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#but i saw. a vauge post from someone i thought was cool and i just. i knew it was directed towards the tags i left on their post
trans-estinien · 1 year
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Sometimes I feel like doing this with my brain
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#its 12 am and i should probably sleep instead of rambling but#man. its rough having your fav blorbo be a fucking terrible person#cause on one hand you have the villain woobifiers and people who just completely ignore major aspects of a character for a fucking ship#and on the other hand you have people who hate you for enjoying a character. and thinking said character is interesting#and yeah yeah i know not everyone will like me and i should just ignore it and keep on doing what i enjoy but. ugh.#and im also constantly worried that ill fuck up and become a villain woobifier myself#and im also constantly worried that when im writing my cannon blorbos ill fuck up and write something super ooc and people will get mad.#i think fandom was a mistake#but i also wouldn'tve met the besties without fandom so? you know. everything's got two sides#this is such a stupid thing to get all upset over but.#unfortunately i am a horrible man enjoyer this has been consistent my entire life.#and people usually dislike people who like your typical tumblr sexyman type character. which is fair most fans are insufferable#veils if you read this far this isnt abt you it's abt someone else. dont want to like start shit so i wont say names#but i saw. a vauge post from someone i thought was cool and i just. i knew it was directed towards the tags i left on their post#and i felt bad so now im having big anxiety over it. its really stupid i know#i am just going to retreat to my corner and hope to creation that im left alone. im just playing dress up with the blorbos#and like. they're entirely allowed to have their opinion im just. brain is convinced everyone hates me now for no fucking reason.#i gotta. work on this but idk how. therapy fucking failed cause i forgot about it 💀#but. i should sleep. its past 9pm so my brain is not to be trusted.#ok fuck it ill just say it i feel guilty that Emet-Selch is not only my favorite character but also my comfort character.#im not going to stop liking him because that wouldn't be fun. plus others opinions dont really matter i can like whatever characters i want
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snowmcid · 5 years
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Meme || No longer accepting (CAUSE THERE ARE NO MORE QUESTIONS TO ASK) || @agirlofwinterfell​
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WoW Britney. 
Questions under the cut. 
What would prevent you from following someone?
Excess drama, reblog karma, vauge-posting, and general aggressiveness are big ones for me, but the main thing is if I like their writing style and if I can see our characters getting along.
Are aesthetics important to you? If they are, why?
Aesthetics are kinda “meh”?? I mean, I like pretty things, but it’s a lot of effort and I’m very lazy.
What current rp trend do you hate?
Over edited icons and tiny dark themes?? That’s just a personal preference because I have poor vision and it’s hard for me see/read. 
How do you explain rp to someone in the real world?
hahaha I don’t. I just say I do collaborative writing as a hobby. 
Do you prefer interacting with male muses or female more? Why?
Female muses. I love male muses, but I’ve been here so long and since I’ve only written female muses, I had to deal with that particular brand of discrimination and so every time I interact with male muses I’m still filled with this sense of anxiety. 
Do you prefer writing male muses or female more? Why?
Female muses, and I guess it’s because that’s what I’m comfortable with??
What’s your opinion on call out posts?
I understand why it might be done, but at the same time I think it’s a bit unfair? No matter how good the intentions are, someone is being branded as this, that or the other thing according to a handful of people on the internet. If that information is wrong, or someone is misled - that causes a lot of heartache for the accused and I would just prefer not to be a part of it. 
Name any three things about the rpc that bother you.
Discrimination
Mob mentality
BRITNEY SENDING ME ALL 38 QUESTIONS (no I’m kidding, ilu)
What is your opinion on exclusivity? Do you practice it? Why / why not?
I get it 100%. I get pretty attached to my partners and sometimes it gets to a point that I have a hard time writing with someone else that writes that particular muse since I already have so much history with my partner, but on the other hand, tumblr is constantly changing. People drop in and out all the time and that’s cool, so I feel like exclusivity is just a temporary thing. 
Have you ever had a bad experience with commissions? As either someone who makes them or as someone who buys them?
Nope. 
What do you know now about rp that you wish you knew when you first started?
While we know that communication is integral to real life relationships, online friendships tend to require more upkeep and more effort at reaching out. 
Have you been involved in drama? Do you regret it?
