#but this is abnormal and I'm worried

[ayakashibackstreet]

Yyyyeah, I definitely gotta replace the thermal compound and do a general cleanup of the inside of my laptop, last summer it definitely did NOT reach 70°C while idling, it didn't even really reach that while I was playing The Sims

#the fans are located in such a way that you gotta take off the heatsink to get to the fans #so I've gotten by these past 4 years just blowing compressed air into what I could manage to reach #but this is abnormal and I'm worried #so #gotta clean that up #found a relatively cheap compound with good reviews #since I'm bleeding money right now #it should be available for pickup tomorrow #we'll see how it goes

[cosmicwhoreo]

.... Okay, so I might have made a ahit oc during my downtime. Based on the idea of "yeah the idea of hat kid being a little space orphan doing a job is sad.... But what if they were separated from their family and needed to get back home instead?"

And what if their worried mother came to the planet they were on, looking for them after they'd JUST LEFT like a month ago?

SOOOOOO HERE'S SUMMER!

I may have gotten carried away with myself on this idea-

#I THOUGHT IT'D BE A FUN IDEA FOR LIKE A FAN SEQUEL OKAY?? #Just a worried mom looking for their little gremlin of a kid while said kid's friends are still processing them being gone- #Getting progressively more and more angry the longer she's stuck on the planet with these bozos and not finding her child #I don't got any programming knowledge so this idea's staying an idea for the rest of time #I... I have more of her #she's a good mom #Summer #ahit #a hat in time #a hat in time oc #Hat Mom #I SWEAR I'M FINISHING COMMISSIONS JUST LET ME BE ABNORMAL OKAY?

[elkkiel]

.

got brave and shared sleep token with my dad, ya know, because it's important to me and he likes looking for new music. immediately comes home after listening to tmbte on his commute + goes off on how it's neat on a surface level listen, but it's actually super cheesy and inauthentic when you look into it/fundamentally fails at what they claim they want to do with the music and artistic approach to the story they want to tell. Just overall very very critical, esp after I shared why I like them a lot (emotional connection from my own mental health + abuse, etc.) so that kind of sucked

smh my head dude can't have shit in Detroit

(I am never sharing a hyperfixation again lmao I can't do this shit, the rsd is coming in with a steel chair and I'm just trying not to cry because it feels really fuckin dumb to be so upset, but that's the funky thing about rsd lol)

#idk everyone can have their own opinions and if that's your interpretation that's chill #but like i dont think he gets that shit kind of hurts a little since im very attached to it #i'm super high masking and i very rarely share the things im hfx'd on because it's Weird and Abnormal #and my interests tend to be “darker” esp for a christian (ex. horror/supernatural/a degree of occult/torture and other things) #so the times i do share things i get really worried bc its usually been criticised #just sucks to have those anxieties affirmed whenever i try to overcome them #rant over lol sorry just had to get it out #elkk.txt

[kiwikiwiandkiwi]

i finally understand my mom being worried sick about my well-being when i don’t reply to her because i NEED to know how louis is right now. is he in pain? is he comfortable? is he worried? is he going to need surgery? is he ok???????????? 

#i literally can't stop thinking about him #not that that's abnormal #but i'm just worried!!!!!!

[emile-hides]

Hello Romantic Killer tag I am back I finished the show Riri’s still on Thin Fucking Ice but I will concede it was worth the watch and I am looking forward to a season two if it gets one

#Now everyone go watch Mushi-shi on Crunchyroll #Still squeezing Riri like a stress ball with the kinda strength that makes you worry I'm going to pop it #Love when a RomCom does something more serious personally I like a dark anime and I'm punting Riri in to the sun still #But now it's in more a Blorbo way like how everyone treats Spamton G. Spamton #And also in a full of rage way still #Pull their cheeks noogie their head push them down the stairs #I do not like them I do not like them I will not think about liking them #Junta is perfection the most perfect character and I love him #Am I going to track down if there's a manga and read it if I can find it? #no. #I am going to rewatch Mushi-Shi on Crunchyroll because it has all but the Movie and one OVA and be abnormal about that instead #Before I love hate my way into self shipping with Riri INSTEAD OF JUNTA WHO IS THE CORRECT CHOICE #BRAIN. #Anyway I apologize for my previous post making it into main tags normally when I swear in tags Tumblr hides the post #Apparently we don't do that anymore #I liked the show I promise it was stupid and funny I want to punt Riri and I Do Not Like Them #Romantic Killer #I actually forgot the fucking fandom tag there's no way this ends up in the main tag now fkjgkdfjgkfjkgdfjk I'm so dumb

