#deal with your past

[ianthedebonair]

oh, dr. mortum, we're really in it now

#fhr #fallen hero #dr. mortum #fhr dr. mortum #art #my art #i have NO idea how old he's supposed to be lmao #i painted over an old abandoned wip #and for some reason past me drew him in this weird blank/neutral expression #and present me didn't even fix it lol #anyways just imagine him flashing you a charming smirk that is 30% flirty and 70% figuring out what your real deal is

[jackklinemybeloved]

zac’s “less is more” approach to comedy is always golden but it is working PERFECTLY for colin provolone from both a comedic and dramatic standpoint. everyone else I kinda get the vibe of but colin is Just Some Guy which is driving both me and raphaniel up the fucking WALL.

#it’s VERY funny but Colin what the FUCK is your deal what HAPPENED TO YOU #he’s just some guy we know nothing about his past but we KNOW he has Some Kind Of Past #what kind of past? what happened? we don’t knowwwww #and the whole story treats him as Just Some Guy which is so funny but also like. what the fuck! #but my actual point is like #I love that zac can just stay on the sidelines without anyone really thinking about it #like he doesn’t take up scenes very much #which is cool but sometimes works to his character’s detriment #but here? perfect. #much easier to keep Colin as Just Some Fucking Guy when he barely talks #anyway. zac oyama is very talented that is all. #dimension 20 #the ravening war #colin provolone #d20 spoilers #zac oyama #bishop raphaniel charlock

[densitywell]

there's nothing orym would ask of the other hells that he wouldn't do himself, which is sort of the problem, really

#critical role #cr spoilers #orym of the air ashari #bells hells #if you don’t have a homegrown curse you can use to your advantage (moon powers) storebought is fine (deal with a hag)! #and its not even sunk cost fallacy or feeling like he needs to make the deal worth it i think. this is just what he feels is necessary #and its his own self worth and the value he places on his own life vs the importance of this cause. reflected back on the others #how the rest of the hells have adopted this mindset but with wavering conviction and doubt - not really fitting quite right #while it fits orym like a glove. bc that's who he is. it's what he's been taught. bc this conflict is his past and his present #and as far as he's considered it. his future! #me this morning: i will not get back into orymposting. orymposting is the mind killer. #me now: #eta: i guess this could be disputed by him saying fearne would have to be the one to take imogen out pre-solstice. #but i've always seen that as a purely practical 'who would actually be capable of doing this' issue as opposed to sentimentality. #he was fully ready to cut dorian in exu. however he may feel about the act his resolve is not an issue!

[puppyeared]

man

#maybe im being pessimistic abt this. im not saying u should wear a mask every waking moment of your life god knows i cant #but also. hell no i dont trust u if anything i distrust u ppl even more after how things played out for the past 3 years #like there are situations where it might be inevitable catching covid. most of my family members are nurses and in constant contact #but there are also a ton of ways to make that risk low as possible like masking and wearing a face shield and having sanitizer #for me its not enough to just say oh we're in a small group and we're all vaccinated #motherfucker your kid is sick from preschool EVERY TIME WE VISIT. of course ill be wearing a mask she gave me covid last year #also no the fuck it isnt seasonal the cases go up because lack of caution makes the virus spread and mutate especially around times when #ppl gather. add that with virus transmission in cold weather and its a matter of different factors increasing the risk of spread #im also tired of ppl not understanding that i wont be their responsibility if i do get sick. maybe they can help me recover #but at the end of the day the risk of death and long term health is all on me. i cant change that #the govt barely gives me accommodations what makes u think theyll do anything for every individual case of long covid or worse #im so tired. im so tired #i dont even know if its possible to want this to be over anymore i just wish we didnt have to deal with this in the first place #ALSO COUGH INTO YOUR SLEEVE SERIOUSLY HOW IS THIS SO HARD TO REMEMBER #oh its just a cold/dry throat its not like i have covid or anything. no!! its basic hygiene!!! how is this so hard to understand!!!!!!!!!! #and no this isnt abt whether people have the means to protect themselves this is me bitching abt my relatives not taking me seriously #vent #my art #myart #doodles #covid 19

[shima-draws]

Writes a full blown essay about why Mary On A Cross is THE Sanlu song to me ever,

