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tssidesfics · 2 years

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5, 19, and 43 for the fanfic asks, pretty please?

For reference so you don't need to reread the post:

5. Which fanfic of mine do I think everyone should have read?

19. Dead or overused tropes

43. Guilty pleasure tropes/scenarios

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5. I am not going to try to pass judgment on what you "should have" done. That's not productive. I don't like the phrasing of this question and didn't notice that until just now. However, the fic I'm most proud of and would really like people to read is Morality Is Grey. Most likely, though, everyone who follows this blog has already read that and is now passionately glaring at me through the screen to stop doing fic asks and start drafting.

It's just...being difficult. It's a big scene and the transition is being a bitch and I'm having to choose between creating a monster chapter that's way too long or a semi-awkward transition that doesn't entirely flow so I can have a chapter break. Plus, just...the holidays suck and I'm anxiously awaiting good news. Any good news. Literally anything. The tiniest nugget of an emotional break. Universe, I am begging.

19. First and foremost, I'm not here to tell anyone to stop writing what they like. However, I've grown...very, very tired of most romance tropes. Fake dating, Soulmate, One Bed, Coffee Shop...all of it. I recently realized I was aromantic and it gave me this stark wakeup call that I just...don't really belong in fandom space? Or fictional spaces at all? I'm not welcome. There's this passive antipathy that I run into wherever I go. I know it's not conscious or deliberate, but there's a lot of fanfic tropes that are very amatonormative and aphobic (soulmate AUs, ninety-nine out of a hundred, Hanahaki, even fake dating because it just kinda feels more realistic to me for an aro person to be looking for a fake partner to make the world shut up).

Obviously I don't want gay fanfiction to go away. God knows it's the only place we're getting our rep most of the time. It's just tiring to see it everywhere and so much. I feel inundated even in fandoms like Sanders Sides that are inherently romance- and sexless. Which isn't a bad thing. I'm not here to police what you write. I don't want you to stop writing things you enjoy, and I recognize that I belong to a very small percent of the population and most people think romance is really sweet, and sometimes it is. A well-written romance that starts as a friendship first is something I can enjoy, but usually not for the romance element. Just for the emotional intimacy and the support.

I might be inviting a lot of aphobia for this. I will block anyone who gives me shit. Unfortunately I have to say that given how many exclusionists seem to think I'm a psychopath (meaning the colloquial, non-clinical use of the term to mean someone who hurts people without emotion or empathy).

43. Basically anything that involves emotionally battering my characters? I'm also very, very, very, very veryveryveryvery fond of found family, but when actual legal adoption or the closest to legal adoption available are elements. Not just "oh, we're a misfit family that still call each other friends," like literally "this is my child/sibling/parent." No biological relation whatsoever and they couldn't care less. You are part of my plan and I will literally end the world to make you smile. That is my shit.

Also I'm going to get drawn and quartered for this but I kind of really enjoy miscommunication. It's fun to write characters being such dumpster fires they can't even communicate properly and then literally beat them into submission by making them deal with the consequences of their failures until they actually talk (AKA literally the entire MGTBW series).

#i got an ask #thank you for fueling my procrastination #i swear this scene was supposed to be easy #it's just this little bit that's difficult #after this it's hunting down quotes and writing a mental breakdown #piece of cake #but the journey...#the journey is hell

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flyingfoxofthedanube · 7 years

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Tag game

I was tagged by the lovely Stefanie / @calcu-lass, thank you! *-* (:

I’m tagging: @edythe-von-krolock

A) What does the last text you sent say? And to whom?

Text as in SMS: „Már bent” – „Already inside” to my Mother

B) What does the last text you recieved say? And from whom?

„Welcome to Sweden … blablabla” by Vodafone HU.

C) What time do you wake up most mornings?

5:50 or 7:50 on weekdays

D) Are you afraid of walking alone at night?

I’ve watched too much crime tv shows. So yes. I can be extremely paranoid.

