#but. i was top n getting straight 9s for two years at gcse

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#tbis isn’t bad i’m just having a crisis #i had a rlly bad cs mock on monday #like. there were three essay qs and i only did one #i forgot what the fuck avid was #acid #and what a technology was #it’s out of 140 n i don’t think i broke 100 #there’s like a scant chance of me maybe getting an A but probably gonna get a B #HFHFJDNDKS READING THAT OVER I KNOW IT SOUNDS DRAMATIC BUT #but. i was top n getting straight 9s for two years at gcse #and all the other mocks i’ve done this year i’ve gotten A*s #so. yk. perspective #anyway. it is entirely my fault i didn’t revise at all until the night before #and like. my friends had timetables n shit and i #didnt. #and i had a meeting w the oxbridge coordinator today ab my application n stuff #and he looked over my grades n stuff over the last couple years and said that i was a rlly strong applicant academically #which like. i got straight 8s and 9s overall revising the night before #i got. A*A*AB revising the night before in the last set of mocks #yk and like . whatever i have this same crisis every single time i’m like ‘i’m terrible at school’ and then a teacher goes ‘you’re smart’ #right bc like . this is gonna sound dumb but if i can do that by coasting and doing jackshit. what happens if i tryhard #anyway. what’s up w u hfhfjdjdks #misc #dot product