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sorikkung · 2 years

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Hmmmm, yeah, you're right. As much love and comfort online friends can give, they can't be there for you physically and, sometimes, that's all that we need. But I'm pretty sure that there's some people around you there irl that want to be friends with you and don't know how because you're a very interesting person. At least, I would be your friend if we were colleagues somehow, I like being friends of interesting people...

I can help you, if you want! What do you think is the hardest about making friends? Starting a conversation, keeping it going...? I know a thing or two about being social 😂😂😂😂

TMI time: I'm dressed up like a punk rock winx and I don't want to shower because I feel very much magical

yeah like sometimes a bitch just needs to be Held 😭😭😭 ain't got that in years

ive been mostly working w people twice or three times my age bc i work in warehousing, so im not making any friends there lololol my attempts so far have been at a university club, but i don't go to university, so they all seem like they're a lot closer w each other than they are w me probably cause they see each other all the time on campus and i just... :,) ive managed to make like, two or three friends i talk to regularly, one very recent like as of last week LOL the other two im starting to feel like i annoy them but i don't feel like we're close enough for me to ask if they really enjoy my company or not it's a little awkward but i really can't tell the difference between problems im making up in my head due to past experiences and insecurities vs what's actually in front of me and if history is repeating itself again. i probably need to see a therapist but fuck thats expensive.

the hardest part about making friends... approaching people, honestly. i have a lot of social trauma about groups of people who are already friends and being the newcomer, so it's a lot easier when other people are new With me so we can find a spot in a group together, but... people don't stay new for long at this club probably bc studying together so people who have been there as long as me have made friends w everyone in the club already while im kinda just on the outskirts still. i don't know how to try and befriend people who already have other friends bc my brain just goes, they have friends right there, why would they bother with you? i fear my presence would just be intruding on them. and i know that's just a trauma response but ive never been in a group of pre-established friends that's actually liked me before, so after being burned so many times its understandable why im so fucking scared of it happening again. but these people seem like really cool people and i really wanna be their friend i just really don't know How. at this point im just going to as many events as i can and tryna get everyone's instagrams and just.. idk trying to be friendly without pushing myself into anyone's space and letting them come to me. but when they all have other friends, letting them come to me isn't the most effective approach at actually making friends and not just pleasant acquaintances. man i dunno. im also the only trans person there i know of apart from this one bigender person who gives me really weird vibes for a reason i cannot place so that makes everyone else considerably more intimidating.

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rateelism · 2 years

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Masumi and kazunari!

machu...my sonboo...

fave thing: TAKE NO SHIT KING but also act 5 when he easily listens to his dad...yea <//3 that was SUCH a relatable moment. he acts so high and mighty but once his blood family enters the picture it's so...head in hands. filial piety is a bitch of a culture.

least fave thing: the lack of therapy/his writing but yknow how it is U_U other than that uuuhhh i think he should wear more colors. he is so emo and darkly dressed i feel like i need to shine a flashlight at him to see him properly

fanon peeve: CHRIST WHY ARE YOU PLAYING UP HIS """YAN/DERE""" THING DONT DO THAT !!!! "STOP STOP HE'S ALREADY DEAD!!" shout out to [BLOCKED USER] for this :// luckily it's only like a handful of ppl but MAN (HORSE)

kazu !!!

fave thing: i think his design is fantastic. it's super cool & cute !!! his speech patterns and slang is just like me fr lololol he's like the personification of the valley girl accent

least fave thing: i think they can empathize his big brother-ness more !!! like he is one, we know this, and i think they should do more w it...want him to sit hang w azami or smth and get into some deep convo abt art n make-up together. idk i'm just a sucker for the sibling(-like) characters ig.

fanon peeve: maybe making him too touchy-feely? like ignorant of the other person's feelings. kazu's whole thing b4 was being a people-pleaser, and some ppl aren't pleased with being held onto. like there's annoyance at being caught off-guard from the touch but not mind the touch itself, and then there's Literally Hating Touch. I think Kazu would just be good at knowing when touch is good and when it isn't so it annoys me when someone writes Kazu to do smth he can control that the other chara hates or smth.

#WOAH that kazu peeve was like a whole thing #idk if it even came across all that well lol #little thought many words #long post

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internetremix · 5 years

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What are the crews thoughts on Game of Thrones???

Alex: i don't watch hbo i just go on twitter and get the full experience from 1500 very angry tweets about game of thrones

Kristen: Haha yeeaah these days you don't have to watch the show, you can just get it all via angry tweets and gif sets.

Atwas: Alex's method is the one I subscribe to as well, tbh. Maybe I'll watch the whole thing once it's over. Maybe not.

Kristen: HOOOOOOO I have feelings about Game of Thrones strap the fuck in.