[the rest is under the cut]

E) What do you do to relax at the end of a stressful day?

Listen to music, read fanfictions, drink hot cholocate, play with my dogs.

F) Where did your last kiss take place and with whom?

Never been kissed. I guess I’m picky?

G) Do/did you get into trouble a lot at school?

Not really, the biggest thing was when I was playing with my friend’s duck plush(?) during class when I was about 8yo and I had to give my favourite plush to my teacher as a punishment until summer. So she had it for a couple of months. But ofc I didn’t give her my fav ;3

H) Do you enjoy your job? If unemployed, are you content being so?

I enjoy being unemployed = TIME. I don’t like having no money though…

I) Do you often pick up on double entendres and innuendos?

Yes. I’ve never been in a relationship but the internet made my mind quite the dirty place.

J) Have you ever been offered drugs but declined?

Does weed count? I did decline it every time, exept once.

K) Have you ever met someone who has completely altered your way of thinking?

I guess? I think so. Maybe not completely but sure.

L) Have you ever been offered drugs and accepted?

If weed counts, then I did try it once, but it was just one small breath, I didn’t feel anything. I don’t smoke so I almost choked on it :”D

M) Tell us something weird that turns you on.

Not that wierd, but biting. I like to bite and be bitten.

N) When did someone last admit romantic or sexual feelings for you? Was the feeling mutual?

Face to face it was last summer (2016). It was not mutual – poor guy, he is still trying =( Online it was not that long ago, some random dude wrote to me on social media and wanted me to be his girlfriend.

O) What is something you have given a lot of thought to lately?

Oh. That I have no idea why I’m studying in the teacher training program. I could’ve chosen something that’d really make me happy. So, in one word: regrets.

P) When did you last swallow your beliefs to avoid an argument or confrontation?

On Tuesday, for sure. Maybe on Thursday too? Oh, and on Wednesday. Tuesday = about religion (I’m not religious, but a friend on mine is veryveryveryvery religious. Thursday = about the purpose of a class of mine that’s supposed to make us better future teachers. On Wednesday it was my view on healthy relationships and fidelity, during a talk with a friend.

Q) Do you usually initiate hugs?

Not really. I have 4 female friends that I do hug when I see them, but not always. And there is a guy (already mentioned in N) who loves to hug people and I’m always running away from him because I don’t feel comfortable with men hugging me if we are not very good friends. Girls are okay though, but I don’t initiate it. But I like to be hugged.

R) Are you a very affectionate person?

If others initiate it, yes.. After that, why not. But I prefer to be verbally affectionate, or just staying close to them without touching. But depends on the person, and I used to be a lot less affectionate towards people, so I’m improving!

T) What are you looking forward to?

Chess musical in April, Tanz der Vampire in June, Evita musical in August, and maybe I can go to Cyprus for a semester next spring.

U) Do you have any tattoos. Do you want any/more?

Nope. Maybe one day. I have some cool tattoo pics on my phone :3

V) Are you mentally strong?

Hmm. I would say so.

W) Are you physically strong?

Not yet! But I can kick real hard xD Thai boxing is a hobby of mine since September.

X) Do you think you’re a good person?

I’m not a bad person. But I know that I’m not the nicest either. Lucky me, being nice doesnt equal as being a good person. I don’t volunteer or give money to charity (what money? xD) or to homeless people (only once or twice a year). But if someone asks for help I do try to help them. I’m not selfish (only if it’s about some delicious food), I consider myself morally good. I try to be assertive and understanding, even if sometimes it requires some strong conscious control from me. So I’ll stick with not being a bad person, and maybe being a good one.

Y) Name one thing you wish you could change about your life right now.

I wish I could study something else without having to pay a shit load of money back to the state.

Z) What do you usually eat for breakfast?

Oatmeal pancake / some pastries / banana / túró rudi / tapioca puding, or whatever I can find in the kitchen.

#personal #tag #tagging #game

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