#esp since i can really only work remotely...too scared of bringing covid home to the family...

[stirdrawsandreblaws]

if i don't get a reply from any of the piece of shit jobs I've applied to over the last several months in this next fucking week I'm gonna eat my own hands off out of sheer raw nerves

#stirring up trouble #if i could handle phones my life would be so easy #but i can only apply for remote work that doesnt involve calls #not just bc i have phone anxiety but bc auditory processing means i legit cannot fuckin understand people on the phone #and i cant see and hear for shit at the same time bc of how my focus splits... #it makes finding work i can actually do absolutely miserable #esp since i can really only work remotely...too scared of bringing covid home to the family... #ahhhh im gonna fucking gnaw my limbs off and bleed out and itll be less agonizing than the wait for word that may never come