I've been watching it with my dad since like... 2013? Which by the way watching Game of Thrones with your very conservative father is a weird experience and I don't recommend it but we're committed now, but uh anyway.

There's a lot of things I really love about Game of Thrones. I love most of the characters, the production value is amazing, it's beautiful to look at (until it's too dark lololol looking at you Battle of Winterfell), the music is absolutely gorgeous. The opening tbh makes me tear up as soon as the strings hit, it's just a really intense instrumental piece and I could honestly write an essay just about how that song makes me feel and what I feel like it's conveying and I'm a huge nerd.

But the show has had problems since like, season four? There's some real issues with how women are written in it, don't even get me started on how a whole lot of sex scenes magically became nonconsensual that were once noooot like that.And then there's the race issues and uh.... lots of little sloppy things getting sloppier as the seasons have gone on.

The thing that I find most frustrating is the post-books happenings, many of which, in theory, I wanted. But these things feel unearned, so they aren't what they should be. It used to be sometimes entire seasons would go to getting pieces around the board and then suddenly I guess Westeros is pretty fucking small and people can just fucking teleport or whatever. And then of course there's the stuff I didn't want, which is also happening, which feels worse because I'm like "this bad writing wasn't even a shortcut to something that might've been narratively satisfying".We're heading into the finale now and it's honestly kind of amazing just how much the show has absolutely imploded in on itself. I don't expect GoT to end happily, because it's not that kind of show. But I did hope that whatever tragedy or bittersweet victory we got would feel earned, and that's not happening. I was planning on rewatching the show once it was finished but now I don't want to- that's a huge timesink for something that ends up collapsing in on itself.

But at least we got Daenerys with her starbucks cup, which is my new favorite production fuck-up. Amazing.

Bro: Whomst with her what

Alex:

Juno: Oh No

Kristen: She finally got her coffee

Uprising: I heard they kinda totally flipped daenerys' character around from what it was the whole rest of the show and that's kinda sad

Kristen: Yep. They claim there was foreshadowing and like. I can see how they'd claim that? But it wasn't well done. In the end her flip seemingly happened over the course of two episodes for very bad reasons.

Alex: “I am Not Here to Be Queen of the Ashes.”

Tex: I don't watch it so idk what's actually happening

Kristen: Neither do the writers

Alex: Daenerys became Mad Queen because someone gave her a venti for "Dennis"

Kristen: The ultimate "can I speak to your manager" rage

Alex: wait shit, i guess i should have answered this spam email from that one video i did

Kristen: "$20, a ship and my dragons" LMAO Goddamnit Alex WHY DIDN'T YOU GIVE HER $20! THE SEVEN KINGDOMS ARE FUCKING WRECKED AND IT'S ALL YOUR FAULT

Jojo: I like the dragon lady

Kristen: I have some bad news for you.

Jojo: Shh don’t spoil I haven’t watched... any of it

Alex: then i have some more bad news for you, you read this chat

Jojo: D arnit

Kristen: Jojo save yourself, don't do it. As I weep over the opening credits again and eat ice cream.

Phill: I loved every episode I've watched so far. the only problem is that western civilisation now has to deal with the equivalent of an anime going past the manga, and they're pissed.

Xander: RIP to all the parents who named their kids Daenerys

Kristen: Hahahahahaha. Honestly this only makes me want to name my kid Daenerys. I will not do it but man it's tempting. "WHY DID YOU NAME YOUR DAUGHTER AFTER THE MAD QUEEN??" "I have very high expectations."

Alex: "It's a boy!" "he is still daenerys"

Xander: The rumor come out: Kristen names daughter Murder God

Kristen: Please no, my kids can't have my name

Phill: Rumour come out: Kristen is pregnant

Xander: Kristen is pregnant?! STOP THE PRESSES

Kristen: Haha I am not. But I would like kids some day.

Xander: SHE IS PREGNANT

IGNORE THE DENIALS OF THE MOTHER

SHE IS BECOME THE BROOD QUEEN

Kristen: I. Uh.

Alex: is kriscuit pregante

Kristen: Um.

Phill: OH, ITS THE GLORIOUS FIRST STAGE OF PREGANCY: COMPLETE OBLIVIOUSNESS OF THE PREGNANCY

Kristen: Yeah I'm pregnant with multiple hellspawn and I can't wait for my little bundles of bloodlust to burst forth so we can reign hell upon this earth

Alex: so, you know, average friday

Xander: Okay, but you don't have to brag about it. I mean like, you're pregnant, cool. Calm down.

Phill: You know, the American dream

Kristen: Hahahahaha. God that would be great.

"Okay so I've got the names all picked out."

"These are all the names of fictional tyrants."

"And?"

