#drives themselves. who would wait and not cqncel on me if i was running 2 hours late and had to shuffle plans

[mejomonster]

I'm so tired

#rant #i need a break. like a big break break #i been reflecting on a lot and maybe i still give away too much of my energy despite how much Me Alone time i plan #like i very rarely have a friend who schedules time with me themselves. makes time in their schedule to accomodate when I Am free #drives themselves. who would wait and not cqncel on me if i was running 2 hours late and had to shuffle plans #(i never do that. but i hqve many friends who shuffle plans the day before the day of and for the whole week so its convienient #and works around their schedule. but for mine i set a plan and DO it qnd dont cancel on people unless im sick) #im just tired. i wanted to go somewhete big with a friend and they cqncelled and want it reschedulef #and im kinda like why dont i just fucking go alone. i have to drive hours either way #at least alone im not bending my plans over multiple days until something finallh works #i think its good to work around friends and help be flexible so yall can hang out #but like. idk ive been reflecting and notice. i do it a lot for other people #but most people i know arent doing it back for me. #i think if i told mosg of them i was busy? they wouldnt even put in the effort to reschedule. theyd just give up trying to hang out with me