Possibly? It was private stuff and my name was never brought up.
Have you ever thought about leaving rp? What caused it? What changed your mind?
Nah, not really.
Do you think rp has had a positive or negative affect on your life or you as a person?
I think that it has a positive affect! I’ve met a lot of nice people and it’s a fun hobby. 
How has rp changed you personally?
It’s made me more confident in my skills as a writer and more honest with how I feel about certain subjects. It’s taught me to focus on me and not what the world or internet might think about me. 
If you could change one thing about rp on tumblr, what would it be? Why?
Any of the three things that bother me from above, for obvious reason. 
Have you ever sent a message to yourself on anon? Why?
Nah
Have you ever sent hate to yourself on anon? Why?
Nah
Do you delete anon hate or post and address it? Why?
I delete it, I don’t see a point in reinforcing that sort of behavior? Someone that is sending anon hate is going to be continuously checking your blog to see how you respond. They want that attention, they want the satisfaction of knowing that they hurt you or got to you in some way and nothing is better than frustrating someone that hateful. 
Have you ever felt pressured to write something you weren’t comfortable with?
Yes. 
Have you ever followed someone because you felt like you had to, not because you wanted to?
Nope. Tumblr is a hobby and it’s meant to be enjoyed. 
What would make you block someone?
Rudeness, blatant disregard for my rules, harassment, and drama. 
Have you ever stolen something from someone else?
Not intentionally and not that I’m aware of. This is something that I’m constantly afraid of?? I love duplicates and I often follow/discuss my muses with them and I’m always scared that at some point, I’ll claim that something we’ve spoken about or that I saw around, was my own idea. I tend to avoid metas for this reason and if there is ever something that I do want to make canon for my muse, I always ask first and credit where possible. 
Have you ever had something stolen from you? If so, how did you handle it?
Not that I’m aware of?? 
Are you open to duplicates? Why / why not?
See above.
How do you feel about vague posting?
I think it’s childish. Just talk to the person that you’re having issues with and I just am too tired and too anxious to put up with it. 
Do you follow people even if they don’t follow you back?
Not so much anymore. I tend to do a lot of mobile browsing/blogging and I don’t ever want to push myself into place where I’m not welcome, so by only following mutuals, I save myself a lot of time. 
Do you read people’s rules before following or interacting?
Yes, but I forget them pretty immediately, so I tend to do a refresher before I send memes or write a reply to a thread. 
What is your opinion on “reblog karma” and do you practice it?
No, I can understand how disheartening it can be to reblog memes and not get anything while other users are reblogging things from you, but it’s the internet and everyone is free to do whatever the hell they want so long as it is not exploting/hurting others and I don’t think it’s fair to coerce/force/guilt other users into interacting with someone.
How have you responded to popular slang used on tumblr? Do you use it in every day life? Do you use it at all?
Nah, not really. Vines are the ones that have fucked up my vocabulary. 
Is there something you don’t know the meaning of but you haven’t asked anyone because you think it’s supposed to be general knowledge? Was there ever something you had to ask someone to explain?
I used to be confused about the differences between “private” and “mutuals-only”, but I’ve got it figured out now. 
Have you ever experienced discrimination?
I’ve been writing female muses on tumblr for just over seven years. 
How do you feel about personal blogs following your rp blog?
It’s fine, so long as they don’t reblog threads. 
Have you ever cried while writing a reply?
Ohh yeah. @rcsethcrn​​  is to blame for most of my tears. 
Do you read other people’s threads or do you only read your own?
I read ones that come across my dash, but I don’t really follow them? I’ll read the ones that catch my eye.
What’s one thing that other people seem to hate that doesn’t bother you?
I’m not sure tbh?? There isn’t anything I can think of at the moment. 
How do you feel about tagging triggers? Do you tag them? How do you determine what is triggering content and what isn’t?
I do my best to tag triggers. I think they are valid and given my work/education, I can’t bring myself to leave them off. I try to stick to general terms for things that may be upsetting to others?? I’m not very specific, but I try to go off of what I would find uncomfortable or refer to this mental list of things that are more generally upsetting. 
What advice would you give to someone new to rp?
Be kind to yourself. Don’t let what people say get under you skin, don’t get hung up on who follows you and who doesn’t. Do what is best for you and your mental health. 
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