Xander: Caligula Vladislav Trawcynski, get down here RIGHT NOW

Kristen: CALIGULA damn it is a shame Stephen would never go for that one

Xander: Okay but like phuck Stephen because Cal Trawcynski is a bitchin name

Phill: CALIGULA! SMALLER HITER! GREG FROM ACCOUNTING, GET DRESSED OR YOULL BE LATE FOR SCHOOL

Xander: HENRY VIII I SWEAR TO GOD, IF YOU DON'T CLEAN YOUR ROOM.

Uprising: queelag. my first daughters name.

Alex: and like dmp before you, no one but one person will get the reference, and i guess assume queelag is just a normal ass name

Xander: Just name your kid Cal. If Stephen asks what it's short for, respond with "How dare you speak to me."

Xander: Anyway, My daughter will be named Kristen. Kristen Rybitski. Because let's trap that name in pollock town forever.

Kristen: You monster

Xander: Even better: Kristen Trawcynski Rybitski.

Or, in her most advanced form: Kristski Trawczynski Rybitski

Phill: You stop right there

Alex: skiskiskiskiskiskisskiskiski

Kristen: you are a monster

Xander: But to actually answer the tumblr question: It's real bad. I'm not super invested, but ultimately I don't care because HBO is about to get some amazing shows to replace it

Like Watchmen and His Dark Materials

#whole crew #ask the ir crew #this post is a ride #game of thrones #andyces55

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0225pm · 6 years

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04 dec 2017

yooohoo

so it's currently 11:43pm and i'm writing this in the toilet as i poop.

didn't do much today but i met dayah and we went to bedok singpost for awhile in the afternoon cus she had to top up the current for the house. and then we went to bedok mall to have our late lunch. i suggested eating at fish n chicks cus i really wanted to try their hawaiian chicken set but we ended up just having lunch at 18chefs instead cus she didn't really feel like having anything there after looking at the menu. kinda bummed but i guess there's always a next time (hopefully!!). i wanted to have my usual (the tomyum fusilli or the curry rice with beef) but didn't wanna go over my budget of 10 bucks so i just got the cheese baked rice under the student meal which is also my usual when i wanna eat something nice and filling but at the same time still save!! cus their student meal automatically comes with a drink (the standard ice lemon tea) and dessert (ice cream of the day). so for about $10 or less, you practically get a whole meal which to me is really worth it if you feel like having "normal" food instead of fast food all the time.

after our lunch, she had to fill the current up so we went back to her place and i waited for her with the neighborhood cat. super cute, i should have taken a photo so i post it here but i didn't lol. and then she booked an appointment at the doctor's cus of an injury she had during her trip at pulau ubin. damn clumsy af wth. her hands and a side of her face were covered in scars from all the thorns and she has a really bad bruise around her abdomen and bladder area wtf. i fuckig told her to go for an xray since it's such a sensitive area but stubbornly refused zz no matter how many times i advised her to.

but ya anyway while waiting for her appointment, han suddenly called me and asked me if i want to accompany him cut his hair or not today. i said yes!! cus i told him before to bring me if he wants to cut his hair but i can only leave around 7 or so i thought.... cus i actually reached his place around 9 lol. i felt bad just leaving dayah there so i waited till she sees the doctor before i left and took an uber down to han's place. unfortunately, by the time we reached the barbershop it was already 9:15pm and they closed at 9pm so we actually missed it by 15 minutes. sadly.

then han raged like a madman for awhile, kinda like a screaming child throwing a little bit of tantrum (jk lol i love you bb!!!!!!) because he really wanted to get a haircut today. he couldn’t tahan how long and bushy his hair has become cus he felt rimas hahahaha. imo, he can style his hair up a little like what he did last time since his fringe was getting in the way but lol i didn’t really suggest that to him just now cus i don’t think he’ll do it even hahahahha. and then he had a short moment of regret cus he felt that he should have just went ahead and got his hair cut, instead of waiting for me and going together.

after he was done being a madman, we walked towards the mrt because there’s an eatery nearby selling really cheap food, something like ananas. and he bought set A which is nasi lemak. there were pretty much only noodles and other fried food available since the eatery was already preparing to close for the day.

