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#even if I’ve also always been hypervigilant (it’s complicated ig)
dykesynthezoid
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The seasonal depression + major life stress to agoraphobia relapse pipeline is kicking my ass
#the adhd & demand avoidance don’t help any either
#I end up wanting to avoid responsibilities out of spite and bc I’m time blind I don’t even notice how many days I’ve gone without leaving
#the house
#by the time you add the actual depression and anxiety and trauma I’m already struggling
#it’s gotten so hard to go to shabbat services on friday nights bc it’s dark at 4:30 and the temple is in the middle of downtown
#in not the safest area and there’s almost no parking
#(to be clear it’s not just anxiety or fear preventing me from going. it’s hard to want to go anywhere when it’s dark and cold for normal
#human reasons)
#but still
#i hate being in a position where I feel like I have to assume the worst of other human beings
#bc that’s just. not who I am. its incongruent with who I am to walk down the street and assume people are bad and want to hurt me
#that’s not a judgement I’d ever want to make lightly
#even if I’ve also always been hypervigilant (it’s complicated ig)
#(really feel like my nervous system has just not been able to fully stabilize for the past six weeks. it’s already such a hard time of year
#for me and with recent events on top of that…)
#anyway. I need to start planning ways to leave the house ig.
#agoraphobia
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