#buut 1. that may be a bad message and 2. i dont want to get rid of this character because i love them and i want them to have a healing arc

[bee-ina-boat]

idk if this is an autistic thing or whatever but oh my god why is writing so HARd? like, im afraid of constantly implying things other than what they mean

"does this sound like im demonizing mental illness?"

"what if this makes it seem like i think the answer to struggling with mental health is suicide?"

"what if this relationship comes off as toxic,"

"does this seem like x character is trying to fix y? what if it reads like x is being manipulated to try and help y?"

"did i accidentally give x a savior complex?"

"does y come off as an abuser just because they did bad things out of desperation? what if giving y a happy ending ends up feeling like abuser sympathizing?"

"how do i make y's character arc without it feeling like they suddenly realized something obvious and were fixed magically"

writing is hard

#ok context #y is being consumed by a godlike power that is overwhelming their mind to the point they have trouble controlling it #its like being stuck in perpetual overstimulation with frequent meltdowns and since they have god powers that can cause alot of damage #x was friends with y but then shit happens and x decides they want y to go away but y doesnt know how to handle that and instead lashes out #blah blah blah they seperate and plot happens #everyone just thinks y is a brat throwing tantrums for not getting what they want but then x realizes the truth thru some magic shit #more plot #x ends up saving y from losing themselves in the confusing hellscape of their mind #x wants to help y heal but thats hard because no one can fix y's mind they just have to work through it. the end #originally the ending was gonna be x takes away all of y's pain and then y decides they want to reincarnate to get another chance at a life #buut 1. that may be a bad message and 2. i dont want to get rid of this character because i love them and i want them to have a healing arc #but i also dont want it to seem like x has a savior complex and is gonna magically fix y #and also y literally had a bad codependency with x before their friendship got ruined and i feel like this would be bad too? #so i THINK im gonna go for an outcome where x does what they can but still keeps boundaries and encorages y to help themselves more #and y will make more friends and learn how to exist without being in mental anguish all the time #idk maybe some other characters will help and come up with a solution so y doesnt have to deal with chaos in their brain all the time #but anyway do yall UNDERSTAND??? #I FEEL LIKE IM OVERCOMPENSATING AND NOT COMPENSATING ENOUGH AT THE SAME TIME #HOW DO I WRITE NATURALLY AND NOT BE AFRAID OF MISCOMUNICATION #FUCK #.txt #autism #actuallyautistic