#because 1) don’t fall for the mask man obviously I use humor and irony as a defense mechanism duh

[obstinaterixatrix]

It actually was pretty tough to get diagnosed with and medicated for adhd, everyone kept telling me it was probably anxiety and nobody believed me until like five years ago I went through one of those intensive two-day testing whatevers and the psychologist looked at the data and went like Huh, That’s ADHD. then two years ago when I was On The Brink because of work I tried to see a therapist and in the first session I was hit with ‘actually instead of adhd it’s probably something else’ and then I quit my job

#my ramblings #people have been telling me to get a therapist and I’m like #haha. yeah. [still sore over last time and still not ready to try again] #like I’ve had good experiences with therapy #but I know it’s also hard to mesh with me as a client #because 1) don’t fall for the mask man obviously I use humor and irony as a defense mechanism duh #and 2) I actually already know how I feel most of the time I just refuse to say it so if someone is trying to help me process #or work towards solutions (which tends to happen a lot in therapy) #I get very. no no I know how I feel and what I need to do but it’s not time yet. #I have to talk around it and then talk about it and then acthally talk about my feelings and THEN I can do the functional thing #also I’m still on medicaid. limits options a lot. I really need to deal with health insurance.