#even tho hes immunosuppressed

[thedisablednaturalist]

Literally everyone but me in the office is some sort of sick. They say oh I need the money or I don't want to use up my sick days or its not that bad *cough hack sniff*. And then they refuse to at the very least wear a mask. Like no wonder everyone is getting sick!!! I can feel my body starting to feel icky and I feel like the last man standing in a zombie apocalypse

#wrenfea.exe #may I also add that 70% of people in the office ARE ELDERLY #also i know for a fact a few are immunocompromised #thank god one of them is still on vacation #bc i know his ass wouldnt mask #even tho hes immunosuppressed #i havent been able to get vaccinated bc its too expensive rn bc i dont have insurance #also my state has the highest flu level rn #i might just get the flu one asap bc its only like $20 #the covid and the rsv ones are expensive #my coworker is sick but he wears a mask and was out when he was most contagious

[sharksloveblud]

Not BC related but y’all get to listen to me bitch and also I may be taking like a legit actual break from anything besides scrolling/liking for a few days because SOMETHING is wrong with me and I’m mad about it lol.

Firstly, last night I woke up at 3am with a HORRIFIC panic attack I haven’t had one that bad in years (even the covid panic attacks weren’t NEAR this level) so I made an Executive Decision to take Xanax (you’re not supposed to mix benzos and I’m on Klonopin too but like. thought I was dying for a hot second, figured it was worth the minimal risk to take 1mg of Xanax to make it stop) which of course makes me REALLY tired so after it finally ended and I went back to bed I slept straight through my usual wake-up time and my mom looked like she was expecting to find my dead body when she opened my door to check on me before she left for work; I couldn’t see it cause I didn’t have my glasses on but I could FEEL the relief despite her sounding rather panicky when she asked “are you okay???” (I also forgot it was Monday so even tho I was waking up at that point I made 0 effort to remove myself from my bed lol.)

Later, I started feeling REALLY GODDAMN SWEATY despite not feeling HOT, so I took my temperature and get this nonsense:

So I took Advil and I’m waiting to see if that breaks it cause if it doesn’t that’s Bad News and means I’m sick (I’m already slightly concerned, my autoimmune fevers have NEVER gone over 99.2°F so this alone is abnormal) and then I try and go for my second round of work, and I’m just sitting at my desk in my chair waiting to start work AND GET THIS BULLSHIT:

So I dunno what the fuck is happening. My brother had a cold yesterday (confirmed cold, he’s completely better today and he kicks colds in 12 hours but covid kicked his ass for a week so it was, indeed, just a cold) and I am on a short but intense course of steroids for my autoimmune disease so im gonna be super pissed if his disgusting can’t-even-cover-his-sneezes ass gave me a cold WHILE I AM ON IMMUNOSUPPRESSANT DRUGS or if grocery shopping + severe panic attack + extra drugs overtaxed my newly-lowered limits of health and I just need to lay in bed for a week. I am frickin TIRED YALL. 😩

[treddnevers]

hm! hm! apparently im anxious as fuck over covid now!

#i was just avoiding news even tho im immunosuppressed and super susceptible but then i saw my dad #and HE'S super anxious cuz hes way more immunosuppressed than me and also a chronic hypochondriac #so by transitive property and the fact that i caught my baby brothers cold i am now. Extra Stressed

[tehohaews]

hii orthy!! 🤗 I just need to scream about todays atots ep 😭😭 that was sooo good agshsjjd i can‘t even put all the emotions it made me feel into words 😭 like, I loooved every ep so far but today I literally just kept going „why am I crying??“ 😭😭 they‘re so soooft, the way phu listened to nam and started making in effort to be nicer to tian and all their stares, their smiles AHHH 🥺🥺 the scene after phu drove tian home and they were standing in front of tian’s house and kept turning back around to look at eachother 😭😭 and the talk between tian and tul ❤️ maybe gmmtv deserves some rights agshdjs p‘aof definitely does, everything he does is such a masterpiece!! tian is so cute with the kids aswell I‘m just 🥰🥰🥰 okay I‘m done hahah I hope you have a nice day/night! 💕

