#best fic on ao3 is a fuckign. not even original idea. its a spinoff of a different fic i didnt even write

[stuck-in-the-ghost-zone]

the mentally ill 10-note-artist struggle between never wanting to create anything ever again or creating so much stuff out of spite

#dont rb. if someone rbs this and it gets more notes than my art ill kill myself #anyway. nothing i have ever made is any good smile. i want to be creative so fuckin bad but what's the point when everything i make sucks #like #hm #best fic on ao3 is a fuckign. not even original idea. its a spinoff of a different fic i didnt even write #so like. doesnt count #idk. all my shit is awful im a fuckin fraud cwilbur is my favorite character and i cant even draw him right #like. sigh (<<is fucking useless) #'wah dont assign your worth to the amount of notes you get' is the same as rich people saying money doesnt make you happy #the only peopl making those posts are people that get hundreds of notes on any given thing #do u know jow much it fucking sucks to work for 6 hrs on smth and its not even good enough for ur friends to comment on #like. fuckin disheartening as shit and i . mmmm #i wanna delete my art blog so fucking bad but ik if i do that ill just make myself more upset #how have i been making art for like. 10 yrs bow and i havent improved at all what am i doing wrong why do i still suck so bad #its a thing where like. if i tell people i wanna delete my art blog theyll go :(( noo dont do that ill miss ur stuff #but then like. i make art snd those same people just. nothing. no interaction. i am not lookng it does not exist #the things i make are not. remarkable enough to be remembered and all my ideas are shit #so like whats even the point huh #its a thing where like. #if i just never made anything ever again and didnt say anything people just. Would Not Notice. #and that hurts so much fuckign more than anything else i think #like. its a thing where if i told them abt it theyd be like uwu thats so sad but if i didnt say anything they just. wouldnt miss it #its not. significant to anyone and i hate it bc i try so fucking hard but it doesnt Matter!!!!!! it doesnt matter at all #sigh #i think its the same thing with me just. as a person too like #if i just disappeared one day i dont think anyone would like. even think to look #theyd just forget i exist the minute i stop being annoying all the time. like good riddance huh #sighhhhh #delete later #i picked up my tablet todah and fucking cried about it lol