#Listen. I know the song is actually about weed. But that’s BESIDES the point #I can change the meaning. For MY ship ;) #Anyway there is actually a story behind this #I see reels on IG a LOT and I think one of the first times I saw an OP reel that took place during WCI #That song played. And I was like oh wait a second 👀 #Now whenever I think about WCI I think about Mary On A Cross and then I think about Sanlu #THE LYRICS REALLY DO FIT THEM THO #’I had to let you go’ Sanji VS ‘I’ll never let you go’ Luffy #’If you choose to run away with me’ literally. Luffy. Trying to rescue Sanji from his fate and get him to run away from his family with him #’Your beauty never ever scared me’ AGAIN LUFFY ABOUT SANJI EVEN WITH HIS PAST AND HIS MODIFICATIONS #Also the whole thing about Mary on a cross. Makes me think of self sacrifice. Which is Sanji’s ENTIRE deal #Anyway this song sparks the Emotions in me. #It’s probably been way overused but not for me!!! IT IS THE SANLU SONG PERIODT #One Piece #Sanlu #Lusan #Shima speaks

[indiainswiftland]

There's so much fucking shit going on. First the theory of Lara being the main baddy next season instead of Zod, which would explain why the kryptonian soldier's va is the same va of martha kent ??? MAKING A PARALLEL BETWEEN CLARK'S BOTH MUMS???

LIKE THIS PIC ????

ABSOLUTE INSANITY

Also Jor El's conscious practically dying in the finale without being able to tell Clark about his identity and Krypton ??? This is not a coincidence. They are going to make Clark interact with another kryptonian and finding out about the destruction of Krypton from them. Now this one could be Lara (or whoever the main baddy is next season) and that would probably cause Clark a lot of distress. HOWEVER I'M THINKING OF SOMEBODY ELSE.

Someone in this hellsite pointed this out already but there was an actress credited to play Kara. WHAT IF KARA'S SHIP STOPS THE HIBERNATION MODE WATHEVER THE FUCK THAT IS CALLED AND SHE WAKES UP AS A 15 YEAR OLD ALIEN. WHO CAN NOT FIND HER BABY COUSIN AND IS PANICKING BECAUSE PROTECTING HIM WAS PRETTY MUCH HER ONLY JOB AFTER HER WHOLE CIVILIZATION WAS DESTROYED. OH AND NEWSFLASH: SHE HAS POWERS NOW THAT SHE DEFINITELY CAN NOT CONTROL

What if superman finds her and she recognizes the S in his suit, pieces everything together and has a meltdown over the horrific situation she's going through. Clark would eventually realize she is a good person but they can not communicate with each other at all because the language barrier is a big plot point in this show. The arc would center around Kara learning to communicate with Clark and bonding to eventually tell him what happened back at Krypton

Just put me in the fucking writer room already tf

#my adventures with superman #being a 15 yo is already a hellish experience imagine waking up in another planet after yours just imploded #finding out you've been hibernating for the past 22 years so you're technically and adult that has to go through puberty #and on top of that you suddenly get godlike powers #clark was a chill dude and he was ripping door handles off of doors after 15 years of having to deal with his powers #hell is a teenage girl #and her name is kara zor el #clark kent #kara zor el #maws spoilers

[green-tea-lemonade]

C r o m c h

#art #digital art #procreate #homestuck #solnep #sollux captor #nepeta leijon #sometimes your brain wants you to eat random shit and you have to give in #is that such a crime sollux??? #he would do the cat owner thing of trying to trap her down and pry her mouth open because he is not dealing with a fucking mess after #that or maybe let her deal with her stupid actions and curl up on a bathroom floor in pain #but even while she's dying on the floor he's chilling next to her with his phone for support #he gives her shit about it for approximately five minutes before genuinely asking if she's okay #then they chill out together in the tub for three hours watching stupid videos #yes she's dumb yes he's dumb for loving this dummy and no he doesn't understand why #but he's been in so long he doesn't question much past this point

[lesbianredhoodedmercenary]

so about the new ishmael ego

I like her. I could say more but that would be another post. Look at the background. This part specifically.

There's a private beach roped off here. It looks pristine compared to the polluted waters Ishmael's boat is in. Hell, the water is green over here.

Makes me wonder if sections of the lake are roped off for nest-dwellers only. And these beaches are kept clean, meanwhile on the other side of the ropes, the beach seems to be an industrial waste dumping ground.

