#cause im convinced the moment my head touches a pillow I'll die

[hatsalad]

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#ive having a really had time rn and i think its because i dozed off and that falling thing happened #you know where youre falling asleep but your heart rate drops too quickly giving you that falling sensation #well i think that happened but then immediately after jerking awake i noticed my chest feeling weird and now im trying to calm down #from the thoughts of “im dying im dead” cause i read the post about how the feeling you get from heart attacks and anxiety are different #cause your body knows for a fact that its gonna die so it doesnt even bother making you panicked.... #so of course my panic is trying to convince me that the weird feeling is that #and it doesnt help that i have really bad anxiety around sleeping anyway cause if i feel any unusual pain or feeling #im convinced that im dying and if i fall asleep then I'll die so obviously i then don't asleep all night #even just a weird headache triggers this cause my head is just like “its an oncoming brain hemorrhage. its the tumor” #and so that falling feeling and my chest feeling weird have really set a bad one on me and now i cant even bring myself to lie down #cause im convinced the moment my head touches a pillow I'll die #haha so fun i have work jesus christ #me