[x-adoringvoid-x]

Part 16

That's it, I'm getting a divorce

#self shipping #oc f/o #brixcomic #this here is the real nightmare #I had a teacher do this to me once #showed them a drawing on my phone and unprompted she started swiping through my phone #why would you ever? it was just oc drawings but still. let me decide. #I love Hadri but they would totally do this #They are nosy and curious and have no sense of what this would feel like #We have different levels of shame too and mine just happens to be abnormal #Speaking of which I'm feeling some sense of burnout with this #I'm not stopping but I just wish I could feel consistently happy about it #I'd draw something else but I take so long to think up good poses and stuff so I feel worried choosing to do that #This feeling shifts around of course. thank you to those who have been liking. I look forward to seeing you - I hope you do too

[markcampbells]

+

#oh good one of those days where reading other people's opinions makes me feel like shit about myself #article where a father is worried about his daughter and mentions not having been kissed until he was 24 #comments are calling him 'socially underdeveloped' 'abnormal' #'he needs to defer to his wife for anything dating related' #i wish people knew more about ace and aro spec and would stop this bullshit #can we just stop equating sex and romance with being an adult or being normal #i'm so fucking tired of feeling like a complete outlier no one wants

[king-of-havoc]

I wish life was as simple as googling "is X normal?" and then it tells you yes or no and elaborates on what to do if the answer is no

#king posts #like ''no but it's fine'' or ''no get fucking help immediately'' #I've been having such a fixation on normalcy recently (if you couldn't fucking tell) #and it's doing number on my mental health (again... if you couldn't tell) #like I don't CARE about being normal #I never really have #but I just want to KNOW if it's normal or not #I want to know if I am being abnormal or not #I don't want to be living like it's normal if it isn't #I want to know what's wrong with me #I want a name for it #I want to know exactly is wrong so I don't have to keep worrying about it #so I can be like ''yeah I'm weird because if X'' #instead of just ''I'm weird and I don't know why'' #I Do Not Like That™ #I need ✨therapy✨ #but I'll never get it -w- #because in order to do that I'd need to tell people in my real life what's wrong #and I would rather die than do that :) #it's a miracle I ever came out as trans tbh

[icewindandboringhorror]

I think the hardest thing in writing for me sometimes is the like “show don’t tell/let people communicate through subtext/Normal People don’t just walk around openly explaining their motivations for everything That’s Unnatural” thing because like.. I literally DO walk around openly explaining my motivations for everything, that is how I talk, I am an analytical detail oriented over-communicator who explains everything as thoroughly as possible and and will give a fully detailed 2 minute long answer to something simple like “how are you doing today?” .. like it’s hard to make things sound Natural and Normal when you yourself are inherently unnatural and abnormal in your methods of communication to an extent lol