#limbus company #i live near the great lakes so in the summer we'd go to lake michigan a lot and. the people who own private beaches do rope them off. #and would also dump their trash on the public beach #and even when they put trash cans on the beach the people who had private beaches would dump so much that they'd usually be overflowing #IF YOU'RE RICH ENOUGH TO OWN A PRIVATE BEACH USE YOUR OWN TRASH CAN #especially if you're going to yell at any children who go a foot past your fucking “private property no trespassing” sign #i harbor a great deal of spite for people who own beach houses or lake houses #like yeah i bet you have a second house that you never shut up about. i get it you have money. #... i think these random unrelated rambles in the tags are just a feature of my original posts now

[bookwyrminspiration]

routine there's another account reposting kotlc fanart on pintrest post, including several artists and recent pieces from tumblr and ig. some of the art has credit in the descriptions, but several have "credit to the artist."

there are at least a couple accounts reposted despite no repost policies (e.g. @crescentpaws @tw-5), and there may be more; i don't have everyone's policies memorized.

don't be mean, people make mistakes and I doubt KeeperS is doing it maliciously, but fanartists you may want to double check for your work if that matters to you

#kotlc #kotlc fandom #and by recent i mean like. within the past few weeks #not all of it is. but it caught my attention #anyway. this is not meant to witch hunt or dogpile her #it's just a hey! your art might have been reposted! if that matters to you so you can deal with it! #nothing hostile on my end i want to be very clear

[novemberthee5th]

i miss destiel like so fucking much :(

#everything seems weird lately and maybe it's the i-am-almost-30 crisis i've been struggling with the past year #and all the shit i've had to deal with the past 2 years #like idk i miss spn and getting excited over cons and promos and new stuff and destiel and everything else :( #i'm just thinking out loud again #shut your mouth maria

[angelsdean]

thinking abt plot points for my divorce arc fic and just. the deliciousness of dean and cas in a Situation where they definitely need to work together and cas's first thought immediately is, "how can i go off on my own and fix this problem for us" and dean catching him getting ready to take off (without telling anyone!!!!) like !! are u fucking serious rn. like yea yea "i left but you didn't stop me" ok ok but what about, "you keep leaving over and over which sends the message that you don't really want to be here" (even if that's not the intended message) and he's just honoring your (percieved) wishes by letting you go, even if it kills him inside to see you leave (again. and again. and again.)

#the crux of divorce arc imo is that. dean actually did want to work things out but. he was dealing w/ so many unprocessed emotions #from mary's death to losing jack to finding out chuck had been /controlling their whole lives/ #like the guy just needed some space to process. and then cas decides to LEAVE. again. #and that pressed at the bruise that is dean's abandonment issues. but he also is just. Not going to ask him to stay #if he thinks this is what cas really wants #and so he's hurt by realizing cas wants to leave (that's not what cas Really Wants either) so he protects his soft underbelly in that momen #lets himself harden and get angry and be like fine if that's what you want go #and the tragedy of it all is the miscommunication. dean wanting cas so desperately to stay (of course i wanted you to stay!!) #and work things out. and cas so desperately wanting to be /asked/ to stay. wanting to get past this. #dean thinks cas really wants to leave / doesn't care to stick around. cas thinks dean doesn't care enough anymore to ask him to stay. #and they're both wrong your honor !!!! #divorce arc #cas in the wind #of course i wanted you to stay

[planet4546b]

i love shadowkeep so so much. you help eris deal with her phantoms over the course of weeks by resurrecting the memory of the people she loved and reminding her why she loved them in life, helping her come to terms with their loss, the nightmares vanish. you deal with the young wolf’s nightmares by killing them as violently as possible and it doesn’t work. they are literally still to this day on the moon. and it incentivizes you to continue killing them over and over by giving you weapons as a result so you can kill then better. like they are so close to saying something incredibly compelling and i have no idea if they even know it

#pers #227 #saw the sentiment floating around that in haunted the yw didn’t need to deal with their nightmare bc they already didn in shadowkeep #and respectfully that is objectively false. i could go fight zydron right now. there is nothing we’ve dealt with less #it’s just so fascinating. like it’s RIGHT THERE and it’s so clear #and in the first expansion where we see the pyramids too!!!! augh #what if your past grief was so large it manifested an entirely new place that to this day hasn’t left Do you know what i mean.

