#cheist im drunk

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#i knowwww im complaining too much on the internet again but like #my knees / hips jus seized up today at work & it was terrifying . & i am so scared #i managed the rest of the night but jesus fucking cheist #i need to take time to rest and not kill myselfn but classes start in 4 days & i need both my jobs & i just . Fuck bro #what the hell am i supposed to do #pegasus speaks #i'm so fuckinf drunk which is absolutely not the right thing to do & will probably make everything worse tomorrow #but i just can't right now . i juet cannot #all the Helpful Tips for coping w chronic illness r like 'reduce stress :-) eat healthy :-) do exercise' which becomes such a catch-22 #bc i don't have the fucking energy or money to cook heslthy things. & i don't have the time or energy to do proper exercise . & my job & sch #school is evidently stressful but i fucking need it to make money and survive #so i'm just ???? digging myself into a capitalism-sponsored hole ???? forever ??????? i'm gonnafucking kill somebody #ask to tag whatever #illnessposting 🥴

[paranoia-throwaway]

litterALLY in teaERS  watc hing tism greg music video. how did i not find thius before. godf I love them so much I wish i could meet thyem

#cheist im drunk #srsly there like a ruder david byren #why dop i feel so mcubh connection to them #maybe theyre autists of my subtype #(autisms who got intoriduced to parties and drugs)