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#but really i was just tamping down the symptoms by relying on an OCD crutch of having to hyper control everything
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#been really wondering if ADHD has been my problem all my life
#like i was a very inattentive kid and would act out
#then went through about a 10-year period after my dad left where i 'smartened up'
#but really i was just tamping down the symptoms by relying on an OCD crutch of having to hyper control everything
#and then burnt out around the late 10s
#and since the pandy started it's been a fucking free-for-all like i feel my brain deteriorating
#but i think it's been me finally being able to relax
#and now even the thought of having to get myself organized sends me into a spiral because i know i'll have to end up relying on the same
#crutches again
#it's either just balls to the wall free for all winging session or get my ass in gear stressed 24/7 about missing deadlines nightmare
#either way i can't win
#doesn't help that the crutches are ARFID and it's been getting worse and worse
#and doesn't help that after going vegetarian for a decade i keep getting these terrible intrusive thoughts that my mental decay is due to
#me not getting proper nutrition and that my heart is gonna up and fail
#but tbh i've always been that way sigh
#AND IT DOESN'T HELP THAT MY SO-CALLED 'DOCTOR' FATHER keeps feeding these fears by saying how he failed me and should have been around to
#make sure i ate better
#and that i only have until the age of 25 to fix things before there's IRREVERSIBLE DAMAGE
#wow it's almost like mental illness is hereditary ๐๐๐๐๐๐
#vent
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