#every time i go back and listen to this playlist im like noooo i wont be overrun by feelings of nostalgia and bittersweet melancholia.....

[darcyolsson]

listening to alice's solitaire playlist and remembering being 15 and so sad. that book will forever be so connected to who i was at that age, not just the story but also the community i found after reading it which sometimes felt like the only people who Got Me. my teenage years were honestly a miserable time but i think looking back the recognition and the friends i found through that book were genuinely one of the main things that made it almost bearable wahh i am so grateful for that silly little book. and i wish i could hug teenage me :(

#every time i go back and listen to this playlist im like noooo i wont be overrun by feelings of nostalgia and bittersweet melancholia..... #and then 3 tracks in im like fuck. jesus. anyone remember 2017? #getting home just to send alice 3 hyper specific asks and then move over to discord to talk about the most random stupid shit #with the ppl i met because they were the only existing fans of her works back then. terrible wonderful time i loved u people like a family #still do in a way we share a warrior's bond <3 #personal