#''hey. whats up? you look kind of sad.. is something wrong?'' normal answer (apparently how people are supposed to talk): *looks away #remosefully and stares into the distance* ''n-no.. I'm fine. don't worry about it.'' abnormal answer (how I would respond): ''Yeah I #'m mostly fine. I was just thinking about what the future is going to be like 30 years from now and if I'll ever actually accomplish anythin #g that I want to. which makes me feel X way for XYZ reason. you see because I had a dream last night that made me think of *continues to exp #lain my exact emotional state and inner thought process completely matter of factly in exact detail for 5 more minutes* #tfw you would be a badly written character if you existed in a story lol #This is also why I struggle making conflict because most conflicts can be resolved through conversation and I personally love to have long #detailed conversations about everything. Like literally I don't have hardly any conflicts interpersonally because if something happens it's #immediately followed up with like ''hey sorry if my tone of voice sounded a bit pointed or harsh. when you were talking to me I was trying #to balance all the stuff I was taking up the stairs and also my leg hurts so I think all my mental energy was being used there and I just #didn't feel like talking. I should have just said 'wait a minute and we can discuss it inside' instead of trying to end the conversation qui #ckly in a short rude way.' ''oh yeah thats fine. I thought it was something like that. sorry for hounding you about the topic as well. i #havent eaten in a while so I think I'm just a bit prickly at the moment. we should both rest for a while and destress from the store #trip and then talk about it later. maybe after lunch?' 'sure. sounds good.' like LITERALLY. lol #it is so hard for me to write characters who are bad communicators or don't understand their own internal states or arent constantly #analyzing their own actions to understand what they do/don't feel and why and what the cause of it is and etc. etc. etc. #I just naturally want everyone to perfectly undertsand everything and communicate amazingly and have complete self awareness and #logical presence of mind gjhbj.. which like.. of course comes across as unnatyural and also those type of people rarely ever get involved in #conflict and conflict is APPARENTLY what drives stories (even though I don't like most conflicts and just want to resolve them lol) so ...aa #I mean you can get around this to some degree by the fact that (at least in my opinion) no rule for dialogue is 100%. dialogue is good if it #sounds naturally like it comes from the character who said it. It can be meandering and pointless and rambly IF that matches the character. #it can be dry and overly self aware IF your character is that way and it suits them. So like throwing in a few detached scholar types or lik #e '5000 year old cave dwelling hermit' type people is good for me and works BUT the thing is an ENTIRE cast of characters can't be that way. #at some point - even in a setting where everyone is reserved and academic (like a research camp in the wilderness full of scholars and stuff #) still SOMEBODY has to be the one who's conflict prone and doesn't pristinely understand all of their emotions and etc. etc. Because statis #tically that is still literally the majority. Kind of like my tendency to make everyone 100% aromantic and asexul when it's like.. YES.. may #be 2 or 3 or even 4 out of 10 of them could be that way. but like.. an entire group? a diverse group of 10 people from all walks of life and #EVERY single one is like that??? hgjh . you have to add realistic variety #As much as I'm pro 'have more stories where sex or romance are literally NOT involved at all in any capacity since it's already oversaturate #d in media' I'm also dedicated to realism. alas. (at least as realistic as you can get in a fantasy setting lol)

[melotuzu]

I CAN ONLY KEEP WINNING I AM HASTIE BROTHERS NATION ITSELF

#ren rambles #feeling Very very very normal about that new episode don't even WORRY about it!! #the preview too?! baby kings feat. kaku so still playing himself fhfhdjfj! #i should disclaim i havent been able to watch yet i'm just abnormal all the time sorry

[clarabow-mp3]

.

#btw i have a doctor's appointment tomorrow to get a second opinion on the lump i found in my breast last year so. send good vibes please. #i'm less scared this time bc im pretty sure it's fine but honestly i keep seeing tiktoks of women being told they just had a cyst #and then later finding out that it was um. not a cyst. #so my anxiety is going CRAZY and i just want to make absolutely sure. #nothing's changed all my blood tests have been normal (or not abnormal in That Way yk) and my ultrasound showed nothing #but i worry. this is the mental illness website you get it.

[kakusu-shipping]

My friends in my server are being so strong about this

#Baka and Test #Toshimitsu Kubo #Kubo #girl what the hell is #he... #I'm being so abnormal about him and everyone's just dealing with it thankyou #I'm going to track down a translation of the manga and read it all tonight #this is what happens when I run out of melatonin #This is also what happens when it's August #god it's August #anyone else have uncomfortable amounts of traumatic revival in August? I do. #August and Derby Day weekend are my least favorite times of year for reasons completely unrelated to the time of year #I'm coping don't worry idk why I'm saying words in a Kubo post but like #He is my emotional support just some guy #He is the most Just Some Guy of my emotional support characters actually

[visdiefje]

You know what makes me sad. Because of a post on here, I looked up laugh lines to see what would come up, and literally every result save for one is just. Here is how to get rid of them. Here are your TREATMENT OPTIONS. The only one that was actually positive (it does give tips for them but it starts with this paragraph) is Nivea:

"Embrace your laugh lines!