LARAAAA HIIIII I am BACK to answer this again (let's hope it gets posted this time or I will cry). Ep5 really was something huh 😭😭😭 Like the previous eps were already very good but somehow they managed to make it even better 😭😭😭. So I was actually rewatching bits of the previous eps before the premiere and noticed that in the first ep they cut the scene right after Tian fainted/fell so it wasn’t clear if he took part in the racing and I was like SEE THAT? Tian fainted and they rushed him to the hospital so there's no way he was involved in torfun's death 🤡. And then the ep started and the first scene they showed us was THAT djdjjdjdj. So personally i don't think tian killed torfun partly for the reason that it would be a mess to deal with plot wise and also for the fact that they are leading us to believe that but then at the last moment they might be like lmao bitch you thought sjksksks. Anyway we'll deal with this later hehe moving on. I loved his lunch date with dr nam 🥺🥺. Not @ nam saying his friend has a chance RIGHT infront of Tian's face lol. Poor tian was going to choke sjjsjsjs. Also 🥺🥺 they would've even gone for dessert later if it wasn’t for that annoying evil jerk 😠 I'm praying that he doesn’t make a cameo again in the future eps cause Tian already has so much in his plate. Speaking of cameos P'AOF DJJDJDJS I WAS SCREAMING WHEN THAT HAPPENED and also that was his asst director I think? Both of them also worked on s2g together. Also get yourself a friend like tul who would drop everything he's doing and travel 686 km just to see you. I really thought that he was going to be problematic at first but he was just what Tian needed 😭😭😭 I was a mess during the entire coming out scene and had to pause a few times and ask myself WAS THIS REALLY HAPPENING. Also kudos to mix cause boy every single one of Tian's expressions in that scene is 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭. And when Tul said what if I tell you i like woman would you be surprised 😭😭 the way I was laughing and crying at the same time. And also his cat and dog metaphor 🥺🥺. One of my most favourite part in the ep was the parallels they were showing with phupha and the rangers and tian and tul (are we SURE this is gmmtv?). Also the scene where Tian gets hit in the chest and clutches it looked SO PAINFUL I WAS A SOBBING MESS and screaming nooo don't hurt my son 😭😭😭. I think him later fainting(someone said it's a heart attack omg) was due to this and he was also shivering when they went out to fly the kites 😭 heart problems aside his immunity is also very fragile and his meds are probably immunosuppressants so even the slightest infection or such could be life threatening and he isn't exactly living in the most hygiene place on earth 😭😭 This is sad let's deal with this later too lol. His SECOND DATE with phupha tho 🥺🥺😭😭😭😭 They're convo in the car and Phupha actually listening to advice from a v drunk dr nam lol. Also can we please NOT talk about phupha taking tian's pic and smiling at it so adorably cause I WILL CRY if we do 😭😭🥺🥺🥺 and if he sets it as his wallpaper and looks at it every hour of the day(and night)? PAINNNNNN all I see is painnnn. And please them not wanting to say goodbye to eo after spending the entire day together 😭 like they were JUST standing there and smiling at eo and nothing else 😭😭😭 and their smiles oh god 😭😭 this entire scene was so raw and beautiful like they both know that there is something there but don’t know how to say it and DO YOU JUST CRY KDKDKDKD. Tian was absolutely adorable with the kids 🥺🥺 remember when they didn’t like him but NOW? Family 🥺🥺 Also probably my most favourite scene was their glances after phupha wrote tian's name 😭😭😭 Tian's shy smile and Phupha smiling at him like THAT??? 😭😭😭 And we're choosing to believe that the ep ended with all of them flying kites and having the time of their life okay?okay

#asks #atotsphutian #lara 🦢 #tl;dr I LOVEEED THIS EP #also thank you so much for this 🤗🤗 #I'm sorry it took a while but as i said tumblr hates me 😭😭 #hope you’re having a lovely day and taking care of yourself 💕💕💕 #also damn kudos to you for writing this within a word limit after THAT ep #this is my second time writing this and as you can see i cant stop talking about this ep #hehe love yaaaa 💕💕💕

[guttterglittterlives]

Saturday 5/1/21

I totally forgot to add an entry yesterday. Not much happened tho, I just went to AA.

