#first world problems man. the squeak™️

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#diary #personal #got fucking dammit my throat is sore and i wanna fucking stop this vocal stim cuz it strains my voice. #but i just fucking keep on doing it. ugh. its so just. annoying after a while. ugh. #sometimes i just get into one specific stim a lot and ill do it so much but stop in a while. but sometimes its too much #idk i just wanna chill but it be hard bc i keep fucking squeeking ;-; #first world problems man. the squeak™️ #and whats about as bad is i wanna bit on my cheeks and thats also annoying bc i *should* get some gum #BUT I WANNA SETTLE DOWN AND SLEEP FFS #...god i just need something to bite or chew on ffs. and doing it to myself isnt a good idea lmao #seriously this is so annoying. like ive *sorta* burnt out or something so im just super stimmy lately. #AND LIKE AGAINST BETTER JUDGEMENT IVE BEEN WATCHING NEURODIVERGENT TIKTOKS #AND LIKE THIS IS A PROBLEM BC IT MAKES ME STIM MORE FFS #...a while back i was watching sweet anita who has tics and because she has a popping tic it makes my stim MUCH WORSE. #bc i have the same fucking stim as her tic #IM DYING HERE SOMEONE BRING ME WATER UGH #like. i can cover them up and i dont stim in public or whatever. but at home in my room? its free real-estate. #(yes i just pictured that meme) but seriously tho it gets tiring and annoying after a while when youve spent HOURS or DAYS #just fucking stimming. like. i dont mind stiming. but this is too much. send help. what do do when stim too much. #...and i know this is bc i mask a lot and burn out a lot.... i know i did this to myself leave me alone. #UGHHHHHH FUCK.