#but he won’t touch it. everything is to protect scully. what he yearns doesnt matter. it’s that she’s safe and okay anddjfjfkskfjd

[universalsatan]

i’m only 3/4s of the way thru the first season of x-files and im already losing my mind. is this how unbearable slowburn is from the outside??? jesus christ i am so sorry to everyone around me irl LMAO. and the fact that i can See myself in mulder in so many ways (yes fine, another adhd idiot on which to project), but most significantly, that he Realizes. he Realizes he’s falling for scully halfway thru the FIRST season, but also that his lil crush is already COMPLETELY obvious to the rest of the office, apparently????? i have never been so thoroughly called out by a show,

#and also. the way they treat each other. they are so soft and caring and HOUFHFHHH #always checking up on each other and making sure they do what’s in the other’s best interest #it’s always about them. no one is more important in the entire world #it’s only halfway thru the first season. im going crazy #looking at my own situation. five and a half years of me pining #so many incidents and we’re already acting married as shit. it’s like looking in a goddamn mirror #yall this show means so much to me im genuinely going insane #and FUCK. i can ESPECIALLY see how mulder has a Feeling. he Acknowledges it himself and accepts it #but he won’t touch it. everything is to protect scully. what he yearns doesnt matter. it’s that she’s safe and okay anddjfjfkskfjd #im yearning hard cause i havent seen him in. three days. fuck. i won’t see him for a goddamn week #god. the second they started bickering. literally i recognized it as flirting. very first meeting. because thats what we fuckin do #hngngngng whelp #personal #mandont