Growing older is nothing to be ashamed of and wrinkles or smile lines around the mouth and eyes are the result of a life filled with smiles and laughter. They tell a story of the happy times and exciting experiences you've enjoyed - so there's no better time to embrace them so you can age gracefully!

Why do people try to reduce wrinkles around the mouth?

For some women, the onset of aging and fine lines worries them and they look for immediate ways to counteract the aging process. However, by looking at aging from a different perspective, you can start to see the positive elements, such as the beauty of your smile lines. Don't forget that to reach a good age, you have been lucky enough to enjoy a long life so far and had many wonderful experiences. The wrinkles on your face paint a picture of the emotions you've felt and the good times you've had. Each individual laugh line depicts a joyful memory. By adopting a more positive outlook on aging, you can boost your confidence and learn to love your appearance in its natural form."

LIKE... I clicked a few of the others and none of those even added a line of "this isn't actually harmful for you". I know that should be a given but with the way they're talking about it they're acting like this is a grave disorder to be diagnosed with rather than... creases that many people have on their face by default

#I have them also. they're not my favourite thing but I'm learning to be neutral about my face #idk doesn't it ever get tiring diagnosing everything on a human face with ugly fix it #because it sure does get tiring to have every trait of your face treated as an abnormality to get fixed #hey can you look into getting that spot removed? no I don't think it's harmful but you might as well. don't you think? #btw the lines on your face are bad. but don't worry. it doesn't mean anything that I tell you this unprompted #I get it. stop looking at me. augh #bien rambles

[dredshirtroberts]

never doubt the power of the OBX Gender Euphoria Hoodie of Swagness: it doesn't eliminate the sensory issues i've got from the tape on the electrodes but it sure does make me feel less like i want to tear every inch of skin off 10/10 can recommend.

#i put it on and like 8 of the 7 different issues i was having were eliminated immediately #shhh don't look at the numbers it's fine don't worry about it #i'm actively going through an Anxiety Event so bad it made me take a knee when we got home which is yknow unusual #and considering i'm hooked up to a heart monitor today i really kind of need to not be having abnormal heart events actually #i mean i can but like i'm not like... i want it to be indicative of my Usual Daily Activities and i'm just not very active most days #because of the horrors mostly #i'm just not sure if i need to mark every time i'm Super Aware of my heartbeat or not because i don't know if i'm just always too aware #and it's just doing Normal Heart Things or if i'm having a thing and going ''oh yeah that's a normal heart thing i'm sure of it'' #because i don't know the difference! this is very fun (: (smiely face flown upside down to show distress) #if the tape didn't itch so fuckin' bad i would probably forget i was wearing the thing #but alas my own personal hell where my skin is So Sensitive To This One Thing In Particular and it's in all the most sensitive places #for the first time ever though someone actually gave me advice on how to fix it #which is to wash the residual stickies off and then put on anti-itch cream like!!!! #if it works i'm gonna be so ecstatic cause i fuckin' cannot stand that sometimes the bandaid rash is worse than the initial thing #that i put the bandaid on for #anywa stay salty obx hoodie of gender is the best hoodie and i am so glad i spent tourist money for it #well worth the expense for what i'm getting out of the experience

[autumnbell32]

someone please tell me it's ok for me to go to sleep, and that i'm safe...sometimes i feel like i need permission

#cptsd #anxiety #echocardiogram came back with some abnormalities #so i'm worried about that too

[irisintheafterglow]

[bernie sanders voice] i am once again.. thinking about coparenting megumi with boyfriend!satoru.

"so you're both megumi's..."

"guardians," you smile politely, praying stupid shit doesn't leave the mouth of the boy next to you. it's wishful thinking.

"yes," he beams so tenderly that you resist the urge to scrunch your nose in disgust. he takes your clammy hand lightly in his and turns back to megumi's teacher. "we had him young." a soft ow comes from under satoru's breath as you kick him under the table, forcing an expression of normalcy onto your face.

you hated parent-teacher conferences because it reminded you just how abnormal megumi and tsumiki's situation was. they had no parents, nor did they have any close relatives that cared for them the way a family should. that left you and the white-haired idiot in the tiny seat next to you to fill in that duty, and between missions and training students, you weren't around as often as you wanted to be.

