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[castielsparkle]

hey. dont say such things about me and my alleged activities.

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[castielsparkle]

literally when i was like 5 in the passenger seat of my memas truck and shed try to explain jesus omnipotency to me or whatever my autistic ass would be like hes Literally here are u fucking for serious rn. and id like imagine jesus in the backseat but he was also five like me . (jesus - he's just like us!) but he had a full beard. complete wirh robe and sandals and crown of thorns. but he was five and in the backseat of my memas truck . id also pray and tell him to NOT look at me when i pooped and then id come back out of the bathroom and be like Hey jesus dude im done pooping Lets go watch big time rush

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[castielsparkle]

fucking crying sobbing over. isaacs response to seeing my legal state ID image

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[castielsparkle]

I'm so jealous of your dad I got my mom into supernatural and obsessed with cas but she was soo confused when I even mentioned there being gay undertones. And she thinks dean's annoying 😕

/!!3?2$2; that is so crazy to me because . well. ok let me explain. my mom personally is evil and insane and when i was like 12 i would tell her about youtuber rpf and like. she is actively homophobic however she was a legit truther about youtube rpf ships which is. an entire thing. not an rpf guy btw need this to be known . not a fan. not about it whatsoever. actively disdain for it. Moving on. she still talks abt that stuff to this day. unprompted. despite being lgbtphobic love and light. MOVING ON. my dad literally like..... We did Not ask him to fucking do this . he started watching spn and anytime its on tv around him he starts going off about his gay dean truthing and how like. he doesnt subscribe to him being bi hes of the belief dean is a gay man. he also vibes with dean beinng a trans dude. he will make a comment about this at any opportunity . dean scene where hes like 'my boobs are real' cue my father unprompted immediately talking abt top surgery dean . hes insane. he says he is quote 'indifferent' abt trans dean headcanon. he says hes also quote 'indifferent' abt gay and bi dean however he 'sure does act gay with cas' which . is really fucking funny to me bc he put on a destiel compilation on youtube (?? did not fucking ask him to . i wanted to watch the 'deans gay thing' scene) and then it ended up being him critiquing fan compilations of deans behaviors and he even starts bringing up like . 'remember that time he looked at that guys ass in like the 50s' or whatever. like to prove there were better portrayals of dean being gay than in the destiel fan compilations on yourube. my god. he said yesterday separately to both me and my older brother about how he (my dad not dean) is like if gay was a gender and not a sexuality. not unpacking all that rn. but he said it to me when we were watching destiel compilation he put on and he had my older brother back him up abt how he said it earlier GSHJF. i dont remember whrte i was going w this. oh yeah. further context i am his only bio child ever . my older brother is found family we met like five years ago and he moved in w us at the end of last yr. bc dad offered. and before that he offered to move in my other bestie who i went to hs with who ive known for approx four years now and like . we are all trans guys btw. he offered to pay for our t if we set up ghe shit w insurance (this is happening rn i literally got my first t shot yday‼️) ANYWAYS.... all of this to say. my dad is always saying shit about jow destiel are gay or whatever. hes insane. no clue why. he insisted that like Yeah No its not even undertones is so blatant and overt that hes gay . he will say stuff like 'im not a fangirl i dont have headcanons' (insane sentence to hear btw) if u ask him directly abt it when were not watching spn bc it 'stays reserved for when were watching the show' but also like he will just. he. will say things. so much.

edit requests my dad has given me courtesy of my roomie from when they watch spn. in the car on the way to the store tonight he (my father) told me ANOTHWR idea he had which was when cas tried to speak to dean in lazrising and shatters all the glass and shit and hes like . quote. itd be a meme with the caption like 'autistic me not being able to control the volume of my voice.' which yeah. fire image idea. love it. he just says shit. hes always talking about how gay dean is and how detiel is real sorry i know this sounds like fucking down with cis bus and oppa homeless stylw and ahit i literally promise u im being so fucking for real. the first con i ever went to my dad took me and he dressed as naruto bc he doesnt 'kin' naruto but he says if he did kin it wouldbe naruto and pinkie pie . he also is obsessed w weird al. he knows rhat pinkie pie and weird al are married and have a child. he makes. interesting comments abt it when he talks abt how he would kin pinkie pie if he had to kin a my little pony. sorry this got way off the fucking rails. he also twitch streams twice a week. ive never watched sherlock but he did back in the day when it was popular. we also both watched doctor who together. sorry this got so divorced from ur ask anon my dad also got divorced he loves divorce. okay im so sorry im done now . also he says that sam is annoying sometimes

WDIT: SO FUCKING SORRY i forgot to add my dad said he quote 'kind of' would endorse this compilation . https://youtu.be/4McX1GUE3K8 he felt fairly positive about it.