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

honestly wally is stronger than atlas. if i had to constantly calibrate to the nature of my reality w/ full consciousness i would simply lose my fucking mind

#like babies dont Think while they learn how to exist #imagine straight up spawning fully aware and then everyone else is up to speed but youre standing there like #🧍‍♂️uh. hello. what is everything. what is this. huh???? #LIKE???? i feel so bad for him. dude got dropped right into the middle of the ocean and was told 'learn to swim' #and hes trying. but he doesnt know what drowning is so he cant sink either #i mean i get it at least a little bit! its the Autism Experience but w/ him the dial is cranked up to a thousand #you dont know what you dont know but life goes on like you should. fuck #wally i am mentally beaming you a thousand apples grown in the shape of hearts #i believe in you dude you'll figure it out #well. im probably beaming apples into the past if the time discrepancy is real but yk yk #cause if it is then Current Wally probably has a solid handle on things. from a basic standpoint #in a wider lens i am led to believe that he is Scrabbling #is this speculation??? #i think it counts. #wh speculation #homebogging #whenever i think about the tidbits we know - ex: wally learning about differences in size #internally i start howling. wally is just constantly dealing with things that would drive a person insane if they had to live it #how is he not Exhausted... it's all so much for someone who knows whats going on let alone someone scrambling to catch up #at least the other neighbors dont have to deal with memorizing physics and skills and behavior #and just Literally Everything That Comes With Being Alive #wally is a blank slate left to write itself. #ough. damn. fuck. i think i need to go stare into the woods for a bit...

[liquidstar]

the goddamn show came out

#no actual hate tbf i dont think its BAD but. very annoying on a personal level if youre greek sorry 💀 #i think the past couple weeks have been horrible for a lot of reasons and i do not have the energy to like #be reminded of dull takes on our mythos every 3 seconds esp when they hardly even acknowledge greece exists its just fandom blorbo shit #its annoyingggg its annoying i dont wanna see it i want it Gone #i actually think pj itself is a pretty middling example of this though. again its not bad esp compared to like booktok shit #a lot of it is often the /fandom/ but even still i find it annoying #at the very least the show does have jason mantzoukas which is more than the books did w like. acknowledging greece lol #to be clear tho i dont think all the characters have to be greek or played by greek ppl i think its cool to have a diverse cast play gods #and their kids and whatnot. its mostly just abt like somekinda nod to where youre taking it from i guess? acknowledging the culture #that still exists! in the books they go to fucking italy ffs whats the deal #basically i have complaints and find it annoying bc it doesnt care about greece like most things about.... greek mythos #so im not excited to see it all over my dash i just think its very annoying personally sorry #ppl can still like it and have fun with it idc abt that but doesnt mean i have to like it either 🤷‍♂️ #ergo. blacklist my best friend do your thing and get it away from me. and we will all be at peace again

[porschesbabydaddy]

I see your “MacauChay besties agenda” and I raise you “MacauChay as worst enemies with a perma-grudge that absolutely no one understands”

#kinnporsche #Vegas and Porsche move past the whole ‘trying to kill each other and stealing your birthright’ thing within a week #meanwhile Macau and Chay can’t be in the same room without nearly starting world war three #the insults are as vicious and creative as they are baffling #at this point everyone is scared to ask what their deal is

[moonchild-in-blue]

Oh.

#according to facebook memories (why do i even have that still??) 12 years ago today i saw Linkin Park for the first time 🥺 #in a few days it'll be 10 years since the last time i saw them #and. hm. there's a lot that surfaced this days since clancy dropped and i'm a bit more emotional / sensitive than usual #and this is. well. making me extremely sad. #12 years ago. i remember as if it was yesterday. i cling to that day so much and i'm scared of forgetting about it #i wonder how 14 yo me would've reacted if she knew. #they were my first gig ever! i remember the 2nd song was given up and the people around us started moshing pretty hard. #so much that my shoe came off and my dad had to shield me while i crawled and looked for it hahaha #it was so fun! i didn't really know that was a thing #that day was the first time they played Lies Greed Misery - it had been released just the day before #my videos are SO blurry but i still have them all saved 🥹 #idk i've been in some typa mood these past days. not necessarily bad at all but. #me and a couple friends had a very important conversation 2 nights ago which was GOOD but. the bad thing about letting everything bottle up #is that once you spill it's hard to deal with. and yeah this is. idk. i'm just venting here like. ignore me. #it's just really hard for me. i miss him terribly and i'm really scared for myself because i *know* i'm back in the loop #and it feels so hopeless sometimes. maybe this is super silly but i'm so thankful that Clancy came out now because OH BOY i need it #maybe it's not the best strategy to put so much faith? importance? in like. music and other people but #man. i genuinely don't know if i'd be here if not for certain songs/artists etc #idk I'm rambling lol. i might delete this later #probably. maybe. i try not to talk too much about this here because i tend to deal alone but. sometimes it's nice to send things to the void #anyways. support your favs. talk to your friends - even if you much rather not. don't be like me and let things rot inside. #🤍 #darya talks to herself