Today however, today was interesting. My dad took me to a doctor out in Glendale. The doctor was nice enough to put me on methotrexate, an immunosuppressant. This is going to calm down my over active immune system and stop it from attacking me. That’s what autoimmunity is...an overactive immune system that starts to attack healthy cells. Psoriasis is an autoimmune condition. So forcing my immune system to chill will help bring me some healing to my skin. I was concerned at first about committing to this as I’d have to take it all my life and it does suppress my immune system and that alone sounds scary. But my aunt Zoraima called me and lectured me about it and told me about her experiences with it. She’s been on it for ten years with no complications...so has her daughter. That’s why I decided to give it a try. Also Reddit didn’t really have many negative things to say about it either. I really think I’m gonna get better finally. I just have to take these tiny pills once a week and folic acid everyday. My dad wouldn’t even let me pay for the consult, or even the pills. Thankfully they were not expensive. This is all very unlike him. Usually he is very distant, not involved at all in my struggles. He likes to hear about me through my mom. But earlier this week I feel like I kind of scared him. I was in my room sobbing by myself on my bed. Like a baby. Really really hard. He came storming in with so much concern painted all over his face. He asked me what’s wrong and I told him I was tired of being in so much constant pain. My skin was burning...I couldn’t really turn my neck due to how irritated and dry it was. It felt like it I turned my neck I would rip my skin. Also my forehead was burning like hell too...like a bad sunburn. I’d constantly put ice packs on these two places. I was at my wits end tho. He desperately asked me what he could do. And that took me by surprise. He ran off to buy calamine lotion. I told him not to because I felt it would burn me more...but he went anyway. I can’t really explain how much that meant to me. Just the fact that he cared so deeply for me like that. When I was a teen I hated him. I hated him for never being there for me. I resented him. I even remember one time he was getting surgery in Mexico and I outright told my mom I didn’t give a damn if he recovers. I was that resentful. But now it’s like I’m living in some alternate universe. Later that day he decided we were gonna see his doctor in Glendale and that’s how I got to where I’m at today. Needless to say my dad and I have come a very long way. From basically me hating him and his apathy to now me secretly taking pictures of him and admiring him lol he’s become my hero. He even wants to take me to a witch doctor now because he claims I might be cursed. I kind of agree with him on that. My ex worshipped la Santa muerte and his mom practiced too. One time I found an old witchcraft book in Spanish in her bedroom. Also my ex is a very spiteful person so I wouldn’t put it past him. We’ll see what happens there. Idk. Anyway here’s a picture of my dad at the doctors today waiting for us to be called up lol I love him and his permanent grumpy face. You can’t see it cuz the mask but it’s there...take my word for it!

#father #psoriasis #medical

[my-autistic-things]

Guess who's group mate is getting tested for COVID-19????

Yeah it's mine.

She came to school last week coughing and sneezing, BRAGGING how she worked one of the flagged cruise ships and immediately got sick 2 days later. Saying how she's probably got the coronavirus whoops. Bitch wtf why are you in school first off. Second, she considered coming to school, straight from being hospitalized and sick enough to be tested, to come do our presentation if the test came back negative. I'm literally going to beg my teacher to excuse her absence tomorrow bc if he doesn't I won't go to school and risk getting sick over this. I'm already getting sick jfc. Just like a cold tho, but for me, that is dangerous as is. If I got the coronavirus, I would get so, so, sick and likely die. (And my dad would definitely die). Healthy people are saying how it's the worst flu they've ever had. Jfc I can't imagine how many students are coming to school and spreading it thinking it's nbd and how it's "just a flu" all these healthy, young, college kids will be Fine. And just not even considering there's immunosuppressed, disabled, and old people auditing their classes.

#my uni is sending out so many emails and theres a travel ban for all faculty already #if my teacher doesnt excuse her im sure the uni board will make her stay home/hospitalized #study abroad is being cancelled too #and post-spring break some teachers are switching their in person classes to online #like legit this is being taken so seriously i cannt understand why students are still considering coming to school infected #theres purel stations in the library too #which im grateful for bc im mainly worried about getting just a cold #bc the coronavirus doesnt seem /that/ contagious unless youre coughed on/sneezed on #but yeah im gonna start bringing my Clorox wipes to school now that it's seriously spreading #and Lysoling my entire environment #virus mention #coronavirus #germs #college