#cas.ask #cas.abt #dad tag #sorry ths is lirerallg #im not rereading all that shit i thped again #im so sorry

[castielsparkle]

me ro and zo getting called the 'winchester derangement syndrome three meal course' is actually the funniest fucking thing ever AHSJSJJF

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[castielsparkle]

thinking about the time in my life when i couldnt fall asleep unless i had this almost 10 minute long youtube compilation of all of the fnaf vr: help wanted animations playing on my tv

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[castielsparkle]

#cas.txt #cas.poll #cas.abt #hyperspecific poll #polls #poll #i doubt . people will relate LOL but hi

[castielsparkle]

supernatural fan sun jerma fan rising and mlp fan moon

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[castielsparkle]

YOUR BRAND IS OOKAY. FERAL DOGS. ALIENS. MPL. THERE'S PROBABLY MORE BUT THOSE ARE THE THINGS I SEE AND IM LIKE. OUAGH DEXCORE

DOING THIS RN^ YELLING BLOWING UPPPP I LOVE U SO MYCH FOREVR ISAAC MY BFF IFUFUHHSJAHD OHHG... CRYING SOBBING WHEHE THANK U THANK U THANK UUUU

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[castielsparkle]

just got really really weirdly emotional on accident over the fact that i grew up w my mom who didnt allow contact or knowledge abt my dad unless she was like. telling lies abt him. but moving on from that. i have always been so so passionate abt art for as long as i can remember. i had so many how to draw horses and how to draw cats books etc and i can still draw that stuff like. back of my hand level knowledge yknow. and i remember i entered art contests at my school even from elementary and! i would even win trophies! in elementary! and in high school i ended up making it into the national art honors society my freshman year! art has been my life for so long. my mom described me frequently as someone who 'drew since they knew how to pick up a pencil' as did my maternal grandmother and! the reason that makes me So Emotional is because my mom absolutely was not an artist, nor my grandma, ever, and they would note this frequently. a lot of "i cant even draw a straight line!" comments and the like. however. oh my GOD does my paternal line have...artist after artist after artist as far back as i can have evidence for! landscapes, video game art, fanart, anatomical drawings, like. man. its so weird looking at art my paternal family made. in a great way!! it feels like a puzzle piece sliding into place. its very cool. i can see remnants of MY style in art of artists that i had never ever seen until like...two years ago. that was made decades before i was even a concept!! and its like. wow.! i do that! holy shit!!!!! idk. getting emotional about the fact that i ended up so much like my dad despite being kept away from him. so extremely happy to live with him now. very cool. i love drawing with my dad and showing my art to him and recently he got a notebook and started drawing again too. :'}

#cas.txt #cas.abt #not my usual posts im having fun using this as a diary for a second but. man #very cool<3

[castielsparkle]

image of me posted to my moms myspace when it was still up, as a kid having the time of my life with my little deadpan autism stare (was genuinely thrilled to play around as a cat on the ground) and then a youtube comment i left around that time also. webweave i guess

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[castielsparkle]

hehe tagged by @hellverse to post 8 shows to get to know me better!<3 (posting here bc the thread got super long :"])

1. dexter (yes this includes new blood aha)

2. the x-files (ive done my fair share of scully cosplays as well!!!)

3. z nation (guilty pleasure cheesy show 😭 its actually where i initially know dj qualls as an actor from also :')!!)

4. jane the virgin (i was watching it when it was airing still, i have yet to catch up on the ending but 😭!!!! love love love this show)

5. kingdom (i first watched this back when lockdown first started lol - instant favorite though!!)

6. fargo (been meaning to rewatch this as well, i watched it a loong time ago lol)

7. atlanta (unfortunately i havent been able to finish this as well, but when i did watch it i remember it being amazing!)

