#but occassionally. my life will really have a string of incidents SHOVING at me very insistently to go a certain direction

[mejomonster]

I feel distinctly like the universe is planning to shove me in a Particular direction. I dunno what exactly yet but i feel it looming

#rant #i dont believe in fate Or destiny (tho i love hearing other ppls opinions and why) #but occassionally. my life will really have a string of incidents SHOVING at me very insistently to go a certain direction #like when i got sick 3 years ago with gastroparesis and POTS. no matter how much u fight an illness... #it WILL make you stop overworking. or else u will die. thats it. 2 options. only 1 option you survive through #so i was forced to TAKE CARE OF MYSELF and rest more and force myself to overwork less #when i worked 60 hours my galbladder stopped working. to force me to stop overworking #when i was in engineering college full time w 30 hour a week job my brain gave me 5+ daily panic attacks so i #basically had to QUIT overworking in some way if i wanted any decent quality of life that could get the panic attacks to stop. #the universe totalled my fucking car twice in 2023 so inevitably i DID have to lose all my savings #no other choice. i needed a car for work and to go to doctors for chronic illness. i had to buy car. #and now i feel like the universe is slotting things to push me in a career direction. i have a peculiar feeling #like i may be forced to take on new responsibilities (ideally with more pay) #but like its gonna happen whether i choose it or not. its gonna just BE FORCED and #the universe wont give me the option of IF id like to develop those skills. instead it will REQUIRE me to #learn the skills if i intend to stay at the place i am #(so i sure hope it comes w more pay) #but yeah i feel the universe about to kick an Unavoidable Situation with no options except DO or quit soon #things are moving toward unavoidable i can see it in the distance