then we walked around, to look for a sitting area at the void deck so he can sit down and eat. honestly, it would have been easier if we just go sit at his block’s void deck, but i was trying to avoid all chances of seeing his mom since i wasn’t properly dressed. the thing about me is that, i like wearing shorts or skirts more than jeans or pants or whatever long bottoms because i feel so restricted covering up all the skin on my legs (lol) but at the same time, i think it is rude for me to show up with a “naked” bottom, especially in front of the older generations. i think most malays (muslims) can relate to this. like tbh, my parents are super okay with me wearing shorts or skirts out but i don’t want to give a bad impression to others you know. and like, i know i should be myself and all but i don’t want to put whatever good (i hope) impression his mom have of me in jeopardy (even tho she already saw me wearing a skort ONCE). and tbh it is hard for me to be super comfortable around his mom cus she seems so traditional. like you cannot have any skinship because it’s haram and all lol whereas for my mom, she’s like super duper ok with skinship (she kept teasing me by saying things like “ooooh later far touch touch here (my thighs)” whenever i wear shorts/skirts out to meet han) but ya like apparently she’s totally fine with skinship. like even when han went over to my aunt’s and then sat beside me, being all chummy and touchy by laying on my thighs, or my shoulders, holding my hand etc, she didn’t even say anything when she saw it. it’s like she’s totally ok and sometimes i feel like she’s even encouraging the skinship actually LOLLLLLLLL istg!!!!

ok ya then we walked around looking for seats, petted some cats (we saw 4 cats!!!) and then finally just decided to walk back towards another block near the mall and found an empty sitting area!!! han ate and then we talked about his work, and other stuff. today was also the day i realised that han doesn’t like jobs that are gaji buta HAHAHAH. he prefers to be doing something on the job rather than just idling away not doing anything. but he also told me that he might not be able to last long at his current workplace due to experience-wise as well as the people there who are not really willing to teach him hands-on. just passing him some paper/manual thingy and asked him to read it instead of using his phone. tbh i find that quite shitty???? it was pretty much mundane at the start of the day until he was given a task to cut boards thingy till the end of his shift. by 1030pm he was already getting really sleepy and tired, i guess his body clock is rewiring itself since it was pretty much fucked during the weekends and then i suggested that i should go home then so he can have an early rest. our meetup was short but honestly it was worthwhile going back and forth just to see him even if there wasn’t any skinship involved. and i’m not sure if he feels the same way but to me, just being around him makes me happy tbvh. like we don’t even have to be looking at each other or whatever, but his presence makes me feel like i’m not alone. i’m not talking about companionship but like you know the feeling of being able to share someone’s joys and pains. ya it’s that kind of feeling. i don’t think i explained it very well but i think you somewhat get the gist of it. then he wanted to book a grab home for me even though i said it was ok and i can just take the train cus it was only about 1030pm anyway and there’s still trains available probably up to 11+ even!! i told him to save his money (cus he got his pay of 3 days! the company damn good sia i thought usually most companies will bring forward the extras to the next month) but he stubbornly refused and still wanted to book a grab home for me so i gave in and since i haven’t had dinner, i told him that i wanna singgah 7-11 for awhile to get something to eat.

initially i was looking at getting a tuna onigiri (number 1 fav onigiri filling!!) and then i saw garlic + cheese bread and i really like garlic bread as well even though your breath will stink for abit due to the garlicky flavor but lmao idc and thought of getting both the garlic bread and the onigiri. but then i walked around and saw nissin’s cup noodle which is my second fav brand of cup noodles for tom yum flavor!!!! super love because the soup base is spicy and sour and salty wah damn shiok la but i don’t think it can beat this other brand that i super love but idk the name of the brand cus its in another language lol i think chinese???? but it’s only sold at sheng siong outlets and it costs about 90cents per cup. fucking nice istg it’s the most spiciest tom yum/shrimp flavored cup noodles i have ever tried. if i can find it one day, i’ll remember to snap a photo of it! ok but ya so i ended up getting one cup noodle, the garlic bread and instant tteokbokki. tbh i want to spend all my money on 7-11 HAHAHAHHA i love instant fooooood so unhealthy but so good wth!!!! why do unhealthy food taste so good omg

and then han grabbed my hand and pulled me out of the store cus he knows if we stay there any longer i might make impulse purchases on food haahahahahah

after that he booked a grab for me which i had to share with someone else apparently cus the person was already on the ride. tbh i don’t mind sharing but i don’t really like sitting in the front cus super leceh esp with my bulky bag all then still must put on seatbelt (ya ok i know actually should put on seatbelt at the back also just in case anything happens) but ya then i told han that if there’s only one rider i’m gonna sit at the back je. the grab came and then we quickly kissed and hugged each other goodbyes and yesss lol i sat at the back cus there was only one rider sitting on the left so i decided to just sit on the right instead of the front hahahahahhaha the guy inside was kinda shock that i chose to sit behind i think cus usually second riders would rather sit in the front than with another random passenger at the back but lol idrc. then the driver dropped me off first. i got home around 1130pm, the journey felt so long but yet so fast lololol but by the time i’m home, han already ko HAAHAHAHHA

it’s gonna be another working day for him tomorrow!! second day of the week, 3 more days to go :>

jiayou my sayang hehe i love you!!! <3

#adaywithhan #decemberwithhan #041217

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