#esp bc im one of the only dudes in my dept so ive run into ppl being super judgey about that

[heartyearning]

the way i live my life is LIDORALLY just like doing whatever’s gonna make my friends have a laff. have a good chuckle. no matter how stupid the thing is or how silly it’s gonna make me look to other ppl if it makes them do a little snort come hell or high water i will do that thing

#like for instance going to the tea party themed christmas party dressed as the teapot #see the thing is i know to ppl who dont know me very well i come across as insanely obnoxious #esp bc im one of the only dudes in my dept so ive run into ppl being super judgey about that #(not in a 'not all men' way that im saying this btw its just like. we got some ppl who are leaning a liiiiiittle too close to terfism for #my liking. they havent Quite crossed the border and they also dont know im trans but if i was transfem instead of (passing) transmasc... #who knows. not me) #so anyway yeah i come across as obnoxious or as though i take up too much space and i do recognise this but like #my friends like it. and fucking hell i didnt wanna do a theme w the WHOLE dept like the 3rd yrs are nasty anyway and dont like anyone #if it had been just us i also fully would have pushed for the divorce theme bc we did wedding last yr #and everyone had a good laff at that suggestion but like 2 ppl were soooooo against it which like #if it were for a good reason ofc fine but they didnt wanna do it bc they wanted to do . tim burton characters. #girl. no! #like also we're in fucking costume design you cant think of smth for urself ??? also just no ? #anyway. divorcebabesdivorce isnt happening even tho feiran specifically asked where the theme went on the poll #(shes like a friend of mine but not like A FRIEND of mine shes moreso just a classmate & i like my classmates) #so just to be like. see even ppl who arent naturally indulgent of me liked that idea. #anyway. teapot time is fun too