have this feeling that I need to raise my voice, because if not people will not listen to me. Like, they don’t gonna hear me if I don’t make myself as annoying and noticeable posible. They will just ignore me if I am not talking so fucking loud. And fast. If not people will lose interest and don’t gona care of my oppinion. All my life was like it, Nobody cares for what I say or my opinion SO I NEED TO BE LOUD AND SAY IT QUICK OR ELSE.

Also I hate when people silence me. It makes me really anxious and really sad and angry. I don’t tolerate it. It stress me out to the point of explosion. remember me to talk a less louder, ask me to talk slowly, but don’t silcence me.

Plus plus when people just hear what I have to say makes me want to cry. What is all this love to my person. wow. so pure, so surreal?

#freya's disventures #hola si tengo traumas(?)

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I just wanted a lollipop and be happy…

#freya's disventures #todo le sale mal a freya

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llevo diez minutos golpeandome la cabeza contra la pared y contemplando todas las posibles formas de suicidarme C:

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