"i...see," the teacher says hesitantly, eyeing your boyfriend with obvious unease. after a moment, she regains her composure and refocuses on you completely. "is there anything you wish to discuss before we begin?"

"not for me, no."

"when can we get him bumped up a grade? or have him skip one altogether?" every single word that comes from satoru's mouth is a joke but it still has your face burning with embarrassment that you were associated with him. "you know, i skipped a few grades when i was young."

"i can tell," you whisper and he pinches the flesh of your thigh between two fingers in defiance.

"i believe that skipping grades would be unwise at this time, as we haven't done any testing yet-"

"he was kidding, i swear," you say apologetically and, thankfully, the teacher continues as if on a script.

"i see. well, megumi is progressing wonderfully in the class. he's very adept at reading and writing, but he does struggle with math sometimes. it's nothing to be worried about; many children struggle with math at his age." you nod in understanding but grimace inwardly. megs always wanted you to help him with math homework since satoru became frustrated with the problems faster than the actual 2nd grader.

"for being the strongest, he's not that smart," megumi stated bluntly one night while you helped him on a coffee table in the teacher's lounge. you'd sent satoru on a walk around campus after his distress was clearly bothering megumi, who ended up suffering more from satoru's "help" than benefiting. "you're not around that much anymore to help me so i don't know what to do." his tiny eyebrows furrow and you reach out to run your fingers through his spiky black hair.

"i'm really sorry i'm not around as much anymore. do you want me to ask nanami? he handles math all the time."

"i think that'd be worse than satoru."

"you can't get much worse than satoru, buddy," you concede and his mouth turns up a little bit. nothing like a little insulting his mentor to get the boy's mood improved. still, his frown returns like it's his default expression.

"what if i can't do it? what if i'm not like everyone else?" it made your chest ache in a different way when megumi or his sister said something like that, like they were well aware that they weren't normal children. your heart panged for them and mourned their loss of a "normal" childhood just because they were born into a big three clan. it wasn't fair and it was something you lamented to satoru almost every week. you couldn't tell the boy any of that, though, no matter how much you wanted to explain why he wasn't like the rest of the kids in his class.

"just try your best, okay? sometimes, that's all we can do. you're already doing great by asking for help. it's not your fault if someone doesn't know how to help you, so just keep trying." he nodded determinedly; after another hour past dinnertime, you finally finished walking him through the rest of the problems while satoru draped his lanky body over the couch behind you, watching defeatedly over your shoulder.

"is there anything we can do to help him with math?" you ask, unconsciously weaving your fingers with satoru's and giving it a light squeeze. he squeezes back three times. i-love-you.

"he just needs a little reassurance that he's on the right track sometimes."

"mmm, don't we all," you murmur and you don't expect the teacher to laugh softly under her breath, muttering her agreement. before you know it, you've organized megumi's papers into his folder and picked him up from the playground outside his classroom, taking his hand as you walk back to the car.

"your teacher says you're doing well in class."

"really?"

"mhmm, though i didn't need her to tell me that since i already know." you shoot him a small smile, leaning into satoru's body as his arm wraps around your torso. "you, however, need to learn some manners," you lightheartedly tease, knocking your elbow against his abs. "you were not helping in there, you menace."

"it was boring, what do you want me to do?" his tone is so carefree, so comfortingly satoru it made your heart melt.

"it's a parent-teacher conference, not parents. you could have waited outside if you were so bored. went to play on the playground or something." his head dips close to your ear and you feel some strands of his hair brush against your skin.

"but then i don't get to watch you be all mature and put-together."

"trying to follow my example?"

"trying to break your composure," he corrects with a sly grin. "i'm the fun one, after all."

"that's one way to put it," megumi deadpans without hesitation and you stifle a snort.

"i'm one of a kind!"

"you're out of your mind, is what you are." before he can protest, you press a kiss to his cheek and he turns a slightly opaquer shade of pink. "but i wouldn't have you any other way."

#gojo x you #gojo x reader #gojo x y/n #satoru gojo x reader #satoru gojo x you #satoru gojo x y/n #jjk x reader #jjk x you #jjk x y/n #jjk fluff #jujutsu kaisen x you #jujutsu kaisen x reader #satoru gojo #jujutsu kaisen