8. the end of the f***ing world (i remember somehow obtaining a red hawaiian shirt when this show came out right after i watched it the first time lol)

thank u so so much for the tag!!!! it was hard to pick just 8 so i tried to pick the ones that stuck out to me the most throughout my life after i watched them :") whoever wants to do it feel free to @ me on ur own post or reblog and do ur own!!!!<3

#cas.txt #cas.abt #tagged for me #teotfw #the end of the fucking world #the end of the f***ing world #<- for blocklist #was literally like . pulling teeth trying to decide which shows Not to Put 😭 #the only reason spn. mlp. and shameless arent on here is Bc i feel like i already talk abt them a lot so i tried adding stuff i didnt blog #about a lot!! #oh god also bojack horseman but i fear with the #like. tiktok wave of fans. im apprehensive to add it #not that i am a guy whos like eww new fans bc thats silly and stupid #i lovee when media gets the recognition it deserves #but people misinterpret that show a lot it makes me nervous 😭 #ANYWAYS #thank u again ahh!!! #edit: oh god it also killed me to not put like. chewing gum. but i havent watched that in soo long i do not #remember it #and unbreakable kimmy schmidt #and kims convenience #arghhsdhba #AND. breaking bad #there was another but its escaping my mind rn 😭💙

[castielsparkle]

hey, do you have a favourite/comfort supernatural episode?

HI!!! okay so 1) i am super indecisive 2) it is very mood based for me BUT! when i was feeling unwell a couple days ago i immediately jumped to the eps with cas' steve arc and . tbh i only watch the parts w cas steve LOL also the list is a bit old but at the moment heres my notesapp vers of this!!:

some of them r listed twice i think and again this list is super out of date but 😭 as follows:

3x11

3x03

5x08

6x15

3x13

2x15

13x16

6x18

7x14

4x06

9x01

1x06

13x06

12x11

8x11

14x04

4x17

5x14

5x11

7x06

9x03

2x15 again 😭

6x09

5x12

4x05

14x15

9x01 again as well 😭😭

again these r all very mood based but !!!! i do love playing watch spn toys when i feel unwell hehe<3 also tbh 99% of the time i will just go on youtube and rewatch the sam destiel or cas silly compilations 🫡😭 ty anon hehe!!!

#cas.ask #cas.abt #hope this answers ur question eee #i can elaborate more if needed

[castielsparkle]

emetophobia warning anyways. this morning i saw a spider die and i got so upset i almost threw up i was like inconsolable i had to go lay down because i got so dizzy and my roommate had to go hold a funeral outside so it could go to spider heaven and they texted me when they got done and then i went to bed because i felt safe again.

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[castielsparkle]

5, 12, 15, 64 for weird ask :))

omg hi thank u so much!!! :D

5. do you prefer to drink soda from soda cans, soda bottles, plastic cups or glass cups?

i prefer soda cans!! although on the rare occasional treat i like drinking coke from those glass bottles they come in, as a kid that was a special little event for me to get one so :) i used to collect them for a bit too!

12. name of your favorite playlist?

i actually have a few!! they are. not named very categorically LOL,, not really named at all but. "AAAAAA" is. my 2010s pop playlist. "they made sex real PART 2" is my favorite alex g songs playlist. and "this is screaming!" is my 2000s-2010s emo playlist (which also contains some ska and other stuff Lol) ^_^ the names r a little silly hehe

15. favorite book you read as a school assignment?

oh man! so like, i barely vaguely remember these so i had to search them up - but! - there will come soft rains by ray bradbury, and lamb to the slaughter by roald dahl! i also seem to remember one about like, children(?) staying at a hotel in the 1800s or 1900s or so, and i remember there being like...an oil lamp and perhaps a horse but besides that not much else. 😭 i can't really remember the stories honestly besides a general vague plot and maybe some major events, but, i remember there will come soft rains got to me a bit, i remember a dog passes away in that one. its also just. generally depressing and bleak. lamb to the slaughter on the other hand was kind of a girlboss tale not gonna lie. iirc lol. anyways! those stories both stuck with me in some regard :+)!

64. favorite website from your childhood?

AHHH OMG,, so hard to pick just one!!!! i absolutely loved all of those like, flash games websites, ESPECIALLY the ones that were primarily horse based and dress-up based! i also was always on webkinz, youtube, animal jam, transformice, howrse, and later deviantart as well!! and apparently as early as 11 days after my 10th birthday i was on tumblr LOL?? so theres that i guess 😭 but anyways! i love those websites so much and they were. so integral To Me that i. have this for mlp games and general flash games:

as well as these!:

i also have the apps on my phone :P including howrse! but i can still play howrse in browser lol :D

if i had to pick one as my favorite though, i'd say either animal jam or webkinz was HUGE for my development lol, very very special to me forever and ever<3

thank you again so so much for the asks!!! ^_^

ask meme post + if anyones interested, feel free to send more!!

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[castielsparkle]

the ppl on the covers of my like top spotify mixes or whatever rn are tyler, the creator, tv girl, bmth, machine girl, molchat doma, calvin harris, mgmt, alex g, ariana grande, and mcr. huh.

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